1st collab w/ @unknxwn7 of many!

lyrics: 

unknxwn:

I think to move on is better than what we keep letting go on
You tell me that I'm the problem but we both believe that
Everyone but us is the reason that we're hurting
Thought you were my heaven but I'm only fucking burning

Let's take these chains off
I don't wanna make up
Cause everytime we do, we make up another lie
That only leaves us more broken than what we were the other night

And I don't wanna do that no more
They say hearts don't have bones so how the fuck is mine broke?

cuts:

and i’ve been broken all this time
it’s been a year since you were mine
i know you still hate me but it’s unfair
i would have left you sooner oh i swear
(oh sweaaaar)

i’ve had enough
like stop the bluff
you never seem to tell the truth

you say it hurts
but you’re the worst
you never see what’s in front of you

and you told me every day you resent me
don’t know why i stuck around so long, u jus torment me 
so glad it’s over no more fighting 
don’t see my snap “your ex is typing…”
yea it’s done

unknxwn. - heartbones w/ cuts (lettersick)

Lyrics

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

Wake up, I'm fucking over it
Need to let it out but I keep fucking holding it
Wanna scream and shout into this mic I'm holding
It'll hear me out better than any other person

Don't know how I got here, I don't think that I deserve it
God ain't really out here tryna show me what's my purpose
Sittin' at this screen, still tryna find out if it's worth it
Know that nobody is but still wish I was perfect

I told the doc that I was depressed, he told me back that I was anxious
He pulled a bottle out his vest and he told me that I should take this
I took 'em for a couple months but I was numbed out
I rather feel everything than feel like that my heart out

You wern't there for me, I would do anything for you
You ain't talk to me, I would never just ignore you
I just needed you, you made me feel like I bore you
They won't find a body when the police looking for you

Doc said these will make you better
I don't think I'm getting better
Fuck these pills, my fucking head hurts
I wake up with fucking shivers

Have thoughts bout pulling triggers
I can't get them out my mental
I've got problems that are mental
I don't feel love, not even a little

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shiver. | Produced by septfree

Art by @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

I don't wanna talk, you want me to open up but I just wanna stop
Stop my heart, stop my breath, don't care which part
As long as it leaves me unable to feel all this pain that I haven't been able
I know this a song but this isn't a fable

Every single word I say real
It won't ever work, I can't heal
Honestly I could but if I did I
Couldn't make the shit I

Pour my heart into when I ain't got no one
I don't know what to do when I can't make no song
I know that I'm great but this shit not fun
You know where I'm at, you don't know where I'm from

I don't wanna talk, you want me to open up but I just wanna stop
Stop my heart, stop my breath, don't care which part
As long as it leaves me unable to feel all this pain that I haven't been able
I know this a song but this isn't a fable

I used to hear as a child, this kid gonna go places
Only place I been since then is Hell and I don't really think I can change it
I don't even know if I deserve it, wake up everyday just feeling worthless
I know nobody is perfect but I don't even feel I have a purpose

as long as it leaves. | Produced by saint mike

AMV Lyric Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ewgO656_Mn4&pp=ygULa2VuIHVua254d24%3D

Lyrics

You don't talk to me anymore
You could care less but I still want you more
What's in my chest? Cause I know that it isn't my heart
Bitch I'm done, fuck this life bitch, I'm finished

Today we're good but tomorrow we'll be through
Day after that you'll be gone when I need you
To hold me, to love me, to tell me it's fine
I never will be if you isn't mine

I'm out of time, I'm out of options
Used to like wine, now I like concoctions
I mix my drink so it matches my feelings
She calls me her hero but I'm just the villain

If you're confused, I'll just explain it
detmer is evil, depressed & he's anxious
garrett is gleeful, he's blessed & he's patient
They're on the same coin but 2 different faces

Ken's who I don't like but he is the catalyst
unknxwn. is truly a beautiful accident
qayin is ego, he could be anyone
I made my friends up cause I ain't have anyone

You don't talk to me anymore
You could care less but I still want you more
What's in my chest? Cause I know that it isn't my heart
Bitch I'm done, fuck this life bitch, I'm finished

Today we're good but tomorrow we'll be through
Day after that you'll be gone when I need you
To hold me, to love me, to tell me it's fine
I never will be if you isn't mine

