I made a vent animation w/ this song on YT

This is beautiful, this song made me empathize for my sister since we got separated, things got out of hand back then and our situation is still pretty awkward because i honestly lost most part of myself or made myself so much that i’m so far away

@uesbi prod @shinjinv @bugbu6

took my heart back its in pieces
remember when u said u need this
love u still even though im broken
in my hands ur heart that im holding
so maybe i should take some time
maybe i should fake some smiles
maybe i can last just one more night
out of sight
lost my mind
hanging onto words u say
hanging onto smiles i fake
leaving my love to rot
let the bodies drop
wont lie baby im not ok
so maybe i should take some time
but i cant breathe with ur hands around my neck
left alone so im up all nite
nothing else hurts like a sick goodbye :)

no time to lose don’t wanna say goodbye just yet 
this life I chose won’t let go of me like that 
you know for you I’d do everything I can 
thought I was good now I’m falling down again 
It’s not like it’s easy for me too 
don’t ask I’ll make it thru 
trust me it’s all for you 
 I’m still bound to what I hate the most 
I feel just like a ghost 
cuz you won’t realize I’m here

sick goodbye ft. lain「shinjin + lovbug」

w/ @i9bonsai
prod @mkne + @kiryano + @1opgloryboyz

why r u always so harsh? words cut thru just like a knife
trying 2 tell me what is, but u do not know what its like
2 be alone, all by urself
all on ur own, without no help
the challenges that i must face
all the time, evryday
i do not know what i do but i do everything that i can
i dont know what i should do cuz u could never understand
just how it feels 2 live my life
im never well, nevermind
it dont matter, dont waste ur time
leave me alone, ill waste my life
i thought u were real, it turns out ur not
u are so fake, yeah emotional fraud
you tied me up, like i was a knot
got pain like its racks, and i got a lot
runnin ur mouth yeah u need 2 stop
got something to say then say it 2 god
dnt care what u tell me ya im turnin off
u robbed my heart now i need a lock

you freezin up like a blue screen
actin like u fukkin knew me
u are so odd, u are so wack
get out my life bitch ya u need 2 pack
CCTV, bitch watch how you act
not an ATM, don't take none of that

[i9bonsai]:
(???), is that a question?
plz dont talk (???) mentions
oh no, what's this essence?
i can see, u havnt learned ur lesson
ive felt awful all the time
(???)

[chorus]

nevrmind w/i9bonsai [prod. maknae + kiryano + 1opgloryboyz]

prod me
thanks to @emotegi
drawings: @ gardeniaa_a_a on IG

Sasaeng (+ emotegi)

i’ve been doing these drugs way too much all i ever fucking dream about is your touch
had my ex bitch leave for a new crush said im not fine but it’s all love

baby im a demon but i still got my halo im not fine but it’s fine i got you though
crazy bout this feeling i can see you with my eyes closed
i just wanna feel you but im hollow

we could turn this room into a palace me and you drinking blood from a chalice 
and im taking all these pills as an outlet asking me if i will ever stop like no i doubt it

life was such a nightmare then you saved me new girl bad but she fragile like a daisy
no one else can compare you’re amazing oh you got me down bad fucking drive me crazy
i try so hard give and take i’ve felt love but now it’s hate 
i’ve been bad that’s the past your love will never last

not as lonely as i used to be three gram blunt come talk to me
don’t tell me please don’t ask me why i put my life here on the line

i wont lie baby yeah you got me feeling like theres magic
romeo and juliet but we’re not ending tragic
you just took my breath away im feeling asthmatic 
now i rot away inside my room like it’s a casket

nightmare (shinju x garasu)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WKEIpLhh9bE
@spira_me @with3rx

