bangers to leave on repeat

lyrics:
damn its been so long
ive been like sleeping every day man i feel so gone
i pack my wood and then i breathe until im so numb
they told me i should eat my greens id rather smoke them
that fire burning on the wood look like a totem
if he was dissing on my bros we had to roll up
the things u said to me was venom like a cobra
im sorry baby i cant talk rn im so gone
they told me i should eat my greens id rather

i cannot deal with this
might aim at my head with a 40 clip
n i shouldve known u werent innocent
i dont understand not a little bit
i cannot keep going im sick of this
she told me pull up so im getting in
she told me im good n im getting rich
but at the end of the day im still sick of this
fucked on my bro now he dead to me
funny how u turn a friend to an enemy
funny how i keep on going no matter the pain no matter the amount of hennessey
might just make me a new melody
u gave me no hospitality
girl u just gave me hostility
doubt my ability
i crack a bottle n drink it
i cant feel nothing guess thats my ability

ive been like sleeping every day man i feel so gone
i pack my wood and then i breathe until im so numb
they told me i should eat my greens id rather smoke them
that fire burning on the wood look like a totem
if he was dissing on my bros we had to roll up
the things u said to me was venom like a cobra
im sorry baby i cant talk rn im so gone
they told me i should eat my greens id rather smoke them

i thought i told him, he been getting no love
im getting no love they eating my soul up
i cannot focus
with all these drugs in my brain i feel like im going insane
fucking my pain up
i been fucking my brain up
only know my name yea u dont know my pain yea yea
how could they change up for some pussy u not day one
n u not gang bruh u mean nothing to me u changed up

totem (prod. JabariOnTheBeat x Shah Major x Vs1lito)

pt1 coz im a muffuckin knockoff
lot more stuff comin
also thx to @noizeyymusic for the fire ft

mæsk
i think i need closure
i rlly thought that i had known ya
tug o war all on the sofa 
a little push and we were closer and now is over

and then u gave me closure 
right guy wrong time
mind is fallin out the sky
picking up the pieces but their sharper than a knife
i got one to many problems but i just keep em to one side

pardon me coz i still see ur face
a part of me has honestly just gone to waste
20 years ive spent 8 in the darkest place
hard for me to wake with these stomach aches

baby i been fading like the white chalk
a lot more lately i been getting walked on
so i been hiding in the sewer like his knockoff

baby its hard to pretend 
i lost u again
thoughts unlikely to end
the darkest of red
painted all over my head
counting my breathes
using my last ounce of strength
to talk to my friends

but seems like i only talk to mic
used to wanna love atleast i tried
used to wanna but i had live i lied
finally closing both my eyes

noizeyy 
finally closing both my eyes
you told me everythings just fine i dont believe your lies
not a mind reader tell me when somethings not right
yeah i might leave her 
disappear into the night alright
alright alright alright

yeahhhh

but you never gave me closure
its been a while since you came over
not seen you in a year but it feels so much fucking longer

i miss crying on your shoulder 
without you here beside me my hearts so much fucking colder

you were always tryna face your past
you cant keep moving forward if you’re always looking back
but babe i loved you, and now i lost you its awful
i want you
but you dont want me too its horrible

clxsure ft dxnny (boyfifty)

prod metlast x luffy

lyrics

i dont wanna be far from u
why the fuck would i drink one when i could drink two
i dont wanna lose myself for u
i dont wanna but all this is new
going back to the bottle
in the dead of night been drowning my sorrow
that bitch she so mid but she think that she a model
i been stepping on the gas n then im going full throttle
ill be speeding till my tires give out

n ill keep taking all these shots until i cant even see
if u dont wanna hurt again girl then u gotta leave
im sorry that i cant do everything you want me to
it kills me inside knowing i cant die for u
greening out throwing up inside the alley
i dont wanna die right now but im not happy
n i know that im the only one that make u happy
but baby imma die alone its such a tragedy
i been losing sleep
got ur scent burned into my sheets
im pouring out smoke when i breathe
i know i cant love but i still wanna see u
i still wanna see u
i dont wanna leave u

i dont wanna be far from u
why the fuck would i drink one when i could drink two
i dont wanna lose myself for u
i dont wanna but all this is new
going back to the bottle
in the dead of night been drowning my sorrow
that bitch she so mid but she think that she a model
i been stepping on the gas n then im going full throttle
ill be speeding till my tires give out

double shot of my favorite vodka [prod. metlast x luffy]