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ken | Produced by septfree x maestrowons

delusional. (freestyle/unmixed) | Produced by emma

Lyrics

What did I do? I don't know
Not a human, I'm a ghost
I'm a stupid and a lost soul
Where they all win, I cannot go

I got trouble fitting in
I got trouble making friends
But it's easy when I lose 'em
When they see me like I see myself

Fucking up great bitch, I don't need no help
I could never save shit, not even myself
Put me on a waitlist headed straight to hell
I can't take this feeling that I'll only ever fail

Even when I'm doing something that is right
Even when I'm doing something that is nice
It always bites back and I don't like
Feeling like that all night, wanna take my own life

If you think I'm strong, you're wrong
I just do not care enough
Bout myself, bout my health
All I'm waiting for is hell

What did I do? I don't know
Not a human, I'm a ghost
I'm a stupid and a lost soul
Where they all win, I cannot go

I got trouble fitting in
I got trouble making friends
But it's easy when I lose 'em
When they see me like I see myself

trouble. | Produced by xunuk

produced by why loner

fun fact thirty below was another name i was considering besides beanie

lyrics:

too busy to pick up your phone
no dont go
its cold its like thirty below
i see purple in my toes
brittle breakin up my bones
baby wait before u go
where u goin dont go

youre frozen cold
its may but i still need a coat
homie askin where the cash at
told him i dont really know
runnin round w my woes steady searching
for a flow fuck a hoe
its getting real chilly go check a temperature is thirty below

check the temperature is thirty below (woah)
i see purple in my toes (its cold)
im spittin this shit off the dome (dont)
where u goin please baby dont go (i know)
you dont love me i promise i do
tantalizing up my mind what you do
criticize me all i wanted was you 
i was a fuck up and hesitant wouldnt make a move aye

thats cold youre bold
im hungry i need a me a bowl
fuck its a struggle just getting some dough
cookie clicker on my phone
just to kill the time all time low last week
almost off myself cuz im broke
on a come up only going lower
but i got yo bitch playin limbo

my heads so unknxwn
my reflection wont show
tick tock yall are on the clock
there aint no one else but my bro
thats there for me
yall better stop now tread carefully 
stop talkin suicide yall scared for me
yall watched me die so carelessly
its not fair for me

youre frozen cold
its may but i still need a coat
homie askin where the cash at
told him i dont really know
runnin round w my woes steady searching
for a flow fuck a hoe
its getting real chilly go check a temperature is thirty below

i am insane i think im insane
blood on my louise v frames
searching for days 
where is my brain woah
she want me dont want her thats crazy
bitch hit my dms like ily hey 
i sent back a smiley face
some positive feedback
it might be the play
but all i can think of is hate
but all i can think of is hurt
but all i can think of is her
sauce on my skin it might burn
i might throw on some ice just to cool down the urn im turning to shovel my ashes away
matter fact yall should banish my ashes from earth
tryn purge the negativity out my mind but im slowly realizing it will never work

youre frozen cold
its may but i still need a coat
homie askin where the cash at
told him i dont really know
runnin round w my woes steady searching
for a flow fuck a hoe
its getting real chilly go check a temperature is thirty below 

youre frozen cold
too busy to pick up your phone
dont go
its cold its like thirty below
i see purple in my toes 
brittle breakin up my bones
baby wait before u go
where u goin dont go

thirty below (why loner)

Art by @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

Left your mark so deep, I see your face in everything
Every one I ever meet ain't ever been enough for me
I wasn't enough for you, I just wish you fucking knew
Everything I ever did back then was for your benefit

But you don't care at all
You don't ever answer when I call
I been on the edge I wanna fall
I just need someone to push me off

Really need someone to pick me up
I don't ever feel like I'm enough
Told you I was good but I was bluffing
Honestly I always feel like nothing

Ken never meant anything to you
She won't ever know just what she meant to him at all
Cause she ain't stay
I'll be okay when in my grave

I cannot explain how I feel
I can't ease the pain and I won't heal
Every single day is an uphill battle
And I'm walking backwards

Wanna throw my fist into the wall
Shut the fuck up, I don't wanna talk
I don't wanna cry, I wanna bawl
I get sad and I get alcohol

