i know that you care 
i know your right here 
but i cannot stop the demon in my ear 
“it’s like she can’t stand you”
that’s what they say 
can’t be abandoned 
with my own brain  
stuck in my mind 
i feel all my pain 
drive all night 
i can’t see through the rain 
swerve and i steer 
i love you my dear 
i hope you hear this 
while i’m still here 

it’s not like it’s your fault at all 
feel like i have lost my soul 
wish it could be different 
wish you could be with me 

your scared, i know 
never hurt your soul 
watch me loose control
just hold me tighter 
cause i don’t know 

i know that you care 
i know your right here 
but i cannot stop the demon in my ear 
“it’s like she can’t stand you”
that’s what they say 
can’t be abandoned 
with my own brain  
stuck in my mind 
i feel all my pain 
drive all night 
i can’t see through the rain 
swerve and i steer 
i love you my dear 
i hope you hear this 
while i’m still here 

it’s like i’m in love with those brown eyes 
they brought my soul back to new heights 
everything’s bad when it’s alright 
but everything fades when your here 
won’t you come back with me tonight 
i stop all the drugs when your by my side 
it’s like your my cure to a bad time 
so won’t you stay a little while

demon [in my ear] (prod. micheal harrison)

produced by sorrow bringer

lyrics;
white wine // decomposing pt2


fuck what could I have done
driving so fast
screaming baby r we having fun?
thats it show me the real you
girl u had my trust than you lost it
now all i got left are these drugs

sad as fuck
i write the same song everytime
i wrote down my thoughts but theyre all dumb
im self destructing will i ever been enough
ill rhyme these same words because i know it all sounds the same
im not done, i just want love
im trying to get my point across
my music is all i got
but im burning out
there was a flame but now your just busy sharpening your blade
and trap me like a mouse in a maze
than when im done playing your game
youll throw me back in my cage
it all ends the same
im something i created that i hate
i love to misbehave
im already digging my own grave
im not even 24 yet
and i already feel dead
theres nothing left

fuck what could I have done
driving so fast
screaming baby r we having fun?
thats it show me the real you
you lost all my trust
girl u had my love
now all i got left are these drugs

its been 6 years,
my bodys still rotting and its decomposing
my lungs covered in a black smog
but another night im smoking
another night i spend rolling up
i rather be floating than hoping
isn't that how i should be coping
im filling up another cup
i know im already drunk
im trying to get faded as fuck 
rather than feeling a thing
maybe theres something i can say to change ur mind

fuck what could I have done
driving so fast
screaming baby r we having fun?
thats it show me the real you
you lost all my trust
girl u had my love
now all i got left are these drugs

having fun

notes +
this is a song i wrote around 2 years ago ! i posted it when i made it, but the mix was horrible and there was an obnoxious tag over the whole song, so i've re-recorded and remastered the song to post. this has held up to be one of my favorite songs i have ever made, and i hope you like the remastered version :3

lyrics +

VERSE 1
day in, day out
to the moon, i shout
can't go a day without
all of these memories

BRIDGE 1
all of these memories (all of these memories)
the endless melodies
i can't escape the fantasy
of you here next to me

CHORUS 1
what did she do to deserve all the love songs
i cant but to sit here and sing this until dawn
when everything that forms in my life goes terribly wrong
what is there to do for my own happy ending
i just want to know what i can do for you
i know that we could be together through and through
but you put her over me there's nothing i can do to
change your mind and rewrite history

VERSE 2
delusions infect my brain, i don't know what to do
i'm sitting in my bedroom, and i'm singing about you again
i never thought this connection could've been renewed
i can't begin to tell you what i've been through

BRIDGE 2
all of these memories
the endless melodies
i can't escape the fantasy
of you here next to me

CHORUS 2
what did she do to deserve all the love songs
i cant but to sit here and sing this until dawn
when everything that forms in my life goes terribly wrong
what is there to do for my own happy ending
i just want to know what i can do for you
i know that we could be together through and through
but you put her over me there's nothing i can do to
change your mind and rewrite history



rewrite history (prod. WOLFGANG PANDER)

autumn_freestyle w/ yungcray + epitomeoffailure + wraith

prod by stezzyxl
happy halloween lol 
enjoy

lyrics:
you liked control
i let you drive  
said “it’s fine”
just to stay alive  
you loved the sound of your own lies  
i kept quiet
i don’t know why  

