g (boyfifty x pizzle)

By @carlby
Featuring @kanashisadface
Produced by @sorrow_bringer
Engineering & additional vocals by @horoshavibes

LYRICS
I can do this on my own
I don't need your influence
Got me feeling so low
Damn you really put me through it
I'm off the meds now
But I'm on the mend now
Figuring myself out
I dont fuck with self doubt

I'm on my way up
Standing on my own feet
I don't need no crutch to lean on
I should've known better than to fold under pressure
Knowing full well that I can't rely on these drugs forever

But I just wanna feel better
I just wanna feel something other than this emptiness

(Kanashi)
I just wanna feel a little bit better
Take another hit
My eyes go a little bit redder
I'm so sick of all the lies they feed me
Emptiness is not a substitute for how I'm feeling

They shove these pills right down my throat
Will they ever work
Nobody fucking knows
And I swear they just want to control me
This little tiny bottle got me feeling like a zombie

Carlby - Crutch w/ Kanashi (Prod. sorrow bringer)

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/cypression

produced by: https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161

no one to hold me w/cypression (pekarot)

Miami’s washed me up 
I had lived there 27 years 
I thought I built this up 
but I always lived my life with fear 
I’m always so worked up 
I have a feeling that the end is near 
I’m not okay, my dear 
put the car In gear and 

Drive 
so that I can feel alive 
I’m bleeding through my paper skin 
I’m shattered and I’m wearing thin 

we hit each other up from time to time 
tell each other I love you, yeah, it’s fine 
you’re with him now
so fuck me up, give me drugs and give me medicine to sleep tonight 

this pressure’s building up all of this tension 
got my heart bleeding, needing intervention 
in my mentions only looking for attention 
break my chains, set me free, let me ride and put my car in gear and 

We hit each other up from time to time 
fuck I think I need to go for another drive 
I was hoping that this was the last time 
but you’re still keeping me in mind 

Ocala called again
so I moved up thinking that I would change
I left you far behind always regret that now I drown in shame 
you gave up on me 
I’m begging on on my knees 
please i just need some peace
I’m trying to believe 
that you would come back to me 
baby just tell me that you’ll never leave 
take a couple pills to relax just so I can breathe 
I’m never finding answers in these drugs so I write these songs that I sing 

you left me now 
god I feel so left out 
I just hope you stick around 
so that I can go and find out 
If he gives you everything 
I couldn’t imma stress out
cause I failed at loving you 

and now I’m just a burnout 

yeah I’m just a burnout 
a motherfuckin let down 
I’m trynna shut down 
baby shut my lights out 
Bring the knife out 
yea I’m gone now 
when I think of suicide I always put the car in gear and

Drive (Prod. Jolst X Irby)

Lyrics:

you don't have a 
second to waste here
but me 
i got places to be in this hell dear
i'm not worried bout the scratching in the walls
and i'm not worried bout the creatures in the halls
but you
should be

oh oh oh

strangely
i'm placid in the ripping wind
mangling
another carcass hours dead
plating
the ribs and kidneys of ur man
daydream
is what i wish it would've been
baby
no that's not blood upon my hands 
hate me
that's alright with me i guess
staking
out my next of prey
aching
my conscious aching

-

all u rlly need is u
all u rlly need is u
all u rlly need is u
all u rlly need is u
all u rlly need is u
all u rlly need is u
all u rlly need is u
all u rlly need is u

i think that talk left things unsaid
i think my mailman is a fed
the fuck could u just read my texts
night shift got shit stuck innis head
when no one else is wanting u
when u've screwed ur point of view
when u've lost ur mentals too  
all you really need is you

ay
all u rlly need is u
ay
all u rlly need is u
ay
all u rlly need is u
all u rlly need is u
all u rlly need is u.

all you really need is you

wonder when the day comes
produced by @jolst
mixed by nine to 5

lyrics:
I cant seem to get this right now
But I can say that I’ll try now

I be up inside my head I'm feeling crazy
Look up at the night sky got me feeling dazy
Count up all the stars up above I'm getting spacey
Wonder when the day comes that you gon’ replace me

Wonder when the day comes
I can’t do this on my own now
I can’t do this on my own how, oh

Been this way too long
Think I'm losing all my hope now
Can’t climb out this hole
I'm ignoring all the ropes now

Don’t wanna be be saved i wanna climb the mountain
I don’t need no help
There's no one I can count on
Don’t wanna stay back
No I've been waiting too long
I'm not right but i know I'm not wrong

I'm making new chapters every page now
I'm just tryna live for day to day now
I don’t want nobody telling me how
But the voices in my head are speaking real loud

I be up inside my head I'm feeling crazy
Look up at the night sky got me feeling dazy
Count up all the stars up above I'm getting spacey
Wonder when the day comes that you gon’ replace me

Wonder when the day comes
I can’t do this on my own now
I can’t do this on my own how, oh

Been this way too long
Think I'm losing all my hope now
Can’t climb out this hole
I'm ignoring all the ropes now

