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Just trying to stay young, really. Songs about aging ... or not.

Don't Want To Get Old ... How About You?

Plans made, unfulfilled
For a life not lived
We dared to believe it was real
But it wasn’t to be for us
What we grasped for a moment turned to dust
Fleeting perfection, swiftly crushed
Now I survive, because I must

What do I do with the pain
To live life again
To remember is hard
To forget is even harder
We’re together alone
I cry but you won’t
I’m weak and you’re strong 
But who will fall the hardest?

Do you remember before
The darkness came to call
And took away the dream
Now I yearn for those days
To not know, not feel this way
To be ignorant, to be free
To unsee what I have seen

What do I do with the pain
To live life again
To remember is hard
To forget is even harder
We’re together alone
I cry but you won’t
I’m weak and you’re strong 
But who will fall the hardest?

Please listen to me
I’m here and I need you 
We’re different I know
Let me in and I’ll show you
Love can exist with pain
And weakness is a strength
Together we’ll find
I’ll ease your hurt and you’ll ease mine

What do I do with the pain
To live life again
To remember is hard
To forget is even harder
We’re together alone
I cry but you won’t
I’m weak and you’re strong 
But who will fall the hardest?

Who Will Fall?

Eggshells and rollercoasters
I don’t know which I fear the most
Just waiting for the explosion
It comes even when not provoked
You sidle up to me
And bury your head in my chest
Your arms, they pull me
Even sleeping, you’re not at rest

Rollercoasters, the highs and lows
Confounding what you think and what you know
Nurture the spark, let it grow
You are my soul

Your laughter flows through me
Makes me happy like nothing else
Those who know, those who knew me
See a softness I never possessed
You’re the blinding sunlight
That peeps through the hole in the fence
Your light you like to keep hidden 
A perfect line of defence 

Rollercoasters, the highs and lows
Confounding what you think and what you know
Nurture the spark, let it grow
You are my soul

Hold tight, hang tough
You are enough
Hold tight, hang tough
You are enough

Rollercoasters, the highs and lows
Confounding what you think and what you know
Nurture the spark, let it grow
You are my soul

Eggshells & Rollercoasters

Verse 1
As I touch your trembling shoulder
I say love shouldn’t be this hard
You’re afraid to look at me
Scared I'll start
To make you talk, to make you think
Join the dots, find the link
You know that I won’t rest.. until I…

Chorus
Heal You, separate reality from myth
Heal you, be your rock, erase your sins
Heal you, starve the loss, and feed the wins
Heal you, heal you…

Verse 2
It’s not the nail, that’s all you see
So hand that hammer straight to me
You think that you've all the answers
But I know that you are wrong
So I will fight you, I will bite
I will find a way to prove what’s right
You know that I won’t rest…..until I…

Chorus
Heal You, separate reality from myth
Heal you, be your rock, erase your sins
Heal you, starve the loss, and feed the wins
Heal you, heal you...

Verse 3
I know you turn onto yourself
Silence every cry for help
Let darkness kill the pain
It did before, it will again
But I am here to disabuse you
Of that notion, of that cure
And my kindness might feel cruel
Because it’s new to you and I will….

Chorus
Heal You, separate reality from myth
Heal you, be your rock, erase your sins
Heal you, starve the loss, and feed the wins
Heal you, heal you…

Bridge
I know it’s hard to surrender
It’s hard to be helped
But sometimes you have to accept
That you can’t fix yourself

Chorus
Heal You, separate reality from myth
Heal you, be your rock, erase your sins
Heal you, starve the loss, and feed the wins
Heal you, heal you…

Heal You

I see your silver hair and your smile
So proud yet all the while
Pleased to lead from behind
You always took the time
To let us speak our minds 
So sure that we’d shine

Like glowing embers, I still remember
Love warm and tender
Home was to be near you
That twinkle, that mischievous wink
But gone in a blink
I miss you, I miss you

So many nights, by the phone
You said never walk alone
So you ferried us home
Not a harsh word from your lips
Just the same sound script
And a hug and a kiss

Like glowing embers, I still remember
Love warm and tender
Home was to be near you
That twinkle, that mischievous wink
But gone in a blink
I miss you, I miss you

