i got fired from my job
my room's a mess
dressed like a slob
and i feel great!
no, i feel great

dr. pepper cans scattered cross the desk
and im not sure what'll happen next
but it'd be nice
to catch a break

im missing strawberry summers
taking sheets out from the covers
and i, dont mean to bother
but it's fading by the hour
gotta get this off my chest
and tell you that i wish the best

strawberry summers

this one goes out to all the dads out there

lyrics:
hit him from the back
now he hershey
fuck a chain
want a diamond stutted furby
paint on my nails
and there's bleach in my hair
down on my knees
like im saying a prayer

i fucked your dad bitch
i fucked your dad 
i fucked your dad bitch
i fucked your dad 
i fucked, sucked, dicked, hit,
tore that shit
like a christmas gift
from my wishlist
you don't have to witness
cause he so aDICKted
ahah get it

(that was a dick joke)

austtYYYYYYYN this is literally the most
ridiculous thing anyone has ever sent me
and i just want you to know youre a legend
and i cant believe this is a real song you made
ok lets hit it

oh oh oh said you want me
on the bottom
play count's down
so you got what you wanted

im so stupid
so fucking stupid
thats not what you meant
im so fucking stupid

oh oh oh said you want me on the bottom
crop top off, and im feeling like i wanna
(FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK)

im so stupid
so fucking stupid
thats not what you meant
im so fucking stupid

oh oh oh said you only use protection
limiter on so that doesnt get distorted

im so stupid
so fucking stupid
thats not what you meant
im so fucking stupid

i fucked your dad bitch
i fucked your dad 
i fucked your dad bitch
i fucked your dad 
i fucked, sucked, dicked, hit,
tore that shit
like a christmas gift
from my wishlist
you don't have to witness
cause he so aDICKted

(((song i made 3 years ago when i was finally able to accept myself)))

dilf (ft. button maker)

lyrics:
fairy tales don’t always have a happy ending 
play pretend
and hope and pray it’s everlasting
sweet escape
my fears are running right beside me
looks like i’ve got no time to waste

head over heels
i was falling
didn’t pick up the signs
as they called me 
feeling the waves
as they’re crashing
down

when i said i was fine
i meant it
focus on the times
when i feel alive
i just wanna be the same
i want something real
i just wanna be the way i used to be
before the blasphemy
causing my entropy 
it must be bittersweet 
but 
i don’t know how to feel
i just want something 
real

hate my head
its a secret enemy
gave my best
best that i could be
got my head on sweet
used to kill myself
just a joke forever lasting
marry, kill
just gone fuck me in the end
just gone fuck me in the ending
marry, kill
just gone fuck me in the ending

when i said i was fine
i meant it
focus on the times
when i feel alive
i just wanna be the same
i want something real
i just wanna be the way i used to be
before the blasphemy
causing my entropy 
it must be bittersweet 
but 
i don’t know how to feel
i just want something 
real

bittersweet (ft. kissherguts)

lemme see if i can get the lyrics correct off dome

i decided not to cry today
feeling sorry for myself
but ill be okay one day
always online
people posting pictures on my timeline
ispy
with my little eye
something's not right
((not right))
walking home in the dark night
hard to make it home
when you dont recognize the street signs
think i need to rewind
i just need some me time
((i just need some me time))

now i know i made her mad
when she left me in the parking lot
im walking home 
tryna figure out
how to collect my thoughts
they told me life was just a game
and i dont give no fucks
just put a bullet in my head
im tryna test my luck
walkin through the grave
just tryna figure out
where my headstone
callin up my ex
to figure out 
what i did wrong
she didnt pick up 
i dont know what i expected though
find another reason to open my script
of lexapro
you can see that
ispy with my eye
that somethings not right
monsters all up under my bed
i cant see tonight
walking to the underpass
debating suicide
wake up do it over again
forget bout last night 
ispy with my eye
that somethings not right
ispy with my eye
that somethings not right
ispy with my eye
that somethings not right
ispy with my eye
that somethings not right

but i do it all over again
flipping different pages
tryna find the shells in the sand
with my head in my hands
tryna figure out what i did wrong
but i cant pretend that i was innocent
tryna build me up 
to break my confidence
didnt give a fuck
and it was evident 
shouldve seen right through the lies
you told me last year

