I can’t stop listening to all of ur music 

Take it and you float too (pennywise)

a song I wrote a while back for my favorite place, enjoy!! xx

3am in new york

butterflies

something new i wrote & thought i would upload here as a rough take on my phone! more dramatic sad bitch music coming ur way don't fret <3 anyways in the meantime hope u like this one

there is a girl (voice memo)

Cover of one of my favorite songs at the moment. Excuse the bad quality and occasional mistake... lol

pancakes for dinner - Lizzy McAlpine

catie turner - to the boy i fell in love with

Season Tickets - Adam Melchor (Lullaby Hotline)

If Your Too Shy to talk to your crush at a Party (1975)

i turned 20 today and wrote this as a birthday card of sorts to myself <3 here are the lyrics!:

i never planned on writing this song
i never planned on living this long
i was too busy sitting on everything that's wrong

at the heart of the matter i just had to go
when everything shatters is when you will know
how to be brave when you can't see the way that your blood will flow

chorus:
happy birthday baby
you should know that lately
i'm still afraid but i'm finding reasons to stay
in the mirror standing,
pink lipstick in hand, 
i wrote that when i give love to myself no one can take it away
take it away

all of the memories i've ever had
cover me til i'm a little less sad
like a heavyweight blanket i knit with my tongue from invisible thread

20 years old seemed like death at 13
i didn't think i could be both real and clean
and i'm not quite there yet but i'm steady dancing the in between

chorus

happy birthday
happy birthday
if it's not enough to stay
i love you anyway

happy birthday (voice memo)

lil ode to unlearning internalized misogyny <3

lyrics:
pretty girl on the t
you look much cooler than me, so i hate you
it's not you, it's not me
it's just the strange race we both were put into 
before we born
guinea pigs with ribbons torn
competing for a spot
that's not even that warm

it's just got a lot of men who say:
"you're the best, you're the best
you're not like the rest
you trampled them over just to lay on our chest"
and i hate to see me do it 
all of us are losing 
i blame it on being depressed

cause if i'm not the prettiest girl at the bar 
then wtf is the point
i wanna be the nicest thing to look it 
since nobody likes my noise
well maybe when i get skinny
or when i get hotter
when i know myself better
i won't be so bothered by
every girl who i've ever thought of 
as having her shit figured out
til then i'm tryna find the hottest way to pout
open the car door, i wanna get out

nascar barbie (voice memo)

lyrics:

Push and pull, give and take
Break it up - my mistake
Give in, fan the flame
Change your hair, change my name

Cause I loved you & you loved me
Like two ends of a magnet
But I loved you like a bible
While you loved me like a bad habit

Broken heart, muscle pain
Topical lidocaine
Liquid gold; fill the cracks
Then watch the sky collapse

Cause I loved you & you loved me
Like two ends of a magnet
But I loved you like a bible
While you loved me like a bad habit
I’ll mislead you, then I need you
Then I’ll tell you how I would bleed for you
Guess you don’t know what you’ve lost til you don’t have it
Cause I love when you loved me like a bad habit

Cause I loved you & you loved me
And I swore that we had had it
But I loved you like a scripture
But to you, I was comforting sadness
When I’d need you, then mislead you
Then I’ll tell you how I would bleed for you
But I guess it was fun while it lasted
You all alone in the pews as I’m sprawled in a casket
Guess you don’t know what you’ve lost til you don’t have it

Cause I loved you 
When you loved me 
Like a bad habit

bad habit (original demo)

the cherie on top🍒

💌mail me @ songsfromesme@gmail.com

nascar barbie (voice memo)

Esmé

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