artwork by ouch591 on IG! https://www.instagram.com/ouch591/

vocal mixing is garbage, not sure if I want to upload this anywhere else yet so SoundCloud heard it first. 

edit: I think the vocals sound a tad bit better now not sure I replaced the original file with the newly mixed one.

Lyrics:

I have to be the better man now
I never even got to ask how
I have to be the better man now
and if I don’t they’ll always look down 

I’m at the bottom,
still getting deeper but it aunt a new problem 
but it gets worse, every time I try to solve em 
tryna keep it steady I’ve been tryna keep it solid
didn’t mean to pick it but I somehow still got em
no how many times I try to rearrange I pick the same mistakes again,
sometimes I wonder why and wonder how
but maybe that's just who I am

the demons in my head I try lock away
it’s makes no sense no matter what I do they stay
so what if I can’t get any better after all
will I become the man that I despise

I have to be the better man now
I never even got to ask how
I have to be the better man now
and if I don’t they’ll always look down 

please you gotta understand I’m clueless
nothings making sense to me and I don't wanna do this 
I didn't choose it, fuck I didn't choose it
man I wanna lose it this just confusing me 
lightheaded I gotta make some decisions
it’s normal I know it isn’t
I’m just tryna make it seem like it’s worth it 
like it’s worth it 

I have to be the better man now
I never even got to ask how
I have to be the better man now
and if I don’t they’ll always look down 

I don't know how to do this
nobody askin 
I never saw it in me

I’m just tryin make it
tryin my hardest 
but you don’t ever ask me

collapse (demo)

GHOSTS!

<3 
lyrics vvv
[empty]
i needa
use the same formula i did for dead wanted
i needa
think a little bit about how im gonna get where i
really wanna be
really wanna be 
really wanna..
use the same formula i did for dead wanted
i needa
think a little bit about how im gonna get where i
really wanna be
really wanna be 
really wanna..
took ten steps back 
just to realize i was gone baby
every single night that i been writing
i been zoned baby
every single time that ive been dead
you were right besides me inside my head
think a little, think a little
i know that shit hurts
but you gotta be aware
if i really want everything,
ill prove it.
yeah ill prove it..

[casperrr]
i know you are loyal i know you're by my side
but my head keeps on telling lies
i'll keep my thoughts out of ur sight
i'm just trying to do what i think is right 
sorry didn't mean to cry 
dunno if this is love dunno if there's a why
hurting and bleeding baby u're like blade
if i hold you tighter i'll feel more pain
blood keeps on leaking from my veins 
blood on my shirt it's full of stains
i can't fucking think i'm killing what's left of my brain 
don't want all of my efforts to be in vain

[empty]
i needa
use the same formula i did for dead wanted
i needa
think a little bit about how im gonna get where i
really wanna be
really wanna be 
really wanna..
use the same formula i did for dead wanted
i needa
think a little bit about how im gonna get where i
really wanna be
really wanna be 
really wanna..

formula. w/ casperrr (splashgvng)

And please don't leave,
Said you're sorry it had to be me,
I've been looking for reasons to be,
alone in my room, where I'm meant to be
she don't understand, she don't see what I see

And baby we could take over the world too,
if only you would let me fucking hold you,
you say you got a man, like what will he do?
if only you would let me get to know you,

I don't wanna hurt you like that,
I see you watching me back,
I'm not good for your mental,
you're bad for mine back
and if stars would align,
one day you'd be mine,
don't know how to win when you lose every time

are you happy now?
does he treat you well,
coz I've been in hell,
invisioning, a better now

I keep a knife under my bed,
to fight the monsters off,
cant keep the thoughts of you away,
they tend to throw me off
I hope you're happier with him,
I know I'm not the one,
I'll never be the one

Align (prod. daks9k)

lyrics:

it’s the end of the end, we have made it
any feeling good or bad eventually grows outdated
everything has time to pass
it ripens and then withers
and the warmth found in the summer
will soon fade into the winter
and the vibrancy of leaves that fall in autumn fade to earthy tones
browns and greys surround us every sound is much more hollow now
but only going through the seasons for a season
you find out you missing out
because we human for a reason
every year is different
last year was quite the wildfire
this one imma miss it

it started with us kissing
and now you’re all i think about
i really hope you miss me

like i miss you when you leave
i don’t wanna need you just to breathe
i locked my heart inside a box for you i’ll keep it on my sleeve

i would travel across galaxies to be by your side
dodging asteroids and comets feeling colder than ice
all the cracks in my skin revealing glimpses of light
and these sights make my eyes burn i start to ignite
as the night takes over stars fill up the sky
i don’t wanna be anywhere but with you tonight

i’m a million miles from home when i’m away from you
the vegetation and the very air is different
survival isn’t guaranteed
everything is shifted
like summer winter flipped
a forest
everything is barren over here
when i’m with you
my anxious thoughts disappear
and i am in awe
when i can see you getting near
it’s no wonder why i fell so easily i see it clear
cause i have been sick and baby you are the cure
existing didn’t happen by my free will
but while i’m here i’m hoping that i’ll keep you in my company
and lately i’m so drained i think that imma need a refill
the love that i have found with you recharges me
luckily
i could stay within your arms forever mean that honestly
i hope that you reciprocate cause ladybug you’re stuck with me

i would travel across galaxies to be by your side
dodging asteroids and comets feeling colder than ice
all the cracks in my skin revealing glimpses of light
and these sights make my eyes burn i start to ignite
as the night takes over stars fill up the sky
i don’t wanna be anywhere but with you tonight



produced by @ericgodflow
written, performed, engineered by @cavasoul
“systema solaris” ep

i'm a million miles from home when i'm away from you w/ eric godlow

2 minutes (cian)

