ego (irby)

Thank you for everyone who has supported me and my friends! i will miss you flowars <3

Links-
@guardinmusic
@daddydandy

flowars x guardin x yung van - lavender dreams (Prod. charlie c)

@guccihighwaters
@killedmyself

lyrics:
check the clock, 2 am and i cant sleep
scrollin down our photo album just to see our last week
ghosts up in my bed like you were laying in them last week
counting faces in my head like what you said is on repeat
i hope you feel the same in the morning

she said its over like it couldnt be
who knew itd end so cowardly
cant look me in the eyes
guess my stare is so damn heavenly
her kisses on my neck used to show my love so publicly
i miss her on my chest
like my heart, thats where it used to be
ive sown it on my vest
crawls away just like a centipede
i always tried my best
even that just wasnt good enough
she came through to confess
locked her up and threw away the key
depression will infest
hang me up just like a center piece
eroding at my brain
like she try and put the blame on me
but i never claimed to be
the one you wanted me to be
going through the motions
but i feel fucking emotionless
a minute to get mad, then ill get back to destruction
my head is blowing up just like a volcanic erruption
im always fucking up like an nes corruption
blowing down the ounces like i blow away my brain
i get out to escape from whats causing all this pain
friends and substance i abuse
in hopes to keep me all together
cuz without them i would fucking die
nobody lasts forever

i hope you feel the same in the morning
cus i don’t feel the same way any more bitch
im a ghost watch the rain while its pouring
2am i need u but you’re snoring
i need rest prefer a death bed
i need a hollow tip to penetrate my chest
i need to leave maybe then you’d be impressed
too far gone imma sleep on the grass
i stay lone and i hate it
i hate it
but your lips 
still taste still taste them
like come back ill buy u a gucci bag
u can play ur games if u let me hold your hand
please dont 
(please dont break my heart) 
ohh please dont
well is this not enough of destruction 
my body is sick of convulsing

Follow me <3

i hope you feel the same in the morning (ft. guccihighwaters) [prod. killedmyself]

Special thanks to https://www.instagram.com/fallingap.art/ for the artwork on this <3
https://twitter.com/sayygoodbyye
https://soundcloud.com/goodbyye

Lyrics:
Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

Writing this letter so I could say
Dearest friend I hope you'll be okay
Think about you each and every day
I'm still wishing that you could've stayed
Want you to know that I'm broken
Hear the words that were never spoken
I was fine until I was awoken
A heart is so fragile when it's stolen

Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

So I'll write this note and then I'll burn it
Let the smoke carry up the words and turn it
To a message from below so you learn it
Thought I wanted death before but now I yearn it
I know you want to go
Please stay I'll be alone
If you leave from this home
Don't go out in the cold

Don't go out in the snow

Please don't leave me alone

I don't want you to go

Please don't leave me alone

why'd you have to go

@lilmoonlet <3

hello?

you call in the night why you tryin to fight me
i don't get the issue i'm sorry i'm trying
i just can't relate to your problems
how you expect me to solve them, i hope you don't think i'll resolve them

sometimes its just not that easy
(not that easy)
sometimes its just not that easy
(i wish that it could be)
your vices control you you're not seeing clearly
(i wish you could see what you're doing to me)
your vices control you you're not seeing clearly
(i need you to be, all that you can be, i'm sorry)

you call in the night why you tryin to fight me
i don't get the issue i'm sorry i'm trying
i just can't relate to your problems
how you expect me to solve them

i am only human, how do you expect me to react when you're abusive
i get that you're hurting but i'm not deserving of being your way out 
if i'm such a burden then why don't you leave
hoping you'll stay but its hard to foresee, if you will ever be happy with me
i can't keep doing this every week, i'm growing too weak, 
i think this relationship has reached its peak, i'm growing to weak
so sad its bleak

you call in the night why you tryin to fight me
i don't get the issue i'm sorry i'm trying
i just can't relate to your problems
how you expect me to solve them

problems w/ moonlet (prod.hkfiftyone)

produced, mixed & mastered by @notmorgn

woke up at 2 PM
forgot to drop my tape
i’m a stupid mess
forgot the day of the week
wouldn’t be surprised
if i forgot to breathe
stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
they ask if i’m depressed
stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
can’t tell if i’m depressed

stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
they ask if i’m depressed
stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
can’t tell if i’m depressed

