Benedixhion

got too many drugs in my bag 
i popped 3 xans but i still feel sad
 life just sucks i feel like i’m dead
i wanna put 10 rounds in my head 

oh my god
i been off a lot
no one really needs me
no reason to stop
i wish i could live a life like you but
my whole life i’ve felt so useless

you just left me here on my own
and now i’m faded
i been tryna live this life all alone
but i can’t take it
i feel like this life ain’t worth it
i feel like i have no purpose
i feel so alone in my bedroom
don’t pick up the phone
i’ll be dead soon
i don’t know why i’m alive
i don’t know why i still try

you don’t really love me or need me 
everything you said was deceiving
you don’t really love me or need me
why am i even breathing

icantstop [prod. fly boi yoda]

i’m lover not a fighter
but this worlds so fucking cold 
yuh
it makes me feel like i’m alone 
yuh
the only human with a soul
everybody else is just a walking empty shell
yuh
at least that’s how it feels
is any of this real cuz
i just wanna be myself
but i can’t see myself
i’m stuck in someone else
nobody cares at all
nobody gives a fuck
my universe is empty
and i’m the one who’s stuck
and that’s the way it is
that’s how it’s always been
and that’s how it’ll end too
i guess that’s how it’s meant to

nobodyGivesAFuckk [prod. Noria]

capoxxo: https://soundcloud.com/capoxxo

lyrics:
who am i to judge
baby, yeah i know
i was freaking out
when you called my phone
i have nowhere to go
i smoke lots of dope
fucked up everything
it's so hard to take it slow
i cannot take your lies
i'm so damn hypnotized
and you're so beautiful
but i spark blunts to the skies
baby you know
we can do drugs in the skylights

i don't know
lil shawty, could you tell me where to go
i don't know if i can make it without you
if you love me then just tell me that you do
sick of feeling blue

there's nothing left of me
i think of it frequently
baby, if you don't hate me
why couldn't you just believe in me
you just came out of nowhere
and stole my heart, that shit's thievery
and you stayed for a while
i wonder what you could see in me

i wonder what you could see in me
i still wonder why you're leaving me
and i just wish we were meant to be
but i'll just fade in your memories
i just wanted something real
instead you gave me a fantasy
and there's nothing in that pill
i'll smoke my way back to sanity
not someone you want
i just fed into your vanity
just something to flaunt
guess it's a tragic reality

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deaded w/ capoxxo [prod. 5v & odece]

i don’t think that i can change 
lately i been feeling stuck inside my ways
pretty sure my life is just a fucking waste
yeah
maybe i should go ahead and throw it all away

sick of life 
i wonder what’s after
i’m a fuck up
i’m a disaster
i wish that i would die faster
restless nights, could use dreamcatcher oh
‘cause you left me all alone
never even met you, only saw you on my phone
yeah
i still miss you on the low
i cannot stop thinking bout the day that you went ghost
yeah

so i’ll make it on my own
i don’t need you anymore, it’s time for me to go
yeah
all these girls are tryna hit this
they don’t really want me, but my name is on they hit lists
damn
so i think it’s time to dip bitch
i been chasing after my dreams
and yes i’ll risk it
you best get up out my way
i’m on a mission
you always got sum to say
but never listen

would you hold me close
i can’t let you go
you already know
how i feel bout you

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dreamcatcher [prod. ahnboi]

popped off
yeah i did it
i been making smoking weed and making music for a living
goddamn
i split designer on my fit bitch
i been tryna cope by spending thousands on my wrist it’s
lit
and lately i been on my mischief shit
cuz i been really tryna make it big
i wish i wasn’t such a misfit kid
i’m always bleeding so my wrist stay slit

these drugs may have cost my soul but it’s worth it to me boo 
so i’m over it
cocaine in the bathroom stall like it’s 1982 took two lines n dipped

she hates what i have become
and i hate that i am so damn numb 
i pack my bong and fill up my lungs 
lately i been feelin so gone
i wish that i would just die
‘cause i’m already dying inside
i hate this world i hate my damn life
might just end it all tonight
don’t waste your time on me 
i wish that you could see
we just aren’t meant to be
i guess that you should leave

