lyrics

if theres a light she gon snuff it out
if theres a heart she gon rip it out
brick walls and a mattress on the basement floor
the worst part is i bet she didnt even think at all
think to call
think to care
would u even care
u got skeletons theyre hiding underneath the stairs
she got patience for everyone but me
im just stating facts
we wasnt meant to last

if theres a light she gon snuff it out
if theres a heart she gon rip it out
and im just cold waiting for the sound
dont hmu if ur back in town

1000 miles from ur house thats up the mountains
we say our parts and the tears come like a fountain
broken hearts keep a list cus she been counting 
my head is sore could u try and keep it down
i been moving on
think im going strong
but the damage has been done
and it was fucking wrong
ay i put i on faith
u wont recognize my face
too much has fucking changed
and i dont look the same anymore

and if theres a light she gon snuff it out
if theres a heart she gon rip it out
im just cold waiting for the sound
dont hmu if ur back in town

i dont look the same anymore (pekarot)

chapter ii

produced by ztope
completely non profit

lyrics 

dragged by our feet
through the snow
the watchman saved our lives
and welcomed to his home
he has advice to give
he thought you needed some
this is no way to live
what have we become

the watchman lives to keep his lantern lit
he smells of edelwood and cigarettes
inside the forest you won't meet your death
beware the beast
this innocence is on his breath

he said they will turn on us
and we will burn to dust
we will get lost inside the forest
either one of us
so are you scared of us
cus we were left to rust
u think you care that much
this is what's left of us

don't let your mind disconnect 
from the world that you been living in
no I'm alright in the forest 
I'm at peace with all the denizens 
so keep your eyes on the track 
tho I know they feel like wandering
no I'm alright: it's an act
you just can't let doubt start setting in
several souls I know
well they left years ago
they took the lonely road
and they got lost in hope
so I'm a lonely rope
she left a lonely note
this is our only home
you're all I have to hold

decks

well I was born in blood and guts but who was counting
spoilt what I thought was mine to drown in
hold ur breath for as long as it's allowing 
the last of us are here for u
but now's it's go
go sleep in the snow
wake up to visions I'll never remember
I know now
where do we go
sickened and feeling ur losing ur tether 
it's part of the path that we take
born into hate and decay
everyone here is the same
look at the mess that we made

several souls I know
well they were once my home
they found a new one tho
and they got lost in the snow
so im your only hope
it's hard to let them go
I wish I'd never known
but now on forced to cope

betweentheveinsandi 

he said they would turn on us
and we would burn to dust
we will get lost inside the forest
either one of us
so are u scared of us?
cus we were left to rust?
u think u care that much.
this is what's left of us.


left of us ft. decks (ztope)

by the graves in the dark
*hold my hand*
i cant see, not even spark
on this land, fall apart

i just played you, im not smart
dripping faucets, hear the bark
from the dogs
in the old mans house

nothing's ever worse than getting high
yeah i said it right
laying down
my gaves been settled there
on my house
in my dreams, i just lay there
every night
i swear it comes back, daily and im 
ripped apart!

you could never tell, 
*that i been there*
yeah i hear all of the stories that ur telling them
everyone whos me, knows that im nothing like that
ur garbage human being, and there's no coming back

i just wanted die, good thing you'd never understand
i know i got too close to it, the days were running thin
outt line
really outta time

running through the trees, yeah im running through the breeze
now its set, im crying help!
no one ever talks now
this shi*s like poetry, im just tryna help myself. 

im just tryna walk my way out of this hell
im just tryna make a name to feed myself
the photos never really cut it, its an act im sorry please
dont just cut me off cause im not rich as i seemed
blood all on  my sheets
you name keeps ringing back amongst the graves, i just need to find some peace, oh well

nothing's ever worse than getting high
yeah i said it right
laying down
my gaves been settled there
on my house
in my dreams, i just lay there
every night
i swear it comes back, daily and im 
ripped apart!

you could never tell, 
*that i been there*
yeah i hear all of the stories that ur telling them
everyone whos me, knows that im nothing like that
ur garbage human being, and there's no coming back

grave 2 (prod. AsharpTheOne)

lyrics:

we sang this song in the shower too many months back
a memory and an hour ill never get back
pour me up in this cup cause thats a quick hack
for erasing these flashes my brain will still track

told you if it didnt work, youd be all my songs
told you im obsessed you didnt see it you were dead wrong
now im in this room just sipping steady so im headstrong
its my medication and its cheap id rather be gone

cause he’s touching your hair, got his hand on your hips
and he looks in your eyes, got your taste on his lips
so now im trying to sleep, but this is all i can see
im tryna get so fucked up, somebody hand me the bleach

im tryna bury myself, im tryna burn through my mind
i wanna black out the vision of you in bed every night
like is he better than me, and does he do what i dont
im sure youre glad as can be, while i just lay here and smoke

i just lay here and smoke
i just lay here and smoke

bacardi on the floor always spill some
soak it with my skin just to feel sumn
my night aint even started its a killer one
im faded out my mind and im not even done

i wanted to end it, i wanted to go back
i wanted to do it all over the way that it was when i knew that
nothing was changing, we all stay the same please
dont forget me forget it its okay im drunk on the daily

cause he’s touching your hair, got his hand on your hips
and he looks in your eyes, got your taste on his lips
so now im trying to sleep, but this is all i can see
im tryna get so fucked up, somebody hand me the bleach

im tryna bury myself, im tryna burn through my mind
i wanna black out the vision of you in bed every night
like is he better than me, and does he do what i dont
im sure youre glad as can be, while i just throw up the most

ive ever seen
now im seeing green
now its turning to black
ill just lay on my back

