there's better ways to go about the pain you feel today
everybody knows that I would put you in your place
scarfing down that alcohol a smile on your face
it breaks my heart to see you like this I don't think I can stay

anyway 
anymore
your falling out the door
you're screaming at me telling me that its my fault you're a whore
don't give you what you need just always searching for some more
the truth is, you couldn't settle, its all your fault you know

breaking my heart
its always me to blame
doing some coke
on the weekend at your place
with your friends
or so called friends I feel ashamed
I don't know the truth no more its hard to stay awake

there's better ways to go about the pain you feel today
everybody knows that I would put you in your place
scarfing down that alcohol a smile on your face
it breaks my heart to see you like this I don't think I can stay

anyway 
anymore
your falling out the door
you're screaming at me telling me that its my fault you're a whore
don't give you what you need just always searching for some more
the truth is, you couldn't settle, its all your fault you know

break it out
and break it in
run away
from your sins
you're stuck in your ways
you're family is to blame
they raised you like in idiot, I hope you'll be okay

i dont think i can stay (prod. fantasy camp)

produced by cxrter & VITO
mix & master by cxrter & evergarden
📸: Lizzy Chew

lyrics:
(greenwood)
go in circles, somewhere to know you
call it sickness, white lights and cold rooms
say my name, the dark luminates through
only made in states i'm constrained to

tell me what's the cost
something just to have
everybody else gets on easier than that
i could make a call
you could send it back
i could give you everything
just tell me what you want
i could put it all to the side
it's just a noise now
i could make it right in the end
but what's the point now
fuck it up so late the game
who i'm supposed to be
i was me, but it's really not a choice now
voice down, breathe in, breathe out
never one to fall, but i'm in so deep
dream of death when i fall asleep

white lies just complicate it
painted in colors fading
wonder why i've been so pressed
feet on top, my neck have started pressing down again

go in circles, somewhere to know you
call it sickness, white lights and cold rooms
say my name, the dark luminates through
only made in states i'm constrained to

(notcursed)
don't wanna cause a loss of my own life
my own voice don’t feel right
you called it, under the street light
i walked back alone
i’m craving for a feeling
creating my own meaning
heart drops, a fleeting
but you wouldn’t believe it
let it sink in
i can't find a reason for all the commotion
when will i learn all the parts i’m supposed to
don’t understand the new feelings that grow though

(greenwood)
go in circles, somewhere to know you
call it sickness, white lights and cold rooms
say my name, the dark luminates through
only made in states i'm constrained to

circles (prod. cxrter x vito)

produced by cxrter & threemvsk
📸: cxrter

lyrics:
broken somehow
skeletons in my closet, such a let down
trust broken into pieces, what i got now
i don’t really wanna talk and leave it all out
leave it all out, yeah i’m gone now

i’m wide awake still
yeah i’m here still
in a past thrill
threw it all away out the door
why do i care anymore
my dreams all lined up on the floor
feelin like a ghost
might just comatose
know i do the most and still
i’ve been in my room
coping making tunes
been this way since june
it’s all that i…
why am i told that it’s true
when i can’t come back to you

broken somehow
skeletons in my closet, such a let down
trust broken into pieces, what i got now
i don’t really wanna talk and leave it all out
leave it all out, yeah i’m gone now
broken somehow
skeletons in my closet, such a let down
trust broken into pieces, what i got now
i don’t really wanna talk and leave it all out
leave it all out, yeah i’m gone now

gone now (prod. cxrter x threemvsk)

lyrics ⬇️
when autumns around the corner i feel much worse
cuz i like the birds
and you held my worth
i think that the time against me holds up a curse
where i can’t discern 
what did i learn

dont let me back in
i wont get anything done
cuz
up in my head i been doing enough
youre making me lust when i really want love
and your breaking my trust when im off of the drugs

so i dont wanna do this
oh i hate to shove
but just gotta do it
i gotta give it up

how could i be losing my touch
i dont wanna prove that life been rough
but everything ends when it blows into dust
and i tried to find a friend just to gimme what i want

(Casperrr)

u cursed on me a spell
or sumthing like that 
just like icarus fell
im falling with no catch
ño one hold me tight 
or keep me sight 
at least when im at the verge
of~ commiting suicide 

im sorry u rotted me to the core
just something i can't ignore 
the visual display was nasty 
and all i can see is  gore 
if u'd see it thanr u'd be bored 
i wish dat u'd change but u can't anymopre

tragic
slicing all my arteries 
bleeding out
spilling, fallin of the kitchen sink
coping now 
with what u wanted me to be 
wanted me for urself
that's why u tried to kill me 

\

artery w/casperrr (blocktane)

prod. @whos-that-clown & @yunnygoldz

LYRICS
Wake up late i always seem to miss ur texts
Things are going haywire lets recollect
Youve made up your mind im talking i aint finished yet
Sometimes i wonder if my opinions matter in your head

