this is kindaaa old, so ignore the mix LMAO but I decided I'd add some stuff and go ahead and release it <3

prod. by afterlife

distort (afterlife)

just a little kinda old filler song until I start actually dropping new stuff haha <3 maybe ep soon?

lyrics:

look at the hue of your eyes
blue with the green for the tint
lately you can't even cry
so how are you feeling like shit
why are you feeling like this
comedown, i cope with the spliff
said that you want a real life
well this is as real as it gets

and i'm bout as fake as they come
only like me when i make her- 
woahhh
she let me stay for the night
in the morning i gotta go
can't shake the feeling of something wrong 
fucked up ever since going back to mom
i might break down under pressure
if i die, don't cry, it's better

look at the hue of your eyes
blue with the green for the tint
lately you can't even cry
so how are you feeling like shit
why are you feeling like this
comedown, i cope with the spliff
said that you want a real life
well this is as real as it gets

gr33n (killedmyself)

luv yokai <3333 luv yall <3333

lyrics:
[shizu]

95, only feel alive after the fact
smoking on thrax for a better high after the crash
do the math, im not coming back when i collapse
wasting my time
im not doing fine, thought you knew that
95, only feel alive after the fact
smoking on thrax for a better high after the crash
do the math, im not coming back when i collapse
wasting my time
im not doing fine, thought you knew that

[yokai]
zooming by
yeah watch how quick i start to fly
don't feel alive
until collision is in my sight
80 on the dash i just ran another red light
hit the fuckin gas run my problems like a stop sign
maybe when i crash i can finally feel i'm alright
feelings from the past never last, i'm left behind

[shizu]
95, only feel alive after the fact
smoking on thrax for a better high after the crash
do the math, im not coming back when i collapse
wasting my time
im not doing fine, thought you knew that
95, only feel alive after the fact
smoking on thrax for a better high after the crash
do the math, im not coming back when i collapse
wasting my time
im not doing fine, thought you knew that

crash w/ yokai dreams (kuboi)

luv yall <3
prod. ztope

lyrics
-----------------
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

all already alone
so it shouldnt make any difference
but why cant u pick up the phone
n why is everyone distant
i speak and its hurt in the tone
i just wanted u to listen
this blunt really got me in thoughts
inside of my mind is a prison

long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home
long nights on the patio
its getting cold, girl i gotta go
7/11 stop down by the road
long drive, but im walking home

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nites

s/o epitomeoffailure and emptychest :))

lyrics
------------------------------------------------------
crack in the oak
mold in my home
lungs fading black
am i dying alone
cry in the snow, let her walk in the snow
while i hide in my coat
winter silent window

oh-oh~ 
raining, it's cold
no~
breaking my bones
midnight, in love with the moonlight
fuck a star sign, shawty looking too bright
(oh, oh
oh no, oh no)

epitome:
oh no i think that my heart stopped
when you walked through the door
making my jaw drop to the floor
and when you left that night
i could barely put a fight
with my fucking self
always going through another hell
all alone
on my own
running to a place i can barley call a home
but that’s not new
had my life in hands of someone that i thought i knew
and i had no clue
that i was being used by you
the entire time
but your plans fell through
and in the end i got what’s mine

empty: 
did you really ever get that far?
blacked out in the back of my car, and i love this shit.
i wouldn't trade it for anything,
except maybe living ;/ 
no!!</3
yeah yeah,
this gon be the last time that you ever talk to me, so
i dont have no regrets, no.
yeah yeah yeah,
i know every day counts, and thats why i count em
yeah yeah yeah,
its a pain to wait, its a day away..
and i need something else
and i need a little bit of help
and when your body gives out
don't be sad, no more..
i would never do that to you..
to you.. :(
i love him, but i love me more.
can you stay, tonight?
blame it on me if you have to, just know-
i dont mind.
flying pieces, colliding with you.

