Featuring @itsyungvan
Produced by @taurs & @prod5head
Engineering, additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
You can't relive the past tense and it's not fair
Stuck into my old ways like I'm still there
I'm try'na move past this
Grown cold from your absence
But I won't cry I'll just be glad that it happened

No I won't lie you really hurt me
Wounded my pride
Am I deserving
Of all this pain
I long for better days
'Cause I don't wanna feel this way

(yung van)
We weren't perfect
But you got me
And I thought we were steady as a
Steady as a heartbeat
Oh now you've turned into a nightmare
And I can't let you go until I've held you
But you're not here

I miss how things were better than
You didn't need acetaminophen
I know I talk to fast without my ADHD medicine
Some sounds still trigger memories
Like that loud train on Elmer's street
That woke you up at night
After you had fallen fast asleep

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Past Tense w/ yung van (Prod. Taurs & 5head)

tired out w/ noahh

im trapped in seperation feat claude (king theta)

i cannot speak or make a sound
my time is up ive been found out
he holds the key and the highground
and i couldnt save the casualties
youre getting numb while i feel your pain
i medicate to calm down my brain
something is up with the walls im insane
now youve caught me hands up and im feeling so lame

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with @ejcarrmusic
executive produced by immortal

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lyrics:

talk back
nothing short of me
fall back
the life i wanted needs
more than anything at all
something changing when im gone
i can’t tell if i’m just broken
or if all this has a cause
its all in the differential; sub-sequential results
change me like an oil spill in the gulf
my heart isn’t breakable but i know
the mood changes are taking half of the toll
that i pay when im driving past your home
the time frame isnt making sense, no i know
its all fake when i’m grinding down to the bone
i need faith but its hard to believe in ghosts

i tried to see it your way, cuz mine’s much worse
this pessimistic viewpoint just leaves me cursed
i won’t say never, cuz i won’t quit
but nothing ever changes till i’m all in

but when’s that come 
to stop the hurt 
i’m waiting for signs 
that’ll heal this curse 
it’s something that i’ve never seen before 
yet something i know i’ve been bracing for 
and i’ve got this feeling that 
i should just face the facts 
live in reality 
but we both know 
that wouldn’t be me 

i tried to see it your way, cuz mine’s much worse
this pessimistic viewpoint just leaves me cursed
i won’t say never, cuz i won’t quit
but nothing ever changes till i’m all in

i’ll never see it your way, you know it well
i tried to keep the peace here, now i’m in hell
and i can say never, i don’t give a shit
cuz nothing ever changes till im all in

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heretic w/ evan carr [immortal x splashgvng]

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@fijimar synthetic kids 4evr

all in w/ fijimar ☆ prod. jibaorockin + slayingibis + tahtx

ohh 
she think im the one i just told her im not that one
and i luh to drive her crazy i blame it on how i was brought up
i aint have no father in the crib it was jus my momma
hey at least ill treat you proper
and my money long like a doctor
if i give you all my heart baby then you better know i got ya
and i want you to win baby so there aint no point in stoppin ya
she say jai i love you now i wanna jump on top of you
she think im the one i just told her im not that one
she want me to pull up like yeah lets have some fun
and all i said waa good luck baby im not that.. damn

pass me the lighter
pass me the roll up 
im about to smoke a lil bit and get sum higher
you been tryna kill my vibe for a minute
at first i was addicted and im not scared to admit it
but now you tryna
you tryna chew me up and spit me out 
bleh
she start complaining when im pulling out 
what
dont put me down bae jus pick me up
feel like a clown when you call my bluff

how tf can i really tell who i can count on
i know ill be straight ill be good in the long run
i can see you hating on me dunno why you hating on me
go get sum money nigga
go get sum go get sum

u tryna chew me up n spit me out😪 [p. jkjmetasco]

feat. dilo, mikey, juren, noaa!, tommyboat

prod. mxjia, otaky, dilo

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