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been sitting on this one for like two years now. i hope y'all enjoy it. thank you for all the love & support. i can't even begin to tell you how much i appreciate it. <3

lyrics
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i wish i had friends
i wish i had anyone to save me
but i ain’t like them
i’m just a nightmare in the making
i pray that this ends
that the baphomet will take me
away from loose ends
cause i’m not to be forsaken 
maybe it’s a part of me
the anxiety
but the funny thing
is it’s all i can see
& it lies to me
fucking blinding me
when i honestly just

feel like i’m on drugs
even though i don’t even take em
it’s fuckin’ me up
ride these highs to feel complacent
it’s like i’m on drugs
i hide sometimes so i feel safe from
the pain in my gut
yeah it’s fucking me up
feels like i’m on drugs

i should dive in
swim to the surface when i’m stable
let’s skip the pretend
cause this life is not a fable
this story don’t end
till i’m hooked to all these cables
& start to see red
as they lie me on the table
maybe it’s the start of things
something i can’t see
it’s beyond a dream
an advisory
& it lies to me
fucking blinding me
when i honestly just

feel like i’m on drugs
even though i don’t even take em
it’s fuckin’ me up
ride these highs to feel complacent
it’s like i’m on drugs
i hide sometimes so i feel safe from
the pain in my gut
it’s fucking me up
feels like i’m on drugs

somebody wake me
cause life is a daydream
& i’m wasting time with you
so many faces
yeah i’m losing patience
& i’m stuck on loving you

feels like i’m on drugs (x4)

all i can see (prod. nick furlong x tony livadas)

EVERYBODY'S EVERYTHING OUT NOW
https://lilpeep.lnk.to/EverybodysEverything

LILPEEP.COM

white tee w/ yung bruh (prod. nedarb)

prod @notmorgn

listen on youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gd_Xqqx_St8

whats wrong or whats right
im bouta take a flight like should i say goodbye 
fuck that imma hold onto my pride
momma raised a soldier so i can't afford to cry
lookin back i see the knife in my back now
lookin at life wishing i was in the background 
lookin back i see my future in the past now
90 in the whip like should i crash now

im so sick of this im so sick of shit nobody listening 
demons all around diamonds wet just like a christening 
wait why you always high when you call me
why'd u ask what's wrong when you saw me (X2)

chemicals running through my veins i just wanna sleep 
feelings bleeding out my brain but right now i can't feel a thing 
woke up late time to waste away
my favorite days are the rainy days
let it soak in then i throw it all away
i try my best but this feeling always stays
you know i try but you gotta gimme space
and i dont wanna hurt you if you get in my way

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

(hook)

reach out just to waste my time
its the young waste of space 
with his headphones on
call me when you need me baby
but i know im the last resort
you said that you love me
how the fuck could you just love a ghost
you said that you love me baby
i said we are not that close

im so sick of this

Thank you for everyone who has supported me and my friends! i will miss you flowars <3

Links-
@guardinmusic
@daddydandy

flowars x guardin x yung van - lavender dreams (Prod. charlie c)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?time_continue=3&v=SjkgU9iIjMk

Live or Die (Video in Description)

https://soundcloud.com/lilsadeyes


https://soundcloud.com/montydatta

I’m drowning I can see the ark 
Sky opens up, world falls apart 
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da
I’m
Rocking all black strings on an old guitar 
With my all black jeans and my all black heart
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da

Put me in an all white room and bind my hands
Tell me I’m no good till I understand but
Your demands mean nothing 
I need a Zoloft lil to even feel something 
Put me on a red eye flight and I’ll leave it all as you wave goodbye
She asking where the time goes 
Girl you might as well be asking why the wind blows 
But you see me through these all black windows 
Chilling with the sharks while you swimming with the minnows 
And I’m sorry but I chose my fate 
Big fish ‘round town done being the bait
It’s weighing on my all black lungs
But yours always right so I’ll hold me tounge
Got an all black soul with an all black prayer
I’m the all black sheep with the all black stars 

Hook 

Ripped black jeans and tears from sad eyes
I guess I’m alright I guess I’ll be fine 
I guess I’m real stressed I’m
Best when offline
Cause I suffocate when I talk to you 
It sucks to feel like you don’t want to choose 
I choke so bad my face turns blue 
My heart’s gone dark from loving you 
I won’t speak cause you won’t listen 
You’re my cure but we’ve been distant 
You’re too cute and that’s too bad cause 
Love won’t clean this mess I have 
I’m over love but I’m not over us 
Im over love but I’m not over us

World Falls Apart - Ft Sadeyes Prod. Monty Datta

When Im Dying

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai (Prod. Tothegood)

"𝕀𝕥'𝕤 𝕣𝕚𝕡𝕡𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕞𝕪 𝕙𝕖𝕒𝕣𝕥 𝕚𝕟 𝕥𝕨𝕠"

Fuck, I want u back in my arms :(

cover art credit: https://www.instagram.com/exchoess/?hl=en
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lyrics:

[intro]
Tonight last night, we gotta make it special
but girl there ain't no pressure
hold your heart so gentle
I just wanna chill with you
It's ripping my heart in two
fuck it i'm coming through
like right from the start I knew

[chorus]
I'll be there for you every time
you stole my heart that is your crime
i'll get upset but you can find
a way to calm my nerves this time

[verse]
I want to be with you
I might need a tissue
cause when you'll be gone I will so fucking miss you
I wish I did kiss you 
but anxiety in my brain could not let me
please do not forget me
you really do get me
so please girl just let me
look at the stars tonight and point out to you all the cool constellations
we going far tonight your beauty a 10; matched by our conversations
I really do like this girl, would take her forever with no hesitations
we're stuck in this stupid world but all of it seems worth it for our obligations