Living in limbo, your heart shines where he goes 
She said I have nothing to worry bout 

I said I been told that once before 

I’ll be your sunshine, and you be my halo
We follow the sunlight wherever the day goes

I don’t care where we go, the sun don’t shine in limbo 

Spiderwebs fill my head, ate my brain, should be dead 

You don’t care when I say I’m tired 

You bound me until I’m inspired
Fill my brain with chemical compounds 

Going through my high and lows 
Living in a silent mode 

Fill my brain with chemicals 
until I feel my brain explode 

I don’t care where we go, the sun don’t shine in limbo 

Living in limbo, your heart shines where he goes 
She said I have nothing to worry bout 

I said I been told that once before 

I’ll be your sunshine, and you be my halo
We follow the sunlight wherever the day goes

I don’t care where we go, the sun don’t shine in limbo 

Spiderwebs fill my head, ate my brain, should be dead 

You don’t care when I say I’m tired 

You bound me until I’m inspired
Fill my brain with chemical compounds 

Going through my high and lows 
Living in a silent mode 

Fill my brain with chemicals 
until I feel my brain explode 

I don’t care where we go, the sun don’t shine in limbo 

Living in limbo, your heart shines where he goes 
She said I have nothing to worry bout 

I said I been told that once before 

I’ll be your sunshine, and you be my halo
We follow the sunlight wherever the day goes

I don’t care where we go, the sun don’t shine in limbo

Limbo [+ sogimura]

coverart by wetbirthdaycard <3


blood on my desk like oh my god
you call back but i dont pick up
lungs are black, yea my body fucked
i should see a doc but i call my plug
pain in my chest put it in a song
rain turnin red i should quit the drugs
fake my death so i know who loves me to the bones and who does not

i see faces in the rain
i think i'll go insane
i kinda like the pain
blood is drippin of my blade
dont care about the fame
just wanna be okay
im waiting on the rails while im screaming out your name

suicide - i almost did it
but i didn't fucking drown
mama wanna see me winning
and im tryna make her proud
i dont wanna keep on living
i just do it for her now
only see me fucking grinning
when my head is in the clouds


@epitomeoffailure
it easy to forget my name when i’m with you
completely driven insane even though i was being used
addicted to the pain but what am i supposed to do
when the pictures not in frame you have so much to lose

just look at the clues
i’ve already tied the noose
i’m escaping this horrid abuse
and i don’t even know how it makes me feel
knowing that this all wasn’t real

it easy to forget my name when i’m with you
completely driven insane even though i was being used
addicted to the pain but what am i supposed to do
when the pictures not in frame you have so much to lose

amv <3

faces in the rain w/epitomeoffailure (puhf)

Mixed/Mastered By Me
-
Produced By https://soundcloud.com/p-guda & Michael Harrison
-
(Lyrics) 
your eyes trapped me 
their glistening 
i hope you're listening 
to the things that I'm saying 
walk outside my head downlow 
your green gorgeous eyes 
they get me everytime 

girl your eyes are dark 
and it's scary
waking up to you yelling 
i am traumatized by the way you talk
look at my eyes girl you see whats wrong 
cause i want you 
and you want me to 
i feel you closer to me 
but you're miles away for me 
i love you 

finally met someone 
when shit gets so wrong 
you're next to me 
it feels like you're gone 
don't want this to end 
oh i want you here tonight 
i feel this convulsion 
hate this new version of me 
can someone just make it all stop 
you irradiate my life 
don't departure 
I'll love you till the end 

