decomposing (switch)

gerrrrr on ma level geerrrrrrr on my wav.file

lyrics

feeling like dirk
fading up all of my third
pulling up, not wasting a light night 
got sewer all over my shirt 😈

this aint ur call to make 
like who th fuck u comin wit
take me back to last time out 
coz im so ceebz wit all this shit 😒

its coming back
didnt come back jus to c u, no
i can feel alive, and i can feel it grow🐸

wait, line on th phone
u still wanna play 
no coming back
no coming back, no 😱

i see light and they see gold
i dont give my name, i know my worth and i cant take u home
uh uh
weird taste i know
uh uh
but i aint digging holes😵‍💫

cant tell em that i love em back
i c th score on ur snap
still wanna com for a ride 
how desperate u rlly for that😶‍🌫️

not spending time without th mains
fuck my life up 
and this th worst thing i could do 
coz id jus see u when im in pain😓

mumboest of jumbos

im so stuck, and its pouring uh
gotta wake at 7
but i can take it jus say no to all that flaunting 
they say use yo phone like wait where th fuck we going 
minding our own business, mr big man had me stalling uh🤬

wait uh 
i could stay unti th morning uh
c now what u got nd put those bottles on the floor uh
i cant help u out if u make me show u what im storin up
walking off like clowns but i can tell u we still talk it up🤡

no no no no 😵
 
those 2 right there got me fucked up
ppl watching from th gasstation 
i gave em plenty
cuh ion even need a chorus to make sum gas🥵

bish bish 
gerrrr outta th way
i put my tent down, i put a tarp im here to stay
u wanna move me
not gonna happen not today 
i barely know u, get on my level, get on my wave
get on my wave🌊
get on my wave🌊
get on my wave🌊

wave 🌊🌊🌊(level)

produced and mixed by brody
4EVER

[LYRICS]

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Where did you go and why did you leave?
You carved your name in my car with ease 
Rejecting Carr like a recall disease 
I’ve been making decisions I’ll regret next week
If the weddings in autumn, I hope that you freeze 
Cause lately you’re sin and I am the priest
You pray I’m ok, but you call out my name
Rest lies in your face who am I to blame 

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

Myself from this planet being here caused me agony
Too scared to pull the trrigger kill myself inside a fantasy
Instead, wish you well when i’m dead, 
Blood scattered on my walls same walls that move sideways,
That’s my new wave, fuck all of the death,
hard drugs to get me thru the days
Fuck what i said, 
That shits old fashion to me now i think that i’ve had enough
Never really done a drug if imma keep it a buck,

Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll feel okay
Reflection stayin tainted with some flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase (x2)

[outro]
Believin that I’m seein all these walls movin sideways
Maybe if I pop another klonop I’ll be okay
Reflection stayin tainted with the flaws I hate my old face
Scrollin through the shit I said I wish that I could just erase

Sideways feat. Ila (prod. brody)

both beats prod neverforever and audio clip from the big lez show (sassy)

lyrics

never get bored of this scent, yet its far from my first
put the gun between my eyes and do your worst
im breathing still, feeling im used to i forget what is real
let me tell you the deal
when hearts are involved it is more than to steal

its just a phase its just a phase ok
choosing my mood and my thoughts
im gonna start today

you were the one for me 
but your not the one for me no more
im talking bout trust you see?
it only takes once for me draw the line

ill see you again in time 
even if theres no other life

sassy mumbo jumbo

beat switch

i cant help but feel somethings missing
black and white still cant distinguish
she communicates only in scriptures
i cant decipher her wishes

she saw th blood on the carpet 
eyes grow so bright in this darkness
they point like a laser to my heart
halfway through untill im unarmed

a burning sensation in my lungs
i breathe all of this poison at once 
the words that follow break down her walls
were not so different at all

beyond / we arent so dif at all (neverforever)

mixed by me
mastered by Ally Holloway
produced by metlast
artwork by my gf <3

constantly looking towards the sky
and wondering why i’m even alive
i can never begin to fathom
why i was even put here on this earth
was it just suffer?
beyond what i could imagine?..
i’ll let gravity, grab me by the feet
to pull me 6ft deep

(oh underneath 
their decaying bodies still haunt me)

dragging me under the ground
slowly suffocating so i can’t make a sound
it seems i’ve found a new home
with the ghost around im less alone
hoping i could find a better way
to rid the world of my lunacy
looking for any opportunity
to fade away and ameliorate this world…

of me
so cold
and empty

so i solidified the thoughts inside my head
the thoughts that were telling me i’m better off dead
no matter what you said to me
6ft deep is where i fended up being
so as the light from the tunnel grew darker and darker 
my mind grew further and further away
you should’ve stayed stayed with me 
but you left my body alone to decay

(you left me alone
traversing the unknown)

ameliorate this world (metlast)

All of the time that i just wasted
Spending all of my days intoxicated
So isolated i need sedation 
Tryna get her out of my head is so brainless

Tear drops on her face 
And She Tellin me she made a mistake
I don’t really know what I’m gonna say 
I guess It was going so good till it just fuckin didn’t 