Obsessed

obsessed

Lyrics:

it makes me nauseous
i think of her with him and him with her
and honest
i can't see you with any other person
the way you disregard me makes me feel so worthless
-
at 11 i was flirting with adults on some porn shit
at 13 i was watching that brutal bestgore shit
from 17 to 20 living life as a shut in
my deadbeat dad fucked a whore and i lost it
you can't try now think i'm jus gon ignore it
spent nearly 5 digits for a sense of importance

i've done it all 
but go through the motions
and life's on my plate
so i’m sorry i forfeit
-
i don't need your help
i just need a purpose

what the hell am i doing
i spend my life in a sorrow and i don't try to improve it
knockin off my early death goals n to do lists
can't die at 23 and say that i didn't do shit

i never fuckin try cuz i'm jus scared of losing
thoughts of suicide and the sky got a hue it's
blood red i admire the view
and as life rolls forth i'll keep on chugging the music
i think i love you
but i don't like the way you treat me when it comes to us two
i don't really wanna fuck
i just wanna fall in love
i just wanna be someone ur used to

it makes me nauseous
i think of her with him and him with her
and honest
i can't see you with any other person
the way you disregard me makes me feel so worthless
-
at 11 i was flirting with adults on some porn shit
at 13 i was watching that brutal bestgore shit
from 17 to 20 living life as a shut in
my deadbeat dad fucked a whore and i lost it
you can't try now think i'm jus gon ignore it
spent nearly 5 digits for a sense of importance

i've done it all 
but go through the motions
and life's on my plate
so i’m sorry i forfeit
-
i don't need your help
i just need a purpose

what the hell am i doing
i spend my life in a sorrow and i don't try to improve it
knockin off my early death goals n to do lists
can't die at 23 and say that i didn't do shit

i never fuckin try cuz i'm jus scared of losing
thoughts of suicide and the sky got a hue it's
blood red i admire the view
and as life rolls forth i'll keep on chugging the music
i think i love you
but i don't like the way you treat me when it comes to us two
i don't really wanna fuck
i just wanna fall in love
i just wanna be someone ur used to

nauseous (apc)

@brecken killed this

**lyrics**
(intro)
i cant even text you
you stay in my mind, like all of the time
but i cant bring myself to text you
you say that you're open to talk, but I'm not that open at all
and i just been stuck in my mind, baby you know that i try

(hook)
why my heart sink like this
why my brain think like this
tell me why i break like this
tell me why i crave your bliss
cause' i can't really take this shit
x2

(Verse)
Am i not enough?
Don't act like you just cant remember
Am i losing touch?
I'm cold like we were in December
Am i still in love?
well why cant i forget her
this is way too much, i said its way too much

call me when you need me and Im sure ill be right here
I still want you by my side, is it okay to be this scared?
what happened to our promises and what i thought we shared?
you dug up these emotions i've been stuffing down for years

tired of falling short
why do i miss the mark?
You keep pulling back & forth
you know it tears me apart

how long can I ignore
all of these scars on my heart?
How long can i ignore..

(brecken)
you put my heart on the floor and then you stomped it out
i hope you know i adore you, and there is no amount
that i wouldn't pay for you
no other mistakes been true
falling apart, finding i wasn't made for you

i dont know how i live sober
so many thoughts always flooding my head
telling me lies and they call me a poser
why dont you think that I heard what they said

luckily its almost over
everyday that i live its getting closer
tear me apart, put me on a poster
life is too hard, i dont wanna go there

(hook)
why my heart sink like this
why my brain think like this
tell me why i break like this
tell me why i crave your bliss
cause' i can't really take this shit
no more

(brecken / outro)
put my heart on the floor and then you stomped it out
i hope you know i adore you, and there is no amount
that i wouldn't pay for you
no other mistakes been true
falling apart, finding i wasn't made for you

break like this w/ brecken (prod. p4ra)

Lyrics:

we didn't talk 
all week 
i'm stressing out getting migraines
sweatpants
no jeans
tryna work your mind like a card game
think i miss your lips on my neck babe
think i miss your palms on my chest
don't talk
don't speak
just press your face onto my face 

-

vivid teals on the leaves
got the air smelling sweet
under rain in my fleece
and the birds and the bees
plus the shark in the reeds
got nothing on all my faults
diving deep in the trees
curl the mulch in my feet
body, mind, soul are all soft
judging rights 
judging wrongs
my perception fallen off
i don't know what's the right call

in truth my face will melt
and my mind might eat itself
it's best to save yourself
i couldn't accept that
couldn't accept that
yea
i couldn't accept that
couldn't accept that
i couldn't accept that

we didn't talk 
all week 
i'm stressing out getting migraines
sweatpants
no jeans
tryna work your mind like a card game
think i miss your lips on my neck babe
think i miss your palms on my chest
don't talk
don't speak
just press your face onto my face 

