Lyrics🎱

Fill my schedule, so I ain't got empty time
I struggle when I do, I'm never calm I'm never fine
Tryna find some peace, at the bottom of my mind
Will I make it out? Will i make it out alive?

I can see the ocean, and it's a nice view
But it doesn't compare to when I'm looking at you
The feeling that it brings on inside
Takes away every thought that I shared of 
Suicide

Suicide doors
Yeah you know I'm in the coupe
Doordashing while I'm driving
Making money while I scoot
Through my city, through my town
Making moneys what I do

And whenever i find time
I work on being happy cuz I know I'm never fine
I tend to sit around contemplating problems I
Caused upon myself
So I sit and wonder why
I do this to myself
I wish I just could end my life
(Just end my life, just end my life)
(Ooooooh, but can't do that)

I think I need a mercy
Think I need a second life
Alcohol consumes me
But it helps me when I cry
So scared to fuck it up
I know they're ain't no second tries 
So I gotta watch my cards
And I gotta play em right
Like now
I'd do anything to see you
But when I'm crying breaking down
Where were you when I would need you?
(Whenever I would need u?)

time (prod. eskimos)

I wish you, wouldn't have wasted time
Now I'm sad alone, every Friday night
And on Saturdays, I wake up and cry
And every holiday I dread to be alive

I wish you wouldn't have called my line
I told you were done about a thousand times
I wish you, couldn't have caught my lie
Now I know I'm fucked
Yeah I lost my life

I wish you, wouldn't have put me first
I left you alone
And now I feel worse
Than I did before
I guess life's a curse
I won't ever be happy
Til' the back of the hearse

I'm sick of shaking
In the dead of the night
I wish these drugs could help me
ease my mind
I can't feel my body
Just leave me behind
Let me rot away
Fuck my soul I'm fine
I'm fine :'(

I just wanna be happy
I'm never fine
But I took the pills
So I paid the price
Serotonins fucked
But my dopamine high
My stomach feeling low
But my body feeling fried

I cracked the seal
And then lost myself
Extract what seems real
Forget abandonment
Cause I know what I feel
And you're full of it
Go ahead, you can kill me
I don't give a shit

You're on my mind
While I write this song
I sure miss your touch
It's been far too long
I just miss your body
Now fuck that thong
You can take it off
It's been far too long

thong (prod. siem spark)

Lyrics🎱

I reminisce on memories
But none of them are mine
And if we're meant to be
Then why'd you go and waste my time?
I must've been out of my fucking mind
Cuz you could tear apart my heart without a tear inside your eyes

And I'll admit when I wake up, I wanna die
I reach for my pills I keep by my bedside
They're the only thing that's keeping me alive
through this neverending futile idiotic life
So I cry at night
at the thought of us connecting our eyes
And whenever we would kiss it would feel so distant inside

I would sit by the fire and absorb in the heat
I take in these thoughts while I sweat in my sheets
Throughout the night I just cry and I weep
I'm barely alive, I can barely breathe

I think its bout time I finally start to fo-cus
Realizing I wasted time, feeling fucking hopeless (fuck that!)
In and out my body yeah I know I'm fucking broken
(I'm fucking broken)

I can't take these scars, off the side of my face
I can't change my appearance, I can only lose weight
I can't look in the mirror
Without feeling ashamed
I hate everything about me
But I'm stuck this way

stuck this way (prod. MNDLS)

Lyrics🎱

I wanna take off out this galaxy
I need the fuck out
humans instinctively, built callously
jus figured it out

So can we talk about our agony?
At least say our problems out loud?
I'm seeing others living casually
and to me, it's so profound
I've come to terms with my reality
The situations, and their gravity
I feel the world is tryna crush me down
conflicting thoughts, and broken fallacies now

I got a loose head, bruises, covered head to toe
I got blood on my knuckles, yeah i think it's time to go
And if he keep the beef, then I'll let the 9 blow
I truly want some peace, I'm tryna let this stress go

yet I still question, where did the depression
Originally start, or why I feel lost?
All of the time, will I ever feel fine?
what the fuck is normal life even like?
dink me in the head, like it was counter-strike
Cause I'm on go, yuh I'm in overtime
and whenever making music I'm in overdrive

