artwork by ouch591 on IG! https://www.instagram.com/ouch591/

vocal mixing is garbage, not sure if I want to upload this anywhere else yet so SoundCloud heard it first. 

edit: I think the vocals sound a tad bit better now not sure I replaced the original file with the newly mixed one.

Lyrics:

I have to be the better man now
I never even got to ask how
I have to be the better man now
and if I don’t they’ll always look down 

I’m at the bottom,
still getting deeper but it aunt a new problem 
but it gets worse, every time I try to solve em 
tryna keep it steady I’ve been tryna keep it solid
didn’t mean to pick it but I somehow still got em
no how many times I try to rearrange I pick the same mistakes again,
sometimes I wonder why and wonder how
but maybe that's just who I am

the demons in my head I try lock away
it’s makes no sense no matter what I do they stay
so what if I can’t get any better after all
will I become the man that I despise

I have to be the better man now
I never even got to ask how
I have to be the better man now
and if I don’t they’ll always look down 

please you gotta understand I’m clueless
nothings making sense to me and I don't wanna do this 
I didn't choose it, fuck I didn't choose it
man I wanna lose it this just confusing me 
lightheaded I gotta make some decisions
it’s normal I know it isn’t
I’m just tryna make it seem like it’s worth it 
like it’s worth it 

I have to be the better man now
I never even got to ask how
I have to be the better man now
and if I don’t they’ll always look down 

I don't know how to do this
nobody askin 
I never saw it in me

I’m just tryin make it
tryin my hardest 
but you don’t ever ask me

collapse (demo)

take care of yourself

clean friends
@lushroom
@616ayelmao
@jazjellykelly
@cdotc
@maggery
@gylsmusic
@quibby

静けさ - shizukesa

alt rap
[Ｔｉｍｅｌｅｓｓ]
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influences: aries, 9tails + sewerperson, shinigami, kevin kazi, 49bags, guardin, atlas, noname

Basically used to work as an "aspiring game dev" before giving up on that almost entirely. These tracks are, to a degree, what I still have of those days. Made with Groovepad, so don't expect much. What you see is what you get. 
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I've also decided to upload the OST for Blader Jam, since I think it's pretty decent background music. It was actually the game that introduced to me Beyblade, so I owe a lot to it. 

Only using this til I get access to Apple Music

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collapse (demo)

sanjay.