"Trips are like experiences we learn from that help us open the portal into our minds. Each trip is an adventure, not only through the world and the universe, but also an introspective journey through the vast landscape of our mind. Each trip is a test that helps us learn and explore these places. I present to you my journey, my trips, my tests. Enjoy."

This is my first fully self-produced album that I've spent the better part of two years working on. The making of this album itself has been a trip itself, so many scrapped songs, so many ideas that I couldn't execute properly, so many lessons that I've learned - both for producing and in the real world - but I couldn't be happier with the final result.

This album has everything I've wanted to make in it, whether it be just generic hyperpop, glitchy experimental production, an EDM drop, or a full metalcore breakdown, it has it all and I'm so happy I was able to make it still sound fluid and solid. 

I couldn't have made this album without the help of many friends, so here's a brief list of the people who helped this album come to shape:
Rosie
Nick
Ivan
Angel
Zion
James
River
BLCKK
Flowr
HXSTAGE
And anyone else I showed this album to as it was being created. This wouldn't have been possible without you all, so thank you.

TRIPS//TESTS

prod me

trips//tests

its too late
better saddle up

bitch come around again
approach me better have enough

all you wanna see
is a red light
all the falacies
push me outta life
big talk for somebody prolly outta luck
quick false sense of safety aint a problem

you put yourself uh
over everything
pissed off
got no uhh
got no wedding ring
its time to back off
the fucking tracks gone
you did a bad job
fixing what you cant stop
you just uh
you just fuck it
call me asshole
talk shit
but talk nothin
when you at home
i put this all on your page
but you recall and evade
guess now your small and you hate
to see the god get away

you just
uh
you just switch it up a little too late
pop shuvit on the roof, tryna battlle ur fate
i find it funny how you tell em thats its all ok
JOKES
HE GOT JOKES
MAN GET OUTTA MY FACE
ONE TALK AND THE BOY BOUTTA HIT THE FLOOR
ALL OUT, WHY U POP OUT ANYMORE
CHECK THE CLOCK, YEA I GUESS IM JUST A LITTLE BORED
SWITCH IT UP, MAKE A BUCK, MAKE A LITTLE MORE

false safety

trips//tests

cant write you off as a mishap
when you hit my phone i didn't get that
but with every other time you had
did you even really want to try again

pick apart the little messages i sent you
took my heart and didnt try to rip it in two
when i started i thought that i could see right thru
now i know that i knever knew what i would do

when you
]left
im up, set
no limit
never
knew what
to get
now its fucked
feelin like im outta luck
push it just little bit more, but its stuck

and its all a test
wish i never saw you again
but i need that feelin now
please read aloud
what flees out ur mouth
1245, lazy avenue
come thru around 9, with the attitude
obtuse, fuck u, never had a clue
wana take a cruise, from the useless battles you
fight for no damn reason its the end
outta spite make the best damn thing outta lead
never write like this when im out, its the best
guess i like being inside all thru the day
EH eh
and its the fallout
eh eh
when i call out
eh eh
what do i talk about
u just talk loud
didnt think youd walk out

mishap

trips//tests

COPYCAT GET THE PROJECT LOCKED IN
GOT YOU SCRAMBLIN TO FIND ALL UR OPTIONS
GOTTA REGRET LEAKIN THE TOXINS
AT LEAST THATS WHAT YOU SAID WHEN I WALKED IN
NO CARE FOR THE SPEECH THAT I PROMPTED
TALK SHIT BUT THIS ISNT WHAT YOU WANTED CUS I
TAKE AIM WITH THE .45 ON MY WAIST
BREAKING UP, MEET ME AT MY PLACE
HEY MAYBE., ILL GET SICK OF YOUR FACE
FUCK THAT GOTTA WAIT FOR THE MOMENT THEN BRACE
WAIT
PHONE BLOWING UP THINK STRAIGHT
I GOTA WHOLE LOTTA SHIT ON MY PLATE
PRESSING FOR THE TIME, AT THE NIGHT WITH THIS SHIT IN MY RIDE GOT DAMMIT IM TRYING

but i guess it wasnt enough
now the guest list thrown to the rough
you hate me now but im calling your bluff
hate me, break me, but i dont give a fuck
i apologize for nothing
you always had to cry for something
it was so fucking-
sorry
and even tho im glad its nothing
at all can you please stop posting
lies

yeaaa
never inclined to share
wish i never tried you
dare
me to recite you
player
didnt even like you
at first
but i kept on listening to that verse
forget it, now im screaming, maybe that works
god i really wish you would just listen, but im plastered
but the phone keeps ringing like

copycat

I just wanna talk way louder than usual
I just want my voice to sound way more beautiful
If it's gonna happen I need a sign
'Cus that would be the best way to spend my life

