getting tired of this shit, always awake and a mess

produced by tsurreal x jkei 

i rock my at2020 like all night
i got bags on my eyes but I'm alright
and my wrist baby you know its all ice
yeah i could make 100 songs
but would they sound good?
no they wouldn't
my recordings aint consistent like my woods is
roll it back
make a new friend everyday, what love is that?
you say you aint got friends, baby thats a-
go to an event with 200 people
and you always go places
man you're really fuckin gifted
yeah you're gifted, your parents gives you gifts, and-
yet you always sit around and complain about the small things
woah woah woah
just hit that shit one more time
you're addicted anyway
your health is going down the
going, going
down the drain
theres not much left to say
i guess you got your way
are you ever gonna realize
the weight
of your actions?
are you happy now..?
are you happy now..
are you happy now..?
tell me
tell me.

u got ur way

prod. @sorrow_bringer 🖤


~~lyrics~~
fuck where’s the trust
leading lust, between us 
heating up, on the cusp 
self-destruct, blowing up
into dust
i wanna fall
(don't wanna fall)
into my own hellish spiral

fuck, gotta suffocate
just another day where i can’t breathe
out my airways
but, that’s what it takes
drowning in the sound of yourself
tryna climb the stairways

fate isn’t funny i could be dead
blow my brains out my fucking head
was it worth every second bled?
are you happy with yourself again?

co-depend, don’t forget
that i’m fucked up in the head
leavings cuts cause i’m not enough
and you won’t believe a single thing i said

i got too much on my plate
so i just puke it up & regurgitate
i do not fuck with the fate
pushing away the people
that would try to relate

trust my spirit
(where is the trust?!)
do you hear it now?
(i’m not enough)
it hurts falling down
just let me drown

fuck, gotta suffocate
just another day where i can’t breathe
out my airways
but, that’s what it takes
drowning in the sound of yourself
tryna climb the stairways

fate isn’t funny i could be dead
blew my brains out my fucking head
was it worth every second bled?
are you happy with yourself again?

i know what i’m doing, i know what i did
what i would give to go back to a kid
selfishness underneath my skin
to begin again, i would have to end
i’m a letdown, fight it off
hellbound, so fucking lost
count down, until i’m gone
ultimately i’m not what you want

(3x)
not what you want
(yeah…)

hellish spirals [prod. sorrowbringer]

w/ @sleepywater <3
prod @afterlife66 🖤

~~lyrics~~

easy to target
swear i’ve been honest
i’m still tryna rejuvenate
from the memories last august
ink drip from the ceiling
familiar feelings
to take time is to realize
what it really means to be healing

knees go numb when i reach for the shelf
there’s an old song that speaks of myself
but i’ve lost it; my subconscious 
won’t take away this blockage
it’s irritating; the way i hate it
all you are is full of nonsense

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

i’m unfair & i know it
frustration; i bestow it
i’m shaking baby, yeah i’m aching,
maybe this is punishment for the broken
the sight that i see through my eye 
isn’t blind
a sigh of relief comforted by a lie
i can’t really take it, 
the pace that i’m making is 
turning me into the me i despise

fuck, i'll turn my back on ur ass & won't
 give it a thought or the time of the day
it doesn't matter, the wounds & the plaster are begging me
“autumn, you just gotta change”
if i go any faster, my body will splatter
 yet i'll be alive, put me outta the pain 
i pick up the fragments of me that just happen
to still be in tact, even after the rain

everything i spew out
i tell the same story
bout how you don't want me
never ever want me
how comes ur all up on me
i pull u, you don’t pull me
im stressed out, can't relax
another pill, i might relapse

i just don’t get it how this life
taught revenge and left me behind
no time to cry…
cause in the end you’ll be fine

how you gonna say ur not into me
everytime you’re my enemy
i feel out of body
everytime im getting the…
drugs from my doctor
off a sedative, i forgot her
i feel like i deserve my happy ever after
i don't like it here, i like raptures
enrapture me for a disaster
i got wounds on me so where’s my plaster
in a room with me, i feel like casper
she don't touch me; i shatter
she dont trust me, i’m in tatters
i’m forever climbing up this
unforgiving ladder

wounds & plaster w/ sleepwater [prod. afterlife]

go support the boys:
@skrxwd
@unz3n 

thank u for listening <3

so, i guess this is goodbye. w/ skrwd & unz3n (nothempts)