I get alcohol and then I miss her
I miss her and then look at a picture
I look at a picture then I picture
What we could of been if I was with her

Left your mark so deep, I see your face in everything
Every one I ever meet ain't ever been enough for me
I wasn't enough for you, I just wish you fucking knew
Everything I ever did back then was for your benefit

when i call. | Produced by 11feinly

Lyrics

I get lost in my head so much
Go to sleep, I don't wanna wake up
I should care but I don't give a fuck
When I did it was never enough

I don't know where it all went wrong
Think I shouldn't keep making these songs
As of lately it's been feeling dumb
As of lately I been feeling numb

I know some people like what I do
I know some people couldn't care less
I know part of me like what I do
I know part of me wanna progress

I don't know how much fight I got left
I don't wanna keep chasing a check
And that's not what I doing it for
But I'm just a human, I gotta pay rent

It was cool, I was only a kid
I was living with mom back then
I was making a couple of g's
Buying beats for my songs back then

That was all I was worried about
But I ain't a kid no more
I ain't saying I'm giving it up
I just can't put it all in no more

I get lost in my head so much
Go to sleep, I don't wanna wake up
I should care but I don't give a fuck
When I did it was never enough

I don't know where it all went wrong
Think I shouldn't keep making these songs
As of lately it's been feeling dumb
As of lately I been feeling numb

ain't a kid no more. | Produced by metlast

Lyrics

Write these songs like I got some to say but
When in person ain't got none to say cause
I'm a stupid, broken, anxious
Shell of a man, I don't think that I can

Reach every goal that I had in the plan
I took a turn on the path that I had
So close yet so damn far
How can I feel love with a broken heart?

Coming this far kinda blows my mind
Still sometimes I just wanna hole in mine
Carrying weight with a broken spine
I get so full of hope in a hopeless time

Cause thats all I got to rely on
Where was god when I needed the light on?
I was stuck in lightless place
When he took who I loved to a lifeless space

That was fucking forever ago
But the feeling I felt it won't ever just go
And sometimes I don't think that it's better to cope
I do better at this when I'm hurting the most

I bled for this, I shed for this
Went to heaven and jumped into hell for this
I'm bred for this, was fed for this
Burned every bridge just to care for this

But you won't understand don't even care if you can
I'm so full of myself, I be foolin' myself tryna act like it's cool when I'm crying for help
When I know that it's not but I won't ever admit that
I still feel like I'm lost but I'ma still just pretend that

Everything is a okay, even when I hate everyday
Every waking moment is a moment closer to the day
I'll really find out if all this agony was worth the wait
Or if it didn't even matter at fucking all

I get this urge I should just splatter this fucking wall
With every piece of me that hold these secrets deep beneath
The surface that you see in me these curtains here conceal a beast
That I don't wanna show nobody

stupid. | Produced by raspo

Lyrics

I ain't got shit left to give
I ain't got shit left to share, don't even care
I ain't got shit left to feel
I ain't got shit left to heal, life isn't fair

I ain't got shit for a friend
Don't wanna make any amends, I burned the bridge
I ain't gone build it again
I would just burn it again, just for the sin

I feel alive when I'm detmer
Only to feel like I died when I'm better
I won't let me turn to Ken again ever
That was a bad link, I had to sever

They think I'm gone but I'm clever
I can come back where I wanna whenever
I learned to feel pain like it was pleasure
I'll cross the line to the point of no measure

Don't even need me a reason, sometimes I do it because I know I can
Knew it was wrong for reason, I knew just what it would cost but I did it again
Told me don't talk to the demons, I went and sat at the table to meet with 'em all
Now I got a few in my body that won't ever leave until I'm just a body

Till I'm just a pile of dust, till I'm just a pile of ashes
Highschool got on the bus, just hoping the driver would crash it
I don't know why I'm in a rush for a promise that never was broken
On the edge so I just need a push, chaos is all that I'm hoping

I ain't got shit left to give
I ain't got shit left to share, don't even care
I ain't got shit left to feel
I ain't got shit left to heal, life isn't fair

I ain't got shit for a friend
Don't wanna make any amends, I burned the bridge
I ain't gone build it again
I would just burn it again, just for the sin

as long as it leaves. | Produced by saint mike

unknxwn.

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