GAH DAMN THIS SHIT SO GOOD BRO I CANT SGDLKJGSJLKSGJH

Mixed/Mastered By Me & https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc
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Prod By https://soundcloud.com/stezzyxl
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(Lyrics)
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[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it 

[Auby]
i came to plead again
please end my suffering 
looks like my hands are tied
in the palm of your hand
let me take solace that youll be here with me
im done with all this constant wondering
cant look you into your eyeshouldnt be very surprised
sorry that im a mess
i promise i tried my best
living in a web of lies
without you i wouldnt survive
no type of medicine could fix what is happening

[Chorus]
i always think about oh I'm just an obstacle 
no need to worry girl i know that you are comfortable 
that's how i feel and you were so dramatic girl 
don't know what's real i need to find the cause of it x2

[Verse]
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe 
and i just wanted you closer 
these lonely thoughts are getting colder 

[Outro]
and i just wanted some closure holding each other till we're warmer 
seeing all the messages saying that you hated me
 i can barely sleep at night i find it hard to fucking breathe

breathe w/ auby (stezzyxl)

you got me obsessed yea you got me feelin upset
i dont want the sex yea just let me in your head
i been feelin depressed im just tryna get ahead
i aint my in my right mind, my heart's been broke in two but I still love you
and of course i want it to work but how can i trust you
yea you left me all alone so i put it in a song
i been on the road now i been doin shows

i been goin through thangs that nobody fuckin knows
runnin up my debts yea im in the fuckin hole
i cant fuckin breathe feels like im in chokehold
lately you been so cold i dont wanna let this go
fuck i changed my mind i just wanna go home
and thats with you 
my hearts with you  

you got me obsessed yea you got me feelin upset
i dont want the sex yea just let me in your head
i been feelin depressed im just tryna get ahead
i aint my in my right mind, my heart's been broke in two but I still love you
and of course i want it to work but how can i trust you
yea you left me all alone so i put it in a song
i been on the road now i been doin shows
i been tryna grow tryna get it on my own
i dont do well when im left on my own

i been on the road yeah 
i be getting dough now
she lays under my blanket when she comes around
i lost a ton of friends when i left my home town
it be in the morning when i come back home now

i just want the sex it's scary being in your head
i get what i deserve i can never be upset
when i see your scars i think of the blood you shed
i'll make sure you become okay

you got me obsessed yea you got me feelin upset
i dont want the sex yea just let me in your head
i been feelin depressed im just tryna get ahead
i aint my in my right mind, my heart's been broke in two but I still love you
and of course i want it to work but how can i trust you
yea you left me all alone so i put it in a song
i been on the road now i been doin shows
i dont want you now why don't you leave me alone

obsessed ft. noxiousnights (irby x pekarot)

run from you feat kii. (malloy x max flynn)

produced by pekarot

back at ground zero steady wasting away
wouldn’t blame you for leaving but i hope that you stay
i won’t beg for attention or even a mention
my bloods on your hands from killing more than just tension
maybe its time to call it quits again
maybe i should learn to do something else instead
maybe i could end it and it’d all make sense
im just sick of the mundane, no break in the bend
and i know its hard sometimes to do what you want
i know its hard to love when you dont think you can trust
this side of the fence has become nothing but rust
it was all in the goodbye, left me in the dust
and you’d be amazed at the secrets i kept
only seem to find release when im high with my friends
you’re wasting your time
there’s nothing left to mend
you’re wasting your time
yeah i said what i said

Yeah I’m back once again 
I’m not feeling once again 
when u see me you don’t care 
but one of us has gotta drop our stare
I’ve escaped death himself 1 too many old occasions 
make it make sense living no medication

Guess you didn’t mean it when you said that you were tying 
stuck in side this life that feels no greater than just dying 

And I know it’s hard enough sometimes so you put up a front 
I know it’s hard enough to be the person you want  
Thriving at the end of all struggle always been the dream
struggle dragging a little longer than it meant to be 