Now I’ve kids of my own
I see them through your eyes as they grow
You’d have loved them, I know
So I bring you to them instead
An extra kiss to the head
As I put them to bed

Like glowing embers, I still remember
Love warm and tender
Home was to be near you
That twinkle, that mischievous wink
But gone in a blink
I miss you, I miss you

Glowing Embers

I call to talk but I have nothing to say
I just want to hear your voice
I act like I don’t have a care in the world
And that not being yours was my choice
I wanted to tell you that I can’t stop thinking
Of you, your face, and your ways
But words once spoken can’t be reclaimed
So I play the role of friend instead

False friend, there’s no end to my deception
False friend, better longing than rejection
False friend, in the order of what matters
Better dreams untapped than shattered

Your touch is accidental
But it hits like an lightening bolt
My face is a mask, I’ll never show
The feelings you evoke
Are you really not aware
Of the chaos you create
When you’re not here, I’m clear of mind
But one look and I can't think straight

False friend, there’s no end to my deception
False friend, better longing than rejection
False friend, in the order of what matters
Better dreams untapped than shattered

I rest my hand on your seat
When I travel alone
You’re a ghost in my days
Presence felt, never shown
Not a chill, but a warmth in my bones
Like a secret, comforting shawl

False friend, there’s no end to my deception
False friend, better longing than rejection
False friend, in the order of what matters
Better dreams untapped than shattered

False Friend

Feel that pain it happens when you care
Lean right in, embrace it if you dare
Dangerous days, perilous nights
I’ll take the reins, hold on tight

Life has taught you to protect yourself
To not take the fall, stay back from the edge
But love might be right within your reach
If you risk falling for me
Risk the fall for me

One step first, my love is all you need
Soon your thirst for more will set you free
Joyful days, blissful nights  
 Sit with me, hold me tight

Life has taught you to protect yourself
To not take the fall, stay back from the edge
But love might be right within your reach
If you risk falling for me
Risk the fall for me
  
Nothing ventured, nothing gained
Don’t hold back cos life won’t wait
If there’s never love, there’ll never be loss              
We’ll all be shielded but at what cost

Life has taught you to protect yourself
To not take the fall, stay back from the edge
But love might be right within your reach
If you risk falling for me
Risk the fall for me

Risk the Fall

All fab guitar and bass tracks provided by @rosarius (guitar) and Bruce (bass). 

Verse 1:
Not deep and meaningful just real
A chance is lost to tell you how I feel
As I cover up the gaping hole you miss
My smile is just a curving of my lips

Pre-chorus:
The great pretence
My last defence
You see I'm hiding
And every day
Is a chance to say
Please come and find me

Chorus:
And I'll open up a crack
Let a little sadness out
Not enough to push you back
Just enough to show you what I'm all about
Look in my eyes
And you will see this time
You knew me only half as well as I knew you

Verse 2:
As I carry out my daily work by rote
The date passes yearly without note
A testament to being in control
You assume the loss it, took so little toll

Pre-chorus:
So bloody hard
Not to discard
What won't define me
And every day 
Is a chance to say
Please try and find me

Chorus:
And I'll open up a crack
Let a little sadness out
Not enough to push you back
Just enough to show you what I'm all about
Look in my eyes
And you will see this time
You knew me only half as well as I knew you

Open Up a Crack

I'd Die Tomorrow

Credits - 
Song writers: Deadlover80 (https://soundcloud.com/deadlover80), ThomDust (https://soundcloud.com/ask0the0dust)  
If you get a chance head on over to their profiles and share the love. 

Artwork: ThomDust

Music: 
Vocals & Guitar: Deadlover80
Lead, Bass & Drums: Tainted Icarus

Mix and Master:  Tainted Icarus, Deadlover80
Production: Deadlover80, Tainted Icarus

Lyrics:
I could not see you cry through all of the tears 
I could not see hear you cry through all of the jeers 
I could not see you there because you got in the way 
I was too busy living fast to hear them say 

I'd die tomorrow

Poor Henry Chinaski 
Too drunk to read the words that he wrote 

Ain't that the way

I could not see you cry through all of the tears 
I could not see hear you cry through all of the jeers 
I could not see you there because you got in the way 
I was too busy living fast to hear them say 

I'd die tomorrow

Poor Henry Chinaski 
Too drunk to read the words that he wrote 

Ain't that the way

I'd die tomorrow

Notes:
Spoke with some one and they said "hey man,  too much typing".  Sad but probably true.  