shizu:
crack in the oak
mold in my home
lungs fading black
am i dying alone
cry in the snow, let her walk in the snow
while i hide in my coat
winter silent window

snow w/ epitomeoffailure & kill breanna (2001)

ly caspy <33

lyrics:

waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

im in the function
n i cannot function 
lung combusting
repercussion
u on sum fuck shit
playing me, percussion
~death wish~
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like a setlist
wake up, bake the bowl, this shit not even breakfast
eating breakfast
i be on my dread shit
blood gon drip my neck like issa necklace
name on top my wrist, look like my setlist

{casperrr}
i tried to run
but i an't fast
tried to fight 
but i knew i wouldn't last
these feelings
kicked my ass
but there's no way
i am ever going back 
wake up
drag myself outta bed again
face up
tryna face my oldest fucking friend
sadness
i think this is the end
timeless
im afraid i have no time left 

putting all my songs on her playlist
goth bitch
stare me in me eyes and
she looks flawless
falling 
deep into a faucet
i ain't notice
wore my heart on my sleeve
until you came and u broke it

{shizukesa + casperrr}
waking up the same as u left me
pillies to the brain, i got plenty
tell me run away in the bentley
take away the pain that u fed me

death_wish w/ casperrr (yung rospo)

jus a fun little track 
check out senkay! goated prod
https://soundcloud.com/senkaiedits/senkay-and-friends?si=81da853d2aaa425ea891ec88fd561a06&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

mixed by ztope 
_____________

backdrop
find me in the background on the asphalt 
why you love me honey I ain’t take the mask off
like the bar my flow go hard I never rap soft
breaking boundaries they fond of me
woah

smoking in 4d
stack it up like ricks no morty 
shawty good, got me bricked no mortar
wrists slit tho, be dead by 40
sorry not sorry
spit with no warning
i jus dip in the flow like a 4 piece (mmmmm mcdonalds mmmm)
i could son you n ur bros no maury
while stuck in the home like Cory

backdrop
find me in the background on the asphalt 
why you love me honey I ain’t take the mask off
like the bar my flow go hard I never rap soft
breaking boundaries they fond of me
backdrop
find me in the background on the asphalt 
why you love me honey I ain’t take the mask off
like the bar my flow go hard I never rap soft
breaking boundaries they fond of me
woah

~~beat switch thingy :)

sick as fuck
not the kind they call me when i turn me up
level up
multi digit Ks like we was talking Klux
sorry yuh
really don’t want nobody, u just hype me up
acting tough
spliff this loud pack need to quiet down
but not right now
this writing not enough gon have to fight it out
n fuck him up
20 bucks on me, I’ll put him in his blood
aight that’s enough
breathing down my neck
n im jus having fun
im just having fun
she the 1
crop top like lara croft
Versace fit wit tommy socks
not talking “all grown up”
if this time the best i had
then why tf im throwing up
but guess it’s function in a function without getting drunk

backdrop
find me in the background on the asphalt 
why you love me honey I ain’t take the mask off
like the bar my flow go hard I never rap soft
breaking boundaries they fond of me

asphalt (senkay and friends)

i made this to stop myself from committing 2nite.

<33 luv yall w/ all my heart :) tysm for 30K on nites !!!

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

cold
blowing im smoking on thrax n been stuck in my home
2 days a week i been barely breathing, im sleeping in smoke
i been outside n still been stuck on the road
oh~
baby i am not making it home

(bad bitch like maleficent
im smoking this evergreen, its heavensent
im sipping on heavenly
this everclear shit no good 4 me and i'll throw it up by like 2 or 3
honestly know u dead 2 me but still fill u up like its calories)

live life in a hurry
my baby so worried
pushing in a benz, we cruisin 90 in a 30
uh, double cup i fill it up like shit was dirty
I COULDN'T THINK OF A LINE HERE LMFAOOOOO

pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head
pass out
tommy when i roll out
ion check my phone now
only when u go out wtf
pass it up again
words i've left unsaid
think im better dead
thoughts inside my head

dead (heyylotus & warheart)

luv u all <3

s/o neverforever :) also s/o hero for the thingy on the end RAHHHHH I LUV U

--
in my mind i think im dying
i think i kinda like it
fkn saw her saw me crying
sorry still gotta lie and
tell u that im always fine
that blow ur fucking mind
i think ur wasting time
i think im taking my

life 
bottled shots steady sippin on shooters
6 days off on mr bueller
6dogs blast thru my computer
fuck a price
jus gotta ball till it feel im cooler
mask the fact im a fucking loser

after all i jus made me lose her.

