prod by me and jacob vallen

wont eat for a while
my stomaches been aching
and im not myself 
not as of lately
few months ill heal right? im hardly inpatient
its not feeling real, counting cracks in the pavement
takes all i have to pull my anchor out
i dont know who i am, know everything about u
takes all i have, to make the words come out
im making nothing last, im pretty anxious now
 
dont tell me "people change" like you look down on me
you always said "its nothing" its alot to me
started turning heads, wont look back at me 
was just more of the same a little differently
giving nothing back 
its not important now
things u take for granted 
let my anger out 
i just cant grasp it
nah, its not important now

takes all i have to pull my anchor out
i dont know who i am, know everything about u
takes all i have, to make the words come out
im making nothing last, im pretty anxious now

for a while

everything reproduced by me
original song credits towards my dear friend jude (@sleepywater)


i miss you so much bro; love you, forever.

sleepwater - tomorrow (cover)

Angels are gone….
Lyrics:

(Deadlyswcct)
Wings torn down by the weight of grace

I kissed the fire with a fractured face

Heaven shut me out, now I roam the earth

Trading gold for blood, trading peace for curse

(Vails)

When did the angels leave from my shoulder?
I’m Headed down a paths
And I needed to ask
For some guidance oh
Oh
I fear I’ll make a mistake
Cus only the devil remains
It’s all over 

(kiddamo)

just kill me slow
thats all you know
cant shake this feeling inside my bones
corrupt your soul and lose control
a beautiful woman turned my heart into stone
it turned into stone
my heart turned into stone

(Swamp)

I hardly feel alive and this is the best that I can do 
And If you don’t like it that’s on you 
so sick and tired of these horrible truths
I’ll take this stand as the last of my moves 
Can’t take back all the damage we’ve done 
This place is a ruin, everything’s full of dust kinda crazy to do it to the ones you love 
But you’re just like me, what a wreck we’re fucked 

So make your peace 
And pay your dues 
It’s not about me 
And even less about you 
That’s just how it goes 
Every day gets colder 
It’s hard to stay sober 

Too fucked to notice like 
How couldn’t I notice
wait


(Vails)

When did the angels leave from my shoulder?
I’m Headed down a paths
And I needed to ask
For some guidance oh
Oh
I fear I’ll make a mistake
Cus only the devil remains
It’s all over 

He’s putting me through these tests
Fucking resisting my best 
I need closure
Where did the angels go, from my shoulder

Angels are gone (feat. Deadlyswcct, Kiddamo & Swamp)

her patterns are much prettier than mine
evolves down her hair to her spine
but ive been waiting all this time
how could i compare it to any of mine

is it safe love
you dont lie?
cause i cant help but not feel your type
and youre waiting, but i dont mind
if im honestly not what you like

so call me
call me back home
im poorly 
poorly and cold
so tell me 
tell me im enough
hate me
hate me all you want

i hate to remember 
its haunting me now
im used like a puppet youre dragging me round
im viewed like a peasant, im serving you well
but what is my purpose i really cant tell

i changed, is that enough for you ?
and ill wait, contort my body to be
whatever you want
whatever you want
whatever you want
whatever you want

i cant make this worth your time
run right past me i wont mind 
far behind everyone in life
cut my skin, reveal my spite
tore my biceps, fuel my eyes
still cant see past all ive tried
now its nearly the end, but ive hardly begin
my finish line is closer
youve got further to run

patterns

Prod @Sinxi

Lyrics

Broke my heart
Now Im rotting away
Gone in my ways
Lost in my shame
Holding my face
told me don't hold on to things that wont change

Im waiting for you
Is it true
That Im gone so long
Im waiting for who
You aint moving
All this time Im wrong
You don't feel anything for me

So Girl
I been falling
Dragging down a corpse
Causing this pain and destruction
its so Silent

I don't want to think of this
Everything you said is missed
Took a problem made it big
You Loved all of my faults
But did me so wrong
So am I this wrong
To love you so much
Cuz Im fucked
I know feelings aren't wrong
but im stuck
In a place I cant change
I might claw out my heart anyday

So Girl
I been falling
Dragging down a corpse
Causing this pain and destruction
its so Silent

SILENT

prod me:)
hope u enjoy !

stream here: https://share.amuse.io/UOwtADVEOSum

cover art by https://soundcloud.com/melmige

lyrics:

i guess u caught me off guard
my head in the sand
a scar on my arm
a knife in my back
a noose on my neck i'm barely holding on to
so exhausted
so exhausted
trust me love, don't think you'd understand
the depth of my lack of trust in other plans
the best that i am i'm barely holding on to
so dishonest
so dishonest

just a moment of respite
is that too much to ask?
i fear they made me broken
am i only a replicant of man?
terrified of my flawed emotions
what a shame
i'll place blame
on my brain
see your face
and lose my focus
i evade, to dodge fate is hopeless
go unnoticed that lately i've been

tongue tied
wish i could speak my mind when i'm not high
wish that you could see me in the right mind
say you're terrified, baby so am i
guess that i just need a way to unwind
when it's late at night do i come to mind?
wish that you could know that you've been on mine
wouldn't lie this time
tell me would you mind if i resided by your side?

