Let Me Rot (W/ Unknxwn.)

deleted track "​i’m not evil." by @unknxwn7 (detmer, garrett)
non profit

Lyrics

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

I keep seeing shit that I just tend to hate
Anger I been fiending it, without it I can't make
Now I'm on the edge, I might jump into the lake
I can't get out of my head, I don't wanna even think

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Why the fuck do I feel this?
How the fuck do I heal this?
Everyone in my mentions
Telling me that I kill shit

I wish that shit was me
I don't wanna deal with me
God a sign I need to see
I don't know if I can be

Who I need to, I don't mean to
Come off like this, I'm not evil
I am only just a human, just like you
That's going through it

Tryna figure out what I should figure out
Nothing even matters, we all end up in the ground

I wanna watch the sky fall down
I'm running out of options now
I think I wanna cock it now
I think I wanna stop it now

Cause I can't keep on doing this
I'm sorry but I'm through with it
I feel like I'm losing it
But I know what to do with this

Write it all out, scream along
This a journal, not a song
On this journey all alone
I just wanna break my phone

​i’m not evil. (prod. puhf)

Lyrics

Slippin' through the cracks of the bonds that I broke
I wish I could take it back, every word that I spoke
I been feelin' bad, I don't want you to know
So I'll tell you that I'm good and just hope that you won't

Tryna figure out why the fuck I'm grim
I been tryna figure out why the fuck you're with him
Don't ask what a song about, every line lead to her
I be tryna get it out but I think that I'm cursed

I don't think there's a cure for the shit that I feel
Drink another beer, I just pop another pill
I been livin' in this fear, I can't look into the mirror
I don't like the face I see no more

Am I alive? I don't even care no more
The voice of god I don't hear no more
Stuck in a facade, nothing real no more
Push me to the side till I'm near no more

Nah oh oh nah, is this really what I wanted?
I forgot bout why the fuck I even started
Girl I am not what the fuck you wanna start with
I'll end you if you think that you gone leave me broken hearted

I won't lie and say that I haven't thought about
How I could disguise your body right after I take it out
I won't make it painless, you gone have some time to think about
Every choice you made that made the hate inside me rupture out

You made me hurt
I can't take it
You made me worse
I won't take this

*auditory agony*

spotify.

worse. | Produced by nxku

something about the way that you couldve walked away

Prod. Septfree 

Lyrics~

I been tryna hold it back but I’m breaking
Waiting for the day the reaper fuckin takes me
Bitch I’m nothing you can’t fuckin save me 
Don’t say that you love me
If you fucking hate me

My emotions, they’re always mistaking
Deep inside my ocean, is where I’ll be fading
Where’d you go bitch what happened to staying?
I can’t fucking cope with, 
Scars that I would make bleed 

My walls cave in
Baby I can’t take this 
Lately you been changing 
Baby make it make sense 
I been patient 
My hearts fuckin aching 
Sick of fuckin faking 
Baby girl I hate this

All alone, there’s no one I know
I’m finding a home, but got no where to go
I’m In the cold, blood drips in snow
Pains all I hold, can’t take no mo

I’ve been tryna hold it back but I’m breakin’ 
I can’t do this on my own 
Anymore I can’t take it
They just hear these songs and 
They think that I’m amazin’
They don’t know the real me
They don’t know I’m fakin’ 

You tell me you love me but I 
Don’t know what you’re thinkin’
Happiness is fleeting
I’m tired of chasin’
I’m still bleeding 
Baby I can taste it 
You don’t need me 
Baby girl I hate it 

Used to wake up think bout getting faded 
Don't tell me what I mean to you
I don’t care you can save it
I don’t want your love 
It’s more than that baby I crave it
You’re the only one that can help me
Girl you’re my haven 

I’ve been tryna hold it back but I’m breakin’ 
I can’t do this on my own 
Anymore I can’t take it
They just hear these songs and 
They think that I’m amazin’
They don’t know the real me
They don’t know I’m fakin’

beneath the surface ft. unknxwn.

Lyrics:

The summit reached, but nothing there
No crown of light, no breath of air
The climb was long, the body torn
But at the top, the void is born

No fire left, no soul to claim
The silence speaks, it knows my name
A hollow throne, a vacant hand
The apex carved in shifting sand

Apex Null, the void complete
No heart remains, no pulse, no beat
The highest place, the lowest fall
At the end, there’s nothing — nothing at all

The echoes die, the wires hum
A hollow choir, the voice undone
No thought, no pain, no hope, no will
A crown of silence, cold and still

The human gone, the machine is ash
A lightless sky, a mirrored crash
The summit void, the purpose gone
A hollow hymn, a dying song

Apex Null, the void complete
No heart remains, no pulse, no beat
The highest place, the lowest fall
At the end, there’s nothing — nothing at all

I reached for fire, I found the dark
A temple cold, without a spark
At the height, the silence calls
At the end, there’s nothing at all

Apex Null, the void complete
No heart remains, no pulse, no beat
The highest place, the lowest fall
At the end, there’s nothing — nothing at all

