linktr.ee/ripavah
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lyrics:

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on my way to fixing mental health
and i cant find myself,cause im unfindable
its like, everyone i know says im getting better but 
im still struggling to get up out my bed i need

everyone around me's tryna leave me for fame
not noone in particular bitch im going insane
guess ill move on to the next, so get out of my lane
and every friend that i meet just seems to leave me in pain

im fucked up, in my god damn head
and if i keep this up, i might just end up dead
and im thinking bout the reasons where i needed to leave you
and i cant find them now, so theres no reason to see you

im a fighter, you're a liar
wouldn't pick you if it was even dire
i'm not really sure about the times
it took me even longer to realize

im a fuckin dissapointment ):
i think u can relate too
we're stuck here with the same view
we're not here with the same tools

out the current squad
in with the new gang
when im with my new friends
i never feel the same again

...

everyone around me's tryna leave me for fame
not noone in particular bitch im going insane
guess ill move on to the next, so get out of my lane
and every friend that i meet just seems to leave me in pain

im fucked up, in my god damn head
and if i keep this up, i might just end up dead
and im thinking bout the reasons where i needed to leave you
and i cant find them now, so theres no reason to see you

instagram

new friends again (taymxru)

fear (siemspark & 80root)

9.4.2021
im about as see through as plastic on a good day

mixed by https://soundcloud.com/tixwmmy
prod https://soundcloud.com/ninewaters

Lyrics:

[Intro]
i tried to write a song
tried to do the right thing tried to be the one that eveyrone wants

[Hook]
call me when you need me
only love me when your down 
when ur up i guess im nothing to you

every single waking second wanna kill myself
but i guess that im worthless to you

everytime that im feeling in the worst way
she dont wanna talk say
"right now im busy okay"

but when it rolls around to the next day
then she wanna cry away
i think that im going insane

[Verse]
if im being honest i think that i wanna die
i dont really have a single thing live for 
if im being honest then today i grabbed a knife
drew a line felt the best i ever have glad i sinned for 

sinned for the pain
swear agony it makes my day
watch the blood drip down on my hilt

i have lust for adrenaline
i dont wanna breathe
so ill pierce my lungs
snort an ady so ill get the job done

[Bridge]
call my line ask if im all right
got a blade in my thigh
and im thinking suicide
i dont wanna make you cry
so i guess i have to lie
gotta live another day
just to give you peace of mind

swear that every other day i have a crisis
"i dont let it on" so i put it in my songs then
why am i the one they always come to
"tix i wanna die"
ill pretend im not the same
ill just lie and im say im fine

[Hook]

Fin

agony (ninewaters)

i dnt rlly 
get wht u see in him
im not rlly 
scared of competition i wont stay a friend

see (guda)

produced by @bhertuy
LISTEN EVERYWHERE - https://ffm.to/lumina

dissolve my existence 
fade me away with the wind
so sick of your bullshit I will not let you win
I don't give a shit what you want
and I'm done with your games 
I don't have a hand to lend
and the weathers been so fucking shit lately
but it's only in my head
it's only in my head
but it's only in my head
FUCK..

its the way I always think 
I get stuck all up in these trends
as I pace back and forth and I wonder when it will fix it self
I wonder when I will feel in good health
my perspective feels so fucked up
wonder is it something I've done
the pressure sure just weighs a fuck ton
and if I give up now its all wrong
don't fucking cross me now
it'll all come back to bite you
treat me so wrong all I did was try to help you
but you keep on telling me that its only in my head

how do you know where I'll go from here
how do you know that it's not severe
you don't know me like that
so I'll keep on telling myself it's okay
but it's not, and I know it's not only in my head

dissolve my existence 
fade me away with the wind
so sick of your bullshit I will not let you win
I don't give a shit what you want
and I'm done with your games 
I don't have a hand to lend
and the weathers been so fucking shit lately
but it's only in my head
it's only in my head
but it's only in my head
FUCK..

lumina

dissolve

Stream

dissolve (bhertuy)

Still Stressed

Stay

the marksman w/ march22nd (jolst x pekarot)

@ripavah everywhere
lyrics below
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happiness
something to strive for
you and i
we take it out on us

take me out my love
give me all your touch

look im running, screaming, sleeping, digging through all that i had left
everybody tells me that its true but i don't know
you love me
i need to love you back

happiness, depression, baby girl it's such a rollercoaster
i don't need some money i just need you just for you
one last time
i'll take you give you time

i, i don't really know anymore
life's still shit it's a chore

but you don't care?
i know about you more
fuck this
i don't know who's wrong

and who's right
and who's life just to care about more
maybe it's you, just you
yeah for sure

look im running, screaming, sleeping, digging through all that i had left
everybody tells me that its true but i don't know
you love me
i need to love you back

happiness, depression, baby girl it's such a rollercoaster
i don't need some money i just need you just for you
one last time
i'll take you give you time

endgame (p. sunlight)

the start of something new
https://linktr.ee/ripavah

lyrics:
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its like she rised me up from death, while i was at my lowest   
feels like im stuck in an endless loop of bad guys, and bad bad feelings
but im alone again, atleast im better off now
at best im not with her, trying to fix her mental health

but you're untreated, and that's worse
you seem to coherse me into things, im a guy so that means that you all won't help

but im trapped in life
every girl wants a guy whos like me
not really sure if they should change their id
but i don't really know if you're attracted to my team

so fuck this world, i hate my body
i hate myself, and i hate this life
so ill jump off a bridge then i guess ill die
and you're just faking it
for the clicks and the streams
you dont know what it means
just to slander for some clout you're a piece of meat
and that's all you'll be

and that's all we'll see
behind the scenes, you're a fraud and a fiend
lost my friends to the games and the soda
she stabbed me in the back ion know if i know her

but it's all for you
changed myself just to fit your standards
gave up my soul for my fix it wont hamper
all the other guys i don't get their pain, ugh

cause i don't have their problems
and i don't know how to solve them
cause im stuck in place
stuck in my body and im feeling fake

...

so fuck this world, i hate my body
i hate myself, and i hate this life
so ill jump off a bridge then i guess ill die
and you're just faking it
for the clicks and the streams
you dont know what it means
just to slander for some clout you're a piece of meat
and that's all you'll be

chamber (shadow)

prod by sunlight & avah 🖤
linktr.ee/ripavah
lyrics:

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first she said i'll hold you
im tryna find what's next
i really miss the old you
cause im all you have left

i don't really care about you staying with me i moved on
ive been getting better ive been feeling kinda better off
thinking bout my future ive been tryna sing some better songs
im not tryna put it off but im not gonna stay for long

manifesting for the times i can see you
you're so gorgeous, girl i wanna be you
why you tryna use me get the fuck up out my face
i was asking for the times where i could take you on a date i,

feel like you i lost my balance
stuck in place im trapped on an island
running out of time im staring at the clock
why you seem to run dont get trapped up on a rock

fuck this life im dead, so ima run from this problem yeah she's in my head
so ima kill myself to this god damn song, so ima run away and stay all night long

...

i don't really care about you staying with me i moved on
ive been getting better ive been feeling kinda better off
thinking bout my future ive been tryna sing some better songs
im not tryna put it off but im not gonna stay for long

manifesting for the times i can see you
you're so gorgeous, girl i wanna be you
why you tryna use me get the fuck up out my face
i was asking for the times where i could take you on a date i,

stay (sunlight)

Back for the love of the game
The hyperpop king 💛