i try to breathe but i can't
i think i'm choking up
i need you more than you understand
like very much
i won't deceive you again
i know my words aren't enough
to reconcile with the part of me you'll never trust
take the burdens i carry and i'll desert em
but i know i'll continue to feel like i deserve em
i try to make it right
i fear i've made it worse
i'd die to sing a verse
but lately i've been

tongue tied
wish i could speak my mind when i'm not high
wish that you could see me in the right mind
say you're terrified, baby so am i
guess that i just need a way to unwind
when it's late at night do i come to mind?
wish that you could know that you've been on mine
wouldn't lie this time
tell me would you mind if i resided by your side?

keep it up, it's hard to keep the right course
keep me locked away behind a closed door
i reject the thought that i could ever be enough
what is there to be afraid of?

scared of how i'll b received if i put my heart out on these louis v sleeves
scared that you'll grab all ur things and just leave in the night when i've fallen asleep
i cannot tell u my secrets
i don't believe u can keep them
i'll bury myself in the coffin it's self preservation to get some relief

tongue tied

lyrics<3

girl you tore up that apartment
when we started growing cold

someones daughter, needs a father
but he left her all alone

left the bar when i was carded
wasent 21 years old

took my heart, now its discarded
whyd you use it as your own?

last ditch, i rest my eyes in a parked car
so sick i left my wine on ur bar cart
time ticks and love will leave u with a dark scar
words slip and i think you just took it too far

where do we go?
im stuck on the outside
been losing control
been losing my damn mind
but you’ll never kmow
our loves on a faultline
turn me to stone
when im gazing at ur green eyes

baby i think thats toxic
maybe you think im all wrong
one word and im changing the topic
suprised myself that im moving on

yet u coiodnt care less
7 days same clothes got a loose neck
i was down on my own like a reject
pardon my problems i feel like a nuisance

last month i saw your mom in that walmart
on lunch i shed some tears on my carhartt
as kids we measured heights and left a door mark
we grew quick it’s such a shane we didn’t go far

fault line [jacob vallen]

Shout out dash for making 10/10 beats 

Lyrics - 

No face
no case
 I be slidin through the night
All black blade tucked  ain’t lookin for a fight
30 on my clip turn his whip to a shrine
I don’t talk much I just creep when it’s time

Drip like the gutter ice look muddy
Hit your block once now the whole scene bloody
Don’t know names I just move how I move
Lost in the smoke ain’t nothin to prove

Ghost in the cut I don’t do no loud
Keep my head down but I still draw crowds
Lames talk slick but they all want clout
Slide through slow make the whole hood doubt

Tags on my toes not clothes that’s death
Ridin with a piece I don’t need no vest
Chrome on the hip make em freeze no flex
Came from the mud I ain’t pressed bout checks

No face
no case
 I be slidin through the night
All black blade tucked  ain’t lookin for a fight
30 on my clip turn his whip to a shrine
I don’t talk much I just creep when it’s time

Drip like the gutter ice look muddy
Hit your block once now the whole scene bloody
Don’t know names I just move how I move
Lost in the smoke ain’t nothin to prove

rise n shrine p. dash

for the cloud
enjoy; thank you for listening.
thank you for being here.
take care🖤

prodby @wraithontheporch & @solofttt 
<3

it's stormin',
copper threads up on my chest;
electrified, got not time, i need no breath;
i'm still a wreck and savor every sip i can,
berry juice and cardi, but i really need a friend
okay, weathered down and soaking wet
hear that? death ain't want me over yet
fear glands washing through a sober land
makeshift oasis in cold hands

out of luck, sippin' nothing but the water in my cup
only after what i touch;
sorry, should've clarified, i'm getting fucked up
but that's my lunch, skip the hunch, pressing trust
parasites on the screen, double tapped just to feed
i ain't human, i'm a fiend, from the flower to a seed
pardon me, the only love i know recedes, then repeats

but someday i'll be okay,
somehow, in some way
i think i lost mine, yea

got sick shit like patients, cuss him out lacking patience 
boy's aimless, ain't the greatest,
but i'm wine, bitch, when i'm aging
stay whining and frustrated, son, i'm sowing this fermentation
even six feet, feeling rays hit
if ion like it, i'm erasing

lighting up like i'm goku, a straight super saiyan when the clouds move
like it's circuitry, y'all made soft, get my rocks off and electrocute
penning this like riolu, got a force palm, get the flow smooth
got my chest spinning from these palpitations, but i'll grind you up like it's jamba juice

baring heavy haze through a midday
feelings strong, but the words stay
said "he's too calm to be worsening"
guess i'm better off being two-faced
two liter for the throat pains
burning out like i'm propane and she's melting down when the weather change,
but i'm just tryna hear the birds sing

feel like i'm losing, is it that i'm useless?
give it all to the music, only time that he's fusing
indefinite bruising, steady rebuking
fuck it, i'm cruisin', contentment is ruin

got sick shit like patients, cuss him out lacking patience 
boy's aimless, ain't the greatest,
but i'm wine bitch, when i'm aging
stay whining and frustrated, son, i'm sowing this fermentation
even six feet, feeling rays hit
if ion like it, i'm erasing

vermin/virtues (wraithontheporch x soloft)

dont give up - corbin (cover)

GIRL7 (feat. The Queens of Sector-7)

i'm stuck in the past but you don't have to be

@ninenineteencollective

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tongue tied

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