everything will be okay 
i know you're stuck in this empty place
it gets tuff i know it does 
I'm here for you for eternity 



departure (guda x michael harrison)

s/o kiddamo and jabarionthebeat
lyrics:
open up the door like welcome to my private hell
i know that u can tell i dont rlly care bout my health
i hope u see me make it big before i kill myself
but thats okay baby girl i know ur doing well
in the dark baby that where ill find u
see the shining on my neck i wanna blind u
i said it ten thousand times im right behind u
she said i only act this way cuz i like u

but i dont like me
cuz i like it toxic baby it excites me
she wanna piss me off i told her ass to bite me
if i say i love u dont take that shit lightly
oh no
countless nights that i spend on my phone
fuck around message these hoes
told her pull up on the low
she smell my cologne
im taking her to bed make her moan
private hell its a good time
party all night with the demons up in my mind
grab the henny sit it right next to the white lines
now im falling to the ground cuz im too high
im lost but i found the drugs
now

open up the door like welcome to my private hell
i know that u can tell i dont rlly care bout my health
i hope u see me make it big before i kill myself
but thats okay baby girl i know ur doing well
in the dark baby that where ill find u
see the shining on my neck i wanna blind u
i said it ten thousand times im right behind u
she said i only act this way cuz i like u

do u rlly like me
now im sitting alone
on my phone
im wondering where the hell r u
right now
like right now
baby can u feed me drugs right now

i been dying in the sunlight
babe i wanna love u i dont ever wanna fight
rlly cant help it that these drugs treat me right
i say im sorry mom as i die
this a private hell
this a private hell
custom built for myself
put the drugs on top of the shelf
rlly gotta stop hurting myself

private hell w/ KiddAmo[prod. jabarionthebeat]

featuring @skrxwd
produced by @afterlife66 & @jolst
engineered by @marcdoesmusic

LYRICS
say my name
(only say I love you, when nobody's around you)
when you can
(wish I didn't want you, even though I want to)
say my name
when you feel me in your veins
say my name
(only say baby I love you when nobody's around you)

there's something missing without you
the sunlight's missing from my room
I stay up late with the blood moon
the notes I kept smell just like you
I lost the way, wasn't just you I was heading down this road anyway
I still replay, every memory just like you'd play me green day

say my name
(only say I love you, when nobody's around you)
when you can
(wish I didn't want you, even though I want to)
say my name
when you feel me in your veins
say my name
(only say baby I love you when nobody's around you)

I can't even front, I fucking miss you
telling everyone you're scared I might diss you
still upset but I just wanna kiss you
hit my line, anytime, not an issue
you don't even care
whether I'm here or there
I'll never be what you want, yeah I'm aware
everything feels like a chore, watch the rain pour
why'd you have to even up the score?

say my name
(only say I love you, when nobody's around you)
when you can
(wish I didn't want you, even though I want to)
say my name
when you feel me in your veins
say my name
(only say baby I love you when nobody's around you)

say my name (feat. skrwd) (prod. by afterlife & jolst)

beat made by https://soundcloud.com/boyfifty and  Chvrlie Brown

boyfifty's yt: https://www.youtube.com/c/boyfifty


/lyrics/

Friday night on the couch and I'm slumped
in the night from the attic i hear thumps
charred skin stay away from the sun
lock the doors dont speak to anyone

and you left this place
now i drown in pain
my heads not the same
it won't ever fucking be again
id gladly have another fucking argument
without you here im just not myself
and it scares me

how could you ever love me
when i don't even love myself
won't you touch me
slow my heartbeat
need to tell you
I'm so sorry

i can't say enough girl I'm sorry i love you
i tried not to miss you but i can still see you
when i shut my eyes yours are right there to pierce me 
another evening I'm sat by a screen

passing the time and i just want to scream
awake for days i don't want to sleep
it's gone to the point where I'm scared to dream
let me be

Friday night on the couch and I'm slumped
in the night from the attic i hear thumps
charred skin stay away from the sun
lock the doors dont speak to anyone

and you left this place
now i drown in pain
my heads not the same
it won't ever fucking be again


