hbd george *recyclebin + star*

mastered by @wokely
Lyrics:

[chorus] 

scratching at my dry eyes for the last time
i know, that you despise, when i cry 
so i, try my best to, try my best to lie
so you don’t hate me for the last time

[verse]

slumped on my desk hoping that somebody wakes me up
this ain’t what u want, but that’s okay I always mess it up
haven’t slept for over 5 hours, in 5 years 
maybe it would be better if i could see clear

i been hurting myself for a while
throwing up every single day before a shower
what a disaster, i feel myself losing all of my power
headaches every day cuz i want music louder

hate going in my living room, cuz everybody thinks i wont be living soon
hate my voice so i try my best to cover it up in autotune
hate myself, i hate to loom, when that’s all i know how to do
i hate the way i think, so i hate my attitude 

[verse 2]

going down i know, that you probably hate me
i don’t blame u either, cuz i also hate me
everything i make is garbage and ez
that’s why nobody likes it lately

i been going crazy, i don’t even want to do this anymore it hurts me
yeah, it hurts me, i don’t even want to do this anymore 
it makes me feel weak 
and i can’t even stand this for one more week

it’s really hurting deep
my soul is not cheap, but right now it might be
i really hate this feeling
so can you take it please, can you take it please

[chorus]

scratching at my dry eyes for the last time
i know, that you despise, when i cry 
so i, try my best to, try my best to lie
so you don’t hate me for the last time

dry i's (killedmyself)

Cuz its cold right now
No it dont even matter if you put your sweater on me
Its cold right now
no it dont even matter if utry to talk to me

and its cold right now
no it dont even matter if u try to fuck things up
its colder now, cuz its already over
its already autumn

u ask me if my summer's great
yes it was kinda grey
i guess i communicate well
with others if i want to
but i dont want to right now

so fuck it, imma leave
and blow this bitch up
and imma shoot her heart out
and get what i want out
imma psychedelic
imma do what i want now

Autumn (Prod. Jolst) [LYRICS IN DESC.]

alone. [ft. floret][+irby]

Autumn (Jolst) Ft. silentcxbin remix

Produced by @horoshavibes & @kingtheta
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
I see it way too often
The crash and burn
As they fall face first into soil and dirt
Clearly you’re a phony only concerned with the short term
But for me

Failure is not an option
This is everything I’ve ever wanted
I’ve got no backup plan to lean on
‘Cause I never went to college
People ask me
If I regret it in hindsight
But why should I
I know that when I die
Still won’t be satisfied
At least I can say I tried

I got a vision in my mind
So I just let it out
Half the time people don’t know what I’m talking about
Since my dad died I’ve been the man of the house
My family’s praying on me
I cannot let them down

(Horosha)
I think I found purpose
In these songs I shout
Used to feel worthless but that’s over now 
I won’t go back
Won’t settle down
It’s out there waiting for me
Just gotta reach out and grab it now

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College Town (Prod. Horosha & King Theta)

lyrics: 

its such a fuckin' shame
yeah its such a fuckin' shame
how im killin myself like every fuckin day

its such a fuckin' shame
yeah its such a fuckin' shame
how i cannot get away
from these problems that i face...

and im telling u im telling u
just stay the fuck away
bcuz you dont know what 
im capable of..
and it hurts a little more everytime i push away
somebody that i love
but i know that they dont care for me...
its such a fuckin shame
yeah its such a fuckin shame

oh its such a shame
its such a shame
such a shame...

too much of my time
is spent wondering 
why i am this way 
and i know ill make
the same mistakes.
in this pain machine that i cant escape...

i cant escape...
i cant escape...

im screaming, im screaming
at the top of my lungs....

such a shame [+wisssery & splashgvng]

mixed/mastered by me
art by 4gettr
prod tied for silver 


Lyrics:

i hope you never find out from me, 
just exactly who i am cause i dont want you to leave
i think its clear to see the lack of efficacy
and your decisions clearly have an effect on me
yea i just wanna see you, im sick of only phone calls
i really miss the feelin of your skin without your clothes on
im sorry that i said that oh the medicine makes me go off
and if tied for silver made then you know its gonna blow up

i been in my head i got some shit i cant decide now
tell me to my face baby come fuck around and find out
and if you told me sooner maybe my heart wouldnt be dried out
and baby much like you i think i'd like to be tied down

all this time's let me see
that what i thought was wrong was really comin from me
and with this space in between
if its you and i then i think i'd like to dream

i hope you never find out from me, 
just exactly who i am cause i dont want you to leave
i think its clear to see the lack of efficacy
and your decisions clearly have an effect on me
yea i just wanna see you, im sick of only phone calls
i really miss the feelin of your skin without your clothes on
im sorry that i said that oh the medicine makes me go off
and if tied for silver made then you know its gonna blow up

i feel insecure about us (tied for silver)

lyrics:

mention
oh you never seem to mention
i can feel the added tension between us
its feeding on shit that i say
it ruined my day

oh, mention
i think that i forgot to mention
i’ve been feeling like an asshole of late and
i never mean to say what i say
im trying to change

i’m trying to
break down on a side street
i’m finding my footing
while the ground’s disappearing

im feeling the bricks as i fall down
erasing a chance of a thought now
maybe i should speak

decision
i gotta make a damn decision
i know u miss how it was written between us
its doesnt have to stay this way
im willing to change

indecision
im struggling with indecision
the lights have never been so dim when between us
i’ll never try to make
you stay

im trying to
break down on a side street
im finding my footing
while the ground’s disappearing

im feeling the bricks as i fall down
erasing a chance of a thought now
maybe i should speak

---

im feeling the bricks as i fall down
erasing a chance of a thought now
maybe i should speak
up for myself now
i’d much rather just see myself out
maybe i should speak

Credit

prod R3DQX

paperthinwalls:

somebody give me a sign
sick of wasting my time
feel like i’m rotting my mind
you take it all away from me

from me to you
deceive that’s what you do
believe, that i knew
those teeth you lie through

you can have this heart cause it’s broken
i wanna leave words unspoken
but the clock keeps on ticking 
already 12:25 in the evening 
and i know that you just wanna leave me
leave me, leave me alone 

epitome:

leave me alone 
i’m not gonna pick up the phone
there’s no one even home
my minds been gone since so long ago

i’ve lost control
i’m trapped inside a hole
that i dug for myself now i already know
that my fate is sealed in the void
and that’s something i can’t avoid
there’s no use to reaching out
for anyone’s help
just know that this was never my choice

brain dead at 12 in the morning
i’ll fake death just so everyone forgets me
(but i’m) still here growing mold like the flooring
my forgetten story

and there’s no sense to re-write this
my ignorance was the catalyst 
the reason, i was lost in the abyss
hoping i would never be missed
blood runs from my face to my chin
dripping down, the sirens’ sound
this is the end..

i’ll still let go so, darker and colder
i will not know, what crying on a shoulder 
feels like…

Autumn (Jolst) Ft. silentcxbin remix

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