Lyrics
You're not what I want, I'm sorry I told you were when I knew that you weren't
I thought I could care just enough then maybe it'd work but it just took a turn
But love isn't easy, you can't make it happen, said it before but I still haven't learned
There's a lot I could say, if it's not through a song I don't know how to put all these thoughts into words

That's why I cave, that's why I break, that's why I feel like I'll never escape
I can't get it out, it's stuck like a splinter
I'm keeping it down but my patience is thinner
I'm breaking, this voice in my head I can't take it, echos though my body I'm shaking
And everyone says I'm amazing

But I know that's a lie cause if I was I wouldn't make these fucking songs
Maybe their amazed at just the fact I make these fucking songs
I'm only on this path I think is right cause life so fucking wrong
Chest is feeling tight, I might just snap and then I'm fucking gone

Hold on, come close, don't let me go
So dumb, can't cope, wrote my own name in a death note

Told that girl she was my last hope, said "okay" and she still lied so
I won't trust no bitch, they gone switch
I'ma deal with it making myself so rich
I won't help anyone that hasn't stayed around when I was crashing
I'ma do wrong cause it feel right
Make my ego reach unseen heights
Fuck if I'll regret it, I'm making you regret it
I'm leaving a scar make sure you won't forget it
I'm fucked, I know
You won't stay, just go
I lost all my hope
Can't trust no fucking hoe
Even if, they'll say it ain't so
I'ma make this whole damn house blow
Try to fuck with me, you fucked up
You don't think I'll leave you fucked up
"That ain't right" don't care, shut the fuck up
I been told my whole life I'm stuck up
I'ma stick in this pain right in you
Make you feel everything I went through
You gone know what the fuck I been through
I don't really give a fuck, I been through

death note, last hope. (prod. capsctrl)

vanished. (2021)

Produced by flower x 5head

Lyrics

Might be older, still not over all the chips that were on my shoulder
Everyday I grow colder but it all goes away when I hold her
Baby, you're all I need, Baby, you're all I wanted
I think I got a disease, I say I'm off but I'm on it

Why would you tell me you want this when you believe that I'm worthless?
Don't even ask how I wrote this, I just spoke up if I'm honest
Something is on my conscious, everyday I feel haunted
This is always what I run to when I feel like I'm out of options

Everything I touch, I kill
Waited for years and this feeling is still eating inside of me
Fucking anxiety, can't get away from it, why would you lie to me?
Why would you tell me you care but you don't?
Why would you tell me you'll call but you won't?
I'm fucking lonely, I feel so alone
I just wish you would tell me that you're coming home
But you won't cause your home is with him
And I thought this was real, you were playing pretend
Ain't no amount on how much you could hurt me
That would change the fact I would trust you again
So lie to me however much you please, however much you need
I'll accept anything keeping us tethered
'Cause I didn't lie when I said that I would never leave

"A lot of the things that I say aren't really what I'm trying to say, and as deep as you can relate to the things that I do say, I want you know that they're still fucking a thousand miles away from what I actually mean, so, do with that what you will."

Might be older, still not over all the chips that were on my shoulder
Everyday I grow colder but it all goes away when I hold her
Baby, you're all I need, Baby, you're all I wanted
I think I got a disease, I say I'm off but I'm on it

Why would you tell me you want this when you believe that I'm worthless?
Don't even ask how I wrote this, I just spoke up if I'm honest
Something is on my conscious, everyday I feel haunted
This is always what I run to when I feel like I'm out of options

as a dog returns to its vomit.

Produced by sockedrock

Lyrics

Can you tell me what you want? So I can give you what you want
Girl, I thought you were the one but I lost you, now I don't know what I want
And I wanna feel love so bad but I lost my heart when you left
When I showed you all my fears, you just looked at me and laughed

"detmer"

7 DAYS LATER YOU'RE GONE AND YOU ALREADY HAD SOMEONE
SO I GUESS YOU WERE PLANNING TO LEAVE ME RIGHT FROM THE BEGINNING OF US ALL ALONG
HOW THE FUCK COULD I BE SO STUPID? WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU MAKE ME DO THIS?
WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU TELL ME YOU LOVE ME WHILE BLACKOUT DRUNK AND THEN ACT SO CLUELESS?