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nineteen82 [prod. number48]

cuz ima
fiend fiend fiend
ima
fiend fiend fiend
sippin on promethazine
cuz ima 
fiend fiend fiend
yah for u i am a fiend
i got my purple drank
sippin on it
purple drank 
and i’m sippin on it

i already know that i’m a burden
you just played my heart lil bitch
you always got me hurtin
your love is a counterfeit
so i should prolly curve it
like a nascar
she told me i’m gifted
i’ma go far
i’ll switch out that bitch like she jewelry on my wrist
yuh
she makes me sick makes me always feel like shit
yuh
i’m over it got nine milli in my clip
yuh
i’m copping fits like i’m fulfilling a fix
yuh
ay
if you gotta prollm lil bitch get out my face
i’m so sick of living i just wanna waste away
i already know that my damned life just can’t be saved
yuh
i’m so sick of feeling pain
i take all these drugs
but it still will not go away
what the fuck is living 
my whole life is just a waste
i don’t wanna feel this 
rather lie inside my grave

i really took my shot
now i just pray that i hit it
that bitch jus sucked my cock 
then she jus exit the building
i told her i can’t trust
can’t let her fuck wit my feelings
she mixing love wit lust 
i hate that it’s so appealing
i really took my shot 
now i just pray that i hit it
that bitch jus came to fuck 
then she jus exit the building
i told her i can’t trust 
can’t let her fuck wit my feelings
whether it’s love or lust 
i just know it’s so appealing ay
i got the bag and i sealed it ay
i’m spitting fax hope you feel it ay
there’s no relaxing these feelings ay
i wish that i didn’t feel things
drugs drugs drugs in my cup in my cup
you can catch me in the corner and i’m sippin on my

i already know that i’m a burden
you just played my heart lil bitch
you always got me hurtin
your love is a counterfeit
so i should prolly curve it
like a nascar
she told me i’m gifted
i’ma 
fiend fiend fiend
sippin on promethazine
cuz ima 
fiend fiend fiend
yah for u i am a fiend
i got my purple drank
sippin on it
purple drank 
and i’m sippin on it

fiend4u [prod. thatboineco]

hydrocodone in my blood stream yah
and it got me feeling lovely yah
she keeps telling me that i’m up nex
she keeps telling me she loves me yah
ay
can you tell me are you down for a joyride
i think i might fall in love witcha tonight
how could this be wrong when it feels right
we could play your favorite song in the moonlight
yeah ay
in the moonlight
we could play your favorite song in the moonlight
took a couple blunts on the road so we can vibe
shawty we might fall in love if the moods right
like right now
always off the drugs in my own hell
but i couldn’t give a fuck i hate myself
so i’m ringing up the plug i might as well
popped another pill it don’t feel real
she keeps telling me that i’m gun end up killed
fuck it i don’t care i need more pills
you could catch me poppin norco till i’m ill

hydrocodone in my blood stream yah
and it got me feeling lovely yah
she keeps telling me that i’m up nex
she keeps telling me she loves me yah
she keeps telling me she’s fuckin wit it
then girl come thru lets make some bad decisions
i jus wanna cuff you boo and that’s my only mission
i’ll jus sip my juice till i’m lookin livid
she told me to tell the truth she’s fuckin wit my vision
fuckin wit the flows inside in my head
i don’t think that i could ever rest
i’ll keep poppin pills until i’m dead
nothin ever works i try my best
i try my

inthaMoonlite [prod. thatboineco]

grab my bag and i hit the exit
everybody here’s just pretending
she added me to her friend list
she ain’t even know what a friend is
ay i got my drip always flexing
brand new fit that shits an investment
she rolled some blunts for the session
goddamn that bitch ambidextrous
yuh
i ain’t even know her but i’m calling back
she says that she love me what the fuck is that
got my money in the bank yeah them paypal stacks
she invite to the party so that’s where i’m at
that girl so sweet like a candy bar
believes in me says i’m going far
girl you know ima be a star
so much to see jus get in my car
i hate the fact that i miss you
i’m sick of crying in tissues
you just left n that was the issue
i’m obsessed like what’d the fuck i do
hey wait
she ain’t really love me
she jus playing all the same games
sippin on the bubbly got me spinning like a bayblade 
off the shrooms n i be tripping on the same day
mayday
ay