now i know i made her mad
when she left me in the parking lot
im walking home 
tryna figure out
how to collect my thoughts
they told me life was just a game
and i dont give no fucks
just put a bullet in my head
im tryna test my luck
walkin through the grave
just tryna figure out
where my headstone
callin up my ex
to figure out 
what i did wrong
she didnt pick up 
i dont know what i expected though
find another reason to open my script
of lexapro
you can see that
ispy with my eye
that somethings not right
monsters all up under my bed
i cant see tonight
walking to the underpass
debating suicide
wake up do it over again
forget bout last night 
ispy with my eye
that somethings not right
ispy with my eye
that somethings not right
ispy with my eye
that somethings not right
ispy with my eye
that somethings not right

i did pretty good ngl

music vid

ispy (ft. swazy*)

rouri404 - narcissist (austyn remix)

eraser (ft. dylan longworth) [prod. austyn x dylan x ubi]

edit 1/14/23: i was in my d*riacore era if you couldn't tell and this was originally for a bonus track on views from outside my bedroom window - my first ever ep

d*ryacore with a y

tsubi club - burbank house (austyn remix)

edit: 1/14/23: i just found sketchywav and milye around this time and wanted to make music like them so badly LOL shoutout sketchywav and milye

silly little beat

presave all eyes on me!
https://ffm.to/alleyyesonme

prod me with extra guitar from wishlane : )

lyrics:

taking out my anger on my friends
keep it pent up in my head
i don't have a tower to defend
do their feelings change when i'm not around
hardly ever at the party
ask me if im okay, hardly
feelings change
and people grow
the hardest part is learning to let go

layered in sarcasm
falling through the chasm
im, chasing whats beneath
but i can't seem to swim that far
chase it down with another drink
who gives a fuck bout what they think 
chase it down with another drink
who gives a fuck bout what they think

i do.

cos its like 19 years
ive told myself that this
was for the best
with my ego filled with
bulletholes and my hands
held to my chest
and if i wasnt such a coward
this needle would have
another thread
and if i werent so superficial
this chapter would have a different end

blame it on sarcasm
when im falling through the chasm
ill be chasing whats beneath
but i cant seem to scream that far
chase it down with another drink
who gives a fuck about what they think
chase it down with another drink
who gives a fuck about what they think

i do.

STEMS

i do (ft. wishlane)

lyrics:

all eyes on me 
i can't take the
pressure of being seen
but how on earth
am i supposed to
live my dream
hiding in the shadows 
of my fears

lately don't feel like myself
i can't feel like before
secrets and whispers
the first thing i hear
through the door
i hate burning bridges
i can't take this shit anymore
bury my bones in a bottle
im sick to the core

all eyes on me 
i can't take the
pressure of being seen
but how on earth
am i supposed to
live my dream
hiding in the shadows 
of my fears

i can't let go
of the feelings of
hopelessness
filling the void
with distractions
im so close to
giving it up 
i can't give a fuck
about what people
think about me
cause im trying my hardest
im trying my best
to please certain people
can't forget about the rest
so ill scream from my lungs
and ill say it with my chest
i dont need the validation
but it wouldn't hurt coming from you

lately don't feel like myself
i can't feel like before
secrets and whispers
the first thing i hear
through the door
i hate burning bridges
i can't take this shit anymore
bury my bones in a bottle
im sick to the core

all eyes on me 
i can't take the
pressure of being seen
but how on earth
am i supposed to
live my dream
hiding in the shadows 
of my fears

all eyes on me

saoirse dream & cmten - doitrightback (austyn remix)

lyrics: 
[austyn]
i ache
im at the bottom
of the bottle 
and i 
cant shake
i got a feeling
in my bones
wont be here longer
than i have to 
lot less stronger
than i used to be
got a long road ahead of me
(sometimes i-)

cause im wasting away
and i got nothing to show
ive been getting so high 
so i stop feeling as low
as i have
i wish you had my back
there'd be so many nights
that i would spend all alone
with a tear in my eye
and memories on my phone
i dont know
where to go 
from here

[swazy]
i been shining lights
in the lighthouse 
my whole life been stuck
in the dark will he ever make it out
lets find out 
mom should've put me in timeout
just a little longer 
i cant even cry now
i hope she see me gettin stronger
swim with perfect strides now
im in open water
really wanna die now
i cant even call her
shorty wanna dine out
but im losing my appetite 
all this self isolation
cant make me a socialite

i ache
im at the bottom
of the bottle 
and i 
cant shake
i got a feeling
in my bones
wont be here longer
than i have to 
lot less stronger
than i used to be
got a long road ahead of me