I'm in overdrive, you can't stay the night
Stimulate my body, until I feel fine
U can say ur hurting, but were nothing alike
If you felt this pain, you'd prolly stare down a pipe
Prolly pull the trigger, after contemplating life
Tell me that you're special
Without copying a style
Show me that you're different
That you'll go the extra mile
I could use the love
I haven't felt it in a while

galaxy (prod. Malloy ✰)

Lyrics🎱

I just wanna hold you
I just wanna know you
Better than the day, than I did before
I just wanna hold you
I just wanna show you
I just wanna show you off to the world

Just wait until I get my hands around your waist
No holding back, I love the taste
I need you now, you're what I crave
At late at night, I miss you babe
Wish you were here, but you're miles away
It's how it goes, and ig it stays that way
And ever, and ever, and ever, and after

I would leave you for never
I never wanted you to see
The broken parts inside of me
I'm growing thin, my body bleeds
Watch me decay inside my sleep
I'm too damn high I'm out of reach
I won't come down, I'm the black sheep
(Oh I know, that I'm the black sheep inside of your head, and I know I'm probably better of dead)

I just wanna hold you
I just wanna show you
Whenever you are with me
You'll always be fine
I just wanna prove to you
That everything I said was true
Our love was always so far, from seeming so blind

black sheep (prod. 4lexf x autrioly)

Lyrics 🎱

Sometimes I play my music too loud
It has a way of always drowning you out
I cannot think without you now
I lost what's mine, but you're not found
I smoke too much, buy it by the pound
I stay so high, I live in the clouds
I want you back, but I ain't coming down
I'm too damn scared to keep you around

And I still go through our old messages
I'm hurting deeply
But I'm tryna make the best of it
I hope you see me trying
I know that I'm irrelevant
You'll find me crying 
serotonin feeling deficit

We fell apart in the middle of summer
I'm not that smart
but I learned a lot from her
I'm ripping carts
To forget that I love her
And now she gettin piped
There ain't no plumber

So I packed my bags
And I hit the road
I'm wondering without you
Will I ever feel home?
I'm constantly sad
I need to unload
It's thundering and lightning
you won't pick up the phone
(you won't pick up the phone)
x2

phone (prod. reezgy)

first posted freestyle <3 Lyrics 🎱 

High anxiety
I need to bring it back down
I've gained a lot of enemies
inside and out my town
I hate when people fuck with me
I stay laid on my couch
never open my mouth
cause when I do
It's always foul
need some weed and an owl
I think I could use a drink
but I've been stuck Ina drought
words been stuck inside my chest
So I push em' back down
You seem to stress me out
But I still keep you around

you been pulling on my ego
But you look like a clown
out my face, you no amigo
but it's sweet in the south
make a movie
Ain't no sequel
Cause' I blew her back out
there ain't no love
I'm yet to see
I guess I'm shutting it out
I want get better
But I don't know where to start
she's breaks me and I let her
wondering where's her heart
I'm folding under pressure
And I don't know what's the cause
her tricks are always clever
And I'm fighting shitty odds

I lay in my hammock
And stare at the trees
the winds blowing hard
but it helps when I breathe
I hear the water rushing
while grinding my teeth
I push away others
I crave something concrete

You cannot see me
I'ma phantom
Fuckin these bitches
While in the friend zone
Double cup up
no holdin' me ransom
bitch I'm tired
Don't throw no tantrum
you can talk me up
But I know I ain't handsome
When you feelin' down
You can play this anthem

your anthem (prod. qg)

Lyrics🎱

Esophagus cancer is heading my way
I puke til' no bile
Just to feel so ashamed
I look anorexic
but it's hard to sustain
the food in my stomach
with stress everyday
The doctors can't fix me
seems neither can I
one foot is in the grave
baby allow me to die
Body dysmorphia
beyond the eye
I wish that I liked
what the mirror replies