First and foremost I want to take a moment to say thank you Jay(Deadlover80).  You have endured months of weekly updates and have been a fantastic production partner though the whole thing.  I have enjoyed every minute of it.  Honored to have your back for another great song.  Love what you do my friend!

Inspiration projects are a flash in the pan, they resolve quickly and are done before you know it. Sometimes its a crafting project and those can take a while to get through.  What we had here was a crafting project that started back in Feb 2017.  

Jay sent over the central riff and vocals and we set terms.  We agreed that this run we should push to move the bar forward.  I am sure there are moments Jay was at his wits end with me as a result

Recordings were rejected and re-done over and over looking to capture the right moment.  My recording track counts are in the hundreds in an effort to nail a take that made me say, yeah that is the right one.

Some stuff was crafted stitched in and then dropped,  things that originally sounded great until things got tightened up....then it was back to practice and recording.  In the end Jay and Thom crafted a song that deserved a musicians sweat and honesty.  We drove hard to deliver that. The cutting room floor is littered with sessions that required too much editing, were the wrong vibe, parts that just weren't going to fit.

Finally the central theme that ran through this project and I feel really good about, comes from an early conversation Jay and I had about re-recording.  "It's art, not a race, keep going until you have right take."  Think that pretty much sums up this project for me and I hope that is the feel that comes across on your side of the paper cone. 

 It's not perfect,  it however feels right and I think when it is all said and done... that's the thing that really matters. 

I hope this inspires you to learn about Bukowski's works yourself if you haven't discovered them.     
Peace and love my brothers and sisters of the cloud!
Tainted Icarus

I'd Die Tomorrow

I'd Die Tomorrow By DeadLover80 & ThomDust

I heard your news today
Felt your world peel away
And your heart was crumbling fast
I wish I could tell you it won't last

I was there 
Right between darkness and despair
And everywhere I looked, I saw what I'd lost
Taken for granted at so little cost

Chorus 
Hold those memories close
That they're all you have hurts the most
Specks of time, magnified, playing like a movie
Inside your mind
Playing like a movie, inside your mind

I can tell you this my friend
Slowly the pain becomes a little less
It never leaves, it deserves to stay
You won't give her rightful place away

Chorus 
Hold those memories close
That they're all you have hurts the most
Specks of time, magnified, playing like a movie
Inside your mind
Playing like a movie, inside your mind

Step by step by step by little step
Every day you grieve leaves one day less
Lean on me, and I'll lean on you
And maybe together, we'll both get through

Hold those memories close....

Hold Those Memories Close

BVs by the lovely Emma J

How could you do it right in front of me
You told me I was special that you'd never leave
You took her hand so gently as you dropped mine like a stone
You promised me forever yet I'm sitting here alone

Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
I never saw the change in you until we were already apart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart

What changed in me for you to see me differently
To dull the wonder in your eyes when you look at me
To silence all the compliments that came so easily
Are the promises you keep for her the ones you broke on me

Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
I never saw the change in you until we were already apart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart

The shock has faded now at last
You're a feature of my past
I wouldn't believe it
If I hadn't seen it
The person you've become is one you swore you'd never be 

Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart
I never saw the change in you until we were already apart
Cold hands, cold hands, cold heart

Cold Hands

Subterfuge - Fergus Mcpherson

Time Is The Enemy

This a song I wrote 9 years ago! I've only just recorded my debut album, "A little bit of me" which was released on 8 October so this is finally out there!

