(intro)
i feel so stuck
won’t you let me go..

(chorus)
i feel stuck in place
i know that i’ve seen better days
i wanna run away 
but my feet planted in my grave 
i know that i can’t stay
holding on to memories 
it’s bad to contemplate
cause i feed lies into my brain

( post chorus)
i know u have to go
(u have to go)
but just know to me u were my home
(u were my home)

(verse)
now i’m shaking 
and i can’t fucking stop it 
my world is breaking 
apart and u were on it
when all i wanted was for u to be honest
i’ll close my eyes as i beg for u to stop it

(bridge)
my bones have decayed with the winter
but still i feel her

(chorus)
i feel stuck in place
i know that i’ve seen better days
i wanna run away 
but my feet planted in my grave 
i know that i can’t stay
holding on to memories 
it’s bad to contemplate
cause i feed lies into my brain

( post chorus)
i know u have to go
(u have to go)
but just know to me u were my home
(u were my home)

i know u have to go (hero)

feat. @skrxwd , @swiiif , and @flowersforyoumusic

lyrics:
Pullin’ up in the foreign at the party 
Sparkin’ up but you know I brought the sad me 
Smokin swishers with my boys you know we vibing 
80 proof in my cup, and now we sliding 
In the pussy yeah you know that I would dive in 
Fuck it up somehow now we fighting 

You say you got somebody else 
Ghost me just like everyone else 

I say I don’t need anyone 
But I still keep on looking for the only one 
Like I’ll ever have a person give me all their love
Baby that’s why I just keep on taking more drugs 

I’ve been watching all the colors fade 
Pretty soon my world will be painted black and grey 
I need someone that will vibe without the fucking games 
Lock me down and put me in my fuckin place 
Maybe then I won’t need drugs just to feel okay 

Lock me up and throw the key away
Tell me how you really feel, im a mistake
Take what you want just to leave me in the same place
I hope it eats you alive, relive it every day
Call me up to just bullshit
Always sending me shots with a full clip way too in my bag to notice
I just wish you were dead and you know this
Give me some space for a moment
I can see the sun, cant lose focus
I’m just gasping for air and im choking
On all the words that you told me

I’ve been watching all the colors fade 
Pretty soon my world will be painted black and grey 
I need someone that will vibe without the fucking games 
Lock me down and put me in my fuckin place 
Maybe then I won’t need drugs just to feel okay 

Colors fade to gray 
Another night
Another round of thoughts I can’t escape 
It’s sealed inside my fate 
No end in sight 
I’m not okay 
Don’t know how to bring it up 
When I see your face 
See your face everywhere I fucking go now 
But that’s the curse of living inside of a 
small town 
Substances just soon replace 
All the feelings that you gave 
Told you I can’t stop until I’m in my grave 

I’ve been watching all the colors fade 
Pretty soon my world will be painted black and grey 
I need someone that will vibe without the fucking games 
Lock me down and put me in my fuckin place 
Maybe then I won’t need drugs just to feel okay 

Feel okay
I just can’t get my mind straight
Stuck in a negative mind state
Never really ever goes my way
I Keep numbing myself but it’s never enough
Always close to the edge but you’re calling my bluff
Take a step back, you don’t like that
It’s the things that I lack that define me and it’s too bad
Ceiling spins, not gonna win
Sick to my stomach like where have you been
Thought that I caught it
I can’t take the hint
Take it all back
Be like gone with the wind
Really fuck this whole town
I’m done with it
Staring up into the sky

I’ve been watching all the colors fade 
Pretty soon my world will be painted black and grey 
I need someone that will vibe without the fucking games 
Lock me down and put me in my fuckin place 
Maybe then I won’t need drugs just to feel okay 

>self produced<

colors fade (feat. Skrwd, Swiiif and Flowers for You)

~2300~

production credit: @dearkerri

Lyrics:
[INTRO]
All right all right 
You lie you lie (x4)

[VERSE 1]
Still getting up
Not getting better yet
Still look at the sky
Feel larger than lifelike
You got a taste of living the highlife 
Those days fade
Reminisce on the highlights

[HOOK]
I’ll stay the night
Tell a whole lot of lies 
Hang me to dry
Like my clothes on the line 
Cut my insides
I’ve got nothing to hide 
Plot my demise
Self destruct by your side

[VERSE 2}
Still not a mention of me
Can’t pick up your phone when it rings 
Don’t tell me it’s not what it seems 
Like it or not you got what you wanted 
Playing a role you’re just being honest