MAOW

we didn't talk 
all week 
i'm stressing out getting migraines
sweatpants
no jeans
tryna work your mind like a card game
think i miss your lips on my neck babe
think i miss your palms on my chest
don't talk
don't speak
just press your face onto my face

sweatpants (dash)

prod. poppy ozu x daniel saint

Lyrics:

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

i'm unhinged 
i'm irrational at best
i'm less convinced now by the second i should get this off my chest
fuck it
i despise your hedonism and that old group i called my friends
at least i'm not a liar, of all my flaws just give me that

she jumps from guy to girl to guy in hopes that someone can heal her
if you couldn't respect me
then how could i either
was i meant for a stage
am i meant for a theatre
caught me throwing up again
with a wonderful fever

i'm a people person eater with a face that doesn't shape
i just tear myself apart then fix myself with gum and tape
i use so many "i's" and "me's" its like the rest of them are fake
you think i'm talking to you, probably am so hear me for your sake

i think she'll be the death of me
if i survive think that i'd rather be
it's been like 30 minutes with no text
so i can't get to sleep
she's probably up in someone's ear with all her dirty secrets maybe sexually
if she's not in my bed i think she slept with him respectfully
you can call me crazy i'll accept at least minisculely
the ghost of who i knew i think just wants a fuckin end to me
an end to me
an end to me

hedonism

strangers again :/

Lyrics:

could we just restart.
could we try again
maybe meet in august
and forget our past
i construct my coffin
i construct my bed
and even used as an object
i think i'd do it again
these curses burn on my arms
these sigils blaze on my hands
as my memory fades
and i lose you again
i can finally be honest
with myself again
while you eat my heart
i embrace my end

i construct my coffin
i construct my bed
and even used as an object
i think i'd do it again
these curses burn on my arms
these sigils blaze on my hands
as my memory fades
and i lose you again
i can finally be honest
with myself again
while you eat my heart
i embrace my end

we're just strangers again
we're just strangers again
we're just strangers again
we're just strangers again

leanan sídhe (whiteshinobi x hélix)

if you know where the reference bars are from - you are swag

Lyrics:

on the pavement i've been laying low
i'd rather lay alone
i'd rather sit and contemplate my fate and fuckin zone
wield a mask and cut my wrist until i feel the flow
i wanna kill myself so bad and you don't even know
never cared about the money or the fame
cuz the money fill my tummy but my pockets stay the same
i've been slowly craving happiness and I should be ashamed
i ain't let myself feel anything these thoughts are all to blame

sweater weather's better
i'd go shirtless in december
but i'm dysmorphic of my body
with no sign of getting better
so i hate the way i look
and i hate the way i feel
but i cannot force the change
so i just suffer in what's real

no happily ever after
return the cast back to sender
i'm no mage but eating spells is something i think i could manage
i just pop another xanax
i am used to disadvantage
i can see through every wall
but i just let her deal me damage

she supports me from the shadows
and i don't know if that's better
think i'd rather her let go
she makes me kinda wanna vanish
i just relish in the effort from my friends and all my brothers
if these pills happen to kill me
hide my body from my mother

my own mind got me fallin off the deep end
sleepin in the crevice
it's not much
just slowly creepin
if you tryna stay alive
don't bother
voices been speaking
cuz the reaper split your face in two 
your blood is leaking

sweater weather (hollowprpl)

produced by: @yunnygoldz
featuring: @lilskeleskrrt

lyrics:

// flowrs // 

it’s so degrading 
the way you say that
you know what you want,
and you don’t want to love me

you’re so persuading,
i fuckin hate it
when you say those things
that you know 
fucking cut me 

our love is fading
and you’re evading
all these cloudy thoughts 
cus you’re so fucking lucky

just fucking say it
can’t catch a wave
so i’ll just stay afloat
cus you’re swimming above me 

fuck you,
fuck him 
fuck everything,
every thought,
don’t wanna ever think you’re fine,
i know i’m not 
tell me does he 
love you
the same way that you
loved me
i hope you fucking die 
i swear to god
i’ll kill you with my own two hands
you went too far 

but i’m here
and you’re there 
and you tell me 
that it’ll be okay 
you’re a tumour 
i can’t see you
but you kill me more
every single day 

// skele // 

it’s so frustrating 
how you push me away 
then you’re pulling me back by the end of the day 
it’s so annoying 
how u say that u need me 
then act like u hate me 
i’m tired of waiting 

so why u got act all mad for 
tell me that ur needing more 
why u gotta slam the car door 
n now ur taking off my shirt on your floor 
but i’m here 
and you’re there 
and you tell me that it’ll be okay
i don’t care

// flowrs //

but i’m here
and you’re there 
and you tell me 
that it’ll be okay 
you’re a tumour 
i can’t see you
but you kill me more
every single day

tumour w/ skele

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