A Little Bit of Me

I Love Your Smile

Not fair, I shout inside my head
As I hear your news and sense your dread
The harder you try to fake the ease
With which you throw your words at me
The stronger my muscles tighten

The battle ground was laid before
You took your stance with ever more
Than the dignity that I can find
I'm mute of words, blank of mind
Cos I am really frightened 

We are here, we are here
We are everywhere you want us
Anytime you need we'll take your lead
We are here, we are here
We are everywhere you want us
Anytime you need we'll take your lead
We are here

Every path will be paved
With all our love that we can save
For every encounter, every day
We get to hold your hand and say
We'll walk this road beside you

But that won't help to ease the pain
That grows in force as it turns again
To ravage you and all you've built 
While those who thrive are wracked with guilt
Cos only luck divides us

We are here, we are here
We are everywhere you want us
Anytime you need we'll take your lead
We are here, we are here
We are everywhere you want us
Anytime you need we'll take your lead
We are here

Every Path

This Collaboration is with my Heartfull Friends from the USA.
Bill-Will and Melissa...together they are @november-love-680008043 
Im preciate to present again a Wonderfull Track..
Melissas  voice is soothing and trusting..
Visit them on https://novembersound.com/ it worth it..
I have try to put a little italian Disco House style and a bit Jazzy influence in there..
Vocal by Melissa @november-love-680008043
Writen and composed by Melissa-Bill and Will @november-love-680008043
Produced by @delangio 
Remixed by @delangio from "THE PANTHEON PROJECT"
Loops and Instruments by @delangio
Recorded on Lupus studio.it
Thanks again to @https://novembersound.com/ for the trust in me..
Enjoy and Dance 
Saluti @delangio

Burning Ember -The Pantheon Project Feat. November Sound

(c) Gallery Circus 2019
Produced and engineered by Matt Walch
Image copyright jens ochlich @jens_ochlich

The Night Country

Original track produced and written by: 
piKE blaX 
[AAR Music - MSO Entertainment]

BURIED TO RISE

CAN’T PLAY LIKE THIS

Can't Play Like This

Don't be afraid
Put aside that fear
As the cloudiness comes
I'll be right here
I'll hold your hand
I'll take your weight
Just lean on me
As we wait...

The years pass
The tables turn
From a life and love
That simply were
No question marks
The lines were straight
They’re crooked now
As we wait...

Like an old film reel
The images float
Past my eyes
And that lump in my throat
Makes me tighten
My hold on your hand
My cries I swallow
My tears I fan
As we wait...

Bring me back
To an airy day
Paddling in
In the incoming waves
Trousers rolled
To knees exposed
Laughter loud and
Water cold
Hand held tight
As we jumped each time
The tide pushed us
Back in line
I close my eyes
I hold that thought
As we wait..

And I promise you
I won't love less
Won't loosen my hold
Through the cloudiness
My hand in yours
Your cushion my shoulder
It's simply time
We all must get older
Don't be afraid
I'll be right here
As we wait....

As We Wait

Rooftop - by November Sound
Featuring Guy Myette on trumpet
Mastered by Tainted Icarus - https://soundcloud.com/taintedicarus 

I don't want to get old, how about you?

Yup, it's a real horn section! Thanks Guy for your killer trumpet parts! A fun time ... hope you enjoy this song about growing up. Thanks again to Tainted Icarus for his stellar mastering production! You're the best Jeff!

Lyrics:
He said, 
“I’m losing my mind here for heaven’s sake:
this boredom so real and this smile so fake.
Will I be a husband and you be a wife,
Living the remnants of what we called life?”

So I said, 
“Let’s go up to rooftop Andy.
An elevator ride, well it would be dandy.
Where’s the tallest building here in Minnesota?
Let’s get there fast, ‘cause we’re getting older.
Let’s run down to the river bank Andy.
Fill a picnic basket up with wine and candy.
‘ Don’t wanna get old. How about you?
I’ll go anywhere with you…oh,oh.

He said, 
“Look back on our life we just stayed home with kids.
All that we missed versus all that we did?
Two people here fit like a hand in a glove.
Were we just roommates or were we in love?”

So I said, 
“Let’s go up to rooftop Andy.
An elevator ride, well it would be dandy.
Where’s the tallest building here in Minnesota?
Let’s get there fast, ‘cause we’re getting older.
Let’s run down to the river bank Andy.
Fill a picnic basket up with wine and candy.
‘ Don’t wanna get old. How about you?
I’ll go anywhere with you…oh,oh.