Misfortunes ft. graveyard garbage (prod. THERSX)

lyrics
n im not happy at all
but she gonna keep me from falling apart
im talking to myself but i see a face on the wall
does someone else do my job
n i just cry at a photo
n im just feeling it all at once
i just feel it all too much
look what its done to me
look what youve done for me
look what youve done to me
made me feel better now

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u can find me ill be in the underground
n i been working one day they gonna sing the sounds i make for u
bury me inside a grave thats made for two

n i watch the storm pass clouds fly by i can see u
smiling, shining
look how u did so well
n the day that i go
will be the day that u go
n girl im broken i dont have a purpose
i wrote a song for u
u said that u heard it before
but baby this ones new n i just wrote it tonight
i kno they all sound the same to u
id give a piece of my brain for u
u kno i try to hold u tight when the night comes
kno i feel u in my bones n my weak lungs

u be crying laying next to me
while im nodding off
ill be getting money soon
but im not enough
u say that i talk too much
yea i kno that
n even tho the suns shining bright
im still in all black
now u crying u just laying in my lap
i tell u its gonna be okay when i get back
im tryna say i love u i could do without the jab
n life makes me feel better but i know that its a trap

as i watch the storm pass (p. jacob vallen)

Enough For Me

This one is downloadable if you'd like
thanks for listening
if you're dealing with addiction right now my heart goes out to you

she wants to fuck with me
cause she wants validation
I wanna sleep with her
just for the sensation
I use drugs
just to fake a good vibration
I should work on this
but I'm way too impatient 'cause

I'm a hungry ghost
even though I've got plenty
my heart's feelin empty
I'm a hungry ghost
my heart's never full
'cause it's got a hole in it

I don't know if I feel alright
got my mind slowly fading
I've had too many pills tonight
the whole room thinks i'm crazy
I use love
burn it up like gasoline
I can't hide my faults
read me like a magazine

I'm a hungry ghost
even though I've got plenty
my heart's feelin empty
I'm a hungry ghost
my heart's never full
'cause it's got a hole in it

happiness is eluding, losing me, moving me forward
but holding me back from it, I can attack it
but it just moves further away
feel just as dull every day

drugs in my nose
drugs in my cup
roll through the party just to say whats up
girls in my bed
tunes in my head
but this isn't working I still feel dead

I'm a hungry ghost
even though I've got plenty
my heart's feelin empty
I'm a hungry ghost
my heart's never full
'cause it's got a hole in it

drugs in my nose
drugs in my cup
roll through the party just to say whats up
girls in my bed
tunes in my head
but this isn't working I still feel dead

hungry ghost

REVENGE

prods by:

wonderlust beats: https://www.youtube.com/user/GuerillaWarfareBeatz

gibbo: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCvStS-8Xk5yqQS8ndC3K6qg

stoic beats: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC49FA2kmxoGrZcTmVbC99WQ

7ink: https://www.youtube.com/user/WhosFxll

cedes: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UConZMgfY6Y8_mSrpSxloLbg

pale1080: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCzDXQ7i0mR5_PvT56YpPOXA


lyrics:

neon lights 
and the vehicle bites
gotta come in with the new flow
make it sound tight
shoutout guy from the sewer
and the moon up high
if you know me it aint new
doin me all life
its important that i win
if i dont, i die

pretty simple if you think about the choice i got
didnt think your job would get taken over by a bot
shoot shit with the squad in a dead parking lot
im gettin closer like a big blood clot
dont you worry about the time that i see on my clock
getting started, give me space, give me time, one block

ima turn it to a house, live in that shit
blow up off of clickin mouse, then i go spit
blow up off of guess work, mark this in

do it like a guru
im tellin you the future
and none of us knew 
magic tricks in balloons

im up in my bubble like the nba been
i dont need anybody but the swainesworld fans
ima speak when i wanna and you cant say shit
im so happy i dont got a bullshit gimmick
independent till im dead and embedded in the mist
i can get real petty if you wanna test it
i dont ever miss, battleship coordinates lit
all you make is mistakes like a freudian slip 

if you wanna rap 
its a wrap with me 
dont push back 
ima crack like a bat
and you crack under pressure, thats a fad

big bad wolf
im a bully, bitch, hold
gimme lunch money 
stuff him in a locker its a go
if you didnt fuckin know
gettin ready to unload 
boss no hugo
no fragrance, amaze like the one on my throat

my basis is made off of what i wanna do 
my id got a load, thats a super ego

unknown, in the dark, stare at sky till im over
100 thousand feet on top, no poser
aint big enough for us both, no dozer
push em all off till im lone on my throne
its
frozen
you way too cozy
dont get comfy
even when its ok
i dont got nothing
to worry about anyway

BALLOON PARTY (prod. Wonderlust Beats)

take care of yourself

clean friends
@lushroom
@616ayelmao
@jazjellykelly
@cdotc
@maggery
@gylsmusic
@quibby

collapse (demo)

sanjay.