I miss you (Boyfifty x Chvrlie Brown)

about last nite...

lyrics

wait for me 
when th darkness comes
my heart still beats 
so u havent yet won

bae im looking out 
do u not hear me when i call
r things really that different 
i havent changed, not since last fall 

lock me in a cage, throw th key
sure you’d like that
coz every time i bring it up u all ways talk back
to me
baby 
this dont hav to be th last time 
can we take it back to last night
they dont fucking know about the words we’ve shared
so baby why the fuck u looking over there

uuuuhhhh fade in to the night
take another third at least ill tell u that i tried
but then the worst thing comes to mind
i knew that this would happen but i still let it fucking slide

no way its th worst thing that could do
no way, i held my peace and im not coming back to u
i gave it time so dont think id forget u 
i live my life like a ghost so should be thankful
that i got a use

last nite (flesh)

shivers w/ notahero [prod. artemys]

So Low /prod. mackk/

Bloodysummer [prod. antisxcial x nn-fi]

i’ll stay awake all night 
baby i can’t sleep right
laying with your shadow in my bed
you said that im the worst right?
how u would feel 
if th- th- there’s a bullet in my head?
would u try to make amends?
would u pull me back down to die again?
would u pull me back down to die again?
watching where i walk cuz there’s snakes in the grass
watch the way you talk cuz my hearts made of glass
silver lining, i reflect on the past
you think you’re the shit when u ignore me like that
but ik ur in love so i don’t have to fight back
he treats u like the worst and you’ll always come back
how many times i gotta say we wouldn’t last
sometimes 
i miss that look in your eye
take one more shroom i’m out my mind i’m in outer space 
smoke a fat ass blunt, so high that it put me back in place
yeah my ganja’s white, smoking on that shit you would think you’re laced 
you would throw me in front of a bus to get ahead, you is fake
yeah this ain’t a race
but when the police pull me over, sport mode on the chase
skid marks my only trace
that adrenaline won’t let me catch a break
got no seatbelt on so i can’t hit the breaks
i’ll stay awake all night 
baby i can’t sleep right
laying with your shadow in my bed
you said that im the worst right?
how u would feel 
if th- th- there’s a bullet in my head?
would u try to make amends?
would u pull me back down to die again?
would u pull me back down to die again?

bullet in my head [prod. kaydo]

you can bet the whip go fast when i press the gas i promise
people think im mad, but i ain’t talk back cuz they hate it when im honest
im always in the center of the room im in but there’s two sides to iconic
such a shame that i wasn’t born flawless
see the pain when you look in my eyes, oh
no you wouldn’t think im suicidal
well that’s the point of it i guess
i smoke so much that i just overthink the stress
gotta get out my head, gotta get out my-

xanny pill make it so hard to feel
thinking that nothings real, thinking that nothings real
oh that xanny pill, xanny pill
make it so hard to feel something real
i just want my heart to heal, a heart of steel
living that way isn’t ideal
if it was someone else would u throw that life away?
you’d rather kill yourself than to live another day
i wish that happiness wasn’t so goddamn cliche
i wish it wasn’t hard to say that im okay

you can bet the whip go fast when i press the gas i promise
people think im mad, but i ain’t talk back cuz they hate it when im honest
im always in the center of the room im in but there’s two sides to iconic
such a shame that i wasn’t born flawless
see the pain when you look in my eyes, oh
no you wouldn’t think im suicidal
well that’s the point of it i guess
i smoke so much that i just overthink the stress
gotta get out my head, gotta get out my-

gotta get out my room, just to get out my (head)
gotta take out the shrooms, just to get out my (head)
gotta get out soon, before i blow my (head)
before i blow my head 
before i blow my-

you can bet the whip go fast when i press the gas i promise
and i never talk bad they just think im mad cuz im really just honest
always in the center of the room im in im really iconic
there’s two sides to iconic

iconic

-Iconic+ [prod. neverforever]

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