COMFORT LIES BENEATH JAGGED PAIN

a non-profit album

I put all that I am into this project, your support means the world. I hope you gain something from this, whether it be solace in relatability or a new perspective on the themes discussed on the project. This started as a sequel to Obake and became so much more during the creative process. I think there is something for everyone here, but more than that it is a project that I can be satisfied with, creating something representative of who I am. Whatever it is that you gain from this, whatever reason you have to listen, thank you.

enjoy <3

Third Eye, Closed Shut (ft. Wethher) [prod. Chxse Bank]

produced by kenkamon (me)

enjoy, and thank you ♡

lyrics: 
high as the empire state
afraid where I go out of frustration
guess I'll go tear out
someone somewhere 

i lost all until
i doubt myself
fear the sunlight
go somewhere
tell them to go away
until I live alone
fear made me run but
i'll learn later on

lot of people think they know what's next for me
lot of people think they know what's best for me
lot of people think they know that's the best of me
pain or drugs I don't need therapy
pray tell when you have notes on everything
question all doors thats a step for me
spaced out exposes everything 

bridge, burns it all up in my mental
shit won't just go away
questioning all What's the point?
pestering all what's the point of view?
but I stayed some time ago
i should've question about what you know
less time I talk I should go home and sulk
write down her notes
and I check on my phone
ain't no one home 

but I knock another day out
shoulda gone home but I won't do it twice
i want to see me go into another light
until I know there's another side
i know what to do but no description 
fear the store I don't need prescriptions
keep my face and keep my Discretion
fear grows in offered aggression


if I'm coming back here 
just cut off my ears
ignoring again
i don't need to explain 
just to let go of friends
but they don't want to hear
ignoring what I said
i will never win
see the toll I hold
when it's not my plan
yes, I know descent
and I don't need to explain
sipping down my friends
just to slow me again
ignore my fate
and I'll never win
i thought I made my way back here 
it's the shit I said last year
and for what, to hold top here
and don't leave me to die here
spend too much time here
seems like you lurk in my dreams when I left you
see my plans didn't work out
even though I was free
once you said it
pissed off it didn't work out guess I shouldn't know once you planned it 


High as the empire state state st- st- st- sta-

Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now 
bend, break all sound

(you don't understand you don't know how it feels, truth is we really do know how it feels
maybe we don't experience the same thing, but down to the basics, to the rotten core, there is something that we share and to not allow us to get that chance can distort so many)

can't fuck up

produced/mixed/mastered by zoltar

lyrics:

well i feel fake
don't know what i want
'cause everyday feels all the same
i'm right where you want me
complacent, but lonely
i'm ashamed

i'll go for days without talking at all
confined to my room while i stare at the wall
trying to muster the courage to talk
but i'm too afraid so i'm writing it all
you think i'm annoying
well i think you're right
i feel like i know you from another life
i cannot fathom what i feel inside
forget about me, i'm just another guy

but try waking up with a chest full of nothing
my body's been begging for something of substance
this chip on my shoulder is just getting older
and i swear to god that if i had the chance
i would take back the seconds i already wasted
all of the pain that i haven't faced yet
the taste of defeat, the taste of the pavement
gotta retreat, but no one will save him

replacing my own thoughts with love, but my hope's lost
i feel like i'm reaching for something that's long gone
i'm stuck on this chapter
she's reading with laughter
embarrassed, but i'll sanctify
my struggles in little time
breaking my back trying to fix you up
i'm so sorry that i wasn't enough
the cards you were dealt
broke the heart that you held
there's no one to blame
so i'll point at myself

well that's fine
i know i can't go through that
unwind the vines pulling you right back
sit tight, address the problems you have
aggression's making me see all black
i need a heart that can function and can be patient
too bad the strings that attach are always fraying
you think i like being anxious and always shaking?
i licked these wounds on my own
don't need your saving


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red 40 blues

produced by zoltar

guitars are from splice :3

lyrics:

there’s nothing more important than yourself
your tongue is slick and saying something else
i can’t say that i even wish you well
i hope the stones you left unturned are hell

i fed your appetite
i ran out of time
i can’t wait for this
headache to rewind
strung out on your bed
you’ve got nothing left
i bore witness to
things you never said

i’m never safe
but you wanna relate
trust me, you don’t want this
itch inside your brain
you think that i’m a fuck up
but i can’t retaliate
we both know you’re right so
why do you wanna stay?

