[sendflowrs]
and as the cold came, it didn’t feel right
on my deathbed i pray for your warm soft kiss
these angels they lay next to me and calm it 
i don’t think i really loved you baby if i’m honest 

and in my resting place, keep the seal tight
cus i would raise all the dead for you if you wanted
i would purge these dark woods with a bow and harness 
just cut out my heart whenever u want it 

[nevermadeithome]

You’re not where i need you
When i sleep at night
My lungs are so hard to breathe through 
My throats so tight 
You’re pretty like the pleiades
I mesmerised just by your eyes
I can’t seem to look at you 
Your hue and glow just seem so bright

Sleeping at night in your gown wear 
Swim the sea
Kill the king just to be there 
Bring your coat because its cold where  we‘re leaving 
Hold my hand baby this is the deep end


[sendflowrs]
on my grave 
in native tongue under my name 
is a phrase that says
“the one i love will always get away”
guess it never changes
no matter how much i sit and pray
for a better day
i’ll always be the one that rots away 
call me anyway
call me when you’re home or MIA
call me when you’re sad
when you’re feelin down or feel ok
call me everyday
call me fuckin now before i tear my face 
maybe you would love me more if i would finally get in shape 

[blaidd]
Stack my chips up high like I'm all in
Fall in love with your face in the morning
All this hate in the way had me bawling
But now I got you 
Your love was the only thing to prove
This world is nothing without you 
Now i find myself with nothing left to do 
But I came back from a business trip 
I Wanna go home cause I miss my *beep*
If I stay longer I just might flip
I wanna go home to the softest lips

starlight (feat. nevermadeithome + blaidd) (prod. flesh + jolst)

really struggled with this one, i hope u enjoy ☆

//
fill my screen up with words
only works when it hurts
till it starts feeling worn out

hands flushed
with my blood
from the cold
in the streets
they go silent by sundown

and my knees running weak
feel the ice up my sleeves
like it's minus degrees tonight

and the path full of smoke
made me sore in my throat
like the systems in me collide

eyes locked, everythings so slow
look how i'm just wasting all my time again
like why can i not write a single line again
maybe i should drop it all and try again
//

sundown (despairintoashes)

music vid:
https://youtu.be/VANCVh5BB1k?si=_7TKMvXGqbqTZD33

02 baby (VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION)

Thought I had a better sense of this 
Astigmatism showing images that I don’t think I’ll miss 
At the cross road lamp lights circle in the mist 
What direction can we figure from the list 

Headed straight right through the shadow 
Got a fast pace walk past the gallows
Fortified gate I’m not mistaken 
Better not be me that you’re replacing 
Can I use that match this needs inhaling
I saw you tranced up by this painting
All the details ever striking 
And we hesitate but only slightly 

i didn’t wanna be here in the first place so when you’re ready let’s go
she put big rocks in this blunt i feel my skin turn to stone
so imma be up all night
just perfecting these songs
i’m sorry im late i was just spinning think these pills make me more drunk
i swear its not even fun
love, baby tell me that i am the one
and what’s said is done
swear this denim packed with toxic
i can’t feel my lungs
you should check your phone i think too much
and i miss your touch
please excuse the interruption when i grab the clutch
imma be driving all night

imma drive up that road that we both know too well 
By the back of our hands our palms can sense it when the ridge fell 
I’m keeping two plates on me 
I can’t decide for your eyes sake baby 
I’ll keep it low just like the temperature this morning 
let’s keep on sorting 
this mess could you adorn me 

Headed straight right through the shadow 
Got a fast pace walk past the gallows
Fortified gate I’m not mistaken 
Better not be me that you’re replacing 
Can I use that match this needs inhaling
I saw you tranced up by this painting
All the details ever striking 
And we hesitate but only slightly

lamp light ft. notahero (cl6udy)

and she then text me saying  “fair enough”
i didnt think that u was scared of anything 
so tell me baby are u scared to love ?
i typed out like fuckin everythin 
and then she text me she said “fair enough” 

2 pills all night im slippin 
lc nah i never had bring ins 
and the lights too bright 
for my eyes, head spinnin 
poured sprite all night 
half 9 still sippin 

tell me what are we baby are u just a friend to me
she told me what do you want we can have it your way jus tell me what u wanna be 
i said that’s cool i just think that we jus need to slow down n take it slow so what u tellin me
she said ive gotta go now ill be sure to come round tomorrow night got somewhere to be 
i said fair enough