(sometimes i fall asleep and wish i dont wake up - sometimes)

insomnia (ft. swazy)

edit - 1/14/23

i absolutely LOVE the production on this one but i could not for the life of me write more to it so it just got left behind

Runninrunninrunnin

i miss my grandma

when u said
that i'd see
you again
didn't think
that it'd be
this long
but i hope
you look down
on me
with a smile
you can see
just how much
ive grown

but i hope
that you're proud
of me
and you smile
once you've seen
just how much
i've grown

smile

lyric video: https://youtu.be/FN6JwMYWOg4
shoutout @wishlane for the extra production & background vocals :3

he said let's just runaway
but i don't wanna go
he said let's just runaway
but i don't wanna go
he said let's just runaway
but i don't wanna go
he said let's just runaway
but i don't wanna go

he said i could take you anywhere
that u wanna be
cause life is like a picnic
when its just u & me :)
but i think he's delusional
he's down to much to drink
swam across the ocean
just for him to watch me sink

he said let's just runaway
and i might go
(i don't wanna go)
he said let's just runaway
and i might go
(i don't wanna go)
he said let's just runaway
and i might go
(i don't wanna go)
he said let's just runaway
and i might go
(i don't wanna go)

he said i could take u anywhere
that u wanna be
cause life is like a picnic
when it's just u & me :)
and baby i'm delusional
i've had to much to drink
the image in my head
of us together
makes me sink

runaway

made this song yesterday w jauntsen n i sampled omori

edit 1/14/23:
jauntsen/jasmine is one of the sweetest people ive ever met, she introduced me to omori and that was our first interaction & as soon as i finished the game i sampled it and made a song with her because it just feels right yk

i think i had a problem with the production and my vocals which is why it didnt come out originally and i was too #lazy to do anything about it

im better off alone
not one to ask for help
im on my own
second chances
lead to heartbreak
this i know
tired of picking up the pieces
been so long since i felt peace
is this my home?
is this my home?

ive always felt a burden to u
how could i be so certain so soon?
ive always felt a burden to u
how could i be so certain so soon?
ive always felt a burden to u
how could i be so certain so soon?
im pulling back the curtain
i was nothing but a burden to u
burden to u

if i knew u felt that way
it wouldn't end like this
overthinking in my bed
and now i feel like shit
close my eyes
right to a dream 
hope i don't wake up
but something haunts me
i just hope when i wake 
i don't feel lonely
only if there was a chance 
to know the old me 
it gets better
man i wish you told me
i wish you told me

i wish you told me how it felt 
can't see no darkness in ur eyes
can u tell me it was fake ur in disguise
only took a couple years to realize
i wish you told me how it felt
but now im better off alone
when i see u call i dont pick up the phone
cause this is my home

ive always felt a burden to u
how could i be so certain so soon?
ive always felt a burden to u
how could i be so certain so soon?
ive always felt a burden to u
how could i be so certain so soon?
im pulling back the curtain
i was nothing but a burden to u
burden to u

burden (ft. jauntsen)

shoutout vaeo and rouri

og song if u haven't heard it, (what are u doing): https://soundcloud.com/goreset/ed-hardy-goodbyex2002-x-31sentinel?in=danivallefamily/sets/ed-hardy-is-fucking-amazing&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

vaeo & rouri404 - ed hardy (austyn remix)

thank you @kaihaunted for the cover art :3
& thank you for all the birthday wishes!! if i reply to all of them too quick soundcloud will think im a fkn bot but know i love each n every one of you :3
obvious influences are obvious, sue me!
lyrics:
turning twentytwo
i don't have a clue
what i'm gonna do
with my life
i guess that's okay
i can rot away
in the comfort
of my bedroom

been a legal alcoholic for a year now
guess it wasn't hard to get down
like a deer in the highlights
future's coming fast
arms open wide
will i fall
or will i fly
cause ain't shit changed in a year and a half
was hoping this one's better than the year before last
if i had stuck it out
i'd have graduated college by now,,
but then i'd move on
i'd have a degree
it'd be probably worse
you gotta agree
but there's nothing i'd rather do :3