slit my wrist
what a bitch
miserable little kid
i'll jus sleep till i dip
feel like shit
write my list

in my mind i think im dying
i think i kinda like it
fkn saw her saw me crying
sorry still gotta lie and
tell u that im always fine
that blow ur fucking mind
i think ur wasting time
i think im taking my~

9tails cover <3 shoutout miles

null point (neverforever)

𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐫𝐲𝐬𝐨𝐧<3

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
cant even snap back 2 this snapchat
got 80 ounce in this backpack
making lame shit on this old mac
while my friends out in their pontiac
how are you so contagious
holding back on my anguish
'cardi rocks when im anxious
blood n mud on these pages
she dont talk but her eyes flirt
louis v n that black skirt
pulling up in that chrysler
bloody shirt n my chest hurts

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊. 𝚡 𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚒𝚊𝚕.
come around
ik im a fuck up jus a let down
but we could run away my love, from this town<3
gaze inside her eyes been filled w/ hate now
need 2 stay down
really need sum backup
u know ur the only one i want luv
cant fkn take this aching make my chest numb
you the one i want luv

ep w/ bry soon also~ if you've read this far then thank you all sm for all of the support this past year, and just in general if you listen to any of my stuff. it genuinely means the whole world. ily all sm<3

let_down w/ residential. (ushanka boy)

ARF ARF GRRRR RUFF WOOF (im so sorry)

i got blackmailed into putting these lyrics on here @tactiical LMFAOOO

[shizu]

tellin me to run run run run run run
i am not the one one one one one one
using me for fun fun fun fun fun fun
she hit the phone and i don't know any better

met her under the sun
(they say) never fall in love
but all this time in silence
stuck inside, violently numbing
so still searching for something else
to tell me that you want me
memories all fade away
but without you i'm nothing
trust me

[ri4h]

i trust you but i dont want to
cuz what do i do?
when you say "i love you"
i'm scared of losing you
i know that i need you
but i
oh i need you by my side
can you hold me thru the night
i know its rough but can we try
can we try
oh no, i'm scared
i need, you here
i can't, compare
oh it's, not fair
oh can't, you stay
you're driving me insane
so don't you run away
oh, run away

[shizu]

tellin me to run run run run run run
i am not the one one one one one one
using me for fun fun fun fun fun fun
she hit the phone and i don't know any better
[x2]

runnn ft. ri4h (chaos x goo)

prod. project luna (s/o them<33 amazing prod)

i know baby and its killing me
i know maybe it was make believe
run, so cold in these maple leaves
one day, saying know you wanna leave
drive slow, baby where u taking me
die so, bleed thru me fatally
sidenote memories be haunting me
eyes closed, i cant even go to sleep

drive slow, driving for eternity 
die so, taking time to try n breathe
sidenote, no sleep n  im goin geek
eyes closed, all i see is u n me 

craving for sum remedy 
or something to help w helping me
listen to the melody im 
really about to take my leave
speaking with all the honesty 
nothing could really fw me 
more than seeing you
breaking what's left inside of this shell of me

this life it was forced upon me
just know that i didn’t ask for any of this
the candle light burns dim and slowly
now i must go
before i start to fall to pieces

i know baby and its killing me
i know maybe it was make believe
run, so cold in these maple leaves
one day, saying know you wanna leave
drive slow, baby where u taking me
die so, bleed thru me fatally
sidenote memories be haunting me
eyes closed, i cant even go to sleep

let me rot away.~

the haunting (ft. casperrr & epitomeoffailure)

yes i know that's not how u pronounce facade o-o
--
quit the talking
armory, got green on me like goblin
saw the options
on me when i walk in
doors suicide pop outside with my polish
all this gas up the mileage
i flaunt it 

