since the start [michael harrison]

crystal clear [kuromee + junoes]

better not dead ft. soLuvSig (puhf x zekiro)

mixed/mastered by me
art by 4gettr
prod tied for silver 


Lyrics:

i hope you never find out from me, 
just exactly who i am cause i dont want you to leave
i think its clear to see the lack of efficacy
and your decisions clearly have an effect on me
yea i just wanna see you, im sick of only phone calls
i really miss the feelin of your skin without your clothes on
im sorry that i said that oh the medicine makes me go off
and if tied for silver made then you know its gonna blow up

i been in my head i got some shit i cant decide now
tell me to my face baby come fuck around and find out
and if you told me sooner maybe my heart wouldnt be dried out
and baby much like you i think i'd like to be tied down

all this time's let me see
that what i thought was wrong was really comin from me
and with this space in between
if its you and i then i think i'd like to dream

i hope you never find out from me, 
just exactly who i am cause i dont want you to leave
i think its clear to see the lack of efficacy
and your decisions clearly have an effect on me
yea i just wanna see you, im sick of only phone calls
i really miss the feelin of your skin without your clothes on
im sorry that i said that oh the medicine makes me go off
and if tied for silver made then you know its gonna blow up

i feel insecure about us (tied for silver)

prod @pastencounters

LYR!C
Ok im dreaming bout you, even tho you waste my time
I know what this will come to, but i'm hypnotized
Got me by the tongue, and im searching for an answer
Ur stuck inside my thoughts, your a devilish enchanter

Black eyeliner, ripped fishnets, thigh high socks and pink corset
Black nail polish, cigarettes, got my name across your chest
Black eyeliner, ripped fishnets, thigh high socks and pink corset
Black nail polish, cigarettes, got my name across your chest

Once i saw you, you had me crushing, girl i want you
She got that hello kitty backpack, and in fact, she asked my snapchat
Shawty i dont have that, heres my ig, lets not backtrack
Moving forward, making moves, i see your eyes, i see your mood.

devilish enchanter the way she looks into my eyes
She got my soul she's haunting, is this real life?
Im under full control, she got me by that spell
Im simping full time for you, baby cant you tell

Black eyeliner, ripped fishnets, thigh high socks and pink corset
Black nail polish, cigarettes, got my name across ur chest
Black eyeliner, ripped fishnets, thigh high socks and pink corset
Black nail polish, cigarettes, got my name across ur chest

i know, nothings ever perfect.
You got me by ur spell, and ill tell you that its working
I wanna see you, wanna be by your side
But if i'm being honest, i dont know how u survived
All my stupid questions, all my stupid answers
I'm self conscious, i'm a loser, and your a devilish enchanter

Black eyeliner, ripped fishnets, thigh high socks and pink corset
Black nail polish,cigarettes, she got my name across her chest
Black eyeliner, ripped fishnets, thigh high socks and pink corset
Black nail polish, cigarettes, she got my name across her chest

devilish enchanter [prod. past encounters]

Lyrics: 

i dont wanna fight, i just wanna be by your side uhh
please don't leave me alone, won't you hold me through the night uh uhhh
cause my brain always tells me, that life's not worth living
and i can't decide whether to keep on creating
and honestly i can tell i'm the only one hating
but still i can't get it out of my mind
cause i'm lost in thought yea lately i been ruminating 
on the chance that i might end my suffering

i can't save it 
oh im finally facing
the inevitable end of our relationship
and ain't this what you wanted
don't tell me that your haunted
by the ghost of your decisions 
oh this time around was harder

cause i been feeling like im in a loop again
honestly i just think i need new friends
cause all of mine still hate me 
and the rest they tried to play me
every time i text you ain't been gettin replies lately
all these burdens i'm stressed out
i just wanna be held down
baby i'm so sorry i know it hurts you when i carve my arm now 

oh they're caught in my throat
all these words i'm tryna say
baby i'm teary eyed, and i'm fuckin terrified
i just want you to hold me
i'm so tired of always bein lonely
honestly i didn't think i'd make it this far
if i don't see you now then i'll catch you in the next form
we only text so it gets lost in translation
but i hope you know that when i check up on you it means i miss you
and baby i can't deal with all this fuckin distance
but when you don't text me all day oh it makes me worry 

cause i gotta respect myself enough to speak my mind
i can't go a day without hearin from you and just be fine
that's not how love works baby i need your attention
i need to know if you care or if you're just pretending
these thoughts are running all around inside my mind
and no matter how hard i try i just can't stop thinking 
and i don't know, oh should i give up now, or hold on until the end

i cant stop thinking (tied for silver x flesh)

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LYRIC/////
I did what i did, nothings gonna change that
Change who i am go way back
Ive been me, changing gradually
Through life were evolving we have to be

Time and place, everything gon change
Think you got the best of me but nothings in my way
except myself, except my mind, except my stupid ways to waste my time
We all change, life moves on, we recover from pain, and move beyond
We all fuck up, we all do wrong, the question is how u gonna stay strong

Its unlikely, i fucked up and you know that
Overthink myself sleep, time move forward cant go back
You try your best to make amends
But i cant fix what doesnt bend 
I used to think you were my friend
Now i see it was it all pretend
I fucked up once you left the end.

everything gon change [prod. mndls1600]

Puddles of tears are laid across my web
All eight legs take very careful steps
Feel like i'm trapped in my own knots
I know its self sabotage but i can't stop

Ladybugs and butterflies they get it easy
But when i'm around people get uneasy
Even though me and ladybugs are alike
I don't understand what people dislike

world so big i wish i could make it
People try to tell me that i should fake it
But even when i try i still look the same
An eight legged creep with sharp fangs

And if i was red and had spots
Would they still leave me until i rot
I guess ill stay in my spider-utopia
I wish you didn't have Arachnophobia

I'm stuck in my home with nothing to do
wish i could go outside and play with you
But all eight legs are hard to carry
And all the other insects find me really scary

Im soft and delicate and scared of heights
I don't like getting in physical fights
I might seem frightening but i am not
I know its your views it is not my fault

world so big i wish i could make it
People try to tell me that i should fake it
But even when i try i still look the same
An eight legged creep with sharp fangs

And if i was red and had spots
Would they still leave me until i rot
I guess ill stay in my spider-utopia
I wish you didn't have Arachnophobia

i feel insecure about us (tied for silver)

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