turning twentytwo
i don't have a clue
what i'm gonna do
with my life
i guess that's okay
i can rot away
in the comfort
of my bedroom

turning twentytwo
i don't have a clue
what i'm gonna do
with my life
i guess that's okay
i can rot away
in the comfort
of my bedroom

twentytwo

billy ! - lightswitch 
austyn with a y - twentytwo
austyn with a y & swazy* - ispy
gonima - cavern music (brakence remix)
user-177606669 - this will surely put an end to my abuse of underscores acapellas 2
underscores - spoiled little brat
user-177606669 - honey ham
bickle - naked
user-177606669 - running up that hill cover but i only sang the part that is currently playing in my head
kate bush - running up that hill (TOTEM remix)
still woozy & remi wolf - pool

austyn with a y @ coolsmp

my anv7 submission w @swazyhq 
and im almost outta time
future isnt looking very bright
it seems like lately
people switch up on a dime
fuck em thats alright by me
let em live their fantasy

i keep running 
i feel like id do better on my own
let me hold on to something
the sun goes down by the time i get home
was it all for nothing 
cuz lately i been feeling nothing at all
no i keep running 
aw forrest gump dont have shit on me at all
look at my fingertips 
they bruised and burned from the cigarettes 
running through my thoughts just dont put them on the internet
i been up all night thinking about us getting intimate 
no i dont wanna die before i see your face again 
demons monsters hating them 
im on fire blaziken 
im not high as i can be i think its time to blaze again
i told you im caged in my mind 
put a date on the line 
i wont make it there in time

fantasy (ft. swazy)

https://soundcloud.com/slidv
Where the rain falls
Where the water froze
And the wind blows
Where the light is gone
I sleep forever 
Where the lights shine
Where the worlds collide in the deeper end that I can’t dive in
Where the angels sing
We’ll be golden

I send you best regards
Stress and pain both make the world go round
If i promise that you'll be okay
I'll stop at nothing til you have it all
I'll give the best of me to everyone who needs a piece
I’ll fight the thunder til the rain is up a hundred feet, ill
Come back to haunt you good way if you wanted me too

Cause i don't ever see you anymore
You’re starting to let me down
Just let me lay here darling
Look at the stars uh i promise you that well be g-

Let's start a life out here
I kinda want to live life lonely 
 
I know we’re one in the same
I know we’re not gonna change though
Leave me back to be saved
And maybe i could be famous
And live forever
Where the lights shine
Where the worlds collide in the deeper end that i can’t dive in
Where the angels sing
(We’ll be golden)

Cause i don't ever see you anymore
You’re starting to let me down
Just let me lay here darling
Look at the stars uh i promise you that well be golden
(You’re starting to let me down)
(Just let me lay here darling)
(Look at the stars)
(We’ll be golden)

we'll be golden (SlidV x austyn with a y track battle)

shoutout @rawwbguitar for the extra guitar solo :3
https://www.twitch.tv/rawwbguitar 

look at the mess
you made for all to see
i know that its hard
to pull yourself together
just dont blame it on me
just dont blame it on me
just dont blame it on me
dont blame it on me

you never seem to look
me in my face
dont think you know 
what you did
but i dont know
if im alright
decisions were made
on my behalf
thats great 
think she's winning a ribbon
for all the lost time
shouldve listened to everybody
to cut ties
seems like all you wanted
was somebody to hold
and if i havent made it obvious
i wont let you go
you wont give me a reason to feel alive
ill let her leave me alone

just dont blame it on me
just dont blame it on me
just dont blame it on me
dont blame it on me

blame game (ft. oldcollin)

edit - 1/14/23: this song was for one of the last niztopia contests and i absolutely love this song and i feel like it should be out (i am doing this without checking with any one else my fault thats on me love yall though :3)

vox (in order) @noanimosity @rans0m @wheeeaty

prod @heyitsherbs & me :3

[zion]
lost in a thousand places
peace a mender to thoughts called on my mind
and i know youll never say it
but walls are broken down jehricos lie
i know
when you say my name you fall to peices
my low
dressing up the truth to leave me speechless 
never gonna fix that
guess it was a miss match
you were one of my lows
never gonna miss that
like get straight to the point no i aint fuckin with the chit chat
been spittin til the day i getta rollie where the wrist at