FAIR ENOUGH (SCOTTYSPLASH)

produced by @prodcxrter x threemvsk
featuring @decksmusic x @flesh

https://open.spotify.com/track/7IaPndHHSCwBx3zEFHtFAY?si=CL8_mcGpSG2pvXp4xVEwlQ&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A3nvvOZ7UptPO8PoFNhNMn6

lyrics:

[@lottaheart]
every breath i take is just a waste when
you don't share the air that i breathe in
but i'll try my best to stay patient
it's just when i'm with you it's like i'm dreaming

i don't wanna overwhelm you with my thoughts
i'll keep my head down and my hopes high
i'm just tryna get my point across
i hope this works out for a long time
[x2]

[@decksmusic]
whats the point in going back on my word?
i’ve felt it once or twice before i’d never raise up the dirt
you saw the mirror break connection at first
cuz that reflections never perfect, our relations are earned
i need like eight hours 
to break sour
you see me in the waves, cower,
all that power will go to your head
paste valor
your flush malar
i wonder what’ll make matters worse
could it last you a lifetime?

i don’t wanna overwhelm you with my pain
i put the pen down, call it a night
in the presence of the same i’d be a lifeline
tell me right now, is that alright?

[@lottaheart]
i don't wanna overwhelm you with my thoughts
i'll keep my head down and my hopes high
i'm just tryna get my point across
i hope this works out for a long time
[x2]

[@flesh]
hold my hand
let's walk around
i'll always have the memory
it finally start to hit me
way back then it was something else
we were snowed in
but you kept me warm
for years i've been frozen
opponent of myself i know that
i'm just glad that's not the me that you knew
i put up one hell of a show
remember how callie would hide all the time
i guess that's what i feel like
that shit makes me wanna cry

hopes high w/ decks & flesh [cxrter x threemvsk]

play it cool (with Eric Godlow)

made 3 years ago so i’m dropping it by itself instead of in the collab ep 💕 s/o @user-411557229

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

if i keep it down, never make a sound
call log empty but the bottle aint
staying quiet now, yet this silence loud
left the read receipts on my overlay
then act surprised when friends gotta leave
fuck it never said that you had to stay
in fact better yet fuckin hit the books
cuz it’s nothin left 2 say n drugs to take

she told me hop off the adderall
we just not meant to be after all
i’ll be somewhere in the night time
cause ur not urself when there’s alcohol
i got sum thoughts i aint said yet
swear this codeine got me touchin sunsets
i got purple stains all in the bedspread
and i’ll be by myself till i drop dead
baby i’ll get back 2 you in the morning
i know to you that my life ain’t important
took away shit that was making me numb
blade drip my blood and it paint in the portrait
nowadays when it’s dark out
see ur face with the same doubt
leave that bitch in the past
and leave my name out of ur mouth

nowadays ion go out
city look like a ghost town
3 digits on the dash
check my phone for the comedown
how it feel to be alone now

spectre w/ residential.

lyrics:

Time had stopped
And I could see
I was that which
Ended we

The ground where I slept pressed the news of its rocks to my wet arms
I am just a putty Waterlogged by a brine made of bad form
When I woke up I was launched 20 feet from a crashed car
And when I got up I could see ur body parts in my front yard

u know I might be on drugs but my brain works and I got a big heart
but Is it big enough to be washed of this whole thing and sent forth
Her Serpentine eyes stare a dead hole in me from the dashboard
Im getting fucked up in the drivers seat to see if I could’ve done more

What has become of him 
I could throw up with the tension that has taken me on this night
What has become of them
I will burn up from the warmth inside this fire blanket wrapped tight

so Take up the wheel inside ur free hand
and U feel the hurt they missed in their death
Peel back his eyes to watch it again
for The reaper is here to pick thru your friends
the angry man waits and he picks at himself
The patient man stays and he offers him his help
The patient he tends to will take to his thrill
But angry again he becomes when he’s still
so Its thrill that ur after
Its thrill that u want
Its cheap if u choose to take risk of its harm
Its thrilling to me how you gamble its scorn
Im thrilled to inform you the tissue you’ve torn

The ground where I slept pressed the news of its rocks into my wet arms
I am just a putty Waterlogged by a brine made of bad form
When I woke up I was launched 20 feet from a crashed car
And when I got up I could see ur body parts in my front yard

putty man / drugs p2 (sorrowbringer)

i really dk [prod. jmyoucrazy & tayo loxs]

Leaning (Prod.Jeisei)

静けさ - shizukesa

alt rap
[Ｔｉｍｅｌｅｓｓ]
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influences: aries, 9tails + sewerperson, shinigami, kevin kazi, 49bags, guardin, atlas, noname

spectre w/ residential.

shizukesa.