Locked in the childhood bedroom for a summer and more, and after a lifetime of chasing the dream, known by noone, not even his family, and insane to everyone else around him walking a conventional path, The Boy taught himself every rope of production and writing - high and dry. The album was concieved solely by The Boy, to bare his soul, for others alike. A sacrifice, though ready to be misunderstood and not appreciated; this is one of the most eclectic and unique DIY albums of the recent age, ready to burn ears. This was my summer. You are my friend.

Remastered 2025

my summer

Looks like summer's finally ending
Which means that my end is finally near
I guess that this dream never did pan out
It seems like it never had a chance
Friends with myself
And at least I have this dance in your crowd
Though I probably should've cried out, shouted out for help
I probably will be fine now
I started out with doubt

Still in my mind
I can't seem to find the time
Still occupied with all your shine
All my life
Are you still there?

Summer, my summer
Summer, my summer
Summer, my summer
Summer, my summer
Summer, my summer
Summer, my summer
Summer, my summer
Summer, my summer

My Summer

My head is spinnin
Around and around like a globe
Around and around like a globe
Around and around like a globe

It's so clear
I cannot seem to feel
I can't believe what's real
It's okay, come here I
Can not seem to fear
Lost it in the shadows
Now it's in your ears

Spinnin in your isolation
Chillin at the end of the road
It's only then you really learn to miss it dearly
Though it doesn't seem to matter at all

Spinnin in your isolation
Chillin at the end of the road
It's only then you really learn to miss it dearly
Now it doesn't seem to matter at all
It doesn't matter at all

You
Have a semblance to something that I slew (I'm sorry)
And it's evident that I can't see the truth (I'm going blind)
Does it ever seem like ketamine is proof (taking drugs and staying online)
That the recipe they set to be is cruel
I don't know, I don't know, yeah
I'm just searching for home, yeah
I don't know, I don't know, yeah
Somewhere lost in the globe, yeah

Spinnin in your isolation
Chillin at the end of the road
It's only then you really learn to miss it dearly
Though it doesn't seem to matter at all

Spinnin in your isolation
Chillin at the end of the road
It's only then you really learn to miss it dearly
Now it doesn't seem to matter at all
It doesn't matter at all

It's been so long I can't tell
Just how long it's been
Stuck inside of this chamber, I am
Losing sight of myself
What has been going on
I won't tell
Myself or a friend
I go up to the end of the road
And sit there waiting again
Never will it rain again
Oh never ever again.

Spinnin'

Stressing over nothing
Got a Jack in my palm and I'm walking
Down a road that I carved on my own, all on my own, yeah
Address ya with a blade that I got up in my pocket
Ain't no stopping me, regardless how my prophecy unfolds,
That what i'm told by
the voices in my head as Im rolling on out of the bed
And I'm choking on my breath, about to hit that
Always focused on myself cause I never had no wealth
And no manner for that chit chat
Or that riff raff
But that big bad lil force of my nature would love to hate ya
I'll admit that it feels plenty sad in simulation
How to live in limitation patiently
Washing my face inside a basin in the basement wasted
In-side of a dream

She said to me,
"Wait for me"
Did plenty things
All make believe
Yeah

Lessons and assumptions
That I'm making as I'm faking what I'm wanting
While I'm walking down a road all on my own
With no home yeah
Shaking in dysfunction, placing something in the darkened pit of stomach
Chalk my pain up to the summer in my bones
In my bones, yeah
The choices that I made as I showed em what I'm made of
But I'm breaking, blown away
The voices in my way as I hope for something changing
On a building while in pain
The sun is finally setting, I'm committed to ascending away up from this place
Need something to remember while I'm wailing, waiting
While I'm deep inside a dream

She said to me,
"Wait for me"
Did plenty things
All make believe
Yeah

I'm not meant to be here
But I'm not meant to leave
I'm not meant to feel fear
So grab that wheel and steer

Far as I can go
Tires on the road
Falling dominoes
In my way
And I geronimo
I will never know
Survive or die alone
It's okay
I'm farther down the road
Than I could ever know
The fire in my soul
Its still there
I'm chiefing down the green and rolling, cruisin
Heat from desert sands blaze abusive
Gas that's leaking and oil losing
Vultures seeking with beaks intrusive
Fool of 22 tarot truth tips down the castle all in one movement

(Ready to go, Ready to go, you Ready to go right now?)
Then let if unfold, Let if unfold, Let if unfold, right now
You ready to go, Ready to go, Ready to go right now?
Then let it all go, Let it all go, ay Let it all go, right now
Ready to go, Ready to go, you Ready to go right now?
Then let if unfold, Let if unfold, Let if unfold, right now
You ready to go, Ready to go, Ready to go right now?
Just let it all go, just it all go, just Let it all go, right now
Right now

I'm Not Meant To Be Here

Locked in the childhood bedroom for a summer and more, and after a lifetime of chasing the dream, known by noone, not even his family, and insane to everyone else around him walking a conventional path, The Boy taught himself every rope of production and writing - high and dry. The album was concieved solely by The Boy, to bare his soul, for others alike. A sacrifice, though ready to be misunderstood and not appreciated; this is one of the most eclectic and unique DIY albums of the recent age, ready to burn ears. This was my summer. You are my friend.