to keep 100
i’m so slumped bitch
i’m so slumped
made 5 tracks 1 single week
i can barely even speak
that’s how i work
i move fast
see the fakes
see the snakes in the grass
fake laugh when in lookin at my stacks
it don’t make me feel like it did in the past
grew up
now i’m older
ps side note
i should’ve told her
that when i broke her
i turned way colder

woke up at 2 PM
forgot to drop my tape
i’m a stupid mess
forgot the day of the week
wouldn’t be surprised
if i forgot to breathe
stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
they ask if i’m depressed
stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
can’t tell if i’m depressed

stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
they ask if i’m depressed
stupid mess
my head is filled with stress
stupid mess
can’t tell if i’m depressed

stupid mess

occam's razor

Shinigami - i gave the world my heart and all i have to show for it are scars and nightmares

je ne baise vraiment avec personne

done with feeling tired 
sick and lonely its a list
all my problems fell away
when both my hands were on her hips

and i know that you got issues
but i'm better when i'm with you
if you tell me that you love me
then i guess i've gotta kiss you

i'm a loser but you trust me
i can tell you like to fuck me
are you in it for the musc
are you in it for the money?

are you in it cause you hatted
every person that you've dated
i'm alive i fucking hate it
got a life now let me waste it

inside all day, i'm not okay
inside all day, i'm not okay
inside all day, i'm not okay
inside all day, i'm not okay

take me, away
to a place where i can be happy
take me, away
to a place where i can be safe (x2)

you're breaking me down with every moment you frown
and if you tell me that you love me
i might drown in the sound

and if you tell me that you hate me
i'll just pack up my shit
i'm a broken mother fucker
with a spliff to my lip

i'd put a gun to my head
if i could find me some led
i might wander through the garage
and give that engine a rev

they say love isn't dead
but if that was the truth
why would ever single sorrow
draw me back to the noose

inside all day, i'm not okay
inside all day, i'm not okay
inside all day, i'm not okay
inside all day, i'm not okay

moi (p.xtravulous)

@splashgvng
@barrenwaste

premiered/hosted by sad chill
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBF9w0jchUM

dont you hate the part
when we start to fall into pieces?
and its a work of art
the way you walk into my room
and how u keep me awake
even when ur not around
she always puts me to shame
its such a lame relation
ill take all the blame as long as it helps you sleep at night
i hope to haunt your life

maybe someday we’ll get past it all
but for right now you can watch me ball
got your front seat on the sidelines
and i dont give a fuck if u start to cry

yeah u sow what u reap baby
ive slept in all damn week baby
im still waitin for u to come back to me

lost it all again
but ill get back up every time til i win
lost it all again
if u loved me once, u can do it again

i loved you once but thats the last time itll ever be
ill be fuckin damned if u ever again make a fool of me
wastin all my money on the drugs that keep me lonely
anxiety ridden phony
let the 9 cock back and blow me
out of this planet
and ill b damned if
any of u fuckers take the one thing that i need; its singin a song
for all u singin along
tried to love u once but now u know im done

like melo, baby (ft. barren) [prod. splashgvng]

explicit

Lyrics:
im a fuckin peice of shit, why you always gotta bitch
let me sleep in if i wanna, get the fuck up off my dick
know my mind is really sick cause i like it when you kick
-in me down cause i deserve it when i cant learn a new trick

im a dog, im a ghost, im the one you hate the most
im that toxic drink youre pouring raise me up propose a toast
this ones for all of the loosers, the forgotten, diagnosed
cause im one of you but im the king i really hate to boast

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of

i recorded all my verses, but im still dead like some hearses
and im trapped inside my body i feel like i need some nurses
i feel like i need some surgery, for all the shit thats hurting me
but im a ghost im never seen, i know that yall aint heard of me

write down in chalk, all the shit that i lost
while i run out the clock, just before it gets washed
know the year has been hard, got you down in the dark
cause the future is stark, that you 'bout to embark

if you march right to your grave
nothing will ever be the same

scars on my wrist so you see what im made of
call me a freak i dont know why they hate us
bargained a price but they must not of paid one
locked up inside must be what theyre afraid of
x2

i been living with the pain, yeah
but i know ill be okay, yeah
if you march right to your grave, yeah
nothing will ever be the same, without you

problems w/ moonlet (prod.hkfiftyone)

sadeyes