"garrett"

I WOULD NEVER DO YOU LIKE THAT, HOW COULD YOU MOVE ON SO FAST?
WHY THE FUCK DID I STAY SO LONG WHEN YOU TREATED ME JUST LIKE TRASH?
AND MY HEART STILL GOT THOSE SCARS AND MY HAND STILL GOT THAT SCRATCH
GIRL I WAITED FOR YOU FOR SO LONG JUST SO YOU COULD COME BACK AND LEAVE ME IN THE PAST

ALL THIS PAIN I BE HOLDING, AIN'T NO WONDER I END UP BROKEN
AIN'T NO WONDER I END UP CRYING, AIN'T NO WONDER I FEEL SO HOPELESS
IN MY HEART AIN'T NO LOVE LEFT INSIDE IT, ALL MY ARTERIES FULL OF CORROSION
BUT IT'S COOL CAUSE I'M JUST GONNA HIDE IT, I JUST SPOKE UP, DON'T ASK HOW I WROTE IT

Can you tell me what you want? So I can give you what you want
Girl, I thought you were the one but I lost you, now I don't know what I want
And I wanna feel love so bad but I lost my heart when you left
When I showed you all my fears, you just looked at me and laughed

7 DAYS LATER!

Produced by NewWhiteBoy, zestymain, mollyred
Art by: @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

This is the end, all I do is fuck up, I'll make sure I don't again
I don't give a fuck about you, I don't wanna be your friend
No one gave a fuck about me, all I wanted was a friend

All I ever wanted was you
But you left me broken and bruised

I can't heal the void inside my soul
You ain't gotta check on me cause I'm already gone
Give me one more night, I don't want you to go
I got something in my mind, I don't wanna let you know

It gets to a point and I don't see it anymore
Sometime real soon you won't see me anymore
Got a soul parasite, I won't feed it anymore
What's the point in tryna fight if I won't be here anymore?

Don't feel bad when something happens
I should of never even made it this far, it was all an accident
Speeding down the highway, hope I have an accident
There too much on my plate and I can't stomach half of it

All I ever wanted was you
But you left me broken and bruised

it gets to a point and i don't see it anymore.

Produced by YOUNG MADZ

Lyrics

I miss a girl that doesn't exist, I don't ever think she did
Don't try to decipher the shit I say, ain't no need cause I'm telling you it
I ain't tryna be abstract, I ain't even tryna be real
I don't even wanna numb my pain no more cause the pain all that I feel

I could build up a whole damn house and I still couldn't call it home
God, it's okay if you send me to Hell cause I went when I was 14 years old
And I don't think that I left, I just decorated my room
I fell for a girl not there, how the fuck she leave me too?

Settled for someone close but close ain't what we are
But we can't leave now, did too much and we come too far
With the way I can say these words, I paint a picture clear like Kodak
It's like every song I'm on, I be calling my spirts and they call back

I ain't scared but I think that you should be
Cause the place I bring you to puts you in a space that you can't leave
You can run off if you want but what's that gonna do?
If what you're running from is already living inside of you?

You should end it, go ahead grab that gun
Go ahead, pull that slide, go ahead let off one
They'll be okay without you, you'll better without them
They don't care about you, don't make this all about them

This where it ends, this is what it all led to
Every path you take goes back here
There ain't no where left to go anymore
But you don't have to worry anymore

You don't have to worry anymore
You don't have to worry anymore
You don't have to worry anymore
Anymore, anymore

WHAT IF IT DOESN'T GET BETTER? WHAT IF I DO THIS WRONG?
WHAT IF I HIT THE WRONG RECEPTOR AND I CAN'T BECOME GONE?
WHAT IF I WRITHE IN PAIN AND SOMEBODY FINDS ME ALIVE?
AND I CAN'T SAVE MY SOUL BUT THEY STILL SAVE MY LIFE?

Produced by clk

Lyrics

You don't know how I feel, don't tell me that you understand
Most of these people ain't real, just a machine that look like a man
Most of these people don't think, most of these people programmed
Most of these people ain't woke, they just sound good when they get on that 'gram

You heard that voice in the back of yo head
Why the fuck didn't you turn around?
And it hurts cause you know that they heard what you said but they care about how it sound
And you know they gone call you crazy, know they gone call you weird
Some people ain't worth saving, you can scream but they won't hear

cold crescendo.