I can’t seem to get this right now
But I can tell you that I’ll try now

I can’t seem to get this right now
But I can tell you that I’ll try now

nine to 5 - wonder when the day comes (prod. jolst)

another day gone to waste 
am i just taking up the space
i really feel like i’m a mistake 
i’m feeling betrayed 
because you got me this way
i knew that i should never let you stay
a fool because i’ve been playing your game
well i am done with all of charades
i look deep inside the mirror as my heart is filled with shame

i can never g-g-go back
memories from my past
keep fading into black
f-f-falling on my back
cant even take a breath
cant even relax when i’m on the verge of death
i wish i was never sober
because when i am this might as well be over
death’s hand is getting closer 
while my hands are growing colder
i’m sinking even lower
and in the distance i cry out loud
but my voice has been shut out 
why can no one hear a sound 

screaming i’m screaming, scream, i wish you could hear me

another day gone to waste 
am i just taking up the space
i really feel like i’m a mistake 
i’m feeling betrayed 
because you got me this way
i knew that i should never let you stay
a fool because i’ve been playing your game
well i am done with all of charades
i look deep inside the mirror as my heart is filled with shame

am i just taking up the space? (metlast x jang0)

CHORUS:

my eyes roll back
the skies fade to black
nothing stays the same
and i wish it wouldn’t change
the clouds are looking gray
as my colors fade away
and i cant tell what’s real and what is not
anymore
my life’s becoming a chore

VERSE:

(becoming a chore)

b-been wasting my time 
trying to find
happiness in that
that don’t feel right
how might i
survive this tragic life

(how might i survive)

i wake up and complain 
about the day 
before it’s even begun 
am i the only one
that feels this way
i cant look at my own face

BRIDGE:

to bare witness to face the facts that i just go on living the same boring shit… i cant fuckin do this


CHORUS:

my eyes roll back
the skies fade to black
nothing stays the same
and i wish it wouldn’t change
the clouds are looking gray
as my colors fade away
and i cant tell what’s real and what is not
anymore
my life’s becoming a chore

my life's becoming a chore (metlast)

prod wisssery
featuring horosha

lyrics:
another night alone got me feeling so guilty
shouldnt be here right now shouldve killed me
bullet to my head let the led fucking fill me
i dont really know who i am do you feel me x2

on the sidewalk where i lay
fall light as a feather in the winter weather
fall light as a feather
im not okay
tryna get myself together but my hearts in a tether 

horosha:
I can’t feel my hands 
I try my best to explain but the words just won’t come out 

I’m frozen in place.
Like the first frost of winter, anxiety takes it’s hold 

Cuz no one told us how to cope with this 
and every passing year’s got me feeling more selfish 
Cuz I used to dream of leaving the world better than I found it, 
Now I just wanna save myself 

I can’t believe that this is all I could become,
strangled from the lack of love 
I lay here watching the snow come down 
Let it bury me 
I’ll let it bury me 

I can’t believe that this is all I could become,
strangled from the lack of love 
I lay here and watch the snow come down 
I’ll let it bury me till the spring comes

winter weather (feat. horosha) (wisssery)

Produced by @dercept, ayoleybeats, @horoshavibes
Engineering, additional vocals, mandolin by Horosha
Art by Katie Imbro

LYRICS
All this time I thought that I was
The only one for you
And I was irreplaceable
But clearly that’s not true

Turns out you're a liar
I should’ve seen this coming
Two years gone
It was all for nothing
How could you do this to me
This was all a game to you
And I’m losing

Turns out you're a liar
And a dirty little cheat
You’ll get what you deserve
For all the hurtful words that you had said to me

So if I never see your face again
I’ll be thankful
I’ll be grateful when
You’re exposed for what you really are
(Horosha)
Someone I can't believe I trusted with my heart

All this I’m I thought that you were
The only one for me
But I had not accounted for you
Lying through your teeth

Listen on Spotify!

Liar! (Prod. dercept, ayoley & Horosha)

"brain stew"

tell me why i shiver at night alone in my room
when i think a little too much I feel my brain start to stew
to the point where if I open my mouth up they'll all come loose
I don't got a single thing to lose to tell you the truth
so let me spill it out on you before i kill myself boo
because the longer i dont talk, the more I feel I'll stay mute
all the thoughts that boil in my head they feel like a noose
i cant escape the way they choke me out while thinking of you
i know it sounds so fucking twisted when I put this in words
cuz how i feel is complicated, but what isn't with her?
I told you how she broke my heart, yeah, you were with me, you heard
I want you to hold my hand, as i go spread my wings in the hearse
I won't leave you though, I just don't know how else to express
I feel I have no breath with all this shit on my chest
you're the only one that understands me more than the rest
i feel stupid writing 'bout you, but I won't drop the pen
I'll keep going nonetheless, I cut myself on the desk
let me finish up this page, I watch it soak up the red
I put my life into these songs, all the tears and the sweat
and not to mention all my time, but fuck it all, I digress
i have a tendency to off go on tangents, i feel the devil speak
his words exit my lips, when I'm truly too fucking dead to speak
his thoughts are in my head, I'm possessed, I don't think I'll get to see
a day past twenty, I thought I'd be dead when I was seventeen
a long year later and im feeling the same way
my ship is fucking sinking im so wrecked, I scream mayday
my lungs fill up with water, when I look at her chain lace
so I can better appreciate all the air that you gave me
I know I sound like im dumb when i talk this in my songs
This shit it comes from my heart, but really, girl, really how could it not?
With all the shit that I was, and all that broke me apart
Which part of me do you love? me, or who I'm gonna become?
I gotta admit that I be confused from abuse
I swear its nothing about you, its from the blacks and the blues
but that just motivates me more to write these songs on the move
catch me up on top the moon, yeah imma take you here too
I been walking so damn long, you see the blood on these shoes?
I don't think there's hope for me, I do this shit all for you
I don't really got a future, but I want one for you
but yeah, one of these days, you know imma run from my room

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'brain stew' [prod. tundra beats]

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