can’t relax (feat kuriosity) (joshwa)

"hanging by a thread"

produced by elavy

lyrics:

I've been tryna change my ways, not lose my faith
if I don't take the step, then I'll just stay the same
staring at a screen to get through night and day
it's hard to keep my confidence in fucking place
i know you wonder where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
if I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

maybe I'm clueless
ignorant to what the truth is
can't run or hide, baby, it's useless
I know that I've been playing stupid
I gotta save myself
for me and for no one else
before I decay or melt
or wither away in hell
tired of acting like it's fine
wish I could speak my fucking mind
when I'm here, my tongue is tied
when I'm there, I'm free to fly

I need to get away from here 
Ignore all my biggest fears
feel the sounds ring through my ears

cause I know you wonder
where I've been and why I left so long
a place that's stuck in time and clocks are wrong
the sun don't shine and birds don't sing along
upside down and nothing's where it belongs

self destruct or fix me up?
do I tear the seams or stitch em up?
If I cut the thread, I'm close enough to the edge to end what I've begun but I can never do that

self destruct

the Noise is grating 
somebody Sedate me
Im losing my faith
and every ounce of My sanity 
I Just want it to be gone
i Just want it to be gone 
i Just want it to be all over
ive dug my Nails and Scarred the skin all over my shoulders
it gets Worse before it gets better 
sink in
sink in your Nails until it breaks skin
dig in your nails until it breaks skin
dig your nails in til it breaks my Skin 
I just want it to be gone
i just want it to be gone 
i just want it to be all over
ive dug my Nails and Scarred the skin all over my shoulders
it gets Worse before it gets better

gone

2am shoegaze (prod.blunkq)

raw vocals
guitar by michael harrison

I’m so afraid right now
feel like I’m close to the end somehow
thought I was just getting started
and now I’m stuck in my tracks

I’m scared that it’s all for nothing
I’ll lose it all in a blink of an eye
I devoted my life for this and I’d die for it

and I’d die for it
I’d die for it
would you die for it?

it feels like it’s all coming after me
they got my life on a stopwatch
feels like my own brain is after me
who even needs enemies
when you got urself straight torturing
put myself in a minefield
can’t even win when it’s my field
I’m losing a home game
how am I losing a home game?

home game

Clip my dirty wings
Because I’ll fly to high
I can’t forgive myself 
But I hope that you will 
I close my eyes and I pray
Hoping that you’ll hear me
I feel the blood on my hands 
Just like you did that day 
I think I’m losing faith
Can you give me a sign
That my guardian angel 
Is right by my side 

Clip my dirty wings
Because I’ll fly to high
I can’t forgive myself 
But I hope that you will 
I close my eyes and I pray
Hoping that you’ll hear me
But everyone i do 
I still feel the same 
I can’t control my thought 
Full of impurity’s
I hope that one day the mirror 
Can say that I see me
So give me a sign 
I know that it’s selfish
But I think of you don’t 
I’ll just end it

Clip my dirty wings

Lyrics:

I cut myself again
Did you notice?
I slit it vertically 
Just for attention
I don’t care if you wanna stop me
Because you know that I won’t listen
Yeah I won’t listen
I won’t listen to you
Or to any fucking one who tells me
How to live my life
And I’ll say 
fuck you and I’ll cut it again
I’ll cut it again 
And I don’t give a fuck if I end it
I think that it’s time for me to go
This time hopefully it’s quick not slow

i told you not to leave me alone

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