~lyrics~
autumn > https://soundcloud.com/autumndropsdead
[the entire song has me n autumn's vocals somewhere in the mix]
vvv
i’m scared of these visions
i’m fed up, this instant

don’t leave me, i’ve been dreaming lots
yeah you see through my eyes

oh what a surprise, its not
and it never, never will be
no matter what i do
you're never satisfied (never satisfied)
satisfied (never satisfied)
you're never satisfied (you’re never satis-)
never satisfied

i tried to make amends
but our fates were meant to end
so i defy the myth 
that i shouldn’t exist

i’ll be the worst & you’ll be the best 
and i’ll try harder than you ever will 
but that’s fine with me
its gonna take a lot more than that to 
fire me
(but i know you’ll try.)

to be honest with you
i dont think i ever understood
(you give me melatonin)

and to be honest with you
i don’t really want you anymore
(i need serotonin)

satisfied (2x)
you’re never satisfied 
satisfied

i cannot hear the words
the ones i never said
although it fucking hurts
i shouldn’t dare regret

i’ll kill myself in spite of you
fuck six guys; that’s not new to you
i don't know what i expected
i don't know what i-

you’re heartless…

that’s where i went wrong in the first place
dating someone better than me 
in the first place
you got what you wanted, didn’t you?
i fucking hate you now

i’ll never be satisfied
(never satisfied)
satisfied
(never satisfied)
you’re never satisfied (2x)
(never satisfied)
i hope you never forget that 
you’re dead to me

emptychest x autumndropsdead - satisfied (iof x michaeltucker)

prod. @ghosthandsmusic
lyrics:
I've been waiting for awhile
Trynna balance life chores while I move on
Here I stay holdin fake smiles
Cause I can't conceive
That my struggles still mount
Despite my works n all
Though it's in good grace
Finding inner peace
Cause I gotta keep me
Some level headed sane no

I got stuck up on that wave
Couldn't get back down
Screamin up in danger
Help all around oh
Then I saw the light shine right before me
And It took probably like

45 days getting up in the mornin
45 nights while the rain still pourin
45 tries but I gotta keep goin
at the end of the sky I find reasons for growin
45 days getting up in the mornin
45 nights while the rain still pourin
45 tries but I gotta keep going
at the end of the sky I find reasons for growin

Ohhh

Couple hours tick by yet I'm waitin
Feelin short like a fuse out of patience
Lack of trust building up in my basement
cause life's a bitch coming up when it caves in
Feels like I'm stuck inside these walls
Like there's no escape
Pressure from life painting
A canvas of me
Drownin in the sea
From a tidal wave woah

I got stuck up on that wave
Couldn't get back down
Screamin up in danger
Help all around oh
Then I saw the light shine right before me
And It took probably like

45 days getting up in the mornin
45 nights while the rain still pourin
45 tries but I gotta keep goin
at the end of the sky I find reasons for growin
45 days getting up in the mornin
45 nights while the rain still pourin
45 tries but I gotta keep goin
at the end of the sky I find reasons for growin

Ohhh

I've been waiting
Been awhile
Minutes by buildin up like a giant
Hesitatin with a smile move on, move on
So I've been hintin life will go my way
Those that oppose can go get back to their old groove
maybe far away some lightyears that won't stop me from goin thru
You thought I was frontin oh
No no

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45 days

Mixed/Mastered By Me https://soundcloud.com/sadboykana & https://soundcloud.com/auby4rc
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Produced By https://soundcloud.com/lindenblossom & https://soundcloud.com/nevrfall
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[Lyrics]

(kana)
Why do i keep trying?
Questioning my life now
God i feel so tired
Always being let down
And you were just a liar
Girl you got me fucked up
Walking down the wire
You're wastin my time love
Quit textin my phone up
I swear that i'm so done
I swear i'm not in love
Left me feelin so numb
Pictures on my walls i
Burnt it all to ashes
Made sure that i left them
How you left me
I'm damaged

(akiradoves)
i feel so dead when i'm holding my hand 
the tears on your chest babe i don't understand 
tell me why you lie tell me why you're cold 
and i don't wanna wait anymore
so tell me why you're gone
somewhere around my heart hurts
sometimes i feel useful 
but most the times i feel like i am nothing

(auby)
you make me forget the things that i said
i don't wanna hurt you but you make me upset
i need to focus on myself instead
don't know if you want this
it's all in my head

suffering w/ kana & auby (linden & nevrfall)

https://soundcloud.com/irby314

https://soundcloud.com/decksmusic


you said it too many times 
to everybody else it’s got no meaning left 
I don’t wanna close the distance 
I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this 

(Decks)
i’ve been having a hard time adjustin
i don’t want it to amount to nothin
you unravel the spite and corruption
i know im stuck, whats the point in reduction
i, been holding on
nothing falling past the point
i took too long
i saw the problem with the story
all along
i wouldn’t have done that if i knew
how i was ending up
why? a troubled thought
gotta leave this fuckin town
i been here too long
if i heard what u had said
i wouldn’t be movin on
all the stars are burning out,
all my wishes gone
its far too often
my conscience
makes me regret the topic
i’m too anxious
over nothin
is this why im still stuck here?

murder the man but not the memory
east coast, now i know thats where they’ll bury me
far along the shoreline
i cant sit and waste my time x2