Album 1 of 4

Rain (INTERLUDE)

I'm starting to wither away
And I'll need tranquilizers to numb the pain
I'm dreaming of the sunshine warming your face
But that was so long ago
Now I'm in the rain

Where am I now?
I don't want to know
But through your eyes
I'm seeing something new

I'm not ever gon' stop
And this I swear on my god
Everybody trying so hard
I'm trading all my sanity for a chance to live longer

Where am I now?
I don't want to know
But through your eyes
I'm seeing something new

Withering Away

The water's running so cold but I wont hesitate
The devil's right at the door but he won't have a say
and Someone's calling the phone but they don't have a claim
Just Seeing your face gets much harder the more that I wait
I hold my mistakes like an honor, I wont be ashamed
You gave me the shakes like a dog you're my saltwater wave
Your arrow went straight through my heart, I was never the same
I'll hold on tight as I fall it'll all be OK

Started off full of doubt, how I was so empty
On the top of the sky in a burning city
Ten years gone in a blink, I won't know no pity from em
Cause there's no goin' back from this, back from this hey
However sad or how mad you get, glad you get, hey
Know that there's no looking back from this, back from this, hey
We just gotta move past all these trials and tribulation
So no matter what happens next I'll love you till I'm crazy (and then some)
Give you all of my time and my shine until I've faded
Make it all feel alright in this life, I won't betray ya
Take the dive and don't fight the wave, let the waters change ya

(The water's running so cold but I wont hesitate)
The devil's right at the door but he won't have a say
and Someone's calling the phone but they don't have a claim
Just Seeing your face gets much harder the more that I wait
I hold my mistakes like an honor, I wont be ashamed
You gave me the shakes like a dog you're my saltwater wave
Your arrow went straight through my heart, I was never the same
I'll hold on tight as I fall it'll all be OK

Started off full of doubt, how I was so empty
On the top of the sky in a burning city
Ten years gone in a blink, I won't know pity from em
Cause there's no goin' back from this, back from this hey
However sad or how mad you get, glad you get, hey
Know that there's no looking back from this, back from this, hey
We just gotta move past all these trials and tribulation
So no matter what happens next I'll love you till I'm crazy (and then some)
Give you all of my time and my shine until I've faded
Make it all feel alright in this life, I won't betray ya
Take the dive and don't fight the wave, let the waters change ya

Let the waters change you
Let the waters take you dear
Let the waters change you
Let the waters take you
Let the waters change you dear
Let the waters take you
Let that waters take you
Let that waters take you

The Dive

I can't tell if I just lost it
Dry heave to the bone
In the summer
Sleeping right by your side
Do you know when I'm thinking 'bout you?
Doused in your medicine?
When I'm scared to let it all fall away

Where is my lover
Somewhere in the summer
I need to hold her in my arms
Where is my lover girl
Oh what a bummer, world
Wanted to hold her to the sky

Would you tell me that I've lost it?
Drowning in this home
In the summer
Sleeping under your nose
Now you're sitting by the picket fence
Doused in your medicine
And I'm glad that I'm no longer alone

Where is my lover
Somewhere in the summer
I need to hold her in my arms
Where is my lover girl
Oh what a bummer, world
Wanted to show her I'm alright

Summer Girl

This isn't what you're made to do
This isn't what I'd say to you
And this is no place for you
It's true
Take away the world for me
Make it so I want to see
This isn't how I want it to be
No more

So listen when I'm talking
'Cause this is all I've found
Wish I would've taught you
How to smile
So listen when I'm talking
'Cause this is all I've found
Wish I would've taught you
How to smile

This isn't what you're made to do
This isn't what I'd say to you
And this is no place for you
It's true
Take away the world for me
Make it so I want to see
This isn't how I want it to be
No more

So listen when I'm talking
'Cause this is all I've found
Wish I would've taught you
How to smile
So listen when I'm talking
'Cause this is all I've found
Wish I would've taught you (told you)
How to smile

Now, you're in a hole
Darker and deeper than I could know
Now, you're far away
Somewhere in places I could not name

How To Smile

Nightmare before you fall into your dream land
Nightmare before you fall into
And when you finally fall into your dream trance
That's when I finally see the truth
Woah-oh-oh
The curtains roll back
The torch is lit
A sky that falls fast
As you plummet
Forgot yourself now
Forgot your sin
You stretch your wings out
and float along the wind

yet they're on our tail
Through hard rain and hail
They're on our tail
Through hard rain and hail

Could we ever get away?

