crisis with who i am
@prodbyjoshwa @heartstopmiami

i got double visions
feeling sick and twisted
blood rushing thru my veins i feel addicted
lost my motivations i dont need it

and i think that i lost it
mind went off like a switch on a socket
i haven’t been too strong for the longest
i’ve spent more time to lie to be honest

mirror on the wall
tell me whats going on
tell me what im doing wrong
why am i still holding on?

intentions sick and twisted
try to get ur point across but i missed it
tell me i stopped giving love but u put me second
calling me a ghoul, acting like ur sickened

am i supposed to give a fuck about that?
u the one who gets shit from the past
make that your first point keep it to ur last
fuck u hoping that u burn and crash

gwen:
and im looking at the floor, six feet down
so when i come back home, dont speak out loud
lost my shit in class, i cant breathe now
i tried to write a song about it, but it turned into a speech

but i don't wanna think about it
or else i'm back inside the hole that i dig, when i seek,
answers to my problems
soon or later, my problems will end up 
in a drink or two
i'm fully sure, i grew
into an immature 
costume, of the mirror that dislikes me
i'm trying to not be

encompassed by these feelings
of envy, self loathing
and insecurity

STREAM

mirrors w/ heartstopmiami (joshwa)

fun lil song brought to you by #goreset :)
@vaeo-music @4cfear @prodbyjoshwa @goreset

i been thru hell with the mood shifts
killing shit with my bros, with a new clique
living good and im chillin wit a new bitch
went to the mall n gotta new fit :)

vaeo:
and everytime i'm good you gotta fuck it up, 
going insane it's all i feel, it's hard to feel the love. 
i solve my issues with drugs, addict to turning up, 
and every nigh is the same, i'm face down throwing up. 
this adderall got me tweaking i need a prozac, 
rolling up some blunts taking every shot i can throw back, 
coulda bought you anything you wanted fuck a price tag, 
my existence got me so mad

can u run it back, let it go again?
and its fuck you too you a fake ass bitch
and u getting mad that we gettin rich
seeing us on top, can u learn to live?

4cf and me:
Keep up bae, uh, like what it yo problem like?
Used to have love but now that shit distant
You not sounding right 
taking up all my time and now you’re tryna take my mind tonight 
u be acting up so why u tryna hit my line tonight?
Ok you wylin you super childish
All you gon get from me is dry texts and awkward silence
I hope you like it
and it’s different now from when we talking from the back ends
and u werent shit u was a bitch u is a has been
You is not shit to be baby I hope you know that
Hey yuh
and i never been better from cutting off like its severed
From all my love straight to nothing I’m treating this like whatever baby
from all the times that we shared regretting it til forever again
No this ain’t my bad you switching up positions 
Getting sidetracked 
hate to break up your heart but i put that shit on a platter
So long as shits getting better I guess that it’s alright
i learned to stop acting up on shit that never mattered

run it back w/ vaeo + 4cf (joshwa)

i wish you never lied to me
@prodbyjoshwa
intro to my ep, 2004, with joshwa

and it’s late at night, i’ve been thinking about you
you lead me astray, want to get without you
but the connections were there, you coulda peeped thru a stare
thought we coulda been something baby i was prepared

and it’s times like that fuck me up
thoughts to recollect and i had enough
we could be strangers again, but i have the love
shit’s been getting worse, and it’s getting rough

dont know if i got the heart to leave you
cuz im always up at night, baby girl i’ll leave you tonight
i dont need you tonight, i dont need u tonight
and it’s crazy how you’re stuck in my mind

i guess i need love for consolation
and im feeling really stuck with this information
and its crazy how u lied, put me in the pavement
my emotions acting up, feeling sick with hatred

and i want something real for once
don’t want no lies i know that shit aint fun
problems i face, i cannot run
but if i leave u now, it’s said and done

astray (joshwa)

i still wonder if you're okay
@prodbyjoshwa

staying in the backseat of the car
chained up tied up, baby where do i start
heh, where do i start? when it fell apart?
when u said i was nothing, nothing

i saw it all, and it’s all my fault cuz i fucked it up tonight
all the times i hold, in my mind and i know, that i cant get back tonight

baby i know the truth
whats gotten into u?
in a snap all our love
turned down to memories

whats gotten into u?
whats gotten into u?
switching up like that for what? for what?

and everything we had is gone
time to say goodbye, so long, so long, so long,
now we solo, now we solo
cuz i fell in love but it’s done

and i guess it was dumb
feelings wrapped round a thumb
shouldve been thinking twice, but i wasnt strong
and i wasnt strong, i wasnt a soldier
never kept my composure

what's gotten into you? (joshwa)

lately i've been wishing it was over
@prodbyjoshwa @jades714

i’m tired and getting jaded
you’re never real i hate it
from all the words you’re saying
just a lie up in the shade

tryna keep up my head in the clouds
but what can we do if we fall?

i aint picking up, nah, if you call back
say you want my love but i know that i’m just a fall back
say your words to me, i know that u never meant all that
wasted all my time and wish that i could get it all back

making it so complicated
seeing shades of green and jade
when im staying down, the bed i lay
im floating but im sinking in

its sad that its a bitter end
its sad that we cant be friends
we cant go where we began
i lost the help that i can lend

but it’s not my fault and you know that
you’re the one in the wrong, for the longest
you’re the one who’s been moving on
while i been stuck writing all these songs

fallback (joshwa)

mv: https://youtu.be/qqQnSx04Rp8

@ccottrill
lil sc-only ting

feb 9 2022

between the gaps, i was swimming laps, got close to some epiphany. i'll convince a friend to join deep ends, have your toes touch the lack of cement... gather to one corner of the woods, echo chambers inside a neighborhood. in centerfold, humility shown, you're not as good as what your mama's sewn.