And if you lost me tonight
You could take my spot and be alright
So put it up, it's easy, like
Just gotta log in and take my spot
I just wanna talk way louder than usual
I just want my voice to sound way more beautiful
If it's gonna happen I need a sign
'Cus that would be the best way to spend my life

And if you told me how
Back then I would've figured it out
I got odd looks shouting
I need another plan, I need some rerouting
You talk way too much
Move blocks, save the bucks
True stuff, label us
Brace me for the patience and my luck
"Oh no he didn't, he just made another rap song"
The fans get livid, they say "you should change the tracks up"
So he starts singing, but it sounds a little jacked up
Save the beat, then come back later
So you can track one
He pulled a fast one, came through with that, bumps
Break off the last song, keep changing, last touch
You can't hide in your bed for much longer
Get up out of there, release it, count the numbers

And if you lost me tonight
You could take my spot and be alright
So put it up, it's easy, like
Just gotta log in and take my spot
I just wanna talk way louder than usual
I just want my voice to sound way more beautiful
If it's gonna happen I need a sign
'Cus that would be the best way to spend my life

"Do you have any other real passions in life outside of music"
"Something that doesn't even have anything to do with it"
"That's- that's something that you hold dear?"
"You know that's a que- you know, I'll get that question a lot"
"And I don't"
"I don't have any, like, other things I do besides music"
"Completely, like, all- that's all I care about"

i want more

These options are giving out
Please talk to me, no reason to shout
I can tell you I walk less now
When I'm out
But that's the other side of the story
No pros inside, got no glory
I'll make a beat or two, but I wont sing for you
The way I see you move
Got my eyes adjusted to it
Now I don't know why I still do it
I'll try to write it, I'm not fluent
Account on private, that feels stupid
But that's the way this shit go
I'm laying a brick road
Can't tell me how to make my own shit, I say so
Give me the new code, 'cus this music stays gold
I'm reppin' "two tones" got my plate and dish loaded

Imma drive a couple hours
So I can turn "us" into "ours"
Stay back for a chemical shower
I say that, 'cus I know what I have encountered
Press a button and it towers onto me
Can't take a second without power, let me breathe
Playback the song we just routed
I hate that you sound better than I do, outed, 'cus

Got used to the changes that you made
But imma play it back, 'cus it's fading
I'll take another shot to erase it
But that don't help me, it just evades it
For a slight amount of time
I can't cry about you online
I wanna try to go rewind
But that's a bad idea to alight
We don't talk, can't sleep on the dot
Just stop it, I feel weak from the plot
And now it's 4AM, got no control again
Reset my phone again
Don't wanna park the Benz, just wanna walk to friends
'Cus when I talk to them, it's not an option to pretend

Try and change the subject
What have you done yet
This isn't fun at all
I can't tell which story that I've got myself on
I need shelter it's pouring, I can't stop here too long

And imma drive a couple hours
So I can turn "us" into "ours"
Stay back for a chemical shower
I say that, 'cus I know what I have encountered
Press a button and it towers onto me
Can't take a second without power, let me breathe
Playback the song we just routed
I hate that you sound better than I do, outed, yuh

playback

"Let me get an actual good song, sorry- sorry- I- I- I'm-"

You think you're so damn cool (So damn cool)
But I hate that fucking face you make when you cry
You play it off like its true (Play it off like it's true)
But you blocked me on everything the very same night
Night
But I make you feel so helpless
Had a date tonight and you felt sick
Your behavior, narcissistic
Fake hesitation, change the subject

You're so aggravating
You drive me fucking crazy
Just go, you know it's the main thing
Change your fucking hair again, your ties are breaking
You're so aggravating
You drive me fucking crazy
Just go, you know it's the main thing
Change your fucking hair again, your ties are breaking

"Man, fuck this bitch, honestly du-"

I bet you can't help but think that this song is about you
You better believe it, I made it for round two
The changing of seasons, helped me to the ground
You wish you could ever see it
I'm never around you
But that's the main thing that you do
You try and make me feel bad, such a fool
Am I insane, please answer truthfully
You'll never believe me, you're a fucking demon

"So just forget it"
"That's an impossibility"

You can't help but find a lie
One more call is all it'll take to want to die
If you think I'm coming back again you're fucked up in the mind
But you did it every night so why don't you go ahead and just cry

