Neu und angesagt: Indie

self-prod

Crush my hands into some particles, 
But I still hold, 
To the pieces of you stopping me, 
From being cold. 
I just wanna know you love me baby, 
I don't control, 
The feelings that I'm feeling lately, 
It's getting old. 
Could you love me like you did, 
In December?
Cold winter winds on our skin, 
We're growing thinner. 
Walking through the snow, 
But our skin tends to simmer. 
Warmth beneath our hearts, 
Gives a feeling I remember. 
You had black and red hair, 
And mine was in my face, 
Now yours is turning brown, 
And I guess I haven't changed. 
I still feel as cold as I did, 
Inside that fucking cave. 
And if I fall behind, 
I hope this winter you escape. 
You created me, 
You saved me like a hero. 
Can't relate me to your passion, 
Baby I'm a fuckin zero. 
I just wanna be the one you call when you're alone. 
I'm sorry baby girl I know I never get the phone.

december

self-prod

Praying that it's temporary, 
I don't want obituary, 
But this life is hella scary, 
I been cold since february. 
Can't you see im hailing Mary?
I don't want this shit to tear me, 
I been hanging on but barely, 
I don't see this life too fairly. 
Uh, 
I had to grow up,
Without a damn figure. 
Yeah we look good, 
But that shit is a picture, 
Real life is different, 
You'd know if you lived her. 
I'm hanging on by the skin of my blister. 
The cysts are not worth it, 
Wondering how I deserve it, 
I was just born to curse and, 
I'm only a person. 
This shit just like Donda to me, 
There was no father to me. 
And no he ain't dead, 
But he act like it something to be. 
If I had the courage, 
I'd smack him so hard that he's losing his teeth, 
But it wouldn't be worth it he's already hurting, 
And he can't afford surgery. 

If I had to spit on this shit everyday of the week, 
Then I know that I'd do it. 
I always feel useless like ripping the tulips, 
Inside of a garden when I knew I grew it. 
But I keep it moving like something is proving, 
When it's time consuming I'm fearing the doom of the fact that I knew it I'm clueless and the bruise is excusing the things that I'm doing. 
The things that I'm doing. 

But shit I'm still back, 
I cannot relax, 
Making three albums, 
A month and it's sad. 
It never works, 
And it only gets worse, 
And I'm fixing the mixing, 
It ruins the verse. 
Look at my past, 
And just like my dad, 
I'll never change it, 
I'm feeling too bad. 
Stuck in the dirt, 
I'm ignoring your words, 
And I cover my ears, 
Cause the things that I heard. 
I gotta go now, 
I cannot slow down. 
No time for thinking, 
I work way too much, 
Just to put it on soundcloud. 
Live like a ghost town, 
Alone with a whole crowd. 
I'm never lonely, 
But all on my only, 
I swear that I'm locked out. 

Is this what you wanted, 
I keep it a hunnid, 
The truth is I'm nothing, 
But wannabe something, 
But I end up running, 
Off cliff and I'm jumping, 
To hell without thinking, 
I feel like I'm cutting,
Off all of my socials, 
People I'm close to, 
I don't want loneliness, 
I wanna hold you, 
But look I just told you, 
All that I wrote you, 
Is deeper than love, 
It's the person I mold to.

Temporary

Main Artist: lil XipZ
Production: lil XipZ
Mixing: lil XipZ
Master: lil XipZ
Cover Art: lil XipZ
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LYRICS:

[Verse]
she said that i got a problem
i try to stand out, but im stuck at the bottom
i said "i know how to solve it"
ill do things my own way and no one can stop it

cuz you see, im still independent 
i got my whole team and we gon rule the scene
theres nothing in the way that could stop me
we getting the numbers that youll never see


ThereIsNothingInMyWayButMyself

Paradise

Out now via @PilotRecordsUK!
Download/Stream: https://pilot.ffm.to/enemy-brain.VGB