I said I saw u leave 
don’t believe what I see
said I wouldn’t fall
apart at the seam as long as u call 
as long as u call 
As long as u call
Upon to me

and i know its hard sometimes to do what you want
i know its hard to love when you dont think you can trust
this side of the fence has become nothing but rust
it was all in the goodbye, left me in the dust
and you’d be amazed at the secrets i kept
only seem to find release when im high with my friends
you’re wasting your time
there’s nothing left to mend
you can fuck off and die
yeah i said what i said

art of losing w/ lil booj (prod. pekarot)

featuring @skrxwd
produced by @afterlife66 & @jolst
engineered by @marcdoesmusic

LYRICS
say my name
(only say I love you, when nobody's around you)
when you can
(wish I didn't want you, even though I want to)
say my name
when you feel me in your veins
say my name
(only say baby I love you when nobody's around you)

there's something missing without you
the sunlight's missing from my room
I stay up late with the blood moon
the notes I kept smell just like you
I lost the way, wasn't just you I was heading down this road anyway
I still replay, every memory just like you'd play me green day

say my name
(only say I love you, when nobody's around you)
when you can
(wish I didn't want you, even though I want to)
say my name
when you feel me in your veins
say my name
(only say baby I love you when nobody's around you)

I can't even front, I fucking miss you
telling everyone you're scared I might diss you
still upset but I just wanna kiss you
hit my line, anytime, not an issue
you don't even care
whether I'm here or there
I'll never be what you want, yeah I'm aware
everything feels like a chore, watch the rain pour
why'd you have to even up the score?

say my name
(only say I love you, when nobody's around you)
when you can
(wish I didn't want you, even though I want to)
say my name
when you feel me in your veins
say my name
(only say baby I love you when nobody's around you)

say my name (feat. skrwd) (prod. by afterlife & jolst)

It's been far too long since I got Teddy on one of my tracks.

I haven't been doing well in regards to my mental health lately, so this song paints a small picture of how I've been feeling inside my head these days.

Lyrics:

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

Explain away the reasons I can’t find my way back to the way I used to be before
You changed me, and I don’t know why
I’ll starve myself to see the ribs poking out of stomach like a sore
And I can only bring myself to cry
I don’t see a reason to be here anymore
But reasons lead to treason that I cannot ignore

I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Bloody spatter, take my hand
Razor blade is my only friend
Things that never seemed to matter
You got my heart going pitter patter

(Teddy)
My health doesn’t matter
I’ve been going too hard
See a blade jump to my skin
It goes “oo la la”
Like “oo la la”
I’m addicted to it
Like “oo na na”
Like “oo na na”
I’m tired of coping the way that I have the last couple of years, um
Starving myself because food disgusts me, I hate the feeling
I hurt myself because you won’t do it, jump from the building
Freefall, heart beats, love is an illness

(HeyLee)
I jump to a freefall, end it all
Everything that I see seems so small
Everything that I do doesn’t matter
You got my heart going pitter patter 
Intrusive thoughts will be my end
Rewind the clock so we can start again
Any of this even matter?
It makes my heart go pitter patter

Pitter Patter! (feat. teddyboi)| prod. shinju x gauge

engineered by - floret
mastered by - floret
produced by - idealism

lyrics: 
i've been on breathing right on out 
tell me that you love me right now
whatcha you wanna say go right bounce 
cause i don't feel you now 
i been all alone right now 
when you tell me love me now

i've been so broken 
silhouettes spoken
know that i care but
i've been foldin foldin  

i've been drinking to much but you know me 
everyone told that im so lonely 
smoking spliffys i don't feel but im cozy 
when im broken heart i felt faulty
at the christmas party when you all left me 
i guess i feel kinda lazy 
i don't know how to feel but you know me 
broken heart but i felt so nosey
when my brain gives out just know me 
i don't feel a thing baby what you know me 
think i found this new lil shortie 
she kinda cool but you’ll never know me 
it's been a year since you left me but i know me 
i don't feel broke but you think you know me 
when you left at your mamas party 
i been drinking to much but im fucking up my brain 
but i'm drinking that bacardi

christmas

venus (part II) [+ THERSX]