[ransom]
we gone pick up where we left off
i been counting blue, real fast
just like a hedgehog
steady aim through my scope
i just hit a headshot
going fast switchin lanes
i cannot kick it with lames
you said are we friends?
sorry i do not feel the same
he keep talking down
why can't you walk up
say it to my face
really i could give a shit
keep a tool on me
are you tryna get fixed
trust me you dont wanna
get caught in the mix

[wheaty]
caught in the mix, nah
came w/ protection, got katana on my hip now
you could run up, but i might just cut ya legs off
brodie got the glaive, fucc w/ us and we get pissed off
you dont wanna face off

run from the past, but the future lookin frightening
hate to admit it, i guess that was the pride in me
i got off task, kept wonderin why you lied to me
the way i see it, thats the reason why youre died to me :))

sike i meant youre dead to me*
i might go pacc another bowl to burn the memory
crazy i thought you might be the 1, you just a detriment
and ima have to send a bitch home, she say she heavensent
yall caught me in my element
 
this shit aint random, im wit ransom, thats my brethren
cross me, im gon have to crucify you, on my christ shit
aint no disciples, we a team, yea we gon get it in
but we cant do it without inciting a lil violence

niztopia challenge song 2

shoutout @buttonmaker 

seems like it was only yesterday
said everything will be okay
but you're a liar and i believed you
and all the stupid shit you'd say
but im better now
dont fuck with my head
i could go without
wanna leave this town
but the voices in my head
tryna bring me down, down, down

cause when i call you
i know you wouldnt call back
i was fucking with you heart
but its all black
but i didnt have to tell you
you knew that 
im outta sight
i cry myself to sleep at night
and it, hurts me just to know youre fine
over in a blink of an eye 
like butterfly kisses

told you that i'd call you
maybe im just on mute
maybe its all bullshit
maybe you dont miss it
what we had
way back then
you had said
once again
ended with a knife in my back 
but you dont even see it like that
million messages are on read
maybe im just better off dead
dead and gone away
ive moved on to better things

cause when i call you
i know you wouldnt call back
i was fucking with you heart
but its all black
but i didnt have to tell you
you knew that 
im outta sight
i cry myself to sleep at night
and it, hurts me just to know youre fine
over in a blink of an eye 
like butterfly kisses

cause when i call you
i know you wouldnt call back
i was fucking with you heart
but its all black
but i didnt have to tell you
you knew that 
im outta sight
i cry myself to sleep at night
and it, hurts me just to know youre fine
over in a blink of an eye 
like butterfly kisses

butterfly kisses (ft. button maker)

when you wish upon a star
your dreams they might come true
give a ring
i dont even know what you mean, girl
we'll just stay friends till then

cause you’re heartless
but you're weighing heavy on my conscious
thoughtless
all the pain you put me through
have got me feeling nauseous
stressed for the next 
staying cautious
everything you said
was some nonsense
should've known i
wasnt good enough
what you need to see that we're not meant to be so 
leave me be

slow burn of a candlelight
writing at my windowsill and waiting for the flame to die out
so when im shrouded in darkness
left alone with my conscience
i wont get lost in the here and the now

waste of my time and a waste of my ink
so many thoughts inside my brain that i got no room to think for myself
cause you faded out of sight with a wink and a smile
now im left on this island alone

*sax solo* shoutout gavin of lofty's comet

leave me be (ft. wishlane & gavin)

dont give a damn (ft. ay!jd)

i’ve been struggling lately & had to put my thoughts in song form

living in my head
wish that it was different
need to go to bed
something in the distance
wish that i was d̶e̶a̶d̶
so that i could reminisce 
all the feelings that i’ve missed
i don’t know why

down astronomical

dante red - villain (austyn remix)

sorry riley i know you're a busy man and all but you were taking too long for this to maintain relevancy ily tho

in order:
dylan longworth https://soundcloud.com/dylanlongworth
r1vyr https://soundcloud.com/r1vyr
prentiss https://soundcloud.com/1prentiss
ubi https://soundcloud.com/ubimusic
mico https://soundcloud.com/micotoronto
days https://soundcloud.com/hatedays
swazy https://soundcloud.com/swazyhq
understatement https://soundcloud.com/spookdoot
theconnorlittle https://soundcloud.com/prodtcl
quickslvr https://soundcloud.com/quickslvr
pupdates https://soundcloud.com/pupdates
button maker https://soundcloud.com/buttonmaker

lyrics:
LOL

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