(ᵗʰᵉ ᵖᵒᶦˢᵒⁿ ᵈᶦᵖᵖᵉᵈ ᵍʳᵉᵃᵗˢʷᵒʳᵈ...
ᵏᶦˢˢᵉˢ ʰᶦˢ ᶦⁿˢᶦᵈᵉˢ
ʷᶦᵗʰ ᵗʰᵉ ᵗʳᵘᵗʰ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰᵉ ʷᶦᵗʰ⁻ʰᵒˡᵈᵉʳ)

ill stand by this sword
til my knees collapse
i cant afford
to go back

i promise that it wont be like the first time
if not the second then im hoping 
for the third time

im a knight in a hoodie
walk around im with swoopy
dont tell me twice im not stupid
never mind im too stupid
dnd on a friday 
bnb for like 10 days
u call em ur best days
when its already too late

im with taher on DR2
we’ll make it through
this time
u think im stupid hmm 
i think so too 
its fine
i keep on doing
what u want me to 
each time
ill keep on falling down
ill make it up sometime

i woke up and felt like trying
gotta stay strong keep fighting
broken down by years of crying
carrying the sword of the undying
id never leave your side
id break my legs off
id give up all thats mine
id sew my mouth shut

collapse + spira me (produced by with3r)

all audio by me / coverart also by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

In each attempt...

Your symbol laid in the view of my path

And with every step that I took, with deft

If you weren’t beside me, I knew it wouldn’t be the last

Where do you believe were from?
And where do you think we’ll go, from here?

I wanna hear it all from you,
So tell me how you feel...

Don’t act like you know how this will go,

Will you leave me alone, when I need you close?

I knew
You see
Through me

I knew you could see through me...

You see some things that i cant see
Ohhh

Although sometimes,
You tire my mind

Im worried sick
Will she survive?

Just one more night
Just one more try

To grab this rope
Attempt to climb

Its yours to take
Your choice, not mine

Its not the end
You still have time

I see you’re trying for yourself this time,
And thats a better start

Trust me, no matter where we are
I'll hold your voice inside my heart.

Well, do you care if I bring it up?

Your presence weighs on me and its tough to look away

And when I sing of something else...

You keep on coming up,
No matter what i say...

Ohhh,
Well maybe thats okay

Where do you believe were from?
And where do you think we’ll go, from here?

I wanna hear it all from you,
So tell me how you feel...

Don’t act like you know how this will go,

Will you leave me alone, when I need you close?

I knew you could see through me

"caring hurts, but i cant turn it off..."

in grey

senses & sprigtek - vulnerable (prod shinju & djh)

drums by @oldyungtoadsage, remaining production, mels / vox / mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying 

Pain
Abbreviated
I burn what i grow
Till its all the same to me

All these fucking games
that they play are lame to me

please talk real
all these bitches fucking sound the same to me...


ill cut you out if you suppress me

all the blood means = growth
++more stress please

i just wanna get these words of my chest please 

step out
from depression 
like i bested it

its my craft 
i invest in it

my hearts not pure
you tested it,
so u know

i strike down
what's best in me

i cut down and rebuild 
what's left of me
on my own 

shawty keep on texting me
u can try 
but u wont see the rest of me

no no no 

my swag so heavenly 
i don't take no pills 
match my energy 
no, u wont

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying

impure

:3

lyrix:

ur like the rough n im a diamond
anything u want i'll buy it <3
u make me go silent n i dont even mind
n im always on ur side

like
whatevr u say ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
ever since we first met, rackin up my brain
guess i always miss u, we're not in sync
everytime i kiss u i cannot refrain

swear we do this every night 🙄
get drunk, get high, let the time pass by
at the time it felt right
2day's so lame but u say the future's bright

like
whatevr u say ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
ever since we first met, rackin up my brain
guess i always miss u, we're not in sync
everytime i kiss u i cannot refrain

u like it rough n im a diamond XD
anything u want i'll buy it <3
u make me go silent n i dont even mind
n im always on ur side

like
whatevr u say ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

stream

whatevr u say [dgtl]

w/ @7senss + @820

prod @callme004 + @7senss

cover by @chubbyglock

glass heart w/ nosgov + senses (tomekk + senses)

romeo

@spazzteamonline
production credits are in every song description !!! 
majority of my songs are self produced
or co-produced

in grey

sprigtek

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