I just wanna close my eyes until I can’t see 
Nothing but the stars in the sky 
light pollution ruins every single sight every sight
living Midwest life on the east coast 
It’s gotten old at this point I don’t hold it close 
I’m unabashedly bashing my own head in 
want something new I’ve got no answers left in 
I’m unabashedly lashing out in spite then 
what’s left to do that’s not over stretchin
I’m not accepting this

unabashedly bashing my head in ft. decks (Irby)

am i ever enough for anyone
what the fuck you doing bitch you had to set me up
how much liquor is this i don't know 
i'm tryna drink enough to ruin everyone's night in this bar 
weakness
nah don't say sorry i know that that's just an attempt to get me off the deep end 
i might stop calling if you would just tell me exactly who you fucked last weekend 
even then i might just pull up to that motherfucker's house and kick his teeth in 
triple shot of whiskey i've had it i'm up 
thank god for me i'm the best motherfucker out 
was it easy to ruin the best type of love
did you smile in the mirror the second i left
i'm back on powder i'm dancin' 
i'm back on powder i'm dancin' alone 

am i ever enough for anyone 
what the fuck you doin' bitch you had to set me up
how much liquor is this i don't know
i'm tryna drink enough to ruin everyone's night in this bar
and that's when i panicked 
i skipped my lexapro
i ain't seen your ass in a minute i knew you couldn't stand me 
i might stop texting if you would just give me a second and tell me what i did so wrong

am i ever enough for anyone? (p. johnny808)

lyrics:

these little moments i hold in my hands
i keep them safely in my heart
you never really know it 
but when everything falls apart
you get the chance to restart

the clouds are rolling away
revealing a beautiful day
endless blue sky
light up my life again
i know it’ll be okay
when the spring finally returns again
and i feel my heart could explode
feeling better than I’ve ever been
know i’m depressed but it’s seasonal
rid all the thoughts i didn’t need at all
now my feet won’t touch the ground below

these little moments i hold in my hands
i keep them safely in my heart
you never really know it 
but when everything falls apart
you get the chance to restart
these little moments they’re not hard to find
i start to see them when i open my eyes
you never really know it
but when everything breaks your heart
you get the chance to restart

when i lose my patience
where does my mind go?
when i couldn’t face it
why’d i bury it below?
after all of these years
i’ve finally left the past behind
i’ll spend the rest of my days
living just how i like

these little moments i hold in my hands
i keep them safely in my heart
you never really know it 
but when everything falls apart
you get the chance to restart
these little moments are not hard to find
i start to see them when i open my eyes
you never really know it
but when everything breaks your heart
you get the chance to restart

these little moments

lyrics:

i know who u are
can u see my scars?
is it a maybe?
ur driving me crazy
i wear sweaters and hoodies
to cover my scars
oh my gosh i’m lazy
i don’t give a fuck
oh and i’m trapped in ur backseat trying to get out
why would u trap me
i won’t leave
oh u messed up
u won’t get apology
trapped in my own thoughts
i’m anxious and it’s tiring
u rlly fucked up
now you’ll see a part of me
i keep him locked up
and now he’s unleashed
i wear sweaters and hoodies to cover my scars x2
 
u don’t care about me
i’m left in the dark
all my thoughts surrounding 
i’m left here to rot
all my friends are playing, toying with my heart
don’t care if it’s a joke, u took it too far

do i ever lie and say ur not the one
no i don’t, i always say that ur the one for me
i’m in my own head, i’m crying
yea i swear it’s blasphemy 
don’t try to pat me on my shoulder
yea ur the enemy
u cannot tell me that it’s over
yea ur a fucking beast 
u don’t care about my feelings, u don’t care about me
i’m a new man, i’m not the same from 23
u think it’s funny when u lie to my face and then u cheat like

sweaters & hoodies (p. nevrfall)

lofi cover of anxiety by sleepwater

https://on.soundcloud.com/X1JyzXRx9STGFrY3A

sleep easy jude <3

anxiety (sleepwater)

prod me:)

lyrics:

stay right there i promise that i know just how it feels
have an issue being honest
having issues with the real you
isn't what you wanted but i guess you have to deal
every part of you they covet
keep on giving til it kills you

oh my god
i guess i've really done it
turned the people that i love
to people who don't fuck w me
call me what you want
but know that i tried
i know that i
am something i don't wanna be
oh woah
set me free
no
this isn't me
oh woah
look into the mirror and it's something i don't ever wanna see

tried to open up my arms to you
tried to open up your heart but it was glued shut
all i wanted was to help
i thought you knew but
let's call it a truce
i guess we're both confused, love

oh my god
i guess i've really done it
turned the people that i love
to people who don't fuck w me
call me what you want
but know that i tried
i know that i
am something i don't wanna be
oh woah
set me free
no
this isn't me
oh woah
look into the mirror and it's something i don't ever wanna see

covet

lil baby - detox (flip)

theres too many silhouettes to tell apart
faceless figures lurk inside the voided dark
left a mother sore left a father lost
just a stillborn without a beating heart

pure bred hatred nothin but agony
tell us that we need peace look at the irony
bloods been shed as far as the eye can see
we cant breathe when they take all and leave us to

our own amends
i wont play pretend
anymore make it end
what if youre not a friend
you can take what you want
cuz im already dead
and i dont wanna front
so

im a mess without a purpose
im so fucking worthless
dont you ever fall for me i never could deserve it
you might get deserted
hope i made you nervous
please just stay away from everything that i reverted

pure bred hatred nothin but agony
tell us that we need peace look at the irony
bloods been shed as far as the eye can see
we cant breathe when they take all and leave us to

rot inside this mess of a world
take a look and find what youve never been told about
somewhere deep inside you theres a part of you thats holding out
please embrace the fact or itll haunt you til ur coming down

silhouettes

silhouettes (tothegood)

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

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