(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(verse) 
i thought you cared about my feelings
every night i’ve been screaming
questioning what’s life’s meaning 
what i’ve been believing 
holding on to every little thing that ever mattered
you know that my hearts been shattered
sayin that the medicine will always make me better
but every single day i always get sadder
when will i be okay
when every day feels like the fucking same
i’m holding on to all these memories 
but still i question why things won’t change

(bridge)
everyday feels like the same thing 
and i’m fucking don’t with it (i’ve had enough)
when will i 
be set free
from this life

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

(chorus)
and i keep running away from my problems
i don’t know how to solve them
you care a little less when you hit rock bottom
cloudy eyes with a tortured mind
i can see the lies as the light grows darker
it fades from white as the blade sinks deeper
i thought blood ran thicker than water
my soul has died fuckin leave me behind

blood doesn't run thicker than water (discent)

decomposing (switch)

wish I could get back time
wanna exist without you on my mind
I put the blame on myself 
too often I ignored the signs 
Might’ve cared 
sorta there 
why’d you do that? 
now im scared 
cause now I think everyone’s gonna move like you do 
im aware 
I wasn’t perfect, just wanted to show I was worth it. 
to you, I’ll never deserve it.
what a shame that you never wanna take the dive 
Wonder why 
Still want him and I’m not surprised 
Still in love with the way he lied
guess you just don’t want your scars to fade away
Everyday feels like a maze
stay freaking out 
Don’t know what about 
Damn I wish that you had stayed 
Could’ve found a way to be okay
my friends say “give it time” 
just wish you hadnt wasted mine 
For so long, thoughts confined
Always said I was crazy 
But damn I was right
You really didn’t have to do that 
as much as I wanna say “that’s too bad”
I can’t go out without seeing you in everything
and it brings me back 
youve always said forever 
should’ve really just said never
I’ll leave the details out 
just hope that he don’t lose his temper 
still don’t know what to do
still don’t have the slightest clue
jokes on me, I just wanted it to be you

you really didn't have to do that (prod. soloft)

dont wait for me w/suszach & sendflowrs (afterlife)

im scared.. </3
...
theres some things that i cant learn
and loving me is one of them
i aint afraid
i cant change at all
but do i even want to? 
thats the question
im still tryna learn my lesson
oh..
i back up when i really shouldnt
when the going gets hard
i get scared
im scared
they learned how to love me
so i loved em back
i didnt think i would
but i learned from that
but im hot
im cold
and i dont know who i am
im just tryna learn to love who i am
im a pretty girl trapped in someones body
i was tryna be someone and im sorry
this cold weather always overwhelms my body
its really hard to get a meal in my body

the storm (2001 x sor)

We're exactly where we were a year ago 
#ComeHome
MIXED: ARI
MASTERED: ARI
PRODUCED: MONEO
FEATURING: CINERARIA @user-344070600
WRITTEN: ARI AND CINNIE

Lyrics:

Staring at my phone
For the third night in a row
Looking at my photographs of you
And I think of all the words you said to me
Wanted me to go but I’m not ready

You belong
In my arms
Where you’re meant to be
But you can’t see it
On my own
And so It goes
We’re exactly where we were a year ago

Yeah I know
I don't deserve
All of the memories you gave me
I've ruined every damn thing
You're hurt
I've let you down
You're past it
I've lost you
I miss you oh

You belong
In my arms
Where you’re meant to be
But you can’t see it
On my own
And so It goes
We’re exactly where we were a year ago

In my arms you belong
Stay together 
Fall apart
She don’t listen to my songs
Forever till death, death due us part

WE BELONG ft. CINERARIA PROD. MONEO

mixed by me
mastered by Ally Holloway
produced by metlast
artwork by my gf <3

constantly looking towards the sky
and wondering why i’m even alive
i can never begin to fathom
why i was even put here on this earth
was it just suffer?
beyond what i could imagine?..
i’ll let gravity, grab me by the feet
to pull me 6ft deep

(oh underneath 
their decaying bodies still haunt me)

dragging me under the ground
slowly suffocating so i can’t make a sound
it seems i’ve found a new home
with the ghost around im less alone
hoping i could find a better way
to rid the world of my lunacy
looking for any opportunity
to fade away and ameliorate this world…

of me
so cold
and empty

so i solidified the thoughts inside my head
the thoughts that were telling me i’m better off dead
no matter what you said to me
6ft deep is where i fended up being
so as the light from the tunnel grew darker and darker 
my mind grew further and further away
you should’ve stayed stayed with me 
but you left my body alone to decay

(you left me alone
traversing the unknown)

ameliorate this world (metlast)

paranoid ;darkout; (prod. Jolst)

Call Me When Your Over It

An introspective alternative rap piece about the pressure men hide behind. This track exposes how pretending to be unbreakable becomes its own kind of drowning. It’s the moment the mask slips, and the truth finally reaches the surface.

you really didn't have to do that (prod. soloft)

skrwd