I’m lyin when I say im ok 
Cuz You keep Poppin up inside of my brain
And All the shit you said don’t hold any weight
Yeah She tell me that she me love me till she just fuckin didn’t 

With the eyes like diamonds 
Mesemerizin
Youre the one I think of when I close my eyelids
Can I kill the silence I’ve been feelin lifeless
Messin with my head and my heart she a white bitch
All you do is type but the words not vibrant 
She keep pullin me in she hot like a siren
Belive me when I tell you that you help me ease my mind its 
Kinda fuckin crazy that i had you by my side bitch

But now it’s all over 
And I can’t stay sober 
I’m poppin the pain away
And thinkin of better days 

This that drive me to the grave
And our love was just a phase
You treat me like shit most days 
It’s just gonna break me

But now you’re gone 
Every thought feels wrong 
Idk what’s going on 
lately I been so jaded 

She look me in the eyes she could tell that I’m faded
Spreadin nothin but lies you petty and faceless 
I guess Her laugh was a disguise she was plotting my demise 
I can’t tell what’s wrong could you please get me right 
Good sex forgot all the shit that went wrong
I could never speak my thoughts so I put em in a song 

Next thing that I know everyone singin along
And I swear I try my best but I can’t keep holding on 
She knows she was the first that i brought up to my mom 
Try to tell you how I’m feeling but the words are all wrong 

And i miss you even more with the time spent apart 
Said that you need healing coz your thoughts been dark
But she really scared of feeling so she told me let’s part
I hope that you get better cuz youll always have my heart 

Gotta stop scrollin on the feed
Just so I can write on a beat 
But you know he gonna spit some heat
I made 4 racks just last week what you call for
Always on my phone in case it beeps
And your face so pretty in my head repeatin 
I wish i didn’t love her for all the wrong reasons 
She say she gotta go our love was just a season 

Tear drops on her face 
And She Tellin me she made a mistake
I don’t really know what I’m gonna say 
I guess It was going so good till it just fuckin didn’t 

verse again)

this was a love story (prod. gage oakes)

paranoid ;darkout; (prod. Jolst)

find solace <3

mix & mastr by me 😱

lyrics

wear your heart out on ur sleeve now that ur bleeding out
there’s a lot more u will see now that ur leaving town
pressing screens, live like feins i can’t tell u everything but what u hear u gotta scream it loud

nearly accepted what i preach but do u mean it now
there’s not a lot more i can teach with that defeated frown
i can sense a force that’s tense and did i mention still affection coz the trees that we grew from weren’t from different ground

baby i’m tryna ‘scape reality 
coz maybe this life we live ain’t what it seem
ur point of view is something i’d love to believe
but when you’ve lived inside this hole so long it’d hurt even looking up to see

now
feel the breeze now 
and trees now
hear the voices speak now

i’m sorry for my point of view and i can take it back
and i’ll try help with all the damage that i caused but that
isn’t a promise i’m just not one to hold my word when the futures as uncertain as my mental (verge on the collapse)

and if i’m honest
we’re living in a lodge amidst a fire in th forest
it’s in ur gut so save urself before it’s too late i’m sure ur prolly sick of hearing all this logic
im sick cant stop it
lets change the fucking topic

fire in th_forest (yasuma)

shoutout to @fleshgolem for the crazy mix & mastr

lyrics

abuse me and hurt me but don’t fuckin love me
it’s what i deserve all this earth does is fuck me
and breaking me down till i’m one with the ground
when i don’t feel like talking that’s me calling her ugly

it’s hard when ur broken 
someone that’s all knowing 
but no way could fix up all of these emotions 
or whatever’s left 
on this trip i’ve been floating the motions are flowing but everything’s slowing me down
but when ur around 
i feel my pulse beating twice as fast and the clocks not making sound

she said do u feel it now 
no but why am i bleeding out
stopped the healing now
oh fuck i can feel it now

oh fuck i can feel it now
im losing my patience now
been taking my time, my whole fucking life and I cannot lose this now

my body is losing its function 
the motor inside isnt pumping 
im losing my care in this high numbered function
ill make everyone think that im something 
so get the fuck out of my way 
ive got too much shit that i held ‘till this day
fucks sake i love u 
this once just believe what I say

i dont wanna move forward
till ive found a new face
been farming ideas now i want the source 8

masochist (whitlen)

lyrics-

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i dont wanna wait too long
*too long*
ill just watch you smoke out ur bong
*out ur bong*
im getting sick of all talk
i needa take a walk


cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i wont be around too long if i stay here
say hi to the neighbor while im fried
i know shes pretty, i dont like my life
taking out the trash, while i look into her eyes

cold as fuck in the middle of the morning
waking up to ur pretty face snoring
gotta lot to do, wake up 5 in the morning
im so boring, sorry that im sorry

i dont wanna wait too long
*too long*
ill just watch you smoke out ur bong
*out ur bong*

sorry that im sorry (prod. secre swallowtail)

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