grab my bag and i hit the exit
everybody here’s just pretending
she added me to her friend list
she ain’t even know what a friend is
ay i got my drip always flexing
brand new fit that shits an investment
she rolled some blunts for the session
goddamn that bitch ambidextrous
ay
she says i’m pretty she had to let me know
we were high off the pillies she said she likes my clothes
counting up 50s then spent it all on dope
when i’m out on the city i smoke away my woes

why’m i feeling so shitty like what the fuck is life
i’m so tired of living i think i’d rather die
but i can’t drown in self pity i need to make it right
if you ain’t talkin money then get outta my sight

friendlist [prod. thatboineco]

feels like love but i know it isn’t
i’m so damn numb who’m i kidding
i hate life i wish that i didn’t
i’m poppin percs just to fix it
but i know that i’ll never fit in
an outlier to the human race
i’m a lost soul and i’m drifting
i wish that i could just be erased
i hate the me that i have become
i’m just a fiend and i need more drugs
off a thirty i’m so fucked up
i’m running out i best hit the plug
i took a journey with no way back ay
i got money i’m chasing so ima make that ay
she jus pass me a swisher so ima face that ay
if you ain’t talkin benjis then just get outta my face
please let me lie here
i wanna die here
i’m so sick of this life
i wanna give into my fears

pain in my head guess i’m broken
i’m already dead they don’t notice

its2much [prod. zach sutton]

let me die
i don’t really know what the point in life is
everybody knows that we won’t survive
i jus wanna go shawty i can’t fight this
always on my page but you never like
it’s fake
you ain’t really love me
that’s great
i been counting up my bankroll 
all day
i been drowning in my problems
let’s escape

i been in my bag
and i ain’t stoppin bitch
i love poppin tags
so i been shopping
i don’t understand
girl what’s your problem now
you make me feel dead
cuz you’re a toxin bitch
i already know your love is counterfeit
pretty sure she hates me but she loves my fits 
strung out on the daily but these drugs are bliss
i don’t wanna live i’m fucking done with this
i don’t know what i should do
i’m lost and missing you
i wish it wasn’t true
what the fuck am i gun do
oh whoa
i’m just dying in my room
oh no
i keep falling for you boo

why’s my mind feel like it’s a prison
i don’t understand
i just wanna life that’s worth living
won’t you hold my hand

toxin [prod. thatboineco]

i keep asking is this really love
shawty tells me i should sober up
ion know if i can take this
i can’t take another fake bitch

big bands in my hand
i’ll count it on my own
ain’t need no fake friends 
i’m better off alone
yeah
why’d you stab me in the back
again
what the fuck is up with that
goddamn
you don’t really love me
can you just tell me the truth
you’re dreaming of my money
while i’m stuck dreaming of you
oh
it’s a lie
you never cared
i don’t know why
you’re never there

put my money in the bank bitch
yuh
lil shawty made a lane switch
yuh
pass the blunt i think they laced it
yuh
but you know i’m still gun face it
yuh
basic
you’re really basic
i can’t fucking take this
you make me so sick
left me on the pavement
thought you were my friend
i’m always sedated
i fucking hate it
cuz you’re so basic

pseudoLove [prod. sketchmyname]

different
everything’s so different
i feel so removed
i been really feelin distant
they ain’t really wit it
i’m really wit it
money spent while sad
couple thousand on my jewelry bitch
why you mad
well i’m better by lonely bitch
so i’m glad
the really drugs control me it’s
not a fad
i really need em bad
and i really want you back
shawty won’t you hold my hand
yeah

feel the drugs inside my system
yeah
they abuse me i’m a victim
yeah
then again i fuckin picked them
what is there to say
maybe i’m insane
cause i treat life like a game
my bad
this is just a faze
that’s cap
i been switching up my lanes
that’s fax
so you best get out my way
‘fore you end up in a grave
yuh
i been really in my head lately
will you love me when i’m dead baby
i won’t even lie don’t think this life’s for me
cuz i’m trapped inside my head
so won’t you set me free