spiral again
get stuck in the head
i been fucking sick of this shit
but you wouldn't know what it is
so guess my time be better off spent with a spliff
bet i'll be flooding my wrists at 2am
and tell you it is what it is
say im such a bitch of a kid
who lives in his bed 
and copy off miles n shit
fuck off of miles's dick
i just compile my thoughts into flow for the spit
and grow a lil bit
half of the time i dont feel alive, plus when i split
these days if u sway emotionally they dip
oh my god, ur facade was obvious, lil bitch
staying closeted to almost all my friends, steady distant
like half of them would ever listen

quit the talking
armory, got green on me like goblin
saw the options
on me when i walk in
doors suicide pop outside with my polish
all this gas up the mileage
i flaunt it

armory (iceboi)

the logs do be mono tee hee

fashionably late
like my passion been proving
a clean slate couldnt save me at the rate we been moving
the trio me myself and i and still i aint be improving
its either patiently waiting, or basically stupid
maybe music aint got much in it 4 me 
lately living the dream
only its in dreams when im snoozing, yet still been losing sleep
yes i dont reach out now but hope they know me truthfully
crucial info never coming out me usually
really never talk much in my new stuff
to pick apart the projects watch em fall apart like "true luv" ..
hit up only homies they gon tell me "bro u too rough"
"made a new track like what you think about it
and what would you change about it"
too tuff
but spliffy got me couch locked
and i aint felt this down to earth since last time that i been grounded
took me back to school days with lunch bags,
iphone in a backpack that's hidden under notepads,
all black with the screen cracked
almost wanna go back
kid still, but i live alone
make a wish tim turner dimmsdale dimmadome
lookin ass white fit on 
and my wrists froze (this is a lie i am broke pls send me money or taco bell)
no more 9 missed calls 
and nightly terrors
terrifying 2 death
plus the heavy weighted trauma overstay in my chest
but if the EMDR dont work i might blow out my head
almost killed myself again, im trying my best
guess that's what happen when u go off the meds

monologue (engless)

sorry it took a year for me to mix this

5 miles to town
fine if i drown
n my mind so loud
ion wanna fight now
bish pipe down
ridin 165 bish no malcolm in middle
had sum problem shit to pawn off n get solved like a riddle
before i put the glock 9 bullet right in my temple
dyin its simple, look bish im dying its simple

late last december
low life like my face from a time i remember
the head down inside moms crib, drugged up temper
wit fucked up love this shitty house never better
its how life go i guess
been sweater weather forever inside of ur chest
but this shit never hurt when u had died in ur head
lie alone in bed
eyes filled wit dread 
no cry for the meds
now im-
caught in crossfire baby tell me who i am
ion think you understand
if i hit ts then i do it all again tonight
crossfaded put a cup in each hand on ice
all nite till a.m. been feeling alright
grab onto my hand we could ride away
or u could pass me up by like rightaway
pass me a blunt need it right away
(shorty gon say she not part of me
but stay bumpin "armory"
honest to god its like)
fuck out my way
stay zooted, fucked up in my place
like you is the source of the cause of my pain
so of course that shit go thru my brain
red the hatred run, course thru my veins
let my body erupt thru the flames
never feeding myself as of late
evermore im feeling it's my fate

5 miles to town
fine if i drown
n my mind so loud
ion wanna fight now
bish pipe down
ridin 165 bish no malcolm in middle
had sum problem shit to pawn off n get solved like a riddle
before i put the glock 9 bullet right in my temple
dyin its simple, look bish im dying its simple

inter_165 (thaibeats)

prod. @love_matt <33

pillies fuck me up, its a setback
like 1 day imma put the drip where my slits at
one way goin 90 in a maybach
fly by freeway in all grey ik they hate that

nun to say
obv its better i go ghost 
danny phantom
mental ransom stuck in my home
got a bad one, fell in love n met from up above
u aint lil wayne, bitch stop tryna tell me how 2 love
come out gq and came up
its heat like 2g in tha blunt
its green like super saiyan legendary broly in tha cut
when me n brodies pullin up
on my bro you want no smoke
bullet blow inside a dome
like on god you do enuff
(pillies fuck me up, its a setback
but where the fuck is my ket at
1 thing you could never say is i switched up
but you a fake, gotta dead that)

