respite

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Main Artist: lil XipZ
Produced by: Crizzy White
Mixed by: lil XipZ 
Mastered by: lil XipZ
Cover Art by: me being a lazy prick
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LYRICS:

[Chorus]
i promised myself i wouldnt get attached to you
but since we started talking, ive already made 2 songs for you
i doubt that youll listen but its the thought that counts
you give me something i was missing, i love when youre around
i wish i never had left you first time, if i didnt do that then you prolly be alright

[Verse]
im glad that youre back in my life
took me out the dark n put me in the light
you make my cold heart feel warm inside
like the grinch it grew 2 sizes over night

ill try to be there whenever you need
not gonna fuck up again, well we'll see
i just want someone to be there for me
do you think you could do that for me?

Be there whenever i need
i just want someone to be there for me

[Chorus]
i promised myself i wouldnt get attached to you
but since we started talking, ive already made 2 songs for you
i doubt that youll listen but its the thought that counts
you give me something i was missing, i love when youre around
i wish i never had left you first time, if i didnt do that then you prolly be alright

I Promised Myself I Wouldnt Get Attached To U [Prod. Crizzy White]

prod me

lyrics:

i can't say how long i've searched for you
but know that i'm entombed in you again
fresh blood stains cover up my shoes
i'm left without a clue where to begin

tear me down to pieces darling
it's only flesh
i only want the best for us but never can impress
what is it that i am fighting for?
across the shore, i think they want us dead
guess there's no making amends

i'm scared to die
the blade has been pointed
they're aiming to cut off our heads
there will be no rejoicing
not even a noise no
not even a change in the wind
i'm mortified, the mortars cry
i'm deafened by constant barrage
the only survivor
the rage of the fires
that he wished that he had forgot

a change in the wind

im sorry i havent healed yet (raspo)

prod. lil divine, no samples <3
@user-642636378
mixed by lil divine, @killbreanna, and @user-642636378

[lil divine:]
stop and just wait for a minute
please listen close cuz i need this
theres blood on my clothes from the leakage
and i dont know who i can trust with the secrets

can you promise me youll keep it
safe from the scouring demons
drain all my blood with the leeches
and leave my body here to drown in the deep end

[halfhearted:]

drown in the deepend 
losing my soul
hate in ur eyes
when you break all my bones
u don’t regret all the lies thag you told
but each time you tell me
we’ll walk down this road again

sick of driving on them potholes
i think i got stockholm
forgot how you would hold me close

so now i’m clinging to a bottle
i bet you hope i rot in peace
so, lay me six feet deep

[lil divine:]

left in the dirt holdin hopes out for somethin
dont take my words and convert them to weapons
wrote you a song out of words that mean nothin
but you wont ever see it on a motherfuckin setlist

so baby tell me do you really wanna go
i cant see you through the 6 feet of snow
left my feelings in a box on the road
need a key to get the lock off my soul

i can feel the weight crushin my bones
bloody teeth embedded in the throne
why tf u keep hittin my phone?

why cant you leave me the fuck alone
when youre here this house dont feel like home
shattered fragments pierce throughout my skull
skull

[halfhearted:]

leave me to drown with the leaches
seeping in lust will i ever defeat this
stole all my love
not enough 
it’s a weakness
i was the one but i told u i’m leaving soon

we keep running round in circles
the bridges yeah we burned those
so i can never hold on hope

and i’ll let you watch me tie my rope
broke down, left my love on the side of the road
hometown, but feel like there’s no where to go
long frown, but i think i’m getting used to the cold

[lil divine:]

stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a solution to u
for what somebody else did
stop with the lies
n tell me the truth
when ur body lies
next to mine at noon
is it because u love me
or am i a replacement to u
tell me who did u lose

leeches

leeches w/ halfhearted

this sucks i miss you (prod. neverforever)