Oh shit, its starting, and i aint ready
Im on it  i planned it, only halfway steady
I thought about in my head but only confidence could send me
A confrontation from this front could something deadly

Feels like ive ran this route bout a million times
So i dont understand how we havent aligned 
Stars might be bending, im done here defending
And baby what's the saying, love is blind

starting to feel like do you even know me
Weve been tossing all of our habits, i still love you wholly
Well holy ghost, i love her the most, shes my shining diamond i wont ever let her go
Ive been diving thru the rough, looking up but not enough
And when push comes to shove, i guess we’ll test our love
Tryna find the confidence to get up and see the light of day
Summer turns to october that sun is gone away

Wake up late i always seem to miss ur texts
Things are going haywire lets recollect
Youve made up your mind im talking i aint finished yet
Sometimes i wonder if my opinions matter in your head

Oh shit, its starting, and i aint ready
Im on it  i planned it, only halfway steady
I thought about in my head but only confidence could send me
A confrontation from this front could something deadly

Feels like ive ran this route bout a million times
So i dont understand how we havent aligned 
Stars might be bending, im done here defending
And baby what's the saying, love is blind


love is blind [prod. the sound clown x yunny goldz]

produced by Vito
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez

lyrics

another day where i wake up at 12pm
i hate myself, im a waste now and i was then
im still around but im careful where my time is spent 
hush, not a sound, let the silence slowly take you in

i was war with myself but i think that i’ve lost
a piece of my soul fell to hell and i can’t pay the cost
blood on my coat from the wounds that i cant cover up
im sinkin the boat cuz id rather drown then live corrupt 

i run, away from most my problems im like a loaded gun
it just take one whole shot to ruin all the fun
you’ve had at my expense don’t waste your breath i’m done… done, you fuckin won

another day where i wake up at 12pm
i hate myself, im a waste now and i was then
im still around but im careful where my time is spent 
hush, not a sound, let the silence slowly take you 

i feel the warmth of your hands wrap around me now
i feel my body start to levitate above the ground 
i close my eyes and numb my brain and shut my jaw-dropped mouth
cause i listened when i hear the void speak “not a sound”

now we might as well go back to the beginning 
see if anyone else was ever listening 
and if they weren’t i’m sure the sight is very sickening 
a life in solace is probably never happening 

another day where i wake up at 12pm
i hate myself, im a waste now and i was then
im still around but im careful where my time is spent 
hush, not a sound, let the silence slowly take you in

12pm (vito)

i love you w/ notahero (neverforever)

lyrics ⬇️

no i cant be here im not attached
and i apologize dear but its too bad
yea i spent a couple crummy years
and now i lack
everything i could of gained while we were sad

you cant keep up w these options
left and right you be tossin these questions to me
dont expect itd be awesome
theres not much to see

like cordoroy im waitin here while feelin like a beast
out of my mind and down on my knees
you can tell me what i needed to be
gettin so cold out that i start to freeze
double the crutches get stompped by the cleats
u dont need nothin u wanted from me
ima be further away from the scene
i dont want nothin to do w the beans
im crossin my arms when you show em to me
turnin up everything before i leave
im makin my mark i want em to see
where i would be 
where i would be if i didnt have grief
ill put down my gaurd and ill make em believe 
yea i been to places that i couldnt reach

send me a shot 
hit witta bat
outta the park
not comin back
no time soon
yea thats a fact
a big monsoon
changing the current track

yea yea i wanna lay there but not on a mat
yea yea i feel the cold air surface into the flat
yea yea maybe its all i got maybe its all i have
racin until im gone baby i feel like a stag

comin up- a dry time
double up my life line
and i dont wanna tell a bad lie
but its hard with your eyes

and you were all i wanted
then you broke a promise
it wouldnt be too classy
if im being honest

a compromise dont seem much if it already seems overwith
put a tripod in the hallway then ill wait to see if the camera glitch
got phasmephobia fearin all the ghost thatll be comin in
walk far til im clearin my system and ill settle in

yea gentlemen
cold hearts spark adrenaline 
had a bold start but you tremblin now
old cards got me holdin my ground

i cant be here im not attached
and i apologize dear but its too bad
i spent a couple crummy years
and now i lack
everything i could of gained while we were sad

monsoon (yunnygoldz)

back at it .wav

LiL MELLY-Notes (prod.Imperial)

Who you are? (prod. Jammy x Jkei)

Chicagoland Producer 💜🖤🩶🤍 | 20 | 🧠♾️ @miserygxrden
(Prod.) Credits: @lilskeleskrrt @emofruits @vito2300 @denverkell @autumndropsdead

gone now (prod. cxrter x threemvsk)

🥀 cxrter 🖤