[bridge]
don't want a broken heart again
i'll hold you in my arms till then

[chorus]
I'll be there for you every time
you stole my heart that is your crime
i'll get upset but you can find
a way to calm my nerves this time

[outro]
tonight last night we gotta make it special
but I just made this song instead, i'm feeling sentimental

I wish you were here [prod. Ellit]

Lyrics

A lot of times I don't feel I got no one to talk to
And all the drugs I take I promise that I try and not to
But people just avoid me so I smoke and pour a shot too
I'm walking to my grave cause tryna live is what I not do

I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
Dear Father, please save me from myself before I take me
I don't wanna stay here no more, I don't wanna love I'm so sore
I don't see the point of what it's all for, all I wanna see is her on all four

I'm not that guy I used to be
People are of no use to me
Seems like everyone got used to me
I'm falling back to what I used to be

I'm not alive, I'd rather die
Than to keep up hating my life
Girl goodbye, you're not mine
I'm not yours leave me alone (x2)

I'll fade away with the wind
Everyday's a day I hate being in
Or maybe I just hate my own skin
Is it really even that more different?

Cause the world is bitch that's why I say fuck it
Every morning is shit but I don't think nothing of it
Cause it's always been that way for me
God why'd you give so much hate to me?

I can't take it
How'd I make it?
This far I don't know
Cause I keep losing my hope (x2)

I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
Dear Father, please save me from myself before I take me
I don't wanna stay here no more, I don't wanna love I'm so sore
I don't see the point of what it's all for, all I wanna see is her on all four

I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
Dear Father, please save me from myself before I take me
I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning
I lost her, she found me, I'm under, I'm drowning

spotify.

i lost her. | Produced by ryini

On Spotify Now!

Check Out The Producer:
Soundcloud: @lilghosty00
Youtube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCVj24MJaGwohHDmmbfQ6Frw

Lyrics
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If you hate me now wait 'till you see me on shit
Fucked up in the back of the new whip
Write another track while I'm in my all black drip
With a brand new bitch
Baby one more kiss
You know I like that

Right now I feel on top of the world
And I ain't coming down
I ain't stopping now
Miss me when I'm not around

I ain't lie to my girl
So I mean it when Imma make it now
She hop in the whip
When I scream fuck this town

Nobody knows me
Y'all just like who you think that I am
Because how I show me
I'm on my lonely
But I'm just fucking fine with that
'Cause nobody owns me

I've been working non-stop
Working on a new drop
Making sure it's top notch on my own
Yeah I think about her a lot
Sometimes I wish I could stop
Instead I smoke on some pot all alone

All alone, all alone
Instead I'm smoking on thrax all alone
On my own, on my own
Imma make it to the top on my own

If you hate me now wait 'till you see me on shit
Fucked up in the back of the new whip
Write another track while I'm in my all black drip
With a brand new bitch
Baby one more kiss
You know I like that

Right now I feel on top of the world
And I ain't coming down
I ain't stopping now
Miss me when I'm not around

I ain't lie to my girl
So I mean it when Imma make it now
She hop in the whip
When I scream fuck this town

They'll be jeering on the way back
Looking at my face tats
So off of my face
I don't know where my face at
I don't really give a fuck
Imma make it on my own two
You can hate me all you want
I don't even know you

Right now I feel on top of the world
And I ain't coming down
I ain't stopping now
Miss me when I'm not around

I ain't lie to my girl
So I mean it when Imma make it now
She hop in the whip
When I scream fuck this town

(Outro)
Where is my mind
Where is my mind

One More Kiss

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One More Kiss [Prod. Lil Ghosty]

girlinblack IG @HARDLYLUVD

Special(Prod. Pieper)

LYRICAL - Final Episode (prod. jody)

Lovely

https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7

weepings
Head in my hands as you walk away
I still reside in this vacant place
watch the rain fall down from the windowpane
silhouette of you baby I'm missing that face
~
Head in my hands as you walk away girl
I don't really know what to say girl
I've been blinded by the light-er
still I stay beside her 
drowning downing alcohol 
my future has looked brighter
keeping everything in the present time
cause the past was a blast I can't change that line
wear a mask skipping class, whats the point of trying?
everything you doing now changing up you're mind
and I don't know if you noticed, everything in this life make you lose focus
breathe in breathe out keep that self inner lotus
do whats fulfilling to you fuck that bogus 

unknxwn. & weepings
I don't know why insist on leading me on
If you wanna leave then why won't you just be gone?
You get in my head and you're there from dusk to dawn
I don't really get you, I don't know what you want

weepings
Head in my hands as you walk away girl
I don't really know what to say girl
I've been blinded by the light-er
still I stay beside her 
drowning downing alcohol 
my future has looked brighter

unknxwn.
Feel the weight press in, now I'm stresin'
I don't wanna wait for the death that I'm destined
I get too fucked up cause I feel too sick
I gave her trust and she made me feel stupid

Lost all my love to a bitch that was useless
Heart had enough and it made my mind ruthless
Planted a tree would grow to be fruitless
I'll never know why you did the shit you did

So till the day I leave this earth
I'll feel that pain, I'll feel that hurt
I feel the ache inside my bones
I'll never taste, I'll never know love

From no one, I'm so done
I say that shit so much but words don't mean shit huh?
And I know that's how you feel
Cause if you really loved me then I would never be here
You made me feel like nothing

Head in my Hands w/ unknxwn. [prod. hieloways]

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