[HOOK]
I’ll stay the night
Tell a whole lot of lies 
Hang me to dry
Like my clothes on the line 
Cut my insides
I’ve got nothing to hide 
Plot my demise
Self destruct by your side

Highlight

@safeatlast

ive never met someone quite like u 
im still tryna find out why u popped up out of nowhere
but god i cant complain cus ur my somewhere
to go when the storm hits
yeah, ive been dealing with some shit for almost four years
i think im a little bit more grown up now tho
and i finally know what i truly need
i need a pretty fucking girl to hold me in her arms, right now,
someone specifically.
(grace)
i dont know much
but i know you mean every word you say
yeah, this shit happened fast, you're damn right
(damn right)
but what am i suppose to say when i feel alive?
(feel alive)
do you feel the vibe?
i dont wanna rush this, but i wanna thrive
my lifes a cycle and youre there to reset me
youre the first thing thats never really left me
you were there, i was there, and it felt right
if you were dying, i would stay up with you all night
cause i love you

grace

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grace (jolst x homesick)

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sc only rn will put on other stuff if i feel like it idk

lyrics:

be it heaven or hell
i won't do well
i stood and fell
oh baby can't you tell
i feel the life fade away, i'm just a shell
so please excuse the smell
i spent the night trapped away inside a cell
it's probably for the best, wouldn't wanna hurt myself

i thought that i had learned as well
i was wrong
whoulda thought?
guess i shoulda seen this from the start
once again i've burned myself
cut it off
'fore it spreads
cuz i'm doomed if it hits my heart

and now i'm on my own
god the way the look at me just chills my bones
could i stay with you? cuz i'm not going home
all that trouble and i got nothing to show

cancel all my plans for the evening, crazy
how i make excuses for myself before i blame me
how i turn a blessing to a stressor 
i surprise myself
7 in the PM and i just woke up so
please ignore my attitude, i'm feeling kinda fucked up
i been medicating in my own way, please don't tell

be it heaven or hell
i won't do well
i stood and fell
oh baby can't you tell
i feel the life fade away, i'm just a shell
so please excuse the smell
i spent the night trapped away inside a cell
it's probably for the best, wouldn't wanna hurt myself

from the start (unlucky)

@emptychest
@noxious-nights
@northshoremusic
@failure404

(Ally)
talk about action, talk about problem
what do you know if you cannot solve em?
talk to my blank, im going insane, i need some recollection
weathers gloomy like my life, wont talk if its not my mind
walking backwards just to get to you, talking backwards just to get my head straight
my eyes been glowing and im popping over counter shit
i dont know what to say i think i messed the timing up
food kills how i feel in advance, i pop 2 pills in advance
late at night when i do my dance, no one can see me so i do my best
reinventing my shit popping off on a bitch mmm
i been watering my shit just fine so dont even ask me
in the backseat im fucked up and im nasty
empty
girl if my uber driver said im doin fine i told em say that

(nox)
i aint got shit to prove
i know who the fuck i am
regret some things that i do
but i did it for this cash

spending money like a fool
but i always get it back
grind like i aint got no roof
im still sad but i hide that

i hate how my eyes get wet but i don't cry
she looks at me but she can't be by my side
i've always been feeling like i'm meant to be alone
so i just write down the pain on my phone
i stare at the ground cuz im on my own
i don't hear u i got my earphones
i hate how life gets monochrome

i prefer staying silent
razor blade on my tongue
you tell shit i don't buy in
my trust is black like my lungs

my thougts get violent
i could kill myself when i'm young
i see clouds in the horizon
i only seem to smile when i'm drunk

(Kev)
I think a lot about what’s in my brain
Feelings cloud my judgement almost every single day

People say I’m completing driving myself insane

Pull me out the water n put a bullet in my brain
Think about how we could’ve gone our separate ways

Fix yourself, I got nothing in my brain
All the answers to my problems are just locked up in my brain

I know
I know

(epitomeoffailure)
i know that you want me back
but know that i don’t need that
still you’ll come crawling back
knowing me i’ll cave under the pressure and crack

letting go is one of the hardest things that i’ve come to learn to do
when fate and morality come to a crossroads and you don’t know what to choose

Backseat w/ emptychest, noxiousnights, The North Shore (ft. epitomeoffailure) [+ Caprichioni]

someday ill find solace


i couldn't just be everything that you wanted or everything that i could be
but everyone's starting to hold me back, though maybe i should flip the scene
i take everything and i break it apart, swear im ripping and stretching the seams
and everyone knows that im okay, but nobodies checking on me.