ill try drop my remaining dust collectors over the next few weeks
thnk u to @heyzbee for carrying
lyrics

mæsk
getting tired of this shit, always awake and a mess
all of these problems i think need be adressed
bae if u do it just speak wit ur chest out
ion wan an us if its just us depressed



darkness and me by myself all i fear
well i fear for the rest 
picking up the pieces
but they’re all dripping red
restin in peace is ok if im restn wit u
inside of this death bed

i called her but no answer
only talking to myself 
i question pain but there’s no answer
i just help my fucking self

u can hide u can run but
bae your turn will come 
we all suffocate

double chorus

(main)
oh ur eyes are fully wet
and u won’t wanna forget till u die no
yeh my heart been fading slow
but its alright
now its dark
and i been taking everything to make me high
u just wanna stare, and watch me die in this bleak filled night

(backup)
u won’t take my hand, this not meant to be
leaves still fall from our favourite tree
i might lose but at least ill be free
memories so trapped in this bleak filled night

zbee
welcome to the funeral
everything is better when you don’t know what going on
start to think about life 
right before it flash by 
everything it hurts now right before I die

yeah everything hurts oh my
and look what i’ve done with my life
yeah i know i’m supposed to be at peace
but right now life is the only thing I seek

burn
everything it burns
i see myself in these mirrors
but i’m not the person the i used to be
I'm horrible

fighting back spirits that i’m not supposed to be with
i’m down here but it kinda look like venus 
every time talk now it’s seen as treason 
what i’m i supposed to do when i don’t have a reason 

yeah stuck in the deep end
despite all the fire lowkey it be kinda freezing
everybody hates me just because i’m human 
what i am supposed to do when i don’t have an option

yeah minerals they surround me
yeah in the hell fire county
yeah what am i supposed to do when i’m stuck here 
and everything wants to harm me

rest ft zbee (branwen)

prod. caves

i've been stalking you
can i be somebody new?
waiting on a text from you
but you would never get it thru your head
and my head, 
is killing me right now
while you were chilling with your friends
and you'd never fuck around
who do i trust?
probably you, but
i dont love
no 
not since kyra, and
not since kai
not since the boy across the world
world
the first one was a test run
and the second one he wanted none
if you want me you should've kept me
and i dont know why i didnt respond to you
and now i feel fucked up
i think i fucked up.
fucked up
fucked up
fucked up
fucked up

if not, then rot.

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me  

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me 

u hurt me again
fuck all of ur reasons
ur fucked in the head 
alone in the end 
fuck ur fucking treason
ur fucked in the head 
i gave you all my love
when i had nothing left
u never gave it back
so aknowledge u fucked my path 

look, the seasons changing
sunny days but it's still raining 
the look u gave me
i always knew that u fucking hate me 
stop, with all the blaming 
if u shut up i'll simply take it
ur attitude is still the same and
i know that u won't change it	


i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me  

i can't tell lies
with this cup in my hand 
i can't love life
being who i am 
the place my body lies
is where u left me
the place my body lies
is where u killed me

i can't tell lies with this cup (vyle & rxhff)

shoutout to everyone in this song ily all :) <3
prod. sorrow bringer (goat)
mix: epitome, kanashi, autumn, casperrr
master: epitome

EPITOME:

if you look into my blackened soul 
you’ll see i’ve begun to decompose 
and with nothing but a rope around my neck
i’ll hang in the gallows dead
hold back the tears you’ll shed
leave all the words unsaid
i was hanging on by a thread
it’s better off instead 
that i’m 6 feet deep beneath the surface
i’ve said this once i know i’m worthless
i fall short of being perfect 
can you show me that i’m worth it
am i worth saving?
my body’s decaying
my flesh is rotting 
i feel like a zombie
i think the ends approaching
i feel it upon me
now i know i’m not worth saving 
i’m trying but it doesn’t seem to be enough
no one gives a fuck
i don’t even know what i’ve become
(can you tell me what i’ve become i give in too easy oh the end has just begun)

KANASHI:

Ion even know what I’ve become 
shits got me so fucked up…
And pls don’t wake me 
I’m busy taking a break from life
Ion wanna be a part of this anymore 
One foot in and the other out the door 
Cuz nothing lasts forever 
So just toss me like a wrapper on the floor…