Well, they can try
Persuade us with their lies
In your disguise
Well, they can try
Invade me in my mind
Under my eyes
Woah-oh-oh
You've seen so many souls now
Seen so many nights, and frights, and riots
And flowers on my bed
How am I still here, running?

And they're on our tail
Through hard rain and hail
They're on our tail
Through hard rain and hail

Wait
Don't wait for me
This place
Won't wait for me
To wake
From the waking world
From the waking world
From the waking world
From the waking world
From the waking world
From the waking world
In the waking world,

They're on our tail
Through hard rain and hail
They're on our tail
Through hard rain and hail

Dreamland

June 5 (INTERLUDE)

when there's noone around
and your friends are out of town
oh you're living all by yourself now
just another face in the crowd
i'll never see you now
because you're not around
you'll discover new worlds without me
just another face in the crowd
please just deliver me from this Vow

long oh long ago
i was a selfish helpless little soul
i had nowhere to go

she saved me from a hell
i couldn't save myself
crying, noone to tell
with a ciggie in my fingers
and a trigger to my health

when there's noone around
and your friends are out of town
oh you're living all by yourself now
just another face in the crowd
i'll never see you now
because you're not around
you'll discover new worlds without me
just another face in the crowd
please just deliver me from this Vow

don't let noone tell you what to do, ay
cause they do not what you've been through, ay
you and i, we're tight like we're a loop, hey
thrive all by yourself because this life is of your choosing
do it by yourself if need be, just like this music

Face In The Crowd

No matter what I do
No matter what I do
The sky is always blue
Reminding me of you

Just how much time will pass?
Just how much time has passed?
What was on my mind back then?
How can I survive like this?

You can try so hard
You can try so hard
You can try so hard
Just to crash and burn

I'll grab your hand and take you to the stars
I'll take you to a land where there's no more
I'll grab your hand and take you to the stars
I'll take you to a land where there's no more

No matter what I do
No matter what I do
I'm always thinking of you
I only knew one love

Just how much time will pass?
Just how much time has passed?
What was on my mind back then?
How can I survive like this?

You can try so hard
You can try so hard
You can try so hard
Just to crash and burn

I'll grab your hand and take you to the stars
I'll take you to a land where there's no more
I'll grab your hand and take you to the stars
I'll take you to a land where there's no more

Crash And Burn

At home but in the wrong place
Stuck in the same room for a summer and more
Still lost in a boy's dream
Down a road from depression you'll never come back from it seems
High all the time, crying all the time, but no tears and cold fears
Relationships reflected by the scars on your face
And your fingers
Can't hold peers
Under the wraps for XXII whole years, with no cure
Now losing the wheel to steer
Taught yourself to find the wonders in the spiral so you could go there
With your burnt ears
Your reminder that there's still fire crackling even if noone hears
Heart inside beating too fast or too slow, so who could go near?
So dear
Feral child to those ambiguous around you
Though it seems you finally found you:
Intoxication, mania, and extravagence
Apathy, absence, and carelessness
Persistence yet consistently drained, so harrowing
Sands in the hourglass falling constantly
Still in your head, hearing an end
Rising again as the summer sun burns red
Never forget
You are my friend
You are my friend
You are my friend
You were my friend
You are my friend
You are my friend
You are my friend
You were my friend

FOOL XXII (INTRO)

It was deep inside my head 'fore I realized
It was probably too late
I am hypnotized
I just wanna see you one last time
I just wanna be with you one last time

I just wanna see you in the light
I just wanna speak with you through the night
Never want to forget who we are
Never did I forget who we were
Hitting on a joint while we looked at the lake
She stared into my eyes I didn't know what to say
Look into my eyes while I make mistakes
They questioning my life while I fade away

It was deep inside my head 'fore I realized
It was probably too late
I am hypnotized
I just wanna see you one last time
I just wanna be with you one last time

Now I'm in my car and I'm driving pretty far
Ain't a single person in this world knows what I'm on
How am I so gone?
Where did it go wrong?
Wrong
I don't want to be alone
But I do not have a home
I already lost my soul
And I'm digging a new hole
And I'm digging a new hole
And I'm digging a new hole
Yeah I'm digging a new hole

It was deep inside my head 'fore I realized
It was probably too late
I am hypnotized
I just wanna see you one last time
I just wanna be with you one last time

I just wanna be with through the night
I just wanna be with through the night
I just wanna be with through the night
I just wanna be with you one last time

One Last Time

23 yr old solo artist. outsider. diy, punk ethos. this is my only path. message me

my summer

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