Track 9 on my album 'for better or worse'!

produced by @livingpuffy 

Lyrics:
grey skies through bloodshot eyes 
i still can’t feel a thing but at least i’m trying 
take me there to a place i’m not terrified 
can you see in my face all the black and blue i hide 
it takes a toll when you walk in circles 
working miracles just to find a new low 

when you found me 
i had nowhere to hide 
broken felt dead inside 
transparence amplified
took the long way 
to find a reason why
needing to rectify 
strung out from taking my time 
ill call it bad but youll call it luck 
meet in the middle shake off this rut 
that i’ll kick when i find my place 
when you found me 
you caught me in my fall 
had nothing left to give 
so i gave you my all 

start to think that maybe i’m colorblind 
pull the shades feel the light as i try to remind myself through the fear and doubt
what it’s like to be strong when the lights go out
but maybe i’m wrong and maybe you’re right 
that we’re not all gone to win a desperate fight
and i know that 
it’s beginning
if you’re with me
then i’m winning

when you found me [prod. LIVING PUFF]

@strivemusicau
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(TNS)
It’s hard to find a thousand ways to wake up 
When everything inside my head is a bad thought

Anxiety just fills my head
A thousand ways to just forget 

Ain’t nothing is worth it when your in my bed 
Your stuck in the sky while your in my head 

And I’m still scared when I wake up 
A thousand ways for us to make up 

(strivesad)
I miss the stars and symphonies
My racing heart and pretty things
fell apart into my memories
So can we

taste it all it’s bittersweet
It’s me and her the remedy
it’s me and her that perfectly fit with the way that we’re living

The weak sleeps as she weeps through the wasted mental
state of mind while I’m wasting time it’s either now or the afterlife
and there’s a thousand ways of saying that I really tried 
I keep to myself almost every night 

I thought that you would notice
from the fake smiles on my photos
lack of seretonin I hope it comes back so I can focus on
the things I knew that got away
The pain my mind is suffering
I wish to see more better days
and focus on recovering

I’m holding onto to hope and
All the things that help me cope with
all the stress will keep me smoking
bacco cause the stress has got me going
flowing back into my old habits
I hate the fact I’m slowly sink into my old mattress

(TNS)
It’s hard to find a thousand ways to wake up 
When everything inside my head is a bad thought

Anxiety just fills my head
A thousand ways to just forget 

Ain’t nothing is worth it when your in my bed 
Your stuck in the sky while your in my head 

And I’m still scared when I wake up 
A thousand ways for us to make up

Thousand Ways w/ strivesad. [+ flesh x pekarot]

Track 1 "Lonely Nights" EP
Mix/Master/Artwork by me.
stream on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2Shc10HH738TS9EQ0r7hDj?si=32b8b0c358ed4f69
Lyrics:
man...
i think i fucked it all up again
so much worse than its ever been
maybe you could tell me that its okay?
maybe you could tell me that its not too late?
ooooo
like its not too late
ooooo
like its not too late?

i can never rlly stay focused
on anything at all
and i dont think its somethin
that can be fixed with adderall
im sorry that im not perfect
but baby just know i try
i try....
but baby just know i try

i been tryin to find myself
but nothin' ever feels right
stare at myself in this fuckin black screen
think its gonna be another sleepless night

feels like nobody ever understand...
maybe they dont go thru the same things
that i do?

its okay if you want to leave
just like everbody before you...

i can never rlly stay focused
on anything at all
and i dont think its somethin
that can be fixed with adderall
im sorry that im not perfect
but baby just know i try
i try....
but baby just know i try

i been tryin to find myself
but nothin' ever feels right
stare at myself in this fuckin black screen
think its gonna be another sleepless night

nothingeverfeelsright [+fantom]

@whatstmm gang
email- marcdoesmusic@gmail.com
all socials- @marcdoesmusic

say my name (feat. skrwd) (prod. by afterlife & jolst)

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