hope you enjoy, or something <3 :")
prod. @user-230494921 <3

𝘪 𝘴𝘦𝘦 𝘯𝘰𝘸, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘤𝘪𝘳𝘤𝘶𝘮𝘴𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘰𝘯𝘦'𝘴 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘪𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘦𝘷𝘢𝘯𝘵.
𝘪𝘵 𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘰 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘨𝘪𝘧𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦, 
𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘥𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘦𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘰 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘳𝘦.

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

she said i'm "hella right"
everything i say past three is hella right
and the night time 
welcomes me with open arms to tight bind
bright lights; everybody trusts it
i don't trust it at all
i'm terrified right now
wish i could give you a call :(

i overthink and scrap everything
i'm trapped behind these bars
that you could never see
a majority of the time
i'm disgusted by the industry
but if it's okay with you
then it's okay with me aswell

as the essence surrounds me 
and corrupts my soul
what a blinding gaze
i wish i could break it's hold
as i'm marching through a land
that is unknownst to me
i've only seen it inside of my dreams

(2x)
down on all fours, like a dog speakin' prayers
if i miss a call, it was on purpose, i swear
yellow-tainted teeth biting down into my hair
if i'm meaning what i preach
would my god even care?

purple fingers
makes these feelings linger
been staring into empty space
for way too long
caught up on what is "right"
and what is "wrong"

i thought about her
again, last night
again (3x)
last night

these thoughts give me dopa- 
dopamine
as long as i believe they're real

it always comes back to this...

would my god even care [prod. 4lexf]

bluff w/ Weepings & Ally Holloway (prod. jody)

:)

prod by this actual goober https://soundcloud.com/not-a-fucking-hero

https://twitter.com/DreamsYokai

stream: https://open.spotify.com/album/4SO6le1LMvrTajvgMq4eDY?si=7J4D5kgbSfiFLWqVohv-Ew

lyrics:

where do we go from here?
i don't really know
no, i don't really know much
got a lot on my conscience
bear the weight
only cuz you tell me that it's nonsense
try to stay calm
but my mind is a moshpit
and it's growing obnoxious

spend another late night
driving back from your place
didn't wanna stay there
i can't get to bed if i don't feel like i'm alone
cuz otherwise i think too much
they tell me live a real life
i am not familiar with what that would even feel like
i cannot relate to the feelings that you know
but you don't understand that much

i'll write you letters and letters and hope that you read them and call
don't think you read them at all

i'll write you letters and letters and hope that you read them and call
don't think you read them at all

apophenia (hero)

@reject333
@not-a-fucking-hero

maybe im not good enough
for you to gimme all ur love
i rly miss ur fuckin touch
so ima let out all my blood

dont take the knife away from me
there aint a point in savin me
my current state youd hate to see
so ill just end it hastily

ur make believe
i dont wanna be what u make me to be
and i dont wanna dissapoint my family
but this whole damn time nobody was there for me

so ill go


dont really wanna go but i know i cant stay
in the back of my mind voices takin their place
everybody linin up for the start of the race
when i hear the gunshot i cant keep the same pace

take a 9 millimeter to the side of my face 
so i dont have to sit here and count down the days
take a chunk of my flesh just to get you a taste
when i die fuckin happy ill be a disgrace

and i dont want my legacy to go to waste
so the fame and immortality is what ima chase
but everything i want is stuck behind a lens painted grey
i cant make out the faces cant make out the shapes 

[popularreject:]
baby im not good enough 
for you to even give a fuck 
my hands are tied 
my wrists are cut 
and ima drain out all my blood
you arent where youre supposed to be
you belong here close to me 
and ive been thinking overly 
you arent where youre supposed to be 
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
smoking so much i fill my chest up
im not the best but im doing better
lifes a mess youre fine then whatever.
you dont want me alive and thats messed up
babygirl jus-

HOLD ON
COULD YOU HELP ME HOME
LET ME KNOW
GIVE ME HOPE
HOW LONG
YOU COULDN'T HELP ME I'M TOO GONE
HOW LONG
HOW LONG
i need a change right now
could someone fuckin notice
in jus a couple days
went thru a couple pounds of potent
its generic as fuck but i'm really on my own
SHIT
that's jus the show biz is what they say
is what they say
is what they say

disgrace

disgrace w/ popularreject (hero)