i made a scene in every room  
love found new ways to kill the mood  
you’d twist the truth then act confused ?
like i was wrong for being used  

you post your pain for a couple of likes  
then act above it when someone bites  
you said “i’ve grown” but i see through that  
you changed your hair, not how you act  

you play the victim
rewrite the scene  
pretend it’s art
but you know what it means  
you 
chase validation
i chased my peace  
guess both of us just needed bleh iyddsghns

i still drive by where you stay  
don’t know why just old decay  
you talk about love like it’s new  
but no one buys that shit from you  
  
you waste my breath
you waste my sleep  
the things you take
you never keep  
i gave you time
you gave me pain  
you’d do it all if asked again

SHredded LEtters INterlude (Sewerperson Cover)

lyrics

i don’t even understand why u left is it all my fault?
guilt permeates the air like i didn’t care
now im starting over from scratch why’s all this seem so fucking typical
it’s easier to breathe and stare while i go nowhere

life, keeps fucking me over like left and right
man sometimes i just wanna fuckin die 
i waste my time inside
i barely show my face
i feel so out of place
like an alien up in space
man i just want a taste of a normal life

like how’s i supposed to know
u were gonna go
a target placed on me it’s like u were aiming for my throat
throat, mine closed up i couldn’t say no more
fuck i think i passed out and smacked my head upon the floor

what was i fuckin thinkin huh
love blinded me and it’s obvious 
holdin back tears and it’s bad for us
i’m done
if i can’t count on u
then, then what would u have me do?

i don’t even understand why u left is it all my fault?
guilt permeates the air like i didn’t care
now im starting over from scratch why’s all this seem so fucking typical
it’s easier to breathe and stare while i go nowhere (2x)

typical (sorrowbringer)

LYRICS <3
(PS Love You Guys)

Novocane
Swear my heart is strained
Bite back, yeah my heart is on a race
Won’t give in, til my heart is strained
Don’t feel the same
Call back, cried in sheets of low black

You said “stay” but you never meant it
Heart broke clean, I can’t reinvent it

Sold my soul was given you
stab my neck and call a truce
if loves a lie then im the proof
fell through the snow my lips turn blue

Cig-ash heart, I can’t restart
Cut too deep, now it’s modern art
You fade fast while I fall apart
Still I wait where the wind start

light flicker when i drive too late
rain hit the dash my fate
on wait
you left me in a love
hanging in a love i chase

Novocane
Swear my heart is strained
Bite back, yeah my heart is on a race
Won’t give in, til my heart is strained
Don’t feel the same
Call back, cried in sheets of low black

She got venom on her tongue, I can taste that
Talk sweet, then she run, I can’t take that
White lies in the sun, let the rays crack
Now I’m numb, can’t feel, need a playback
One-sev-one, my heart beat too quick
Dream skip frames when I think too sick
Can’t fix love with a band-aid stitch
So I drift the pain cant sit here and mix

I’ve been floatin’ in my own decay
Prayin’ I don’t fade away
Every word you said still replays

novocane (cxrter x retz)

lyrics:

Somewhere inside the Hudson
Ive sat for a decade in Ice cold
Way back in port town suburbs
My scent still sticks to my old clothes
Ive lost all but my worst habits
You’ll be who I look for on my walk home
Rolled up in this bleach burn magic
Does this hit of numb ever get old

Another story of a boy who never grew old
How’d that truck taste
That shit was aiming for him
He said in the worst way
I will see you on road
Tell that fuck face
That im waiting for him
Play the tape back
Look at me im love struck 
I just want that back
Look what we had
Waves touch gaff
Just look at me im sea sick
I dont have sea legs
I cant swim back
Just look at my hands
The ropes burned holes in
The legs of my pants
With the force of cannon
I am no man
I was tucked down
In the bowels of the ship
In a selfish abandoned
As the weights laid
I will stay back
Sure my worst fate remains in my head
For Next birthday
I will eat cake
Sure my ship mates ive hurt are all dead
I cant believe my luck
If u could call it that but really ur just war shy
Next time I sober up
Ill face a battle that gets harder every next time

Somewhere inside the Hudson
Ive sat for a decade in Ice cold
Way back in port town suburbs
My scent still sticks to my old clothes
Ive lost all but my worst habits
You’ll be who I look for on my walk home
Rolled up in this bleach burn magic
Does this hit of numb ever get old

having fun

marsmal

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