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Lyrics:
(Enemy brain, enemy brain)
(It’s always the same, always the same)
 
Just another day in this hell world, hey
I don’t let it in, I get by okay
Step through the fog, how am I feelin’ today
Well you know, you know, you know, you know, know
 
See I was doing great ‘til the happiness tax
‘round 4pm it just hits like that
Yeah, some of my best days still go bad
But you know, you know, you know, you know
 
I been tryna figure it out
Oh, there’s gotta be some kinda reason why I’ve been feeling so down
I did everything right but it still feels like the sky’s falling down
It’s my enemy brain, ain’t cooperating
It’s beating me down
And it’s freaking me out
 
(Enemy brain, enemy brain)
(It’s always the same, always the same)
(Enemy brain, enemy brain)
(Yeah)
 
Okay okay okay
I can’t quite tell if it’s cool or depraved
Having pizza for breakfast for the last 5 days
How am I gonna shake this bad vibe haze
Well I don’t know don’t know don’t know don’t know NO
 
If I fall down and don’t know how
How am I meant to pick myself up right now?
Seems like maybe I should know by now
But you know, you know, you know, you know
 
I been tryna figure it out
Oh, there’s gotta be some kinda reason why I’ve been feeling so down
I did everything right but it still feels like the sky’s falling down
It’s my enemy brain, ain’t cooperating
It’s beating me down
And it’s freaking me out
Yeah, yeah!
 
(Everything makes no sense)
(And I just can’t see the difference)
(And I been hoping that tomorrow might save me, yeah)
 
You could say that I’m 
Out past misery 
And I’m outclassed viciously 
By the hard times 
Could be me or my bad mind 
I wish to be with my people 
Trying stuff for no reason 
Might discover some meaning 
Why am I here overthinking?
I’m just tryna figure it out
 
I been searching and can’t find a reason why I’m the mess I am now
How am I supposed to relax through competing with all of the stress and the doubt
I’m too close to the canvas I gotta step back I can do this but how
I guess I’ll keep trying to
 
Figure it out
Oh, there’s gotta be some kinda reason why I’ve been feeling so down
I did everything right but it still feels like the sky’s falling down
It’s my enemy brain, ain’t cooperating
It’s beating me down
And it’s freaking me out
Yeah, yeah!
 
(Enemy brain enemy brain)
(It’s always the same, always the same)
(Enemy brain enemy brain)
(Yeah)
 
(Figure it out)
(Oh there’s gotta be some kinda reason why I been)
(feeling so down)
(I did everything right but it still feels like the) 
(Skyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy)

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Enemy Brain

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giving my all still wasnt enough,
-+- mix & master, lyrics by me
prod. idly blare -+-
(lyrics)
i been lost again
these thoughts theyre freezing my brain
and the mirror is a portal to take me away
are you gone again?
always when i need you the most
can i call a friend?
or will they all be gone now

what did it really mean?
when you left here from my life,
why is this happening?
tearing me from the inside.
can we restart again?
oh how ive messed up this time
was that my final chance?
i guess youre gone for good now.

and now youre gone for good,
always thought that i am the worst
and its been killing me,
when you speak bad to your friends
i am sorry,
i was never the best
i was trying hard,
i really gave you my all.

made 7/7/2022

what did it really mean anyway (idly blare)

Tracklist:
0:00 Toro Y Moi - Harm in Change
2:05 Holy Ghost! - Hold On
5:20 Tame Impala - Is It True
8:00 Cut Copy - Strangers In The Wind
11:15 Scenic - Shockwaves
13:00 Mild Minds - Weak Signal
14:47 Argonaut & Wasp - Monacillo
18:31 YACHT - Second Summer (RAC Remix)
21:10 Friendly Fires - Silhouettes
24:45 Sam Gellaitry - Assumptions
27:50 Jonti - Scrood (feat. Steve Lacy)
30:42 Mitzi - Truly Alive
33:03 The Octopus Project - Small Hundred
35:40 Strange Talk - Eskimo Boy
38:30 Roosevelt - Night Moves
42:56 Dayglow - Can I Call You Tonight?
45:53 COMA - Les Dilettantes (Roosevelt Mix)
48:59 SBTRKT, Roses Gabor - Pharaohs
52:32 Adi Oasis - When I'm Alone (Jaques Renault Remix)
54:44 Parachute Youth - Can't Get Better Than This

