produced by kenkamon (me)

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lyrics: 
high as the empire state
afraid where I go out of frustration
guess I'll go tear out
someone somewhere 

i lost all until
i doubt myself
fear the sunlight
go somewhere
tell them to go away
until I live alone
fear made me run but
i'll learn later on

lot of people think they know what's next for me
lot of people think they know what's best for me
lot of people think they know that's the best of me
pain or drugs I don't need therapy
pray tell when you have notes on everything
question all doors thats a step for me
spaced out exposes everything 

bridge, burns it all up in my mental
shit won't just go away
questioning all What's the point?
pestering all what's the point of view?
but I stayed some time ago
i should've question about what you know
less time I talk I should go home and sulk
write down her notes
and I check on my phone
ain't no one home 

but I knock another day out
shoulda gone home but I won't do it twice
i want to see me go into another light
until I know there's another side
i know what to do but no description 
fear the store I don't need prescriptions
keep my face and keep my discretion
fear grows in offered aggression


if I'm coming back here 
just cut off my ears
ignoring again
i don't need to explain 
just to let go of friends
but they don't want to hear
ignoring what I said
i will never win
see the toll I hold
when it's not my plan
yes, I know descent
and I don't need to explain
sipping down my friends
just to slow me again
ignore my fate
and I'll never win
i thought I made my way back here 
it's the shit I said last year
and for what, to hold top here
and don't leave me to die here
spend too much time here
seems like you lurk in my dreams when I left you
see my plans didn't work out
even though I was free
once you said it
pissed off it didn't work out guess I shouldn't know once you planned it 


High as the empire state state st- st- st- sta-

Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now
Can't fuck this up now 
bend, break all sound

(you don't understand you don't know how it feels, truth is we really do know how it feels
maybe we don't experience the same thing, but down to the basics, to the rotten core, there is something that we share and to not allow us to get that chance can distort so many)

can't fuck up

prod me
lyrics:
go 
stay 
won't mind
crush me
shattered all my bones
go 
stay
wont mind
crush me 
shattered all my bones

shatter my skull and breath out my air
one more slow breath before i go up there
was it so wrong? i couldnt take the pain
cannot go on, don't wanna die in vain

go 
stay 
wont mind 
crush me
shattered all my bones 
shatter my skull and breath out my air
one more slow breath before i go up there
was it so wrong? i couldnt take the pain
cannot go on, don't wanna die in vain

vain

produced by zoltar

guitars are from splice :3

lyrics:

there’s nothing more important than yourself
your tongue is slick and saying something else
i can’t say that i even wish you well
i hope the stones you left unturned are hell

i fed your appetite
i ran out of time
i can’t wait for this
headache to rewind
strung out on your bed
you’ve got nothing left
i bore witness to
things you never said

i’m never safe
but you wanna relate
trust me, you don’t want this
itch inside your brain
you think that i’m a fuck up
but i can’t retaliate
we both know you’re right so
why do you wanna stay?

i really hate
the way you try to berate
everyone who tries to get inside your brain
guarding yourself off will only punish ones who stay

forget all the rest
i’ll go back to sleep when i’m dead
you wanted me open and honest 
but now i’m stuck lying with every breath
i’m sick of this world that i’m in
indulging in cardinal sin
waiting for another window 
so i can insert myself in

but let it be known
i’m doing this under duress
i vacated all of the premises
you can be certain that it’s in your head
you said i’m not going nowhere
do you even realize i’m there?
i’m ready for whatever comes next
my blue eyes are catching your stare

i got that envy and it’s building tall
search for a pill just to kill the withdrawal
make up your mind, please, once and for all
i hope that i don’t come off too banal

there’s nothing more important than yourself
your tongue is slick and saying something else
i can’t say that i even wish you well
i hope the stones you left unturned are hell

banal

produced by mix
thank you, everyone,
sorry its been awhile
love every last one of you <3
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lyrics:

Oh that's music to my ear-

I'll hold my grudge
cause you lie too much
now you're mocking me
why can't you see?

I see myself in a ditch 
filled with rocks and sand in it
will you come and pull me out of here?
I know that the end is near
It's been different since I was cured
remembering pain that I endured
been pushed in dirt so many times

how am I even alive?

I can see the light
how am I alive?
i don't wanna die
how am I alive?
I can see the light
how am I alive?
i don't wanna die
how am I alive?

I'll hold my grudge
Cause you lie too much
Now you're mocking me
why can't you see?