i really hate
the way you try to berate
everyone who tries to get inside your brain
guarding yourself off will only punish ones who stay

forget all the rest
i’ll go back to sleep when i’m dead
you wanted me open and honest 
but now i’m stuck lying with every breath
i’m sick of this world that i’m in
indulging in cardinal sin
waiting for another window 
so i can insert myself in

but let it be known
i’m doing this under duress
i vacated all of the premises
you can be certain that it’s in your head
you said i’m not going nowhere
do you even realize i’m there?
i’m ready for whatever comes next
my blue eyes are catching your stare

i got that envy and it’s building tall
search for a pill just to kill the withdrawal
make up your mind, please, once and for all
i hope that i don’t come off too banal

there’s nothing more important than yourself
your tongue is slick and saying something else
i can’t say that i even wish you well
i hope the stones you left unturned are hell

banal

huge thank you to @jauntsen for making this track complete

produced by lowtyde

thank u for listening <3

means of survival; methods of coping (feat jauntsen) [prod lowtyde]

prod. drmabeats x 1winrare
ft. @ruevi
mix n mastered by @daywxtch
https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/keepur/winter-feat-ruevi
amv - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5sSPa1nGRoo&ab_channel=Karmaカルマ
[lyrics]

[keepur]
lungs start to cave in
my heart begins to bleeed
i can feel the ground beneath my feet
winter is comin and all that i can see
is the frostbite reaching into meeee
theres no more love u threw it all away
your stone cold gaze is what keeps me wide awake
well fuk ur love honestly i couldnt care
you want me back well shit girl life aint fair

[ruevi:]
kiss me and tell me to suffocate
do you hate me or maybe
you can blame me
i suffocate do you hate me
tell me that im wrong baby i dont care
...

[keepur]
yea i hate the  way you still try to hit my line
dgaf so please js stay out my life
fool me once dont think u can do it twice
i gave you everything, man i was nice
all these walls are here for a fucking reason
yea i'd b dead before i let another bitch in
you aint shit yea where can i begin
now i  find myself deep within..

winter

winter ft ruevi

𝕿𝖔 𝖒î𝖓 𝖋𝖗ê𝖔𝖌𝖆𝖓, [𝕱𝖎𝖔𝖓𝖆]

𝒑𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒇𝒖𝒍

𝒊'𝒎 𝒍𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒎𝒏.

𝒊 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒏𝒆𝒆𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆

𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔

𝒊'𝒎 𝒊𝒏 𝒋𝒂𝒊𝒍

we snuck in the castle
they throwing a party
smell chlorophyll
they're destroying our garden

my soul was on fire
i took off my garments
tracing your body
it tore me apart and

don’t got no say in this matter
i'm talking
touching your skin
our phalanges they locking

both ran away from the kingdom
they stalking
holding me tight through this
village we walking

so damn bashful
i know sometimes i can be an asshole
but i promise i care
when you didn't know
and when you not sure
girl ima hold this shit down
til i'm twenty four

when the roof caved in
couldn't take it all
it’ll pass swear this motherfucker
heavy tho
can't keep putting my trust
in subliminals
i was boutta open my wrist
fucking pitiful

𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔

they put us on trial
they talking bout burning
girl it's been a while
this wound is concerning

consulting the king
he don’t want us returning
describing our fate
man this shit so disturbing

they off with my head
yea they tried its not working
i came back to life
i belong in the circus

the duke and the duchess
they mad i'm still breathing
love you i hate you
dont know what I'm feeling

so damn mysterious
girl, i know a lot of times i'm not serious
not a goddamn chance i'm oblivious
yea you know me
heart is frozen
but you warm me
baby hold me?
and now i'm so damn cold
what you told me?
bout that damn teddy bear?
told me hold it
when i start to feel scared
started holding
now my blood runneth over
God im hoping

i'm like damn
how bout you try acting like a man
haven’t heard from Thomas since 07
no i can’t
snuffed his lights out man it
hit me like a ram
head to toe in iron
couldn’t spare a single damn