AUTUMN:

i can't tell tonight apart from all them in the past
i can speak, i can breathe, but my brain is gonna gache
if you feed off of me, hope you like consuming trash
waking up inside this bed 
is something i'd rather not have
i'm tearing at my skin
could it get much worse than this
that's the only thing i'd ask
besides when you'll text me back

CASPERRR:

don't you text me back 
please i don't wanna relapse
feel this agonizing pressure on my chest
i can't breathe,i can't eat i can't get no rest  

fucked up, over what u told me
u left and now i'm lonely 
got 5gs and smoked that whole shit, holy-moly
u really said i was ur only
that guy was just a homie 
and now im dyin slowly, lonely

epitomeoffailure x kanashi x autumndropsdead x casperrr - blackened soul (sorrow bringer)

produced by jolst + splashgvng
featuring skele 

sendflowrs:

(it’s so frustrating 
the way u say that 
u know what u want
and u still do not want me)

now it’s the winter
and it’s so cold
she told me she always felt safe
wearing my coat 
i’m still a loser 
always alone ): 
and those big brown eyes 
they always freeze up all my bones 
she shows a smile
and says “come home”
i think the day that i die
i’ll finally grow 

i’m still here
and you’re still right there
and you told me 
“shitll never be the same”
you’re a tumour, but i’m clear 
now you’re somebody else’s 
tidal wave 

(skele)

but i’m here 
and you’re there 
washing out blood dried up in ur hair 
baby don’t keep calling me i don’t care 
going out bad 
like so sad
hurting me till i crash
you’re a tumor 
need to cut you out 
but i’m here 
n you’re there 
n you tell me that it’ll be okay 

(skele & sendflowrs)
i don’t care 

(sendflowrs) 

i’m still here
and you’re still right there
and you told me 
“shitll never be the same”
you’re a tumour, but i’m clear 
now you’re somebody else’s 
tidal wave

tumour, pt 2 (w/ skele) (jolst x splashgvng)

this is not a british accent fuck u

produced by yungspoiler and daks9k

originally performed by 9tails

completely non profit

lyrics:

talking up just to talk backwards
actor
i remember when the enemies where not a factor
gotta move different cus of outbursts of my temper
i might be an asshole but the truths what matters
splatter
all my deep down thoughts get shattered
on my new reboks plant matter
and it coned out raw
smoke that spliff then wrote this song

holding in smoke face
blue man group 
loud way too loud
man it smell like poop
but enough about me
tell me more about you
did your friend text back?
did u link that dude?

treat him like a main or a strong number 2
u about to break with the weight on u
put the faith in him but he always falls thru
lately i just hope that im not that dude
u aint really done nothing bad say u (say who?)
i been getting pew pewed every other song
drop
drop bombs and support gonna cease i guess
profit increase so does everybody's needs i guess
vampires when i bleed i guess
when i fuck off now u fuck me i guess
smoke my weed then kiss ur teeth whats next

im sorry friend
could we make amends? 
its the second call 
but ima call again
im on a variety of shit
its only 2pm
bottles concious n spliff
all beside me n the whip

i want decemeber 
there wasnt as many plans
that i felt bad for missing
to really see what i can
do with these hands
do with this brain 
and the subject matter inside
u leave im working
im eager
something i could never hide
something i could never hide
no
no

i get too deep in it
mind overdrive
my thoughts override
as fear overrides my shit
coarse cough got me fucked up
with the blood spit
yuck

some_ missed_ calls_ (yungspoiler x daks9k)

whats the problem?
prod. @imcaves
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
whats the problem
i try not to think ab it in the long run
say it louder to convince myself i’m awful
i see ur face n think i’ll never pass the autumn
ain’t it funny how that works
never knew how much it hurt
put a price atop my head i got a target
thought i need more attention now i’m starving
i knew myself a whole lot less than i regarded
now ur over me w him
i don’t know where to begin

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light

suffer, suture wounds
i crushed my future; tomb
i’d see the sun
if you’d just move a bit
puncture lungs removed
tell me what u do
when night hits
everything is new again

whats the problem
isnt this all that u wanted in the long run?
i could spend my days just waiting for a phone call
but if i did then i wouldnt be someone u want
aint it funny how that works
i’ll just lie down in the dirt
u can bend me how u wanna cuz i like that
i miss how you’d make me hurt i never fight back
i know that it didnt work but yet despite that
i’m a sucker for ur love
i thought it was kinda fun

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light
i'll never

rest ft zbee (branwen)

maesk

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