when i pull up i’m so faded uhuh
i’m jus really glad i made it uhuh
feeling like this is the matrix uhuh
‘cause this shits a simulation
i feel your vibrations
yeah
look
i’m so sick of waiting
let’s jus hit the road shawty
me n you’ll be famous
oh my god
nothing’s in our way bitch
whatchu thought
cuz i’m really finna make it
yuh yuh

victim [prod. urbs]

you got what you wanted all along
you told me you loved me
but you didn’t you were wrong
yah
i been falling on my own
i don’t wanna lie i think i’m better off alone 
yah

hey love
you gun watch this fade away or you gun save us
you gun watch me die today i’m outta patience
cuz i do not wanna play these games i’m tryna make up
cuz we ain’t finished
won’t you hear me out
just for a minute
all these people run they mouths
but they don’t get it
baby i jus need you now
won’t you please just be yourself with me
times running out
are you down to go to hell with me

or nah
i got lots of problems
please just call
are you a really a true day one
or a fraud
she jus want me for my paystub
bitch get lost
when i leave i’ll take a coffin with me
cuz i’m so dead bitch
if you really wanna problem with me
you finna get it
type back type back
don’t want you sad so i always write back
trapped in my head always stuck in the past
yeah yeah always stuck in the past
yeah yeah always stuck in my head
yeah yeah feeling better off dead
honestly i’m upset
honestly i’m obsessed
with you
you’re shining like a diamond
always blue
when you say you love me
is it true
give a fuck about the money
i want you
i just need my boo

go2hell [prod. thatboineco]

yuh
oh whoa
i don’t really know what
to do
i jus wanna go back
to you
i hate that you’re really gone
can’t take being alone

yuh
i know
you aint really wanna hold me close
you just couldn’t wait to let me go
oh
so let me go
i’m turning to the tabs and the shrooms
i can see the energy in this room
i’ll leave from this vicinity to the moon
but the tears keep falling for you

what’s next
i ain’t really wanna another ex
can we just talk you saw my texts
please don’t leave me here on read 
i’m begging
for you to come save me
the simulations breaking
everybody here is faking
nobody gives a damn
i need you
you don’t need me
everything in life is fleeting
you say you’ll always be there
but i know one day you’ll leave me 
popped off
i jus wanna pull up in a
droptop
so i gotta keep on grinding no i
cant stop
everyday is a reminder
that my soul is gone
im so fucking lost

im falling for you
ion even care if you knew 
gotta cut the past off
start new
baby just back off
were through
baby just say u aint have time for me
but u do with your friends i know ur not busy
now u wonder why i always act all pissy
i know ur doing shit and i know u dont miss me
i dont see us
falling in love
you took whats mine
now i am stuck

letmeGO ft. heylog [thatboineco]

baby you don’t give a fuck about connection
baby you don’t wanna take in my direction
baby we can hit the bank in a second
we can roll up all the dank for the session
you’re the one i want but you’re fucking playing games
i don’t really know, i just really wanna stay
i just wanna go, i think you’re a hoe
baby i don’t even think i’ll let you in my home

i been feelin low
i been feeling dead inside
i don’t even know
why the fuck i am alive
left me all alone
won’t pick up the phone
i don’t wanna live i think i’d rather be a ghost
yah
my plug got me for the low
yah
i been drownin in my woes
yah
shawty please don’t let me go
yah
Ugh
left me on my own
ion really know you like that
it kinda drives me crazy that you never text back
and you ain’t really love me
cuz you can’t bitch i’m dead
this isn’t real i’ve turned
into a fiend i’m obsessed
hey baby lay me down in my coffin
poppin pills with no plans on stoppin
I might die tonight i feel lost bitch
fuck this life i’ve ran outta options
yeah
i’ve ranna outta options
i keeping taking more to feel something
i’ll keep taking more till i’m nauseas
i wont even lie i’m so gone bitch
i got all these problems lately
i been fucking waiting till the day you save me
why you gotta keep me waiting
what’s up with these games you playing

