i had your love then it all disappeared :(

Benjamin of the Mechanicus

Thanks 🫂
@brknglss @martinleib @kanadee
cover by me & @1yn

how do i say goodbye i cant go on w this life
& it hurts so much i know, i cant let u go, i jus wana let u kno
u drive me insane, whats is there to gain, if there is no pain
and u know i cant go back
u gone gimme a heart attack, baby i guess i got attached
[dont u lie to me when u say u love me 2, baby u kno my heart is blue
love is the only reason i ever feel pain its the only price i pay]
its too much on my mind, baby i walk the line, in my number9
baby u know its true, u jus turn me blue
dont u lie to me when u say u love me 2
i- i jus hit off amaz*n thas where i get my bands from
what u wana kno baby jus dont get too close
i wouldnt want no1 else, to be here w myself
come into my life let me show u what its like

attached (prod brknglss martinleib kanadee)

all plats

ran away w/fridvy [benjithemachine]

w/ @blackwinterwells
prod me
mixed by me & wells
cover by me

reliant +blackwinterwells

@benjithemachine

[Lyrics]
Just another hopeless night
Hoping that I'll be alright
Talking till we see the light of morning
Baby I don’t wanna fight
I know that now is super tight
But it will all be fine when it’s morning
Baby I just wanna hide
Thinking thoughts of suicide
But I know that it will be fine in the morning
My actions in night are what make me terrified
I know what I said ain’t right, that’s why I’ll see u in the morning

Baby I’m calling mayday, everything’s gone sideways
180 on the Byway, my life flashing be for me
Do you still adore me? Or are you just horny?
Just want you to hold me, I’m feeling pretty lonely.

Just another hopeless night
Hoping that I'll be alright
Talking till we see the light of morning
Baby I don’t wanna fight
I know that now is super tight
But it will all be fine when it’s morning
Baby I just wanna hide
Thinking thoughts of suicide
But I know that it will be fine in the morning
My actions in night are what make me terrified
I know what I said ain’t right, that’s why I’ll see u in the morning

Morning [Prod. Benjithemachine]

The Altar

The Altar (breakupbreakdown)

diegointhedark - in between (redpriest)

w/ @whyhaze & @gaugemountedthisone
prod me
mix by me, haze, gauge
cover by Graham Curtis

staring at the sky + whyhaze + gauge

https://soundcloud.com/ilyexotic
https://www.youtube.com/@prod1darko
https://soundcloud.com/prod_permafrost

fatal frame ft eczotic [darko, permafrost]

@decago
@k4rson
@afterstory

really in love w what im making finally feels like im doing something right.
###

build me up again
and i wont pretend
ill be right right here hold me till the end
always wanna be a savior 
so go and reachh your hand out 
when ive been a man down

going thru the same things everyday
and yet my heart still hearts the same
wont u take away my painn

listen to my soul break

@karson
do u think we cld pretend, that we are okay
i dont want ts to end, but u lie right to my face 
miss i wld hold ur hand, but you will never change
drawing hearts in the sand, looking back on better days
i rly miss u girl, but ion wanna do this just to hurt 
you used to be my everything, my world
then you left me crying in the dirt
i think that its only getting worse

build me up +karson (decago)

★tell me if you could stay here.. cause im alone★

[featuring]
https://soundcloud.com/care_riley

[producers]
https://soundcloud.com/benjithemachine
https://soundcloud.com/yashio20k

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/pogchampswagepicfrfr/love-w-care-prod-benji-the-machine-yashio-nitecore-mix

[lyrics]

intro:
i was afraid
i didnt want to tell you how i felt
because.. if i told you i loved you and you turned me down
then maybe we wouldnt be able to be friends anymore

hook:
i had your love then it all disappeared
ran outta luck oh this is what i feared
im not enough your everything my dear
forever stuck ill always still be here

cant stand to be awake another night, i know it
everything will heal given the time, ill show it
wanna stay right here right by your side, you know it
love is kept deep down you know inside, you show it

verse:
the shadows she left inside my room, they dont go away
when you ask me how i feel i dont know what to say
is it best for me to run away or disappear
girl i always feel enchanted when i have you near

is it hard to hide the things that you dont show
tell me if you could stay here cause im alone
everytime i fall in love it ends how i forebode
girl your like a language that i cant learn to decode

bridge:
cant stand to be awake another night
tell me if you could stay here cause im alone
cant stand to be awake another night
tell me if you could stay here cause im alone

repeat hook:
i had your love then it all disappeared
ran outta luck oh this is what i feared
im not enough your everything my dear
forever stuck ill always still be here

cant stand to be awake another night, i know it
everything will heal given the time, ill show it
wanna stay right here right by your side, you know it
love is kept deep down you know inside, you show it

★streaming★

★love★ w/ care. (prod. benji the machine & yashio)

prod evan jolley 

so she’s got it
ok barbie
spilt yo drink im sry
pricy jeans she wore it
perfect teeth u gorgeous 
pop a bean u boring
im so fkd ignore it
she’s a good sport about it
bby i adore it

yeah wow …
she got it going on rn
smoking on weed it’s loud 
ur boutta let me find out 
im turning her on ik how 
popping a xan on the couch
we off one now
bby can u come around

she got it (ft luc6s)

prod @flojy @ripwarheart  <33


whoa-oa-oa 
ur games ya they get so old
ima fade out on my own
gone b4 u ever know, '4 u ever dont h8 me ..

im making my last stand
find a way that we're not done
u will go but i cant follow
i need a reason 2 keep going on

can u treat it like
its the first time,
cz the last time didnt feel 2 nice
gettin upset whn we lie
call it off ima make it right

givin up more than my time
keep dreamin abt
givin u my life
my life, my life
takin care cz im on the ice

whym i here whn i can't do anything right
every day js feels like torture
if there's a fine line, i hope that i can find it
at my side, ur the only one that i have

u told me tht ur feelin so far gone
so why not 
stay up together
we can watch the stars disappear and u might feel better xo

whoa-oa-oa -ohh
ur games ya they get so old
ima fade out on my own
gone b4 u ever know, '4 u ever dont h8 me ..

im making my last stand
find a way that we're not done
u will go but i cant follow
i need a reason 2 keep going on

last stand {flojy + warheart}

i dont really talk i dont have a purpose
so ima spin round this block and i swerve it 
i dont like to talk to people i get nervous
always make the first move like its urgent

i dont know to feel bout ur new man
we were together ye u said he was ur best friend
now im sittin in my room till the night ends
talk to nobody i keep a distance

feel like haruki ur my sakura
find me whippin a goddam acura 
making friends like i do not have a future
plan is to sit at home and be a loser

no i dont really get it
i adore u i wish i never said it
it got so bad cos i went n fucking let it
im a bad guy yea ur calling me a menace

haruki (okmax)

FUGAZI

yeah i do that shit

student, accountant, electronic music nut

I try to post whatever I'm liking, indiscriminate of genre.   I mix when I can to try to collect a few favorites together. Thanks for listening!

21 | they/them
you'll always have a home with me.

nightcore versions: @cutemfontheblock & https://soundcloud.com/pogchampswagepicfrfr
b-sides @scoobert-doobert-1738

★love★ w/ care. (prod. benji the machine & yashio)

☆scøøb☆

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