Radio Aachener Weiher Vol. 1

lyrics:

I can feel you, losing all your heart
Could feel you, losing control
I feel you, deep within your eyes
What is in your eyes, i feel that

I can feel you…
I can feel you…

Cheap slacks and gothboi lipstick
Drop dead merch that’s on my checklist
I know it all before, when i leave for you
When i pick you up, to a new show
Love is in the air, why is it poison
And you like to, say it’s nothing
Breaking onward, never backwards
Fallen downward, gonna check it
Cheap silhouette, from the window
These silent words, they never blow
What is there to see, i will never know
Tell me to leave, when its time to go
And i know i’ve fallen down
But what if there was speed of sound
You just haven’t seen it yet
Breaking down before we’re on a set

I can feel you, losing all your heart
Could feel you, losing control
I feel you, deep within your eyes
What is in your eyes, i feel that

I can feel you…
I can feel you…

I can feel you, losing all your heart
Could feel you, losing control
I feel you, deep within your eyes
What is in your eyes, i feel that

I can feel you…
I can feel you…

feel you. [+ northeast lights x iceboi]

[featuring @crizzywhite & @xipz_sad]

Lyrics:
(soon)

grand prix. (ft. Crizzy White & lil XipZ) [+happytears]

CASTLEBEAT 'Half Life' 2022 album out now on Spirit Goth Records (SG47)!

🎧  Listen / Stream
→ https://sg47.fanlink.to/half-life

📹 Cinema Music Video: https://youtu.be/Dc5OU9kLYbc

Cinema

Beach House - Sanctuary
Beach House - Once Twice Melody
Beach House - Space Song
Beach House - Used to Be
Beach House - Baseball Diamond
Beach House - New Romance
Beach House - Lose Your Smile
Beach House - The Traveller
Beach House - Black Car
Beach House - Through Me
Beach House - 10 37
Beach House - Wishes
Beach House - Rough Song
Beach House - Gila
Beach House - Lovelier Girl
Beach House - She's So Lovely
Beach House - Take Care
Beach House - Wild
Beach House - Drunk in LA
Beach House - Girl of the Year
Beach House - Myth
Beach House - Norway
Beach House - Masquerade
Beach House - The Hours
Beach House - Hurts to Love
Beach House - 10 Mile Stereo
Beach House - Sparks
Beach House - Runaway
Beach House - Lemon Glow
Beach House - Only You Know
Beach House - Superstar
Beach House - Elegy to the Void
Beach House - Modern Love Stories
Beach House - Lazuli
Beach House - ESP
Beach House - Troublemaker
Beach House - Astronaut
Beach House - Baby
Beach House - New Year
Beach House - Lover of Mine
Beach House - Many Nights
Beach House - Tokyo Witch
Beach House - Other People
Beach House - Walk In the Park
Beach House - Another Go Around
Beach House - Childhood
Beach House - On The Sea
Beach House - PPP
Beach House - Zeb
Beach House - Turtle Island
Beach House - Heart and Lungs 
Beach House - L'inconnue
Beach House - Days of Candy
Beach House - House On the Hill
Beach House - Beyond Love
Beach House - Pink Funeral
Beach House - Finale
Beach House - Over and Over
Beach House - Last Ride