Lyrics:

it makes me nauseous
i think of her with him and him with her
and honest
i can't see you with any other person
the way you disregard me makes me feel so worthless
-
at 11 i was flirting with adults on some porn shit
at 13 i was watching that brutal bestgore shit
from 17 to 20 living life as a shut in
my deadbeat dad fucked a whore and i lost it
you can't try now think i'm jus gon ignore it
spent nearly 5 digits for a sense of importance

i've done it all 
but go through the motions
and life's on my plate
so i’m sorry i forfeit
-
i don't need your help
i just need a purpose

what the hell am i doing
i spend my life in a sorrow and i don't try to improve it
knockin off my early death goals n to do lists
can't die at 23 and say that i didn't do shit

i never fuckin try cuz i'm jus scared of losing
thoughts of suicide and the sky got a hue it's
blood red i admire the view
and as life rolls forth i'll keep on chugging the music
i think i love you
but i don't like the way you treat me when it comes to us two
i don't really wanna fuck
i just wanna fall in love
i just wanna be someone ur used to

it makes me nauseous
i think of her with him and him with her
and honest
i can't see you with any other person
the way you disregard me makes me feel so worthless
-
at 11 i was flirting with adults on some porn shit
at 13 i was watching that brutal bestgore shit
from 17 to 20 living life as a shut in
my deadbeat dad fucked a whore and i lost it
you can't try now think i'm jus gon ignore it
spent nearly 5 digits for a sense of importance

i've done it all 
but go through the motions
and life's on my plate
so i’m sorry i forfeit
-
i don't need your help
i just need a purpose

what the hell am i doing
i spend my life in a sorrow and i don't try to improve it
knockin off my early death goals n to do lists
can't die at 23 and say that i didn't do shit

i never fuckin try cuz i'm jus scared of losing
thoughts of suicide and the sky got a hue it's
blood red i admire the view
and as life rolls forth i'll keep on chugging the music
i think i love you
but i don't like the way you treat me when it comes to us two
i don't really wanna fuck
i just wanna fall in love
i just wanna be someone ur used to

nauseous (apc)

prod me

sick & haven't been able to record much of anything for some time now, but i wanted to get something out both for myself, and possibly you;
been sitting on this one for a while
hope you enjoy.
take care

hey, i'll trade you for your sorrows
i've grown used to feeling that
and if we're talking 'bout tomorrows
i've grown used to losing them too

the voices i read with my ears, tend to bleed
choking up every piece of the letters i speak
wasn't always afraid of the pictures i paint
guess the brush needs a wash, mutilate, then repeat

hate when i reach out again
people speculate my head
you're not me, you're not my friend
frequently, wish i was..

thoughts reflected through my brain
too bad they can't do the same
shattered past and future pains
guide me home through rough terrain

i'm ugly with words
keep it blunt, little passive
hoping that i'll make it up with some actions
feel so trash, bounce back like elastic
i'm doing that for the sake of my casket
hurting myself in a hope i'll be gone
suck how the ones that we trust do you wrong
playing along
it's not even fair i can bare all the tears that i've once undergone

this life makes me sick; can't trade it
i've been pushing through the lame shit
stay averted; bad relations
let my room for hate stay vacant
pour it all on my own psyche
ain't no one 'round here feel like me
it's not a nice thing
never sight-see inside my mind
i'm mostly agonizing

i told them it'd be okay
it sure as hell don't feel that way
your limitations never stay
you're pulling pins to thought grenades

it's all the same
cast a wave and send me to a sunken grave
only then i'll know my place

woke up in a sweat so cold
in a room pale white, and a heart full of woe
passed out 'round noon, now i'm ten on my toes
from the sun's red hue, passed through what imposed
any chafe on my brain by the stains from the mulch
what kind of weight doesn't make you implode?
phasing a gate into heaven's abode
but that ain't a place i ain't think imma know

i haven't changed my sheets in like a week or two
(get outta bed)
summer's passed, and suddenly, our meanings too
(it's all that i have)

my eyes stayed tied into my mind
to undermine it's barbed wires

i'm trying to be what i need
choosing escape over delicacies
they weren't a choice i would seek
nothing was ever created for me

(4x)
i'm trying to be what i need

mulch

Away With Me (feat. Unknxwn.)