(how am I alive?)
(alive, alive, alive)


how am I alive?
I just wanna die
should I end my life?
should I use this knife?

thank you <3

childhood

huge thank you to @jauntsen for making this track complete

produced by lowtyde

thank u for listening <3

means of survival; methods of coping (feat jauntsen) [prod lowtyde]

produced by mix

https://open.spotify.com/album/63yzdAg14jbopbCC1xCnSi?si=UbgFj3qxSgCvR-MNVJG2GQ

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lyrics-
but why? why is it we have to be so afraid of 
𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑?
are we only alive because we dont wanna die?
i wonder.. does something good ever come from 
𝚕𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐?

throwin words out there who do you think you are?
send another text bitch betchu get a new scar
talk alot of shit for someone as small as you
leavin me behind and now your actin brand new

he dont even know, i put on a show
watch his ego grow, now he lyin on the floor

the more that you try the more that youll die
turn around slowly and look me in the eye, yea
talkin all this shit boy you aint tough you should quit
ill burn you to the ground man you wont make it out of here

he don't even know, you're repulsive and it shows
hes bleedin out slow, i watch his life go

𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑-

i watch his life go-
go
go a-a-a-a-a-a

oh oh oh a-a-a oh
ah-ah oh a-a-a oh
bleedin out slow
𝐆𝐎-

the more that you try the more that youll die 
𝖒𝖎𝖝
turn around slowly and look me in the eye, ye
talkin all this shit boy you aint tough you should qu-
ill burn you to the ground man you wont make it out of here 

i wont fall, not so soon
i wont fall, not so soon
im past it all, through the universe
im past it all, through the universe

ONCE AGAIN IM AT THE TOP
I LOOK TO MYSELF WHEN ALL GOES WRONG
AND I TRY TO COPE WHEN I WRITE THESE SONGS
I KEPT TO MYSELF FOR OH SO LONG

ASCENDING NOW LIKE I SHOULD
TRY TO STAY CLOSE TO THE EARTH
FIGHTING ALL WAS IN THE PAST
REPULSIVE SOUL, WENT THROUGH ALL AND NOW IM LAST

repulsive

[feat. @ririrealme] 
(GOAT FOR FEATURING ON THIS SONG, TALENTED BEYOND BELIEF)

[prod. maysbeatss]

[lyrics]

(RiRi)
could you please turn away?
oh, the sight of your face hurts
you're making things worse and worse

(Wyfy)
I know it’s my fault I’m hurt
Was at the bottom, now I’m worse and
i don't know if i'll ever escape

Everything’s just getting worse
You cannot show them you’re hurt
Laying outside on the dirt
Will I ever know my worth?
I know why 
I’m hurting
I wish you
Would learn me
I’m not mad
I’m not angry
I just wish somebody 
Could love me 
For me

(Is it so hard to love someone for who they are within?)
Don’t care bout my skin
Wish I could tear it off
Just leave this face I wear
At this point fuck it all
No, now this shit aint fair

Got too many hoes in my phone
And they wont just leave me alone
Don’t give a fuck about lust
All I want is some love 

(RiRi)
until my leaves fall
until they cut me down
until the past 2 years 
drove me into the ground
gnawing at my fucking skin
i couldn't get a break
her words are eating at my mind
like its a piece of cake

no you'll....
lurk for the fall
had enough, oh i pray for them all

(Wyfy)
Everything’s just getting worse
You cannot show them you’re hurt
Laying outside on the dirt
Will I ever know my worth?
I know why 
I’m hurting
I wish you
Would learn me
I’m not mad
I’m not angry
I just wish somebody 
Could love me 
For me
Wish I could tear it off
Just leave this face I wear
At this point fuck it all
No, now this shit aint fair

skin (feat. RiRi)

[LYRICS]
i been tryna get on
headlines headlines 
but im frozen like a deer in front of headlights 
and i wanna make it clear that nothings alright 
seems like everything i feared is right by my side 
oh i swear to god it’s like they’ll never notice 
talk to me like i’m some sort of bonus 
im nobody you’re nobody important 
all the vices that i carry make me dormant 

i’m feeling a rush going right through my blood 
then it disappears and it makes my body numb 
i’ve been feeling so vacant and i’m still patiently waiting  
i’ve been fucking up my life for no reason drugs and pretty faces my weakness 
praying night and day oh jesus 
ill accept the last resort when hell freezes 
oh i cant simply forget it 
i’m just a low life a peasant 
and i would kill just to get it
a life that i’d never step in
thats why im tryna get on

headlines headlines
but im frozen like a deer in front of headlights 
and i wanna make it clear that nothings alright 
seems like everything i feared is right by my side 
oh i swear to god it’s like they’ll never notice 
talk to me like i’m some sort of bonus 
im nobody you’re nobody important 
all the vices that i carry make me dormant

HEADLINES

HEADLINES [happytears x fxckyeahako]

my time

first song

prod acey (i didn't use the full beat)

lyrics:

looks like you're gone again and i know that it's my fault
throw me down, scrape my knees in the asphalt
if it were for you, i'd take that fall
if it were from you, i'd heed that call
that sound is lost
i can't stay strong

do you ever look outside
assume that everything is fine
i pray that you come back inside
and say you love me once or twice
i think i understand this feeling
this pain, it ain't receeding
i don't think i'm fine
kinda hope i die tonight

heed (acey)

nightfall

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