You're so aggravating
You drive me fucking crazy
Just go, you know it's the main thing
Change your fucking hair again, your ties are breaking
You're so aggravating
You drive me fucking crazy
Just go, you know it's the main thing
Change your fucking hair again, your ties are breaking

so cool

Pick it up from the top, where'd the minutes go?
I give up on the spot, is it miniscule?
Not now, take five, put your hoodie up
I don't even like to talk, am I good enough
One, wake up, take all that you want to
Two, hate lunch, make something it's up to you
Fake fucks, they won't get a buck for who
What, when, time and place, what's it come to?
You hate all your friends, but it's not fair
You think they'd give in, but you won't share
Patience, places, better get up there
Wait this isn't it, quick get your own chair

Is it not enough? You just made a thousand bucks
Pick it all apart, ticket isn't valuable
Is it not enough? You just made a thousand bucks
Pick it all apart, ticket isn't valuable

All the memories slip into a pipe dream
What's it mean to be? Throw it all beside me
I'll pretend to see what's really enticing
So embarrassing, look at what you're writing
All the memories slip into a pipe dream
What's it mean to be? Throw it all beside me
I'll pretend to see what's really enticing
So embarrassing, look at what you're writing

"Woah woah woah, woah woah"

All I ever thought of was never what I wanted
Place, time, never mattered
You probably never saw it
But you look back and vomit, like was I really honest?
Hate time, you can't handle
You sleep, but you don't want it
Break it into something new
Same shit, what you going to do?
Crazy, what you're turning to
Phase Shift, press the button, blue

Is it not enough? You just made a thousand bucks
Pick it all apart, ticket isn't valuable
Is it not enough? You just made a thousand bucks
Pick it all apart, ticket isn't valuable

All the memories slip into a pipe dream
What's it mean to be? Throw it all beside me
I'll pretend to see what's really enticing
So embarrassing, look at what you're writing
All the memories slip into a pipe dream
What's it mean to be? Throw it all beside me
I'll pretend to see what's really enticing
So embarrassing, look at what you're writing

miniscule

Do you have anything for me?
I brought you something by your street, yeah
And these chemicals reach the peak
If you want it then come and see
I don't mind you, but I don't like you
Why don't you try to
Turn on the TV, yeah, it's easy as pie to
But that's okay, you text me, say "hey"
It's alright, what's gonna happen tonight

I saw you on the bathroom floor
I don't want that tattoo anymore
And now you're plastered into the ground
Wanna help you out, but I don't know how

I can't seem to find the motive
What started it all in the moment
And now you haven't texted in hours
Go find a better lie, the precipice devours
Inhale the poison later
The dreams of stars have faded
Is it divine intervention?
The sky dissembles heaven

Excuse me, I've been in too deep, yeah
Proof needs little sympathy, yeah
Useless piece of truth, needless
You speak, but you're not discreet, yeah
You were falling there
And I can't seem to get you out
Don't wanna share
But I think you just want me down
Think that I care
That you were stuck inside the ground
I can't fucking bare the sight of you where you are in my-

ROOOOM
WHY DONT YOU LISTEN??
FALL DOWN... IN THE GROUND
SUFFERING!!

intervention

Wait right here, I'm coming right back
My right sleeve got caught and I can't
Think straight, I just need to lie back
Please find something to define that
My mindset got stuck, immobile
Can't fight that, this show is over
List five things that make you whole
Or you can try to breathe, but oh no

What's that coming in? You were just with a friend
Respect, dividend, new build, reel it in

Keep talking, 'cus I think I need it
Plus I'm boutta be on my way
In a week or two, so make me stay
Keep talking, 'cus I think I need it
Plus I'm boutta be on my way
In a week or two, so make me stay

Now that you're okay, I'll break bones 'til I phase my mindstate
Watch out you might hate my place, you find truth the the breaks
Race you to the finish, paced you, couldn't win
It's hateful when you tell me "hey I'm moving in"
And wait you didn't give in, grateful dinners
And I hate you, never sinning, make me give in, and

Keep talking, 'cus I think I need it
Plus I'm boutta be on my way
In a week or two, so make me stay
Keep talking, 'cus I think I need it
Plus I'm boutta be on my way
In a week or two, so make me stay

I don't wanna wait again
You fight to make me stay and yet
Why can't you just let me out
If I just let you, now

subterfuge

Are you sick? Are you dripped? Yeah yeah yeah
Save the pic, flavor it, yeah yeah yeah
Walk around saying this and that
Don't tell me you told everybody that you get the bag