Sad chill - https://youtu.be/D5nlv64abY0?si=AyfLKLpZt0bGqaF2

lyrics ⬇️

crashin in a whole nother land
maybe this was not part of the plan
baby i just wanna hold your hand
way too long for me to even wanna let go

oh i wish you could understand 
but nothing that i do could make you really understand how

every person after you is worse off
and they wish they never met me in the first place

knock down
everysingle picture frame that im in
what about
all of those big diamonds and the necklaces
time out
cant you look at all those messages?
shy now
how could you become my nemesis 

no dont go
blue flowers remind me of you
yea i wish now days you didnt think i was rude

yea well ever since i left you, you dont want anything to do
with me
never got to even really see
our full potential could be
nothing cuz you had to leave me

why you always up in my mind
so long i bet you don’t recognize 
who i became when you had left
im barley the same but you wont check

Long nights i was locked up in my room
Like prom night, thought i had nothing i could lose
then i lost it all the second that you walked away
so now i hold my breath every songle other day

i wish that we got to go to the beach
let down never got to see the sea
never rest now
our love is lost like a receit
youre not nothing to me
but i hope one day we could work out

shy now (yunnygoldz)

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy

lyrics:

whenever you sleep
can you picture urself right next to me?
whenever you breathe
does my scent give u a sense of relief?

or maybe i’m wrong
or please tell me i’m right
or maybe i’m wrong
or maybe i’m stupid for making this song
about loosing

my love
she broke my trust
and now i can’t feel
nothing feels real
i’m growing numb
why did i choose you
oh if i knew
that you would’ve left
i would’ve held u one last time again

my mind just likes to imagine
if we stayed together tell what would happened?
cuz i’m not too sure
if we would’ve worked
maybe our love is disguised as a curse 
maybe it was all just doomed from the start
she loves me
she loves me not
loves me 
she loves me not
picking the pedals is all i have got
under the moon with no people involved

or maybe i’m wrong
or please tell me i’m right
or maybe i’m wrong
or maybe i’m stupid for making this song
about loosing


my love
she broke my trust
and now i can’t feel
nothing feels real
i’m growing numb
why did i choose you
oh if i knew
that you would’ve left
i would’ve held u one last time again

scars

Poptart!

@xweepings

Produced by R3DQX x luffy

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

I told you I wouldn't leave, you told me, you wanna go
All those flags that I would see, didn't wanna believe, I didn't know
I was so caught up in my own pathetic lil world didn't care bout yours
Or maybe I did and you just told me how I was shit till that was the only

Way that I could see myself, I don't think I can be helped now
All that I wanted was death, I'm tryna get back my breathe now
I know I say some things that could be taken the wrong way
If you could see in my brain, prolly would take it the wrong way

Cause I know that I'm different, most people wouldn't get it
I don't care bout an image, I care bout what I'm feeling
Even if I say I don't, even if I make myself believe
That death is what I really want cause I'm still here tryna live my dream

But I'm stuck in a nightmare and I don't really like it
I don't wanna go fight fear so I just fucking hide it
Nothing but this music really gets me excited
I'll choose this over you and I don't care if you don't like it

Cause this is all I had when I was on the brink back then
With everything that happened, my music was my bandage
My music was my savior whenever there was danger
There ain't nothing safer, not even my maker

| weepings |

I would choose music over her in a second
I'm scared of my dreams but each day they still beckon
I got a voice that I use as a weapon
I take all my pain and turn that to a record
Got many addictions I'd rather not mention
I struggle each day just to pick up the pencil
I don't wanna run from my own potential
At war with myself I constantly wrestle

Look up in the mirror; I don't know that face no more
Clear liquor gone burn my fate, still pour
Got a pain in my gut but I still ignore
Sure it's clear as day but at night need more
When I lost you, lost a piece of myself
Never thought you was the type to bring hell
Now I'm going back to school
Feels like a white flag but does not conclude this shit

weepings & unknxwn. - not even.

Contact info: yuhboybigd@gmail.com 

my snapchat is @yaboydrios lotta reckless dum shit goin on there

Away With Me (feat. Unknxwn.)

Rios Mios