I wake up and wonder,
Why open my eyes?
If I never move again
would I turn out the lights?
used to not having comfort
it's not worth the fight
I build my ego up
Just to watch it all die

yuhhh she got the best of me
I felt the worst of times
despite the texts I'd see
I stayed beyond denial
I miss her thighs and feet
and having netflix nights
Now a canceled subscription
is where we lie

said I wouldn't let it
but this shit is gonna hurt
lonely nights in september
bleach stains on my shirt
I remember when
you used to put me fuckin first
now I'm less than just a stranger
wish we coulda made it work

pick apart my fantasies
and seek what comes next
burn the bridge of all my memories
you had me at my best
and idk if we're meant to be
at least I tell myself
I cry and write these melodies
and lose track of my health

like a broke down car
I'm a broken guy
you can buy a fix
but you'll pay the price
I spent most nights lit
stuck within my mind
but it all went to shit
when she left my side

Say it's over
That's a lie
another day
and no reply
I'm not okay
Not doing fine
please bring it back
I'm terrified

who do I be
when I hate myself?
and why do I cry?
when I feel I'm impelled
I scream to my pillow
and eyes are swelled
no animosity
I'm not doing well
no probabilities
I'm going to hell
head in a guillotine 
watch as it fails
Cut up my arteries
endouver the smell

and I don't want a funeral
I don't want a grave
I just want her back
before I feel that I'm insane
I feel I'm attacked
By the thoughts in my brain
they eat me alive
watch the blood leave my veins

animosity (prod. ross gossage)

Lyrics 🎱
adventurous mind
we'll think alike
improvise our nights
though they're stormy
in her I confine
my truths and lies
she's the reason I
stay horny
and I don't wanna lie
got a feeling I'll
ruin something

you say that I'm the liar
girl you need to do a fact check
making all this money
shove that shit inside my mattress
talk a lot of bullshit
this bitch seem like an actress 
I'm smoking cat piss (strain of weed don't come @ me)

I was born alone
so here I'ma sit right here and rot
you fracture every bone
you're not fit to be my god
you cannot claim
I'm incapable of love
you can take me out the frame
but your problems won't resolve

remember the smell of her hair
that's toxic
only talk to me
when she low on options
december was fair, to me
to be honest
i hope that she sees
that she ruined my conscious

these 808s fuel my pain
but show me I'm alive
the scars upon my brain
tell the story of how I survived
the damage I sustain
break my body, not my pride
when I talk
It's not in vain
I don't wanna be alive

I wish I could have made her stay
Instead of saying bye
an example of some broken faith
from all the fucking lies
I'll admit that lately I'm afraid
that I've been wasting time
so I'm slowing down the clock
smoking weed and staying high

so I sit back and I smile
as I think where we end
I know the next one around
gonna take me to my end.
I don't need a hand to hold
I don't wanna feel my face
promises that she'd uphold
always brought a long debate
and in time I'll see it through
change my life, and move away
and I'll still text you here and there
no matter where I stay

adventurous mind (prod. eskimos)

Lyrics 🎱🎱

I've been struggling as of late
Tryna filter through the fakes
watch my ego jus deflate
to her house, I'm on the way
oh shit, I need to cover up my cuts
yo fam, can you shut the fuck up?
Oh man, it's getting kinda late huh?
Baby what's the plan?
I'm tryna take you home, yuh 
and don't try to play me
Cause' I'm the man
this life couldn't phase me
I drown in regret
And don't you say you're sorry
Just read through our texts
the shit that you been saying to me
causing me a sweat
And I jus sent a text
She won't ever understand
Maybe we could get along
If I could meet demands

every week I'm trying harder
End up embarrassing myself
when in love, you can go farther
with intentions on the shelf
So I'm pushing back the stress
And I open my eyes
And I cut off the excess
cause' the drugs gon' take my life
watching you slowly progress
it's fucking up my mind
I jus wanna be there for you baby
Even if it's for a night

Jeopardizing our love
Never felt right
paralyzed from the cuts
and the scars upon my thighs
if you can't live it how you wanna
what's the point in life?
if I can't take you home with me
I'm crashing here tonight.

fall asleep to your serenade
I'm begging you, don't go away
I don't wanna talk about
how I'm feeling everyday
don't you close your eyes tonight
demons watch us anyways
I can handle all the fright
baby I can keep you safe

my friends are doing well
but my life's been stuck in place
did it hurt when you had fell?
From a place so far away
in the sky, no not hell
I know that heaven's where you stay
and no I never sleep at night
but change is underway

stuck In place (prod. lexelbeats)

crusher (prod. branwen) (sewerperson cover)

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