i'm sorry sorry sorry sorry

https://open.spotify.com/track/5qWbsLol2TDVfNVFcf9025?si=dfe07ce64d784766

lover awaits 

promise i wont take another day 
i wonder oh i wonder 
are my lies so fulfilling 
they never need to see me

i promise oh i promise
my heart is living lawless
i cant tell why you sink in my words 

my heart still aches
for you it breaks

dare i talk about all the things i notice every time 
ill let you live in your bliss at my expense

lover awaits

let me prove it to you

inspos:
kmoe - blisters
jane remover - frality (literally the whole album bruh)

prod. me
ft @blissom
[lyrics]

*jauntsen*
i don't know how to fix this
cause it's never really good enough
just go open your 
mind
find out i'm
fine 
i'm truly better than i once was
just let me prove it to you 

no 
i'm trying to find ways to let it go 
help me lead a path to find my focus 
no one really knows us 
i'm trembling in cycles its been hard for me to show up

is something wrong
cause it doesn't feel right
don't know why i do it 
but i stay up all night
you look so good
and i look like i'm dying 
so what is the purpose of trying

*blissom*
i tried
to change
the part
that cares
u were sitting alone
on your lunch break on your phone

and if you showed me 
the way back 
to your heart id find 
theres one more piece you had to lie about to keep on fire

*jauntsen*
the silence 
awakens 
the way back 
forsaken
just calm down
i need hope
the only path
i'll take it!

i'm watching them all succeed 
while i'm stuck here inside my room
it's all just a game
the real feels like fake
and honestly i don't know what to do
what to do.

*blissom*
the silence is too much to handle
im lost without answers 
i need to you to tell me how 
to forget that you ever believed me
for one fucking second
from 2 years ago till now

and if you showed me 
the way back 
to your heart id find 
theres one more piece you had to lie about to keep on fire

*jauntsen* 
no 
i'm trying to find ways to let it go 
help me lead a path to find my focus 
no one really knows us 
i'm trembling in cycles its been hard for me to show up

is something wrong
cause it doesn't feel right
don't know why i do it 
but i stay up all night
you look so good
and i look like i'm dying 
so what is the purpose of trying

cause nothings ever good enough !

(somethings wrong x6)

let me prove it to you.

spotify !

nothings ever good enough +blissom

https://open.spotify.com/track/7HttolShbpfDrbJEPFSdAz?si=0f52c823cacb42b0

i’m so attached to it
the way that it makes me feel 
cut caffeine, no nicotine 
your body is quivering 
would you wake up now?

it keeps ringing, ringing 
my diaphragm’s wishing one day i’ll stop suffocating 

would you wake up 
would you wake up 
i’ve had enough of feeling so loved 
why does it ache
when i see your face 
if i upset you will this go away 
i promise my heart and everything else
one day i’ll choose what to do in this hell 
all of my options are broken 
i’m hopeful for shards not yet seen
my hands are scratching what’s beneath
i’m looking far for 
someone please please please 
make these decisions for me

C8H10N4O2

guitar by @spagdus prod & vox by me
https://open.spotify.com/track/6HrGuhMPwV1Ff9OlQI48r2?si=1fb97c51d0f443d0

no im not done yet
i got a thousand things to do
and only you know all of them
one minor setback
exstinguished every speck of hope
i had to know whats coming next

the trees are burning down
you never heard a sound from me
its time to put this plot to rest

you wouldnt know if you saw it
a dense array of every path
you know youve come to hold so dear
but everything begins right here
that sense of pride when u look back
at all the plans the dreams the friends
the loves the lives that fell apart
but you still have a beating heart

the trees are burning down
you never heard a sound from me
its time to put this plot to rest

its been two weeks since the last time i
wore out my finger tips on my
phone screen tryna get a word from you
only to fail
im restless i got no sleep but i
focus on the paiting hung on the
drywall tryna see a piece that was
not there before
the skyline embeds itself on my
eyelids sends blinking lights to my
retina contorts in ways that i
cant think to share
the ride home leaves me in fear of what
waits there its ticking down like a
time bomb just to see a thing that was
not there before

beating heart

saturdays in november

i’m so young and impressionable 
still feeling out the windings
my breath isn’t as heavy 
when your grip seems to weaken 
around my body 
is this summer just another season 

predictable curves 
will i be fine (should i just lie) 
i run from everything that i don’t like 

predictable curves 
will i be fine (should i just lie) 
i run from everything that i don’t like 

you’re so young and impressionable 
still feeling out the windings 
your heart isn’t as heavy 
when i’m not within it
do you still want me 
when i forget all my promises 

predictable curves 
will i be fine (should i just lie) 
i run from everything that i don’t like 

predictable curves 
will i be fine (should i just lie) 
i run from everything that i don’t like

a million stars manor

another under core remix

12/1

lyrics:
i talk too much
can't help myself
from running my mouth
it's one thing
after another
and it always ends poorly (for me)
took my hands
right off the wheel
but it was just for a sec
so sick and tired
always playing pretend
(playing pretend)

and i'm not who i thought i was
i am not who i thought i was
and i'm not who i thought i was
and i'm not who i thought i was

then who could i be?
any memories of me
they could rest in peace
(they could rest in pieces)
then what goos is he?
he's just a nuisance in his bedroom
singing the words he wrote on papaer
just last week

and i'm not who i thought i was
i am not who i thought i was
and i'm not who i thought i was
and i'm not who i thought i was

not who i thought

1 of 1 . produced by quedronol ~~~~ vocals+lyrics by quedro & @ntmusiclol

I'll stay awake and I'll listen to the sound of the alarm clock
then I'll start to feel bad, cause I'm lying too
maybe too much, but I just can't hold on to something that doesn't know who I am
I don't think that i even want to get up anymore
I'll tell it to stop

they're calling, they're calling
ignore them, you're too weak
I can't fall again, enough has passed
since autumn came, might be my last
and every time the leaves fell, I'd weep
cause it's wasted time
and I've wasted mine

you beat yourself up for nothing at all
you beat yourself up for nothing at all

you come to me when you want to get away from yourself
if this is punishment, I'll just hurt someone else
nobody knows, why I have to leave everything just cause I think I hurt someone
I don't think that I even want to get out anymore
letting go could be so easy
just tell it to stop

you talk to me when you want to get away from yourself
if this is punishment, then I'll just hurt someone else
(cause it's wasted time, and I've wasted mine)
and I'll tell it to stop

pre-Historic +nishith

ft. @minaa1
prod. @imfrostd

FUCKED UP, FOUND OUT

found out ft. mina (frost'd)

"We are all prisoners of the dusk, dreaming of a dawn that never comes. For in the abyss of night, even stars are but dying embers—fleeting and frail. And when the wind howls its lonely hymn, remember: darkness is the mirror where lost souls recognize themselves. Here, in the silence of eternal shadows, the heart becomes a desert… and the light, a distant rumor."

a million stars manor

moony