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This is my second official album called "Why Do I Even Try" I have been making this album since late march of 2022 

This was an ambitious project making it a mostly collab album with artists like Yokai Dreams, epitomeoffailure, & emptychest being bigger artists and The other artists are small or close friends of mine I'm glad we all could work together to make this album possible you all are amazing musicians and friends 

As for what this album is about it is about my insecurities, struggles, emotions, and life this year has been full of many ups and downs and music is the way I cope with it all although I think sometimes I should try to figure myself out more and try improving my life I've started the path to success whether it's through music or a job I want to succeed and be happy with my life I don't care about being famous all I want is good friends and family and to do what I love 

And one final thing Shoutout to all the producers as well they all are amazing at what they do

Why Do I Even Try

Visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryKXD6O2Q3Q
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & 2001
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: Devilman Crybaby (Anime)

Lyrics:
[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

[Verse]
I'll go berserk in the sewer
Nobody wants to die here
This situation is dire
I'm a liar
Look up and see burning trees
With orange leaves and a red sky
Scared I might die
See weird creatures start to fly
I Start to hear distant screams and cries 
Distant screams and cries
Screams and cries 
Screams and cries 
(Scream)
Trying to find what works
But I will always fall in a ditch of course
Don't wanna be like this
Don't wanna feel like this
But it is just hell
So I'm feeling it

[Bridge]
Falling down into hell
Falling down to hell
Falling down in a well
Falling down in a well
Feels like a cell
Falling down into hell
Feels like a cell

[Chorus]
Life brings hell
I'm feeling it though
Fell right through
I Know the truth
Looking in your eyes
Everything will be alright
As long as we stay alive
Hell with them x4
x2

Hell (Prod. afterlife & 2001)

mix.@Ztope
shout out @cyzun <3



prod.sorrow bringer

lyrics

swno-

All his friends tend to leave so He turn to a ghost
Pail skin pain deep in his
Soul heart broke and he’s rotting 
Like mold washed up on the 
Coast body cold yeah he’s been 
dead But he’s wishing for more
Body ache and he’s lossing this 
War yeah he’s hiding all his
pain in the inside yeah he
Left all the pain by his 
Bedside
by is bedside yuh everyone in 
his life turned a blind eye


Cyzun-

I’ve been through a lot 
Yeah you wouldn’t know
Take another shot 
Hide the pain it won’t show 
It will not stop 
So I lay on the road 
I don’t wanna talk 
So I’m muting my phone
I should go now
Isolate in my room I don’t go out
Soul empty as hell like a ghost town 
Staying up hella late like a night owl
All these thoughts running throughout my head
I don’t have no friends cause they leave in the end
Hate my brain wanna fill it with lead
Leave me alone cause I’m already dead

daunted w/ cyzun (sorrow bringer)

-LYRICS-

what's the point of love if we cant get through it together
its cold and yet the air always just feels like its December 
but i cant
even I don't talk too loud, yet its the end

I cant ever do a single fuckin thing right
yeah you hold my hand, but u do it pretty light
you say that were forever, i can feel its just a lie

but I keep holding on
*is there a point, a reason why?*

you do, this to me

EVEN WHEN I RESCUED YOU FROM YOURSELF
I NEVER, REALLY WANTED, TO SEE YOU IN HELL
I DO SO MUCH, BUT, U NEVER COULD TELL
ID JUMP OFF THE EARTH, IF I COULD HAVE YOU FOR MYSELF!

*is it just agony
living on the streets*
*cause that's how it feels when u walk all on my face! you put me in my grave!

you put me in my grave (prod. dash)

AMV link: https://youtu.be/7zqgsXxin-4
Featuring: @maesk337
Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: Boyfifty & Pizzle
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & maesk 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess
Artwork from: bungo stray dogs

Lyrics:
[Intro: Kurama SD]
It's such loneliness 
In this empty space 
I can't escape 
I'm sorry

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
Its such a lonely paradise 
Its so dark at night 
Feeling like everything in my life 
Is so fake 
I'm so anxious 
I'm so sorry 
it's so lonely 
You don't know me
U said you didn't need me
So just leave me 

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
You stabbed me in the eye
I think about your lies
Tell myself to let it go I sigh 
I just can't you should know this 
You didn't notice 
That I was lonely 
I was lonely 

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
You used me
Now you don't need me
I can't be me
No more 
No more

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
Its such a lonely paradise 
Its so dark at night 
Feeling like everything in my life 
Is so fake 
I'm so anxious 
I'm so sorry 
it's so lonely 
You don't know me
U said you didn't need me
So just leave me 

[Verse 2: maesk] 
just leave me 
i think i need a break 
would u miss me if the copper wasn’t misplaced
and i been thinking that i need my brain inspected 
absorbing all substances think its leaving me infected
wanna move out of this town, but i got no goals
so baby fill me up with something warm for my damn soul
uh, yeah coz this cycle taking its toll
yeah its lonely in these nights 
but even waking up feels so cold

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
You used me
Now you don't need me
I can't be me
No more 
No more