i used to say that i have changed
my pain is fake, i waste away
ill take the day, my friends are late
i hated fate, now i will wait

for u
or anyone to show up now
i knew
that i could be alone now

shes got cold green eyes, and ive got nowhere to run
this pain is flowing through my veins, i feel so fucking dumb
take your time, its never too late to come
i find my peace in apathy, with the barrel of a gun..

i couldn't just be everything that you wanted or everything that i could be
but everyone's starting to hold me back, though maybe i should flip the scene
i take everything and i break it apart, swear im ripping and stretching the seams
and everyone knows that im okay, but nobodies checking on me.

i used to say that i have changed
my pain is fake, i waste away
ill take the day, my friends are late
i hated fate, now i will wait

i used to say that i have changed
my pain is fake, i waste away
ill take the day, my friends are late
i hated fate, now i will wait

for u
or anyone to show up now
i knew
that i could be alone now

is anyone there? (moneo)

v v v 

tell me how life changed and u dk why
smoking every night to get the words out of ur head
woah
please talk 2 me 
woah
but if u got like nothing to say then say nothing
ill know what u mean, ive been frontin too
woah
dont say a word
woah
ill sit in ur garage as the light just hums 
steadily more steady than my beating heart could
but please be proud of me because ive gained a few pounds since i got here
and i think i learned everything i felt was irrational 
i had a case of a thick ass skull
and everything i learned in school was useless
got alot of shit to say so hold my drink rq
stacking building blocks like a god damn child
does a come first or b come last
i still stay up but idk why
gtf to bed u gotta be alive tomorrow
swear to god ill be alright just have a good day at work <3
ill find some shit to smoke
maybe roll the rest
even tho it makes me feel hella god damn depressed
im really sorry i think i made another mess
im tired as fuck i wanna go to sleep right now 
jst give me some space or i will shut the fuck right down
(im tired as fuck i wanna go to sleep right now 
jst give me some space or i will shut the fuck right down)
swear to god ill be alright just have a good day at work <3
ill find some shit to smoke
maybe roll the rest
even tho it makes me feel hella god damn depressed
im really sorry i think i made another mess

non profit

mess

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mess (chronyc)

tear me apart w/ gothurted (jolst & pekarot)

~2300~

Lyrics:
Eye's on my back
I wanted that
Moments lapse
And I collapse
So you can run and tell your friends
That i'm mental
All the words they use to keep it simple
Paranoid they're watching through the window
Hard to quantify the times I've missed you
Sift through the gore
Red on the floor
Beg me for more
Learned to sleep through the violence now
You let me down

Lot of old friends they don't wanna shake up
When I walk in all I get is fake love
Cut the grass saw the snakes on the way up
Try to code switch on me when the light's off
Lot of new friends hit me when they want sumn
Fake an ego trip i'm really on one
Was it dumb luck
Fell in with the wrong ones
Know why i'm still hung up on what it once was

And if you really bout it you can show me
One foot out of the door in case you're right
No use trying to force it i'll be fine
It seems you've finished your portion of my life

false-hearted

produced: tiedforsilver
feat: greenwood 
artwork: my amazing gf <3

lyrics:

( i would give anything to walk by your side again, alone my hands are trembling and i would make the sun drown)

i would give anything
to walk by your side again
the loneliness is dragging me 
further in the dark and now i cannot pretend 
that i can take the suffering
when your not around i’d rather be dust in the wind
alone my hands are trembling
i would make the sun drown to bring you back my friend

(greenwood)

keep you safe, i don't know if i can manage
i whip it fast, sip it slow, its fucking static
guess you were right, never more than just an addict
i compensate, i overdo it fucking manic

all of that in my life though
i just really wanna go home
call you drunk from your friends phone
straight passing out at the dial tone
i don't what this life's worth
guess i don't see what you see (don't know what you mean)
nothing ever came easy when i'm face down in the deep

compensate i never get it right
run it different in my head like just the other night
see the mist and all the people on the other side
i know you're there and i don't even have to wonder

(epitome)

i do not have the time, nor a good alibi 
to explain why, how nothings been going right
i could roll the dice, but that would waste the time
of you and i, no need to try to chance it now

this loneliness as left a frown
on my face, it’s dragging me down
to the ground, now underneath where i can’t even hear a sound

i would give anything
to walk by your side again
the loneliness is dragging me 
further in the dark and now i cannot pretend 
that i can take the suffering
when your not around i’d rather be dust in the wind
alone my hands are trembling
i would make the sun drown to bring you back my friend

i would make the sun drown w/ greenwood (tiedforsilver)

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@bitekivibes

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