decomposing (switch)

gerrrrr on ma level geerrrrrrr on my wav.file

lyrics

feeling like dirk
fading up all of my third
pulling up, not wasting a light night 
got sewer all over my shirt 😈

this aint ur call to make 
like who th fuck u comin wit
take me back to last time out 
coz im so ceebz wit all this shit 😒

its coming back
didnt come back jus to c u, no
i can feel alive, and i can feel it grow🐸

wait, line on th phone
u still wanna play 
no coming back
no coming back, no 😱

i see light and they see gold
i dont give my name, i know my worth and i cant take u home
uh uh
weird taste i know
uh uh
but i aint digging holes😵‍💫

cant tell em that i love em back
i c th score on ur snap
still wanna com for a ride 
how desperate u rlly for that😶‍🌫️

not spending time without th mains
fuck my life up 
and this th worst thing i could do 
coz id jus see u when im in pain😓

mumboest of jumbos

im so stuck, and its pouring uh
gotta wake at 7
but i can take it jus say no to all that flaunting 
they say use yo phone like wait where th fuck we going 
minding our own business, mr big man had me stalling uh🤬

wait uh 
i could stay unti th morning uh
c now what u got nd put those bottles on the floor uh
i cant help u out if u make me show u what im storin up
walking off like clowns but i can tell u we still talk it up🤡

no no no no 😵
 
those 2 right there got me fucked up
ppl watching from th gasstation 
i gave em plenty
cuh ion even need a chorus to make sum gas🥵

bish bish 
gerrrr outta th way
i put my tent down, i put a tarp im here to stay
u wanna move me
not gonna happen not today 
i barely know u, get on my level, get on my wave
get on my wave🌊
get on my wave🌊
get on my wave🌊

wave 🌊🌊🌊(level)

the second single off my upcoming album 'dearly departing' coming out on 9/9
featuring @betweentheveinsandi
produced by @jolst
art by @/ashleydhe on instagram
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin 

or when its half mast
think about what i’ve passed
will i be forgiven?

or when im undone
will i run
or is this a new beginning?

i think i saw your star sign
projected in the night sky
i look out to the ocean
and then im back to your eyes

veins:
I don't give a fuck anymore
I would let her drown me in a low tide
these decisions assault my eyes
I brace for the waves that drag me back into the deep tide

yuh,
it gives a deep high
I guess it feel right
underwater with no sunshine
I heave a deep sigh
I'm filled with sea brine
all of my bones will rest in deep lime

but it's been nice
I hope u feel right
I hope he never leaves ur fucking side
I pray u both live long and happy lives
most of all, importantly, I hope u feel alive

its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin

dearly departing

low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

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IV. low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

both beats prod neverforever and audio clip from the big lez show (sassy)

lyrics

never get bored of this scent, yet its far from my first
put the gun between my eyes and do your worst
im breathing still, feeling im used to i forget what is real
let me tell you the deal
when hearts are involved it is more than to steal

its just a phase its just a phase ok
choosing my mood and my thoughts
im gonna start today

you were the one for me 
but your not the one for me no more
im talking bout trust you see?
it only takes once for me draw the line

ill see you again in time 
even if theres no other life

sassy mumbo jumbo

beat switch

i cant help but feel somethings missing
black and white still cant distinguish
she communicates only in scriptures
i cant decipher her wishes

she saw th blood on the carpet 
eyes grow so bright in this darkness
they point like a laser to my heart
halfway through untill im unarmed

a burning sensation in my lungs
i breathe all of this poison at once 
the words that follow break down her walls
were not so different at all

beyond / we arent so dif at all (neverforever)

SoundCloud struck the original and denied my claim even though i own a lease. so here's the song unmonetized. sorry for the delay.
"lifefuckinhatesme" track 1.
prod. metlast and 5head

lyrics:
i been tryin my whole life
to figure sumn out
but nothin ever goes right
and i thought i was gonna be okay
when you came into my life
but now you're gone
and im pretty sure its my fault
guess you couldnt handle me after all?
and i swear to god this is the last time
cuz all this bullshit weighing down on my mind

its weighing down and its been so fucking long
since i felt okay
im running out of things to say
feelin so fucked up every day

and it never seems like i can ever figure out
wtf is going on inside my mind
but im trying, believe me im trying
but i swear to god it seems like
they're always lyin
so idk why i keep on tryin
i just wanna let it go
and ion really know
why nowhere feels like home

i just wanna go, but nowhere feels like home
i been feelin so fucked up
feelin so alone
i just wish that there was somewhere that i could fuckin go
guess ill just settle for another night stoned...