[Chorus: maesk]
its such a lonely paradise 
its so dark at night
feeling like everything 
in my life is so fake 
I'm so anxious I'm so sorry 
its so lonely 
u don't know 
u said u didn't n st leave me 
just leave me

Lonely Paradise W/ maesk (Prod. Boyfifty & Pizzle)

you said that i'd probably make it out
but i'm fucked, you're just way too endearing
if i grazed at least the smallest bit or ounce of luck
would her view on who i am change to clearly?

i can't afford this
deep in the forest
there have been multiple counts of me
lacking importance
oh and within the ivy
i have been poisoned
don't try to find me

beyond the water
there's a solution
but a part of me died
before i could approve it
this is so obnoxious
like, why he still talkin'?
i've had my fair share of fuck-ups
you do not know toxic

the girl in my dream last night
told me "don't you lose.."
and if i let this moment consume me
what would it mean to you?

(5x)
to you

you said that i'd probably make it out
but i'm fucked, you're just way too endearing
if i grazed at least the smallest bit or ounce of luck
would her view on who i am change to clearly?

(so what?..)

within the ivy (2001 x dead spyro)

lyrics

can’t even face me this evening when i shut the door and run
baby this feels wrong 
like everything’s undone
i put down the foot, but all that says is that you’ve won
girl it’s not my brain
yeah it’s u toxic on this one

foggy mirror, a long drive
misty fields, and a grey sky
eyes on glass, as it spitsrain
waters wet, the tears u shed were crocodile

i see yellow lines but not th same thats on th road
we’re in different times its spiralling out of control
u dont share my highs and i jus keep that on th low
its getting cold now girl i gotta go (shoutout shizu)

ill jus pack my backs, no intent of coming back home
we were on a path were i thought u couldn’t break this mould
delusion got th best of me, guess i was never told
it was written in the stars but now its more than cold

cold cold yeah its more than cold
ice shards forming on my arms and i cant feel my toes
hope ur somewhere where the logs ablaze or that of coal
ill be sitting in the outlands where its well below

i hope ur happy as u weren’t before
ill say take care while on hardwood floors
dreams of incoming meteors
oh on my chest i can feel the force

this pressures stronger coz of what u said
depressing stronger than ive ever felt
an old mossed statue
but my heart still melts
deep in th dark forest will u find urself

i see yellow lines but not th same thats on th road
we’re in different times its spiralling out of control
u dont share my highs and i jus keep that on th low
its getting cold now girl i gotta go (shoutout shizux2)

ill jus pack my backs, no intent of coming back home
we were on a path were i thought u couldn’t break this mould
delusion got th best of me, guess i was never told
it was written in the stars but now its more than cold

cold (caves)

Featuring: @failure404
Written by: Kurama SD & epitomeoffailure 
Produced by: @sorrow_bringer
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & epitomeoffailure
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork from: Horimiya (Anime)

[Chorus: Kurama SD]
I don't need you
I don't want you
I don't care
It's not fair

[Post-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Give me a time
Give me a sign
Give me a rhyme
Give me some time
Give me a rhyme
Give me a sign

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
Fuck I'm so pissed at you
I don't know what to do
I can't make no fucking stacks
Cause I'm broke as a bitch
I can't get what I want anymore ya ya ya

[Interlude: Kurama SD]
Someday's I just don't know where I belong in this fucking world
Because everybody fucking makes me feel like shit
I get angry, I get pissed
I don't know where I'm supposed to be
What I'm supposed to do
I guess that's all

[Chorus 2: epitomeoffailure]
walking through the forest
i’m not sure where i live
see the trees before us
reflecting from your iris
it’s so clear to me
that you don’t know where we’re going
cause you lie (you lie)

[Post-Chorus: epitomeoffailure]
and that’s fine
cause when i look into your eyes
i know (i know)
that you’ve been wasting my time

[Verse 2: epitomeoffailure]
nothing stays the same
and i already knew that
I've always been blamed
for problems on top of your back
but this is where it ends
you are not my friend
you are not my friend

It's Not Fair w/ epitomeoffailure (Prod. sorrow bringer)

Featuring: @nokerbforever
Written by: Kurama SD & NOKERB
Produced by: jolst & dercept 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & NOKERB
Mastered by: NOKERB
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
Some days I feel like a ghost
Feel like a ghost 
Going crazy in the back of the class 
I never thought anything 
You said was true 
So what the fuck dude 
True 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Verse: Kurama SD]
I fucked up 
I know I did
At least I didn't hide it 
I'm still a letdown 
I'm still a letdown 

Thought I was cool
But I always lose 
Nobody cares 
Who I am 
(WHO I AM) 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Outro: Kurama SD]
Think I know everything 
But I know nothing 
So I fade away

GHOST w/ NOKERB (Prod. jolst & dercept)

rest of the ep soon

mix and master @ztope

lyrics

she told me that i am broken
branches snap, the air is frozen 
the cup is poured and now i’m open
i look around, am i alone?