Apex Null

all credit to:
https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7

lyrics : 
i feel not alive
fighting my mind trying not to die
dont know how to deal with the pain inside
so i make a song put the pain inside
every time i feel alone i got nowhere to go
they dont see the pain i got no one to show
this graph of mine goes lower and lower
one day i hope that its over
fuck my life
will i go to sleep no not tonight
i just wanna see that fucking light
i dont wanna live another night
when the moon comes up so do my problems
like algebra i cant solve em
fuck one cup
i need the bottle
i dont cut but im self harming
she seems okay
im not over
im so full now
im knocked over
im not alright nor okay
it'll get better but not today
she seems okay
im not over
im so full now
im knocked over
im not alright nor okay
it'll get better but not today

unknxwn. - not over. | Produced by ryini

Lyrics

I put my heart into this music tryna make it out of where I am
All the words in the world couldn't even make you understand
How much it would mean to me to make enough with ends to meet
From talking bout the shit that I don't talk about as easily

Cause I'm afraid of judgement, I'm afraid of being vulnerable
It isn't honorable when I'm put down for being true
Took so long to be myself when all I tried was being you
Cause I don't think I'm liked enough when I show leaves that I have grew

I'm kinda weird and not because it started being cool to be
But because when I was still in school they made a fool of me
Not because I did dumb shit or acted stupidly
But because I was myself when most people just couldn't be

I like who I am, don't make me second guess
Don't try make me turn into you just because you're like the rest
That shit isn't my fault that you hate yourself enough to change
For people that just want you for a moment but would never stay

And I promise that I could, I swear to God I can
But you just keep on knocking me back down till I can't even stand
So know that when I do again I'm only gonna walk away
I can say truly tried, you're the one that chose to waste

I don't regret shit, I flex on those who make me want to
Don't think you know shit when you don't know the lengths I've gone to
I'll prolly live a thousand lives by the time I die
When one thing doesn't work, I think of new shit I could try

I don't know why I feel alone when there's people all around me
I'll surprise you, don't you doubt me
I've been growing cold with the things I know, I've been floating need some grounding
Love? I try to, you won't allow me

Or won't I allow myself cause I'm scared of help
I'm afraid of a touch that I never felt
Is it my fault that I'm like this?
I don't think it is in the very slightest

I didn't break my own damn heart
I didn't write pain in my stars
I never told anyone to hate me
I'm kinda fragile, don't you break me

I'll snap at any moment I feel it in me
Had enough fake, show me something real please
I want a feeling real enough that it could kill me
Don't make me want to, just fucking end me

fragile. | Produced by INFELIX

straight spitting w my druh 🌩
(prod. Explicit)

Lunar

Lunar ft. unknxwn.

show some love!

featuring: https://soundcloud.com/unknxwn7

Lyrics:
(cyzun)
I need you, you don’t want me 
I see you, you could haunt me x2

I feel so alone 
I don’t have a home
Give me something to believe in
Just a little hope 
I know I’m a joke 
I hate myself the most
I’m a fucking waste of space I need to fucking go

(I need to fucking go
I need to fucking go)


Take me, break me
Do whatever you want with my soul x2

I can’t seem to escape it at all
Take my heart and rip it apart 
Leave my body to rest in the dark
Leave my body to rest in the dark

(unknxwn.)
You were all I ever needed and more
All I ever wanted was to be yours
But you stepped away and walked out the door
Will my heart ever heal up from the scourge?

Making me out as the bad guy
I can make sure that this lie is your last time
Fucked up so much in my last life
All of this pain gone this life my last try

Why in the fuck I exist
I never knew and I don't give a shit
I'll never know where the love and the hope and the courage to cope without sedatives went

Take me
Break me
I know everyone is just gonna fold
Lately
Hate be
Taking over most of my fucking soul

(cyzun)
Take me, break me
Do whatever you want with my soul 
Do whatever you want with my soul x4

take my soul w/ unknxwn. (yapuzi)

Lyrics

I might swing fist at all of this
I'm stuck, it's fuck my monument
I'm sick as shit of all of it
I wanna make you feel just how I get

When I'm stuck in the back of my mind
Where no one even looks just to see if it's fine
I feel like a book that ain't got any spine
So when I turn a page, I don't know if it's mine

Love is a drug and I'm fiending
I fucking mean it
Thought she was who I should be with
But that ain't even close to attaining
I don't like this shit, wanna be faded

The fuck is this shit?
I'm not amazing
So fucking pissed
It's fucking amazing
How I could hold all this pain
Until I find the words that can take it away

I'm not a goat, I'm not a legend
I'm nothing special, I'm not eleven
I'm just a ghost, sending a message
This where my head go when I get stressin'

I'm on a road headed to nowhere
Stay out my head, ain't nobody should go there
My body soaked with all the toxic shit
I don't get how anyone could like this

Numbers don't help, I'm stuck in hell
I don't like the shit that I felt
I'm a lost cause, blow my top off
I'm on the edge, think I'ma walk off

I made an album to let go but it ain't work out
I can still feel all the hurt now
I know that I am a mess so no need to point out
All expectations I won't mount

Tell me please, am I really helping?
By talking bout all the pain that I dealt with
I can't see, who I'm affecting
So I appreciate when I get messaged

I'm just a human going through it
I got some thoughts I don't know what to do with
Other than turning it all into music
I don't what I would do if I lose it

This ain't a song, this an attempt
To show myself that I can get a grip if I really try
Because sometimes I feel like
Life ain't worth the time

Thoughts in my mind
That I don't like
I feel like I'm
Running out of time
I can't take another night

endeavor. | Produced by killedmyself

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