𝒈𝒊𝒓𝒍 𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒊𝒕 𝒊𝒔

fell down the stairs
girl you snuck in the dungeon
cobblestone steps know it's her
you so clumsy

never thought you’d
ever come back
now we hugging
swear i hear that yellow motherfucker
steady coming

ooo
not that candy lady
or that ice man
not that little penguin
he a nice lad

i mean that lemon muhfucka
inna black suit
get behind me
i won't let no one attack you

im a villain
for the way that i've done you
still pretending that you chilling
till it comes true

am i evil?
im thinking lethal?
i know the good from the bad
all these people

think im crazy
or a user
everyday someone new
call me "abuser"

𝙘𝙧𝙖𝙯𝙮?

𝙤𝙧 𝙖 𝙪𝙨𝙚𝙧?

𝙖𝙢 𝙞 𝙚𝙫𝙞𝙡?

𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙖𝙗𝙪𝙨𝙚𝙧?

and i YELL
"i really need you here"
wanna take my heart out my chest?
baby yea
bleeding on my desk
so grotesque
is it fair?
one meal
four walls
girl it feel like i'm in jail

23 hours in this room
i'm in jail
23 years bad mood
i'm in jail
i don't got a name imma number
i'm in jail
i can't catch a full night of slumber
i'm in jail

barely taking showers
man it feel like i'm in jail
i don't got no power
warden knocking on my cell
didn't brush my teeth
man i feel like im in hell
nobody like me
man it feel like im in jail

i can hear brutus
man it feel like im in jail
why the fuck i do it
someone get me outta here
low skin fade
steady pulling out my hair
i'm not getting paid
man it feel like im in jail

(girl tell me what it is what it is what it is)

𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐𝟐

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jail

No Relation w/ Fijimar & Kennedyxoxo

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

i know i'll find another way
to feel like a whole person
i need a thousand extra days
to conjure some encouragement
size me up for now
i think i'm fiending for some sentiment
could you show me how
to make good impressions so no one forgets?

you don't wanna see me when i can't get the words out
i push away the people that i care the most about
i don't even mean the shit that comes out of my mouth
i can't help but feel like everyone is out to get me
wreck me
people love to test me
acting like i'm not worth the dog shit that they stepped in
i really hate all the people who never listen
the ones that talk a lot of shit then just act like a victim
you think i'm flirting, i'm not
i got a head full of thoughts
i'm sweating bullets and i'm starting to develop a cough
i waste away in my room
bite at my skin 'cause of you
i'm better now, but honestly, that shit was just fucking rude
how could you leave it like that?
no care for who you attract
you oughta thank your false god that these teeth can retract
i'll sink them into your knee
destroy support underneath
because i'm going for the jugular, i'm never at ease

i'm never at ease...

stop
wait 'til i'm gone
i know you're aching for something you've lost
preaching to some
get through to none
what is the point of explaining myself
when everyone listens to somebody else?
wasting my breath on the anger you held
it's all my fault and i reap what i sow
you fooled me once now that's twice in a row

knee

skin

prod by me (dawsin)

lyrics:

@dawsin :
don't care abt what u say
ill take it to my grave
i never thought that you would ever do the same
and i would never let you go

i will try to find,
a piece of myself to finally realize
what you have done
hopefully you get what you deserve

maybe if we broke up
maybe i would stay up
but i could careless
cause i know that we're gonna make up
every single little thing that u ever
did
so ill just leave it here and take my chances to dip

@1m1x :
you thought you could just leave me
left me in the dust now you are my enemy
yea, i could tell you never were a fan of me
all of that for what, cause you wanted to pity me?
𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑-
i- ill break you to your core what fate has in store for you there will be no more
this the end of you, not the end of me
i come back better and im stronger then ill ever be

@dawsin :
i lost my pride,
i've followed death's footsteps
why
why must i suffer
from someone of the likes of you

break me, will you stay for me?
once alone again
stay with me, till the end of times
my friend

Third Eye, Closed Shut (ft. Wethher) [prod. Chxse Bank]

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