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no signal ft. capoxxo [prod. ramseybeatz]

life is just a rave
and i’m frowning in it
percy to the face
you can’t save me bitch
i’m drowning in it
everything was fake
it was counterfeited
pills inside my brain
i jus wanna feel
a fucking difference
no i’m not okay
i’m so lost
stuck inside my head
i can’t sober up
feeling better dead
is this even love
all this weight thats in my chest
got me feeling stuck
life is so fucked up

i don’t wanna know what you’ve done
i’ll jus shoot my shot like a gun
everyone dies so let’s jus have fun
i needed you but you didn’t want me
i’m so dead i feel like a zombie
everybody’s fake they’s jus copy
life ain’t fair cuz nobody loves me
oh
then why you still haunt me though

i keep staring out my window
in my room without you
was it really something baby
i weep when i think about you
it is what it is you
left me like i’m nothing baby

i don’t understand
you said you needed me
wasn’t in the plan
cuz you ain’t need a thing

chemicals [thatboineco]

ion really get it
i don’t know
if it’s ending or beginning
you can go
i won’t even feel a difference
lil bitch
i jus want some ice to flood out my wrists
give a fuck about a price ion really give a shit
ion really give a fuck cuz 
i can’t
i feel so alone in
my head 
ion really got no feelings
i’m dead
bitch i jus pulled up
so high
been poppin pillies to survive
off a thirty i’m still hurting
what’s the reason i’m alive

i feel so dead
in the head
watch me fuck it up again
ima disappoint my friends
i can’t help it
i’m selfish
i want it all to end
yuh 
a fatal zen
yuh
already dead
you can blame the percocets
yuh
i got problems on problems
i don’t know how to solve em
i hate the life that i’m living
too many pills i look livid

junkie [prod. Jody]

i don’t know what the fuck to do
i’m off the drugs and missing you

you said that you need me but you didn’t
you only ever stayed so you could leave me
what’s the difference
i been feeling like i’m drowning with these drugs inside my system
i can’t write a song if i’m not vibing off a benzo
hello
you just played a game and then you left me
now you see i’m up and you been acting way too friendly
got no time for fakes cuz bitch i know your just pretending
want me cuz i’m poppin
like a semi automatic
lying in my coffin
since you left me bitch it’s tragic
yuh
now my minds just full of static
yuh
i’m alone on my own planet
yuh
i don’t know
i don’t know what the fuck to do
i’m off the drugs and missing you
hit up my plug and tie the noose
i don’t give a fuck i’m too removed
i’m so removed
oh whoa
i just needed you
but you left me who
yeah you left me who

idk wtf to do [prod. lil buscuit]

i keep breaking and breaking
the world keeps taking and taking 
i got xanax in my bag
got your bitch she’s on my lap
need another percocet
i live each day like it’s my last
cuz it might be
honestly i’m fighting with myself
i should really get some help
you got me stuck under your spell
might as well
pop another
fucking pill
i don’t
even
know what’s real
you go back and forth in my head
off these drugs i feel like i’m dead
so dead
wish the world would let me rest
always got benzos on deck
you know i really need my meds
yeah
nineteen but i feel way older
i can’t ever get no closure
i just wish that it would be over
life is war but i’m not a soldier
goddamn
shawty was fucking on me
off xans
like it when u press up on me
like that
honestly i’m hella lonely
no one even really knows me
no one but you 
just you
i can make your dreams come true
but it’s too late for me boo
i’m overdosing in my room

imSoBroken freestyle [prod. thatboineco]

used to think that it was something 
guess not
then you left me like i’m nothing
what the fuck
that shit hurt like a concussion
uppercut bitch
you ain’t talking money that’s the end of the discussion
you just cut me deep
you just let me bleed
goddamn
what the fuck

i’m fucked up
i just bought a hundred xannies from the plug
holy shit and now i’m sippin on this rum
i must have death wish
think i’m dead bitch
take me from this earth
cuz i can’t take all-

Benedixhion

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