He said,
“When I get older I wanna be
The perfect man, you’ll be so proud of me.”
I said, “Life’s not a sprint it’s a marathon.
We got time so let’s have some fun.
Oh let’s have some fu…u…un!”

So I said, 
“Let’s go up to rooftop Andy.
An elevator ride, well it would be dandy.
Where’s the tallest building here in Minnesota?
Let’s get there fast, ‘cause we’re getting older.
Let’s run down to the river bank Andy.
Fill a picnic basket up with wine and candy.
‘ Don’t wanna get old. How about you?
I’ll go anywhere with you…oh,oh.

“Let’s go up to rooftop Andy.
An elevator ride, well it would be dandy.
‘ Don’t wanna get old. How about you?
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“Let’s go up to rooftop Andy.
An elevator ride, well it would be dandy.
Let’s get there fast, ‘cause we’re getting older.
Quick, what’s the capital of Minnesota?

Bills note: You ever meet those couples that stay together just for the kids? We've had some friends go down that road.
Did you ever hit 30, 35, 40, 45 years old ,etc.. and ask yourself what is the point in all this? What am I doing with my life? Yeah, maybe...
Are you the positive or the negative person in the relationship? A guy who sees it in the negative and a girl who says, "don't give up yet." 

If you actually read this far then God bless you! You are very important to us! 

Here we are a family living out in the woods of New England and people all around the world take some time to listen to our music. Some people actually like it. How cool is that?

Rooftop - ft. Guy Myette trumpet, mastered by Tainted Icarus

I am numb
I’ve forgotten how to feel
I have become
An impenetrable shell of steel
I won’t succumb
To their appeals
They beat their drums
But I will not reveal

What goes on inside my head
I won’t be drawn, I can’t be read
And I have no more tears to shed 
My oath is etched upon your grave
I won’t let go, I won’t be saved

I am alone
It’s best that way
I ignore the phone
I have no words today
If they think that I’m not home
Maybe they’ll go away
Cos they just want to know
What I cannot say 'bout

What goes on inside my head
I won’t be drawn, I can’t be read
And I have no more tears to shed 
My oath is etched upon your grave
I won’t let go, I won’t be saved

My words are only mine to hear
I made a promise I will keep
I close my eyes and you’re with me
For now I've everything I need

What goes on inside my head
My vision’s dull, my passion’s dead
I have no heart, I’ve stone instead
My oath is etched upon your grave
I won’t let go, I won’t be saved

No More Tears

There are no words that I can say
To take the pain away
I write a phrase and hit delete
I write again, and then repeat

What do you say to someone who's lost everything
What do you say when there's nothing left to fight
I want to scream but there's no one to scream at
There must be someone to blame, right?

You turn to me for comfort and strength 
And I fail to give you what you expect
Soothing words turn to dust on my lips
Consolation I cannot give

What do you say to someone who's lost everything
What do you say when there's nothing left to fight
I want to scream but there's no one to scream at
There must be someone to blame, right?

Those who say everything happens for a reason
Should stay the hell away from me
Cos in a world full of madmen and villains
Why take the gentle and let the monsters run free

What do you say to someone who's lost everything
What do you say when there's nothing left to fight
I want to scream but there's no one to scream at
There must be someone to blame, right?

What Do You Say?

I'd go anywhere in the world for you
I'd abandon best laid plans for you
Maybe do the things I thought I couldn't do
To be with you

I'm like putty in your hands
I relish your demands
And welcome every feeling you invite 
I'm enthralled and I'm transfixed
Love never felt like this
So maybe this time we got it right

I'd go anywhere in the world for you
I'd abandon best laid plans for you
Maybe do the things I thought I couldn't do
To be with you

I told you once in a flash of truth
I love the bones of you
With such intensity it almost hurts
And I still feel the same
I'm like a moth to your flame
And I don't care if I burn

I'd go anywhere in the world for you
I'd abandon best laid plans for you
Maybe do the things I thought I couldn't do
To be with you

Be With You

All songs on channel are original and copyright of Karen O'Mahony (c). 

You'll find me also here in my collaboration project with Johan Alm https://soundcloud.com/ashesfordreams

As We Wait

monno