produced by sk8miles

completely non profit

lyrics

so who showed up to ur funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw your family pulling up with all their caseroles 
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
for every moment u spent living I sat here alone
( I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
but at the gruesome end I ask u where'd ur friends go
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

we live our lives online and wonder why we're so alone
i go outside to get reminded not to leave my home
you should lighten up and maybe then u'll find a bit of hope
you should be shutting up man I don't even care a bit at all

computer screens and actors
lights off n my back hurts
car wheels roll backwards
lives lost like captives
dying youngs in fashion
I live that gutter life no mansions
no handouts no pensions 
wear my body out for my paycheck
don't say nothing, don't spray it
I been in my head of late just brain me
take a .45 or a mil' o' 9 and send the lead out of my cranium
brain splatter on pavement
all of the grey matter just wasted
if u want something just take it
can't be assed complaining bout it

thoughts tracked on a post it
can't connect at all with humans (humans)
something broke in my brain machine
I can't talk to u without booze in me
(did u find ur halo?)
so friends come n they always leave
but that's fine tho it's alright with me
I've found the way that I'm meant to be
all alone I can finally breathe 
(did u find ur halo?)
let me breathe
bury me in mulch n rotten leaves
(did u find ur halo?)
July will mark the two years that I've grieved
why waste ur time I beg you don't believe in me
(did u find ur halo?)

so will u show up to my funeral?
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)
only saw my family pulling up with bottled alcohol
(I been, I been, waiting on a hearse)
keep the numbers low I had no friends that they could get involved
(I don't, know why, u make me think of funerals)
shout out to my ones across the world I'll never see at all
(I been, I been, banking on a funeral)

banking on a funeral (sk8miles)

confusion w/ hiraeth (switch)

produced by: jolst + homesick 
vocals, mixing & mastering by me 

lyrics: 


felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive 

and in the moonlight of his death
she’ll lay her hands upon her chest and rest
for a while
until this city summons her again,
look down at this place and she can’t help
but crack a smile 
she collects and carries souls from these men
those pretty words she says fu-fu- fuck with my head 
a soft spoken queen til he lays in her bed 
in the morning 
and when it’s time my love will you please heed me with a warning 

and these doors are locked shut, so just bleed
she can’t see anything 
through her mask full of greed
just breathe
bury me 
in the leaves 
by the trees
curse the lips that got me here 
and she ice, so i freeze 
shes a spirit; baby turn my skin white promise i wont leave 
everybody want her but don’t want those punctures from her teeth
i thought vampires were stories
eyes turned black, i couldn’t believe 
on this night this wooden floor is the only thing under me 

my eyes open finally to 6 feet 
of mud
throat is dry, and my hands feel numb 
last thing i remember was the slow slow cut 
i can smell the copper on my clothes
i’m covered in blood
so i push, i pray, i cry, i hope that i get out this rut
she laughs, and i can hear her, though it’s muffled and i’m stuck 
she told me “boy you shoulda turned around when i asked u what’s up”
and then she smile, put a dress on, to the next party she struts 

felt the whole room change when she stepped in
she got fire in her blood she electric
he would kill for her if she would let him 
but she holds his hand tight to prevent it “whered u stay? whered u go? whered u check in?”
it’s a little bit too much
but he expects it 
and it’s more than his face shes obsessed with
she wants his blood
oh i bet tastes expensive

souleater (jolst + homesick)

jus a fun little track 
check out senkay! goated prod
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mixed by ztope 
_____________

backdrop
find me in the background on the asphalt 
why you love me honey I ain’t take the mask off
like the bar my flow go hard I never rap soft
breaking boundaries they fond of me
woah

smoking in 4d
stack it up like ricks no morty 
shawty good, got me bricked no mortar
wrists slit tho, be dead by 40
sorry not sorry
spit with no warning
i jus dip in the flow like a 4 piece (mmmmm mcdonalds mmmm)
i could son you n ur bros no maury
while stuck in the home like Cory

backdrop
find me in the background on the asphalt 
why you love me honey I ain’t take the mask off
like the bar my flow go hard I never rap soft
breaking boundaries they fond of me
backdrop
find me in the background on the asphalt 
why you love me honey I ain’t take the mask off
like the bar my flow go hard I never rap soft
breaking boundaries they fond of me
woah