A Tribute To Beach House

STREAM

Mixed/Mastered By Me & Joshiguess
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(lyrics)
why'd you stab me in the back thought i made it all clear i be popping all these tags and i know they wanna fear I'll be posted with strap making shawty fucking mad turn the fucking lights off we be bussin in this club 

you said you would stay you think that it's a game you wanna play pretend ya she killed me fucking twice man i thought she was my mistress shawty back it up man i think you get it twisted and i don't care i can see man I'm fucking sound asleep i don't even wanna see you anymore 

i was in my come up made them shut up they be getting too nice damn it's getting fucking weird i thought i made it fucking clear i was in the back of the rear i don't want you here 

(joshiguess)
me and akira just performed last night
we were in sac and the crowd got hyped
Got fucked up like my ping got spiked
we gon blow up like it's dynamite

They wanna say hi but they insecure
But they always give me numbers give me integers
I shake while I'm giving them my signature
I just wish these times were simpler

first song in the room where we both recorded
trees around me like I'm in an orchid
walking up the steps like the plane that I boarded
all these summer times got it feeling so torrid

(akiradoves)
why'd you stab me in the back thought i made it all clear i be popping all these tags and i know they wanna fear I'll be posted with strap making shawty fucking mad turn the fucking lights off we be bussin in this club

(my verse) 
blast off we bussin you tweaking shots on me you said you wanted to hear me now I'm going stupid on this mic thats alright kinda fucking drunk catch a ride i don't wanna fight staring at your crystal eyes 

(joshiguess)
staring at your crystal eyes
we both gonna rise
said I act too nice
quiet like a mice

napalm w/ joshiguess (notartemys)

eyes closed [dkanee]

grief

grief ft. Teddyboi (branwen)

featuring @skrxwd
produced by @afterlife66 & @jolst
engineered by @marcdoesmusic

LYRICS
say my name
(only say I love you, when nobody's around you)
when you can
(wish I didn't want you, even though I want to)
say my name
when you feel me in your veins
say my name
(only say baby I love you when nobody's around you)

there's something missing without you
the sunlight's missing from my room
I stay up late with the blood moon
the notes I kept smell just like you
I lost the way, wasn't just you I was heading down this road anyway
I still replay, every memory just like you'd play me green day

say my name
(only say I love you, when nobody's around you)
when you can
(wish I didn't want you, even though I want to)
say my name
when you feel me in your veins
say my name
(only say baby I love you when nobody's around you)

I can't even front, I fucking miss you
telling everyone you're scared I might diss you
still upset but I just wanna kiss you
hit my line, anytime, not an issue
you don't even care
whether I'm here or there
I'll never be what you want, yeah I'm aware
everything feels like a chore, watch the rain pour
why'd you have to even up the score?

say my name
(only say I love you, when nobody's around you)
when you can
(wish I didn't want you, even though I want to)
say my name
when you feel me in your veins
say my name
(only say baby I love you when nobody's around you)

say my name (feat. skrwd) (prod. by afterlife & jolst)

Prod @horoshavibes & @kingtheta
Featuring @1endie
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I'm staying quarantined from everyone who cares for me
 
'Cause they could never really get it
I'm not shy
I'm just staying independent
I have trouble letting people in
Ask me what's my problem
Where do I begin
 
I'm a recluse
I've been spending too much time inside my bedroom
Ask me and I'll say I'm fine but that is not true
I won't even try to hide that I don't want to socialize
'Cause I'm a wreck
I'm a recluse
 
Three days in the same shirt
What's the point of waking up if I don't gotta work
Check my phone
No missed calls
At this point I'm convinced
No one'd miss me at all
 
(Endie)
I love and hate my youth for someone like you
And you know that I don't write
My feelings for you in a notebook
A journal
Trying not to fall for
Someone like you
‘Cause you’re all I know
And you're all I want

Listen on Spotify!

Recluse w/ Endie (Prod. Horosha & King Theta)

[Est. 2018]

 Associating with:
@timeless-archive, @333collective (2021-2023)

feel you. [+ northeast lights x iceboi]

Soulfade (@soulfadexo)

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