'Cus you a fake fuck, turn it off, you ain't making hits, bruh
I got thousands of dollars under my list of
Who you are and who you wanna be
Yo girl don't wanna rock a beat
Reluctancy to fuckin' tell a sorry cheat
You're way too insecure
Quit making fickle slurs
You're trying way too hard to be the shit, yeah
But imma tell you that shit ain't gon' get you this far

Back, back, back it up now
I see you packing up your bags, wrap it up now
'Cus you ain't going nowhere
You getting no shares
Why would you go there?
All the time, you don't care
You rap about shit but you ain't living it
I see your tracks all the time, got me feeling pissed
Give it up now, wont make a buck now
You talk about that Range Rover but it wont be found
'Cus imma drive through in my Mach-EX
You talk a lot of big game but you wont be next
I'm fucking on that bitch raw, I got no protection
You pull up to the studio but you choke the session
'Cus I hit that bitch, one take, and I send it
My lyrics come from real shit, no pretending
Fucking scrap that new song 'cus it's so pretentious
Pitch your vocals down but your words got no expression

You a fake fuck, turn it off, you ain't making hits, bruh
I got thousands of dollars under my list of
Who you are and who you wanna be
Yo girl don't wanna rock a beat
Reluctancy to fuckin' tell a sorry cheat
You're way too insecure
Quit making fickle slurs
You're trying way too hard to be the shit, yeah
But imma tell you that shit ain't gon' get you this far
Fake fuck, turn it off, you ain't making hits, bruh
I got thousands of dollars under my list of
Who you are and who you wanna be
Yo girl don't wanna rock a beat
Reluctancy to fuckin' tell a sorry cheat

fickle

I'm sick and fed up with this
Try it quick (fuck)
Didn't even help a bit
Give me a second, need some time to come back
Again I've fallen through the cracks
This is all my fault
What else would I want
Think about it, press it real, and pound it
Let it sink in, round it up

I feel it all around
No idea what I have found today
It's like a new experience
And I'll prove I'm serious
I can push you and I am-

Fuck
Maybe I'm crazy, can feel my arms shaking
My heart is penetrating, and the glass feels like it's breaking
Goddamn, will it end?
Keep laying in this bed
Tryna take over my head
I kinda wish that I was d- now
Take your time, yeah, you're wasting mine
But this patient mind will just wait 'til
I'm fucking done with it
I've had enough of this
I'll just give up and quit
Wish I could-
Take a sip

I feel it all around
No idea what I have found today
It's like a new experience
And I'll prove I'm serious
I can push you and I am-

"A person who thinks all the time has nothing to think about except thoughts"
"And so he loses touch with reality"
"It's time to wake up"

Get out, get out (Get the fuck out)
I'm more than upset now, -set now
It's nothing but a feeling
A fucking feeling, feeling, how?
(Come on let's just get-)
It's not nothing, but it isn't something
Fight it, fight it
Find something to confide in, -fide in
Wish that this would fucking finish
Losing my head, night-end
Goddamn what a feeling it would be
To feel like I can finally think straight

"Worrying has no transformative value"
"It is rehearsing the very thing you do not want to happen"

sickness

You don't notice what I want
But I am sure of it, 'cus I can't stop thinking of
How nice it would be
Oh, how nice it could be
But what I really need
Is to fight the pain in me

And I'm so fucking upset
With the fact that nothing is done yet
Make me feel whole again
Take a minute, it's over and out
Patience is adjacent to displacement
Can't help but hate this
Break into my safe it's splayed out for you to take shit

I fear that I might be too late
It's a cycle today
Why me, can't I fight these feelings?
Why do I like these heathens?
Uh, switch it up, maybe you'll like it this time
Yuh, give a buck, for a quick night, to feel right
Yuh, put the substance down the rut, you feel like
Yuh, you might crumble, but it's lovely
Make me sleep out of spite
Reach heavens light
Why is every damn experience held back by the fight
I wish I felt the same I felt when I knocked back a good spike
Think I'd melt if I went back to the resentment I liked
But it makes me alive
Woo! Held back the pain that I lied about
Let's have a hateful time
I'll regret it when I'm around

And I'm so fucking upset
With the fact that nothing is done yet
Make me feel whole again
Take a minute, it's over and out
Patience is adjacent to displacement
Can't help but hate this
Break into my safe it's splayed out for you to take shit

TRIPS//TESTS

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