~~beat switch thingy :)

sick as fuck
not the kind they call me when i turn me up
level up
multi digit Ks like we was talking Klux
sorry yuh
really don’t want nobody, u just hype me up
acting tough
spliff this loud pack need to quiet down
but not right now
this writing not enough gon have to fight it out
n fuck him up
20 bucks on me, I’ll put him in his blood
aight that’s enough
breathing down my neck
n im jus having fun
im just having fun
she the 1
crop top like lara croft
Versace fit wit tommy socks
not talking “all grown up”
if this time the best i had
then why tf im throwing up
but guess it’s function in a function without getting drunk

backdrop
find me in the background on the asphalt 
why you love me honey I ain’t take the mask off
like the bar my flow go hard I never rap soft
breaking boundaries they fond of me

asphalt (senkay and friends)

whats the problem?
prod. @imcaves
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
whats the problem
i try not to think ab it in the long run
say it louder to convince myself i’m awful
i see ur face n think i’ll never pass the autumn
ain’t it funny how that works
never knew how much it hurt
put a price atop my head i got a target
thought i need more attention now i’m starving
i knew myself a whole lot less than i regarded
now ur over me w him
i don’t know where to begin

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light

suffer, suture wounds
i crushed my future; tomb
i’d see the sun
if you’d just move a bit
puncture lungs removed
tell me what u do
when night hits
everything is new again

whats the problem
isnt this all that u wanted in the long run?
i could spend my days just waiting for a phone call
but if i did then i wouldnt be someone u want
aint it funny how that works
i’ll just lie down in the dirt
u can bend me how u wanna cuz i like that
i miss how you’d make me hurt i never fight back
i know that it didnt work but yet despite that
i’m a sucker for ur love
i thought it was kinda fun

u can tell me that theres more to life
but i just wish we were immortalized
i think im brave until im forced to fly
i’ll never catch up to the morning light
i'll never

brave bird [caves]

spotify, apple, etc.

[+ Tosha]

1st - @user-411557229 
2nd - @northshoremusic 
3rd - @emptychest 
4th - @torvamia 
5th - @strivemusicau 
6th - @caspywaspy 
7th - @soulfadexo 
8th - @x1fern 
9th - @noxious-nights 
10th - @navyxower 
11th - @shizukesaaa 
12th - @hoeplessboy

Holding Onto Something [+ Tosha x Kev]

i try to be someone im not and
it feels wrong but im locked in
im just noxious on the rocks and
ill keep saying im doing fine

i cant even think
lights are on, i cant sleep
hiding under my sheets
to get away from my dreams
x2

dont get overwhelmed
dont feel what you felt
your faculties are breaking down
and you dont know how to help
yourself, yourself get out 
youre old, youre stuck in the route you made
i play games that no ones heard about
cant invite me to a public lobby 
cause i get scared and i dont talk for hours
i dont know how you talk so easily
fuck
thats all i can say
ive ran out of pain
i guess thats good for me
(pain)

i was the most popular ive ever been
when i was sad as fuck 
and i didnt know how to fucking vent
but now ive learned how to live 
and i grew up a little bit
so get out of my mind if youre not gonna profit it
yh.