pillies fuck me up, its a setback
like 1 day imma put the drip where my slits at
one way goin 90 in a maybach
fly by freeway in all grey ik they hate that
pillies fuck me up, its a setback
like 1 day imma put the drip where my slits at
one way goin 90 in a maybach
fly by freeway in all grey ik they hate that

maybach (love, matt)

i’ll update soon w/ lxst boy’s lyrics. much luv, ty all 4 being here 🖤🖤

inverted roads
vertigo
just hold me here
till u let go
dont let go 
growing cold
i just want u 2 know
these days, better ion grow old
please stay, never leave me alone
i cry when you tell me you wont
call back, never pick up the phone

how he tryna live life when its lost sight what the mission is
felt all bright till dawnbreak, ironically
every light gone, from the flash of nikons to back of the tunnel
only missing hits and remnants of honesty
flood memories drift thru in waves, its futile when numb
aint even get to see a fucking funeral as a son
r.i.p. 2 mom honestly i miss u to death
never fucked w/ change anyway, they couldnt have told me to run
all you fake peace in violence
find me
lying alone inside a home which only i reside
could teach u how 2 move in silence, witness the eyes
snooze buttons barely hit at 2 sumn at nite
the sunken shell of what useless human u used to find
pictures defined by distant moments in a living mind
and different thoughts of faded people from the afterlife
still affecting me to this day but swear to god i tried

inverted roads
vertigo
just hold me here
till u let go
dont let go 
growing cold
i just want u 2 know
these days, better ion grow old
please stay, never leave me alone
i cry when you tell me you wont
call back, never pick up the phone

r.i.p. ft. lxst boy (1080PALE)

~cockiness//love: both can be seen as forms of hubris—love by its tendency to blind us to the faults of.. well, us, and cockiness by its tendency to lead us to believe that we are invincible or infallible. <3

phone dnd leave me lone bitch
fw my team, gunnin domes quick
but we gon hit w/ that full clip
if u want beef we got smoke nigga

flow fly no fly, so smooth like butter
nigga better pipe down, on ur mario brother type shit right now
bitch find out
locked in been talkin my shit
u lookin confidentless (ik this isn't a word LMFAOOO)
how a nigga talk down to me
im confident u aint even top of the list 
let alone top of no bitch

i... ✨🖤

i can feel the passion when u look into my eyes
feel it passing every time you say goodbye.
acid drippin down the skin, fuck a cry
why this shit gon happen when i feel alive ?? :/
shit aint even pposed to be a fucking luv song
but i aint felt the bliss i did w/ u in so long
 ̶l̶i̶g̶h̶t̶s̶ out, only passing by in snowfall
peace now, but i feel my blood in slow coughs
(put my coffin by the forest with a folk song
promise one day you'll wake up in my bedside
and slow dance by the porch under moonlight)

phone dnd leave me lone bitch
fw my team, gunnin domes quick
but we gon hit w/ that full clip
if u want beef we got smoke nigga

"𝓼𝓱𝓲𝔃𝓾𝓴𝓮𝓼𝓪 𝓱𝓪𝓼 𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓱𝓮𝓮𝓵 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓱𝓾𝓫𝓻𝓲𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓰𝓸 𝓪𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓰 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓰𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽 𝓼𝓽𝓻𝓮𝓷𝓰𝓽𝓱"

hubris (rosebone x nate morgan x katlightning)

next track delayed while i get my mental health in check :/

𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
told her let go, jus a fuck up from the get go
simply fkn with my mental
setbacks roll me, no cigarillo 
steady on my dick but ur chick still hit the set tho 
tryna kick it, nigga think he liu kang
bad lil bish offa addy and a mood swing
kush smell like cat piss, been smokin on magic
got blood on my jeans w/ blunt ash on this mattress-
oh my god~ 
smoke in bed until this shi happen again
and fall apart in my car, you break my heart like i was dead
so MIA, dissipate with every thought inside my head
wish i was better, said the letter that i bet u never read

𝚜𝚎𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚘𝚗
i could fuck off if that’s what u want
its been a Long night lit I could see the sun
baby here’s a tip 
dont be scared of fun
i could show u how to get ur body numb
we pop outside then its back to the night
id rather that u cry than prepared for a fight
baby how u feel 
she said alright then alright
i would kiss it better but im scared that u bite
wonder if these bullets could be stopped by his tai chi..