(prod. michael harrison)

am i the only whos touching you
am i the only whos fucking you
hard to believe the truth from the lies
when all i wanna do is love you

did you fabricate the truth to save me
lying to my face coz this aint what i need 
told me to be okay
im just delusional i know bae

im trying to be okay
and ive been fighting for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long

standing there im vacant
an empty shell a hollow soul
hate myself its dangerous
coz i can end it all i know
and i think is better than me
give u everything u seeking
do you think bout me
when your down on your knees
i know your not praying
giving what you gave to me
i hate to say it 

all these thoughts in my head
who am i to blame
i keep playing these games
over and over again

and can you see me love
coz i want us
overthink is tough
oh i cant stop

for so long
for so long
for so long
for so long x2

compromised

lyrics:

i will stick it out for you
i will stay the night with you
i will steal the life from you
and i will carve your face in my cornea
so i can see you with you with closed eyes

but if my friends they found out what
you say when you get down
well i think i’d cry in their arms
i’d say i love you too hard

ohhh
oh whatever you need from me
i’ll be there for you
i’ll cast aside my feelings so i can please you
i’ll shut my mouth to make sure that i hear you
and i won’t split the blame
oh i’ll never lay claim to any of the things that i do for you
and i’ll add it to my repertoire as i try to farm love from your stale heart
i’ll let my scale form bleed once i try to leave
i’ll showcase wounds abound since your not around me
and do you still think you did nothing wrong
does your pain feel better now i’m gone
can you justify what you did to me
how simple it was for you to take away my breathing
how often you made me feel a tight chest so easily

and i can feel it when your life’s stressed out
so i’ll lay her refrained from sound
(i’ll keep it quiet)
can i ask you to hold me close
run your fingers through my hair
and i won’t ask back from my cardigan
i’m sorry i know it’s gettin hard again

ohhh
oh whatever you need from me
i’ll be there for you
i’ll cast aside my feelings so i can please you
i’ll shut my mouth to make sure that i hear you
and i won’t split the blame
oh i’ll never lay claim to any of the things that i do for you
and i’ll add it to my repertoire as i try to farm love from your stale heart
i’ll let my scale form bleed once i try to leave
i’ll showcase wounds abound since your not around me
and do you still think you did nothing wrong
does your pain feel better now i’m gone
can you justify what you did to me
how simple it was for you to take away my breathing
how often you made me feel a tight chest so easily
and if i gave you, dear another slice of my time
i don’t think i could go back to what i thought i would find

how short can a breathe be, how long a sigh of relief

why did you do it like that
cause there were so many different ways to go about it
i spent nearly 12 hours laying in my bed
haven't eaten in a day i guess I'm starving
I'm waiting

waiting for that text from you
to come through
i feel used, but its not new to me
the love i have for you's been waiting inside
and now i question why
was everything i lie just to use me

i had hope for you
and i trusted you
waiting on a call
but you're just out having fun

i had hope for you
and i trusted you
I'm in love with you
but you're just out having fun

why does this happen every time
my luck cant ever seem to get right
Halloween
all alone
i thought you were there for me through all of the fun
but no

my first halloween totally alone.. (prod. kire)

prod. pekarot

lyrics

why you like that? youre like the monster hiding under my bed
you exist all the time when i dont check
too afraid so i hide under blankets

i dont know how to cope, when im out here on my own
because this house is not a home, been a year since i moved here, last septembers gone

these i friends i know, they come and go
this lonely road, i think im better off alone

these nights grow longer what happened to summer
will that happy ever after ever come?

please dont let go, its hard i know
i promised you, that i wouldnt leave you alone
friends come and go, missed calls, my phone
dont ring no more, maybe im better off on my own

maybe im better off than, those brown eyes that id get lost in
that one night where i nailed my coffin, i failed twice when i said that i dont know
im so lost in love, i probably shouldnt tell you that id fall for you again
when are you coming around? i shouldnt waste time when im better off alone

friends come and go, missed calls, my phone,
dont ring no more, maybe im better off on my own

how short can a breathe be, how long a sigh of relief

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