sorry for being gone so long im gonna try to be more 
active.

i cant see a way to stop this

moving out the ways an option

i cant seem to brace the nonsense

im not here im barely conscious 

make me feel alive im honest-

ly just terrified of losses 

i cant feel the way i wanted

im just building blue up on it

bleedin out

i cant see for now

its all going down but then u come around

gonna drown feel like im gonna drown

but then you pull me out u pull me out

im not going alone

id rather smash up my phone

the only contact i know

is just sitting at home

if you’re not feeling to go

baby then we just wont go

the real feeling of home

its us together alone

blue (mila moon)

I DONT WANNA KNOW
WHERE U GO
WHEN UR NOT CHASING ME

I DONT WANNA GO
ITS NOT HOME
IF UR NOT THERE WITH ME

I DONT WANNA KNOW
WHERE U GO
WHEN UR NOT CHASING ME

I DONT WANNA GO
ITS NOT HOME
IF UR NOT THERE WITH ME

fading in and out
i almost touched the ground

stay there hold me down
this is all we got now

thinking it out loud
wish youd come around

wasted, breaking down
there is no “safe and sound”

I DONT WANNA KNOW
WHERE U GO
WHEN UR NOT CHASING ME

I DONT WANNA GO
ITS NOT HOME
IF UR NOT THERE WITH ME

I DONT WANNA KNOW
WHERE U GO
WHEN UR NOT CHASING ME

I DONT WANNA GO
ITS NOT HOME
IF UR NOT THERE WITH ME

chasing me (taymxru)

jades - word vomit

Lyrics:
Did you really think that we were more than friends
Friends is all that i thought we would ever be
I like the way that you would talk to me
You should've asked me sooner 
but now it's too late for me to think of you that way
Anymore
I don't like you like i did
I'm sorry that we will never be something again
I wish that i was more true to myself
But i hate the way i look and lie all the time
I'll just drag you down 
You'll never be proud to be with me
So please 
Fall in love someone else
Someone who won't hurt you and make you proud
Someone who adores the way you smile
Someone who isn't me

Wrong person wrong time

Lyrics:

Do you like an empty stomach
Right before you cry?
Do you like when i say that your pretty 
Even though its a lie
Do you want me to still love you 
Even though your past prime 
Do you ever think about not breathing
Maybe suicide
Cause i think about it all the time
Yeah i think about taking my own life
I havent felt myslef in such a long
Muthafucking time
I still wanna cut myself when im alone
I still wanna grab a rope and throw it over 
the ceiling fan
And see what happens when i hang
I think about it every fucking day
And i dont know how to cope with these feelings
So i sit in my room and i sing these silly fucking songs
Do you like an empty stomach
Right before you cry?
Do you like when i say you are pretty 
Even though its a lie
Do you want me to still love you 
Even though your past prime 
Though your past your prime
Do you ever think about not breathing
Do you ever think about not breathing
Maybe suicide
Yeah i wanna fucking die

Do you ever think about not breathing

I’m feeling distant again

I don’t know what the name

Of this feeling is

I wanna feel real

But we’re falling apart

Tell me what is wrong 

What the fuck is wrong

I don’t wanna feel this way

No of these things make sense 

So what the fuck Is wrong

I really wanna know 

Why I feel this way

All this mind numbing pain 

Please make it stop

Feeling distant again

Lyrics:

I cut myself again
Did you notice?
I slit it vertically 
Just for attention
I don’t care if you wanna stop me
Because you know that I won’t listen
Yeah I won’t listen
I won’t listen to you
Or to any fucking one who tells me
How to live my life
And I’ll say 
fuck you and I’ll cut it again
I’ll cut it again 
And I don’t give a fuck if I end it
I think that it’s time for me to go
This time hopefully it’s quick not slow

i told you not to leave me alone

https://open.spotify.com/track/5deqRcXhpxot443g7emMy0?si=NydICEOaRk296K4txYVwGA&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A4rUhH7hSpj0Sk41NFYbvYi

prod me ft @revivle

@requiem-for-you
what did i even do wrong?
was it what i wrote about u in my song
where did i even go wrong?
why wont u just tell me i dont wanna see u gone

cold winter nights
spent alone
used to sit by the fire on the phone
drinking hot cocoa
looking at our old photos
turning time into slowmo
where did it go wrong?

(where did i go wrong
dont wanna see u gone)

what did i even do wrong?
was it what i wrote about u in my song
where did i even go wrong?
why wont u just tell me i dont wanna see u gone

@revivle
i spent so much time on my own
i couldnt stop you from letting me go
so many promises that you went and broke
if i killed myself then how would you know ;p

im sorry for acting the way that i did
theres just something about u that makes me feel like a kid
im calling out for you i just wish you could see it
maybe u would if you stopped fucking leaving

@requiem-for-you + @revivle
what did i even do wrong?
was it what i wrote about u in my song
where did i even go wrong?
why wont u just tell me i dont wanna see u gone
x2

what did i do wrong? w/ revivle

#2 - i cant stop thinking about it

I'll die until I feel alive
I'm sorry to my fathers wife
Your son already ruined his life
I count my days I'm out of time
My friends concerned with the way I live
The pressures too hot I rip off my skin

just another useless life to everyone

Am I wasting my time?

special

It’s shit that’s the point
Im on all streaming platforms Proleefic :)