𝚜𝚎𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚘𝚗 + 𝚜𝚑𝚒𝚣𝚞𝚔𝚎𝚜𝚊.
in this bitch silent
im not too inviting
baby if u pull it 
shits about to get violent
she might be my baby
but she turn a tyrant
gotta let go
i remain a fuck up right from the get go
you a slimey little bitch u a gecko!
all my dogs inside the crib like a petco
its the bro code
u aint special🖕🏼

out_of_ord3r w/ sewerperson (necu)

another pre-hiatus vault track from over a year ago<33 new stuff when i’m not outta town

i can’t fucking make shit
but i still been rapping like i is
semi auto my feelings they firing like switched
toxic in the scene acidic ph level 6
bitch i wouldn’t stand with nun of u
if even barely sit

not the shit, kid
been hardly even pissed off
still knock em offa list, like EG call em/column niggas tilted
problem solving with a blick
write lines about a line, when we been knowing that im broke 
weeping crying on a phone 
on sum dying all alone shit-
michigan lake from my kidhood, fading to blue
steady searching for these steps, still bigfoot hunting to you
couldn’t follow my path
but hold a glock to my back 
to walk inside of the tracks
tracing blood to my shoes
still the same old boots
and that wall with a patch
over the hole of a past
mirror, see same old you
fuck you mean i aint change
stepping inside of this home, feel like the gun to a range
often causing latent damage for sum profit and gain
still u think all it’s a game 
so i cock that glock to my brain
say pull this trigger n fade
guess im going the same
maybe u still coulda stayed
but look back at the holder n its me in the frame
(like damn)

i can’t fucking make shit
but i still been rapping like i is
semi auto my feelings they firing like switched
toxic in the scene acidic ph level 6
bitch i wouldn’t stand with nun of u
if even barely sit

who r u (engless)

prod. clear purple x maybe
@clearpurple

fuck on my lip wit a blunt
and baby u roll when i cut 
like why do you think im luv
shit is rough
muddy cup fillin sludge
fuckers call me they brother
barely know you that much

know i come off codependent 
i just want love and let in
break this soul i’d let you dead it
said home is where ur headed
i feel like i’ve never met it
still slitting paths of velvet
picture frame with shattered lessons
got me second guessing everybody, patterns second
after life come death, well i dont think that i accept it
just a coward little bastard, fearing countless changes 
with how im climbing them you’d think my mind is fucking everest
and even if i kill myself im sorry honest
shizu never wanted problems, but my songs adore it
so this leaking heart can bleed throughout the art its forming
take a breath, to telling everyone ur living for it
have mercy on me

fuck on my lip wit a blunt
and baby u roll when i cut 
like why do you think im luv
shit is rough
muddy cup fillin sludge
fuckers call me they brother
barely know you that much

sludge (clear purple)

raw w/ autotune .

nowadays this shit so real
i dont even have no bros still
bitch switched up, how the cold feel? 
said i switched too, fuck it so what 
none my old music holding up
dont know how to write when u dont feel

baby how are you getting home
i cant save you still im right here
brittle home but my skin and bones 

never picking up when im on the phone
maybe that’s why i’m dying here
maybe that’s why I’m all alone

still afraid of 3 years ago
picture frame of abandonment
mixed with drug problems and her broken soul

god i blame myself how you died alone

and i hate myself for the lost/last time

used to take myself to our lakeside

now its just myself in the late lights

shame (b.wub)

fuck the pronto
love and go, girl i gotta hold on
used to know whenever u wont call
only fold 
like its in my protocol 
call it home
guess i'll never move on