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myfault. [+metlast & 5head]

beat made by https://soundcloud.com/yungrospo

yung rospo's yt: https://www.youtube.com/@yungrospo


/lyrics/

look at me girl you can see my bones
i wanna talk to you but i don't know how
open up my jaws and let out smoke
one day i might just fucking go ghost, I'm

steadily dying I'm on decline
tar in my sheets i don't sleep through the night
eyes in my windows i cling to the light
i beg you please don't let me out your sight
it's killing me slowly this shit on my mind
and if i let you in I'm scared that I'll drag you down

i need you to thaw me out make my heartbeat
I'm sorry if i had made you doubt that i love you
i swear i don't mean to i just tend to drift away
from this realm i still cling to
trying to stay sane

i can be okay if i try to
i can't tell what happened
im scared everytime i come to
this is what it's come to
let me leave
i don't wanna be the one to end you

jag har ingen annan än dig
dig
jag har ingen annan än dig
än dig

look at me girl you can see my bones
i wanna talk to you but i don't know how
open up my jaws and let out smoke
one day i might just fucking go ghost, I'm

skeleton (yung rospo)

prod branwenteeayemadeit!

breathing on sorbet
bitch i am gormet
i dig first class flights 
and i dont pay no 
i dont pay no entry price
that bitch is spice
that girl is nice 
yh i wanna fight

3g in me
4g in me
5g in me
like my phone
this shit make me second guess myself like all the time
am i seein shit right?
yea i cry at night
you keep me paranoid as fuck i think i might just die

i kinda wanna go back to when i wasnt making sense/cents at all
i kinda wanna go back to when i wasnt missing rent to ball
for my moms sake, i wish i could say
i dont miss smoking every night and every day

theres only so much i can say inside a letter cause its pricey as fuck and it wont make u feel better

3g in me
4g in me
5g in me
like my phone
this shit make me second guess myself like all the time
am i seein shit right?
yea i cry at night
you keep me paranoid as fuck i think i might just die

look out my window like who da fuck is dat
i dunno im the queen of the maw
im the queen of the hive
im the queen of this life
baby life is like a combine
shoot that boy between his eyes

sorbettt

teeayemadeit

find solace <3

mix & mastr by me 😱

lyrics

wear your heart out on ur sleeve now that ur bleeding out
there’s a lot more u will see now that ur leaving town
pressing screens, live like feins i can’t tell u everything but what u hear u gotta scream it loud

nearly accepted what i preach but do u mean it now
there’s not a lot more i can teach with that defeated frown
i can sense a force that’s tense and did i mention still affection coz the trees that we grew from weren’t from different ground

baby i’m tryna ‘scape reality 
coz maybe this life we live ain’t what it seem
ur point of view is something i’d love to believe
but when you’ve lived inside this hole so long it’d hurt even looking up to see

now
feel the breeze now 
and trees now
hear the voices speak now

i’m sorry for my point of view and i can take it back
and i’ll try help with all the damage that i caused but that
isn’t a promise i’m just not one to hold my word when the futures as uncertain as my mental (verge on the collapse)

and if i’m honest
we’re living in a lodge amidst a fire in th forest
it’s in ur gut so save urself before it’s too late i’m sure ur prolly sick of hearing all this logic
im sick cant stop it
lets change the fucking topic

fire in th_forest (yasuma)

shoutout to @fleshgolem for the crazy mix & mastr

lyrics

abuse me and hurt me but don’t fuckin love me
it’s what i deserve all this earth does is fuck me
and breaking me down till i’m one with the ground
when i don’t feel like talking that’s me calling her ugly

it’s hard when ur broken 
someone that’s all knowing 
but no way could fix up all of these emotions 
or whatever’s left 
on this trip i’ve been floating the motions are flowing but everything’s slowing me down
but when ur around 
i feel my pulse beating twice as fast and the clocks not making sound

she said do u feel it now 
no but why am i bleeding out
stopped the healing now
oh fuck i can feel it now

oh fuck i can feel it now
im losing my patience now
been taking my time, my whole fucking life and I cannot lose this now

my body is losing its function 
the motor inside isnt pumping 
im losing my care in this high numbered function
ill make everyone think that im something 
so get the fuck out of my way 
ive got too much shit that i held ‘till this day
fucks sake i love u 
this once just believe what I say

i dont wanna move forward
till ive found a new face
been farming ideas now i want the source 8

masochist (whitlen)

A final goodbye to everyone and everything…

Goodbye (For the Last Time)

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