singgg, won’t u sing for me and pour your heart out on every single track 
u know, instead actually getting back on track
“i know u really try hardest” but like what do u mean by that
put so much time in things but get so little back

ohhhhh where r u goin?
ohhhh where u @?

a collection of broken branches (nevrfall)

Featuring: @yokaidreams 
Written by: Kurama SD & Yokai Dreams
Produced by: grayskies 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & Yokai Dreams 
Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
(Back off)
Life brings hell 
In the worst ways
Life is pain
(Life is pain)

[Verse 1: Kurama SD]
I walk through the burning path
Feels like broken glass
Every step is full of wrath 
The scars are still on my skin
From when you sunk your teeth in
Still I moved on though I'm bleeding 
at least I'm fucking breathing 
Everything is burning to pieces 

[Pre-Chorus: ]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(deep within)

[Bridge: Kurama SD]
Fighting battles 
Its a handful
I'll mange somehow 
(Somehow)

[Verse 2: Kurama SD]
Seeing red everywhere 
Nothing left here but pain to share
U stare in my eyes 
I can't help but glare 
Flames burn on
I can hardly bare 
All this pain

[Pre-Chorus: Kurama SD]
Burning trees 
And Oranges leaves
Maybe I just need to 

[Chorus: Yokai Dreams]
back off
i need to back off
from fighting battles i can't win
stand off
i need to stand tall
i'm fighting battles deep within
(Deep within)

[Verse 3: Yokai Dreams] 
act right
if i could act right
i wouldn't be in this situation
for now i need to back off
i need to back off
i think the battle's about to begin
about to begin

[Outro: Kurama SD]
I'll be right 
There

Battles I Can't Win w/ Yokai Dreams (Prod. grayskies)

Big thanks to @carlby for being on this one. Mixing this was hard, because no matter what I did, everything I did to my mix made it sound worse. It got to a point where I basically just said "screw it, it's never gonna be good enough, I'm gonna drop it just how it is" so I hope you guys enjoy my suffering xD

Like A Forest Fire(Feat. Carlby) | Prod. HeyRick

Written by: Kurama SD
Produced by: afterlife & irby
Mixed & Mastered by: JoshIGuess 
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Verse]
Fucked up on the interstate
I can't escape
From this place
Always on the high way
Pulled up on the drive way
To see my family

[Pre-Chorus]
Family
Last August
(Août dernier)
X2

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

[Bridge]
Dealing with a lot of shit rn
I can't wear no crown
I can't be what you need
I can't find anything
To help me, to save me
From this shit

[Chorus]
August gracing
I don't know why u are hating
I'm so often breaking
Your love is fading
This shit got me pacing
Got me pacing

August (Prod. afterlife & irby)

momentary 

mixed & mastered by Ally Holloway + nate2timez
produced by nate2timez
written by Ally Holloway
٩(× ×)۶
I'm still waiting on like everything, thing's like,
boy, come here
I'll make this our year
light up the street lights with the power from our love, dear
you can stay here, angel don't fear
I'll dive deep inside your mind cause it's my frontier, yeah.
we got time to be contemporary, yeah
and it'll happen, but it's momentary, and we'll feel pain
until one day life's ours

and I just want you
can we cross the borders, and claim our mind's back?
can we stay up all night till the sunrise, and think back..
to better days? :')
(no..)

crossed your path once again
didn't mean to, but i love you, and i mean that shit
i got lost again, am i learning?- i don't know.
you hate talking to me, but it's mutual,
and i can't be happy so just shut up.

we got time to be contemporary, yeah
and it'll happen, but it's momentary, and we'll feel pain
until one day lifes ours

and yeah, your presence's enough! :(
probably numb,
sleeping in love,
problems a dove,
and i can't get enough
of my ignorance
to better, days.

It's miserable..
I can't be happy,
so just shut up.

Momentary

Mixed/Mastered By Me 
-
Produced By https://soundcloud.com/prodneverforever
-
(Lyrics)
And I just need to think 
And I just need to breathe 
Letting go of everything 
Is always hard 
You just need time 
I’ll give you that time 
I’m too persistent 
And I’m so sorry 
And I just wish that 
Things went back to normal 

And I just need to think
And I just need to breathe 
Letting go of everything 
Is so fucking hard 

In the basement I drink I’m too wasted 
I try to show you love but you resist it 
And I’ll give you time 
Baby girl I don’t wanna resign 

Waking up it just hurts too much 
I just miss you come back my love 
It’s been a month but I fell in love with you x2

And I just need to think
And I just need to breathe 
Letting go of everything 
Is so fucking hard x2

When I saw your green blue eyes 
I fell in love so instantly 
If you have little love for me 
Let’s give that one more chance 
I just know it can work out 
We still love each other you know 

Just one more chance x3

i'll give you the time (neverforever)

MIjabella x Hvwkk - Clouds (Leak)

In meinem Kopf

I'm a musician that makes All kinds of music about both my life and issues I wanna talk about
If you wanna hear my new music I changed accounts here's the link https://soundcloud.com/reapers-shadow

Lonely Paradise W/ maesk (Prod. Boyfifty & Pizzle)

Kurama SD (New account in bio)

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