tired
from the plight
flooded eyes you would die here
spent a nightmare, crucified with wires
grip my side dripping blood on attire
sip it up, shi i luv a vampire
several skies dimming out past our lightyear
but girl im right here still for ur devour
used to hit the tone to bid me with its alright
jus a motherfucking goddamn liar
nigga think shit sweet no swisher
fuck ur minute maid lemonade pitchers
oughta pop out n show u my picture
wrist hurt type high, sadder than a bitch
dark eye rings, saturn shi
heavy emptiness impacted my ribs
still been nb but im practically him
they chasing when i actually dip

fuck the pronto
love and go, girl i gotta hold on
used to know whenever u wont call
only fold 
like its in my protocol 
call it home
guess i'll never move on

protocol (rosebone)

lil song for the comeback, luv you all tysm for sticking w/ me thru hiatus<33

(these days ion feel shit
when this reup fill my ribs
sorries seep up thru my lips
till they bleed onto my wrist)

cursed place her personal cot so lie in it
but i'll die in it
treat me right might rot in it
half these days we lead straight to violence
then fine again
find i shut my eyelids 

gotta walk again
broke down whip, left optionless
swear love it's inoperable
if able i'd take you like vitamins
promise no lies when we speaking off mind even if u aint buying this
write corn ass lines bout biding my time for a love which mine again
girl how does that work, when all of these perfectly fit puzzle pieces leave me filling this hearse
rather fake me than tell u it hurts
never say shit, pray 4 the worst

cursed place her personal cot so lie in it
but i'll die in it
treat me right might rot in it
half these days we lead straight to violence
then fine again
find i shut my eyelids

cursed_cot (uguwap)

2023 rap track from the vault

a-list
you niggas aint make lists
i put drugs inside of my body when im anxious
still been faded with pods in stars like shit was racing
pull up w/ the top dropped, been whippin faceless

end with this period
so patient, the zeitgeist
relations friendly, when adhered to limelight
-shit
but now its heated dine ins like mai thai
dinner, single word to hurling spit, on a food nite
every minor problem sever ties till the mood right
all my life walked to fly for times like these
no foo fighter, bridge burning, its rope-noose tied
wanna hang in the moonlight
still kickin it, the jits like wu tang
..clan
niggas hit me wit a open, washed up
..sand it
smooth
ride off wit a flow like bandit-
eating good, rap niggas been famished
give it one track, and he practically vanish
aint took no pics, but i been moving candid
eyes red, no kush i aint rest inna minute
investing my time in sum write lines type shit
no money, a nigga had been motion sickening
still dripping inna show need a boat to dip in
float off in a wave, need no pot to piss in
when all my problems are a lost emission

a-list
you niggas aint make lists
i put drugs inside of my body when im anxious
still been faded with pods in stars like shit was racing
pull up w/ the top dropped, been whippin faceless

vault_anxious

late_nite freestyle (biscuit)

2023 collab w/ maesk 🖤🖤


lyrics 

off white, diamonds, no home
off white, diamonds, no home
no sleep in my bones
shouldn't spend 2 days up, but no shit
3 days i'm sobbing full shift
fucked up, bitch should've known how it is
jus the way it is
but i couldn't dip, still cuts, only slits

been inside on sum ghost shit
talking bout a plan like it actually put in motion
and end another file, write it back but then never post it
this shit a mental wreck, steady reconcile with the potion
smoking, this weed got me greened out on a sofa
too potent
focus
my baby saying to me "you important"
too gorgeous
so u could never save me, jus endorphins
more importantly i couldnt save u if i tried to
4 deep in this pouring rain and pouring out my eyes too
sidestep
me i hate myself but say i like u
someday maybe i could take u ridin high views
pull up blue bentley pourin henny out the sunroof
drive you

Im jus pouring out my head
20 minutes later I be close to drawing dead
And she been tryna says ehe mine 
Intention not fruition, like this shit that ive been dealt

Reply to my texts
Ik wit me its different, coz im not flushing the stress
Been wishing on a baby who wont love me any less
guess im blessed
2 steps
On my mum yeah I jus needa. Lil time

Baby girl sipping off this wine
I got plenty on my mind
But I stick to fucing grind