i (prod. caves x wisssery)

produced by ztope and killedmyself
completely non profit

lyrics

ice and mud is giving way
its a waterslide

auburn hair out in the fields
i miss summer time
the ice and mud is giving way
its a water slide
both my feet are swept away
guess its do or die
i just hope she feels the same
hope its u and i 

i guess these circumstances arent exactly normal, i can give u that
faint roads, the pain grows, always clawing at the scabs 
i play a song from my memory
something inside me still struggling
somehow i grip on the muddy reeds
nothing could take it away from me

i found shelter all alone
on a shore in freezing clothes
20 miles barefoot snow

auburn hair out in the fields
i miss summer time
the ice and mud is giving way
its a water slide
both my feet are swept away
guess its do or die
i just hope she feels the same
hope its u and i 

auburn hair out in the fields
i miss summer time

swept away (ztope x killedmyself)

i’ve been meaning to call you 
to tell you everything i said 
but i’m feeling so blind 
and you’re out of your mind 
so it’s best that i leave it 

didn’t mean to fall for you 
you let me go when i was on the edge 
and this waters so cold
i won’t pick up my phone 
when you call, i wont see it 

and i hate this weather 
i just wish it was spring again 
when things were okay
i was off of my meds
and the world had gone crazy 

we just stayed in all day 
and i let you tattoo my hands 
now i can’t look at them 
a pair of black gloves 
heal my wounds, and i hate me 

and i’ll be 
right here 
anything you want you got it 
i’ll be right there 
youre toxic 
it’s not fair 
and the trees outside my house 
are now stripped bare 

i miss spring 
you’re not here
everything’s so temporary 
and its not fair 

your smiles sweet 
i love your hair 
and the smell of your clothes in my room 
it still lives here

spring. (+ pekarot)

cover art by my mother 

all the songs in the flesh alb r jus gone be released as singles

sewerperson "lights r on but no ones home" covered in the song

mix & mastr @fleshgolem
lyrics

fillin up th cup 
i feel my body start to ache
evrything telling me to stop
even see th walls starting to cave
and they love it, a body piled function
don’t wanna cause fussing but it’s building up coz every day i see my grave

this aint who i am
but ima act like this is why i am 
my perspective starts to change in where i stand, looking out th window pane
look i dont blame u for thinking im not keen staying 
but i dont hav a plan, anywhere on this dirt feels same

sink to the floor, coz it’s the norm, 
don’t u touch my skin
it’s all been stored, i’m now reborn
coz i can dump my things
yelling fuck it, pressing on my stomach
i can feel it coming but i’m not fucking stopping
 till i’m turned out in 

look at my face, see my state i jus kno ur confused 
i need space, cannot wait let’s take a break on the moon
i’m in pain, still in shock, lost in thought and i’m bruised
u saw me thru th glass and then just left me bleeding out in this hotel room

i saw the lights on but i knew that no one else was home
look at the nikon and check the camera roll, i'm all alone
feel the bottle pop, spew it out, opening in the mouth
i'm a cyclops when it comes to seeing no one else
okay, okay

i feel my ears pop when i take the lift up to the spot
in the function, sipping on this ace and rolling pot
i'ma punch in, even when i'm geeked, i'm on the clock
like a pumpkin, i'm lit up and my body start to rot

i'm an asshole, okay, well, i know, so you can leave
what's the point, though, in coming to the function if you cheesed?
i'm in street clothes but my guys in masks and they don't ski
i don't need throat, i just need a girl who proud of me, okay

know i act tough i just need someone to see i’m not ok
the whole domineer off i’ma just leave it to fate
cut my feelings off coz that mean i’m not suffering the same
sure it isn’t real but when i smile i still feel sane

i still feel sane, but mostly when im on a subs
get apifannys that turns my wants in to musts
i get a lot dreams but w my habits theyre all stuck 
i got these goals but w these habits theyre all fucked

i'm an asshole, okay, well, i know, so you can leave
what's the point, though, in coming to the function if you cheesed?
i'm in street clothes but my guys in masks and they don't ski
i don't need throat, i just need a girl who proud of me, okay

lights r on

lights r on (flesh)

runnit up !

静けさ - shizukesa

alt rap
[Ｔｉｍｅｌｅｓｓ]
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influences: 9tails + sewerperson, shinigami, kevin kazi, guardin, atlas, noname

asphalt (senkay and friends)

shizukesa.

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