this song was inspired/interpolated from a softheart type beat i found on youtube, please go give some love to w1nter/shy: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UChPhqiihr2QL0nMOr5FmlbQ

New Terrain

[+] if you want my heart you gotta steal that </3
* featuring @lilskeleskrrt + @steadysuffer * produced by @prodjolst *

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wanna go back

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wanna go back (feat. skele + steadysuffer)

Basketcase - Softheart

introduction
prod/ft my good friend @greenwood2000
<3

lyrics:
something was stolen
something i borrowed
must’ve been open
must’ve been hollow
& open progression
is nothing but awful
i trample my thoughts
till they’re tougher to swallow

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

greenwood:
I put some distance out into the worlds
And I never trip about the way that it hurts
And I think they buried me deep in the dirt
But trust me, and trust me it still could get worse

Seventeen years in a hospital bed 
And they treat me different I know what it is
And it'd take a year to explain what it did
When I got a phantom inside of my limbs

Closed down, held over
And I found the worst way to tell you
And I couldn't leave but I'd let you
And tell me you think I'll be dead soon

Held down, I'm closer
And I found the best way to end it
And I didn't sleep just pretended
And fucked up my life like your friends said

its passion that kills you,
the nerve’s gonna drive you insane
(cant take back what i said, 
im the one you can blame)
i can’t stand to look back
when the only thing there is your name
(not the man in your heart,
he had went with the pain)
i took this as a loss
when i should’ve been counting the days
(its a pattern i keep,
wish i’d throw it away)
its a wish on a star
you’re the one thing that’s keeping me sane
(i know its too late)
i’m losing this game
when you’re learning to lose
well, the world isn’t spinning the same

learning to lose

learning to lose w/ greenwood

spotify & apple music!

Letdown

[Hook x2]
Static in my skull, pixels bleed red
Clock ticks backward, I’m already dead
Mirror keeps laughing, glass full of cracks
I reach for my face, fingers fall through the black
Lose me, lose me, lose me tonight
Fractured in the flicker of a dying neon light
Lose me, lose me, lose me for good
If I ever find me I’ll burn where I stood

[Verse 1]
Voices on the wire chew holes in my name
Every breath I borrow tastes like cold flame
Streetlights stutter, spell out my crimes
I answer in Morse with a pocket full of dimes
Boots full of water, pockets full of rust
Heartbeat skipping like a scratched disc of trust
I talk to the shadows, they talk back mean
Say boy you a glitch in somebody’s dream
808 thunder cracks open the sky
I dive through the rip where the real ones die
Crackle keeps count of the pieces I drop
Every shard sings stop but I never stop

[Pre-Hook]
Tape keeps rolling, blood on the reel
I scream at the splice but the splice won’t heal

[Hook x2]

[Verse 2]
City coughs smoke, I inhale the glitch
Every billboard blinks you don’t exist
Phone keeps ringing with a dial tone scream
Caller ID blank like a cut-up scene
I sprint through the static, lungs full of sparks
Chased by the echo of my own remarks
Walls melt sideways, clocks drip like wax
Yesterday’s me waving from train tracks
Rhodes chords weep in minor despair
I try to grab one, it dissolves in air
Cowbell rattles like bones in a box
I dance on the grave where tomorrow rots

[Bridge]
Cut the feed, kill the screen
Delete the version that calls itself me
Burn the save, crash the drive
Only in the wreckage do I feel alive
[Drop – full rage scream over glitch arp storm]
LOSE ME LOSE ME TEAR THE CODE
SHATTER EVERY ROAD I WROTE
WIRES SNAP, CIRCUITS BLEED
FINALLY FREE WHEN I CEASE TO BE

[Hook x2]

[Verse 3]
Rain on the window writes suicide notes
I read them backwards till my vision floats
Neon cathedral, confession in sparks
Priest made of feedback absolves the dark
I kneel at the altar of broken delay
Offer my name on a cracked cassette tray
Tape head spins, eats every word
Spits out silence I never heard
Last reflection waves goodbye slow
Mouths thank you for letting me go
I smile with teeth made of radio snow

[Final Hook]
Static in my skull…
Lose me… lose me…
If I ever find me I’ll burn where I stood
[Outro – tape slows, warps, stops]
click

Static In My Skull

thank you to everyone who has supported my music
ily <3

without u (prod ten50)

Or At Least Thats What I Tell Myself

“produced” by me

and i know that i’ll get better, but i won’t hold my breath,
every day that i’m inside another day in my head,
i’ll just sit inside, these tears i cry, they spill on your dress,
think i need to go and sit outside so i’ll call my friends

and lately i’ve been worried that the only thing i love is slippin away from me,
don’t fall for me,
i try; i can’t fall asleep,
and i stress way too much these days i thought i was getting better
but in my heart i’ll be okay because i’ve firmed much stronger weather 
and i don’t feel any release when i write a song, i won’t lie
only time i feel okay, 
is when i’m holding on to a knife
and i wont ever put you down by running my mouth,
i’ll make sure that he regrets every sick word that he spouts 

and i know that i’ll get better, but i won’t hold my breath,
every day that i’m inside another day in my head,
i’ll just sit inside, these tears i cry, they spill on your dress,
think i need to go and sit outside so i’ll call my friends

release

press me (with waitingoncisco)

shave my head in the mirror

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just happy to be here