But I jus wanna catch my breath 
Take a rest
Rewind to the times 
When I wasnt in my head
Me and shizu creating these tides,wavy
All tryna do is to get by baby

Make life what u dreamt 
Make life what u dreamt 
But dont live in ur mind

(live in ur mind)

(off white, diamonds, no home
off white, diamonds, no home
no sleep in my bones
shouldn't spend 2 days up, but no shit
3 days i'm sobbing full shift
fucked up, bitch should've known how it is
jus the way it is
but i couldn't dip, still cuts, only slits)

sincerely w/ maesk

pussy wet like typhoon
heated spice like thai food
oh he tryna fight too
i think yall might die soon
blood gon dry like monsoon
kick shit in no kung fu
baby dont like my drug use
couldn't put nuthin above u

what the fuck is help 
can barely trust myself let alone no one else
gon say you know me best well fucking kill myself
cause i would rather die
then live out a life in this hell of my
endless lullubies, in my soothing mind
as if it ever would work
dead in the dirt
i put a hole in everyone i hurt
for better or worse
mental alert 
never again would i open to em to tell em the worst

stuck sucking teeth in this car again
bitch i been spillin blood on my jeans and the cardigan
2023 fuckin weak i got nun my friends
but bryson kev and hero zach dom n ally like medicine
(somethin bout these days been jadin me
fade away in a doorway, to taking me home
ok no saving me
walkin around inna block w/ ur pic in my pocket
a face right beside of me 
behind pearly eyes u would see where my home
lies in a part of me
breach into visions of passing alone)

pussy wet like typhoon
heated spice like thai food
oh he tryna fight too
i think yall might die soon
blood gon dry like monsoon
kick shit in no kung fu
baby dont like my drug use
couldn't put nuthin above u

2023 (club paradise)

i can't find the prod :( if anybody knows his name plz lmk

shoutout @melmige

when i step out the rental house i’m feeling fifa w/ my kicks
adolescent, my fits
heard you got a new man, why you staying on my dick
stand on this shit
on sum “u could do much better if u wasn’t such a bish”
..that’s why shizu doesn’t miss

see our contrast stark like it’s ironman
ur heated up like Bluestar; i’m the fucking fireman
it’s funeral season all black on my attire
hit the track in one evening spent a minute in retirement
mr rock how flows Will slap a nosey nigga
chrome could blow a nigga top clean
he dug/doug deep and then, now his dome is dimmer/dimma
fairly odd problem solver make u wish a turner w/ you
but bigger picture jus me, yet six figured
when ur money counter’s black screen w/ no balance
this no challenge
hurl spit, his word salad
it’s songwriting line-of-fire and ice ballads

(be sincere for once i promise it won’t hurt you
post-ironic posturing i promise it’s a clear view
i got on your intention it’s embarrassing you consider yourself sinister
a minute in the mirror got u cracking under pressure)

spent some time in a rut
spent a couple hundred keeping hunger barred out enough
spent a couple dozen months pulling myself out the mud
spent a ton of fucking energy keeping air in my lungs
suffocating off the apathy i’d kill for your complaints
the suffered casualties have left me battled scarred in disarray
hard and weathered by reality my dreams been going gray
desaturated by mentalities developed in the fray
but i’m aware of where i’m fine
me and shizu hit piano licks like elton 89
the sacrifices will be worth it
artificer with my words
twist phonetics to the rhythm i could spit until it burns i can’t stop
what’s the alternative if i do
i’ve exhausted any option beyond entry level food and service
fuck if that’s my future fuck if i don’t make a move
and flip the script and kick off i’m mister tech deck im off
grimey spitting vitriol on non-profit beat rips
sliding with philosophy, horosha does the drum kicks
match the tempo that my heart is beating cuz i live for this
and if you don't, don't fuck with me i promise we are not friends

fire//ice (ft. melmige)

静けさ - shizukesa

alt rap
[Ｔｉｍｅｌｅｓｓ]
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influences: aries, 9tails + sewerperson, shinigami, kevin kazi, 49bags, guardin, atlas, noname

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