Produced by diemadeway x krovarxiv

Lyrics

Pills, weed, alcohol and cigarettes
Took too much now my heart beating fast and I don't know what's next
Even if I did OD, nobody would notice me, nobody except my fucking mom
I'm a fucking bum, I live like a slob

I just met this bitch and I don't even care about her, I just wanna get some top
I'ma do her wrong, woke up with her next me, I asked her could she leave so I could make a fucking song
What the fuck is going on? She said I'm a piece of shit and I can't prove her wrong
So I'ma prove her right, hope she cry at night, hope that I can make this hoe rethink her fucking life

I can't be the best she ever had but I can be the worst
I can't show her love but I can break that bitch heart first
I don't care if I'm your enemy aslong as you remember me
I know all I'll ever be is just a fucking memory

pitiful performance.

Produced by sockedrock

Lyrics

What I feel I don't know why
Feel like I been killed but I won't die
All I feel is pain but I won't cry
Told me that you'll change but it's all lies

Woke up, I ain't want to
I know that I'm fucked, why I want you?
Giving me a chance what you won't do
I don't understand why you're playing, why you so rude?

Where you going? Can you hold on?
I'ma hold onto the pain cause I got no one
And I know that I can change but I don't want
This is all I've ever known, I can't go on

I don't know why I'm like this
I'm getting tired of fighting
I'm getting tired of trying
I'm getting tired of hiding

You don't wanna know the real me
You won't ever understand, you don't feel me
I ain't dead right now but I will be
You should give up now, I ain't healing

You don't need me, you should leave me alone
Fuck how I feel, I don't need you to know
If I don't exist then I can't feel alone
Don't say that you cared when I'm long gone

They think I'm off cause it's all on
What they think is right I think all wrong
The shit that I know I can't talk on
Cause I'm in a place you can't walk on

*auditory agony*

Woke up, I ain't want to
I know that I'm fucked, why I want you?
Giving me a chance what you won't do
I don't understand why you're playing, why you so rude?

Where you going? Can you hold on?
I'ma hold onto the pain cause I got no one
And I know that I can change but I don't want
This is all I've ever known, I can't go on

I don't know why I'm like this
I'm getting tired of fighting
I'm getting tired of trying
I'm getting tired of hiding

agonys allegory.

Produced by jeweler

Lyrics

I know I'm alone but I learn how to cope with it
I won't ever know how it feels to be close with them
I know what I am and I know that they won't like it
I know I won't go but it'd be cool to be invited

Something evil in my soul and I don't wanna fight
I reside in shadows, I don't like it where the light hit
You just think it's darkness, I can see it's vibrance
I gave her my heart, she ran away and I can't find it

I'm a fucking joke, I ain't nothing but a loser
They tell me choose life but they don't know that that mean choose her
Don't call me an angel, I am not a savior
Look at my behavior, I think that I'm the danger

I know I'm alone, I learn how to cope though
I know you won't call, I'm still staring at my phone though
Standing in my yard, wanna smash my phone on the rocks I'm standing on
Fuck this cliff I'm standing on

*auditory agony*

Something evil in my soul and I don't wanna fight
I reside in shadows, I don't like it where the light hit
You just think it's darkness, I can see it's vibrance
I gave her my heart, she ran away and I can't find it

I'm a fucking joke, I ain't nothing but a loser
They tell me choose life but they don't know that that mean choose her
Don't call me an angel, I am not a savior
Look at my behavior, I think that I'm the danger

cheerless composer.

Iron Wings & Quiet Wars is forged from steel, static, and the weight of a dying world. Industrial metal meets darkwave atmosphere—distorted guitars grinding against mechanical beats, apocalyptic synths humming like war machines, and vocals carved from grit and shadow.

These tracks feel like marching through ruined cities, battling unseen forces, and facing the internal wars no one else can hear. Metallic rhythms collide with cinematic darkness, painting a landscape of fractured empires, smoldering rebellion, and survival etched into rusted bone.

Cold. Heavy. Relentless.
A soundtrack for the battles fought in silence.
This is Iron Wings & Quiet Wars.

it gets to a point and i don't see it anymore.

unknxwn.