aren't you glad that you reside in a hell and in disguise? nobody yet everything, a pool to shed your memory. could you say you even tried? you haven't called your family twice! i can hope tonight goes differently; but i show up to the party just to-
.
.
leave...

https://soundcloud.com/ccottrill/amoeba

amoeba

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https://open.spotify.com/album/6OJfICDNhesTMy42TlZuAi?si=7afrV8dGQDqqZxvbK29Vww

LYRICS

(Hook)
I’m in my hotel
And I’m barely breathing 
I’m in my hotel, Ho-hotel
Oh oh well, I really don’t need it
I just had a perfect day perfect way to spend my time
all of your features corrupting my mind
all these feeling should be a crime 
no
Can i pls press rewind 
no
didn’t need one more sign
no
just want  to see yo face one more time
Woah

(Verse #1)
14/14 call me Chris Paul but I’m mixed wit Codeine 
Try to ft acting like you know me 
feelin 40 while I’m sippin 40s
(Ha ha)
Aye
Am i talking out loud?
Aye 
Can’t wait for a crowd
Aye
when they singing my shit 
They like “wow stevyn  just made a hit”

(Bridge)
I can’t say a thing x2
No no no no, no no no

(Verse #2)
What do you think of me 
(Yeah)
Tell me what you think of me
Cause i have no fucking confidence 
And im stuttering and losing all my consonants 
I talk to slow slow slow
Don’t hit up my phone phone phone
Don’t worry abt shit don’t worry abt shit
Cause i know know know 
I know know know
I know know know
Just tell me if you me to fucking go go go
Please just let me know cause I’ll go go go
But i never want to leave  don’t wanna be alone

(Hook)
I’m in my hotel
And I’m barely breathing 
I’m in my hotel, Ho-hotel
Oh oh well, I really don’t need it
I just had a perfect day perfect way to spend my time
all of your features corrupting my mind
all these feeling should be a crime 
no
Can i pls press rewind 
no
didn’t need one more sign
no
just want  to see yo face one more time
Woah

Room Service (ON ALL PLATS)

//Lyrics

(hook)
my heart beats when your textin me when you're talkin wit me
when ur next to me when ur walkin wit me
cause i miss you so much
don wanna say that
i miss that aroma
imma find my way back

(chorus)
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
i know im the worst guy
i see it all the time
i dont rlly wanna die
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
yeah im the worst guy

(verse)
what was the first lie, you said, to me
ill be searchin for some answers
can't control my temper
you just wanna rent her
i just need some money on me won't tell u again sir
thought i was over it all, but
i feel like i gave it up
you ain't sayin nun
how am I waitin up
I couldn't let you run
i don't think im saying enough
you ain't sayin nun
how am I waitin up
yeah i'm still thinking bout how

(hook)
my heart beats when your textin me when you're walkin wit me
when ur next to me when ur walkin wit me
cause i miss you so much
don wanna say that
i miss that aroma
imma find my way back

(chorus)
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
i know im the worst guy
i see it all the time
i dont rlly wanna die
shi.. how it look from your side
i know you could light it up with your eyes
yeah we could tie it up on the short side
I know i'm the worst guy
i see it all the time
idrwd

(sauce)

talk2me

talk2me [p. sai]

pls let me know

ukg 3.0

may 29 2022

intro:
hole in my chest but they still don’t notice
tell them all about my problems but they don’t know shit
if the weather matched my feelings then i might feel better
cos all this sunshine been making me feel lesser
petrified im feeling petrified
locked in my bedroom shit can i even tell the time
everything’s so grey can’t tell between wrong and right
is there any point in trying?

chorus
i think i’m in denial
for the things they say bout me
like how i'm so behind in life
and that i don’t know how to feel
timewaster
let the evil thoughts in my mind
no more candles left to light
go to heaven yeah i might

@dpf617:
back up, head shot make him act up
look on the ground and his blood all splattered
am i crazy? idk, in denial feel so low
kinda lost another day run thru my head when she said she wish i was dead
passed out on the floor with the pills up
talking to the voice in my head they gone kill us
another bottle going down in the system
the old me man i know they gone miss em
now my face on the news its my image
going straight to the bid for some quick shit
right now getting paint as the villain
when i'm out they gone see me as the hero
i don't even know why i try now
going down i ain't going where the light go

verse:
cash out
ignore the voices drinking till i pass out
cry now
the pills keep me at bay don't gotta fight now
lights down
close the curtains keep my thinking to myself now
locked out
get away from all u bums u way too low-brow
yea i'm an overthinker social weirdo
never find the words to say
the news, it travels quick
the dirt on u piles in less than a day
toxic grapevines
the same ones to drown in our sorrows
feel them eyes drill into me
what's the point of seeing tomorrow

bridge
the time keeps ticking
and my life i keep wasting
all these whispers in n out my head
alone, im craving
the time keeps ticking
and my life i keep wasting
all these whispers in n out my head
alone, i'm craving

i think i’m in denial
for the things they say bout me
like how i'm so behind in life
and that i don’t know how to feel
timewaster
let the evil thoughts in my mind
no more candles left to light
go to heaven yeah i might

mirrors w/ heartstopmiami (joshwa)

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