a chronological playlist of songs released (or re-released) under the ethel cain moniker. order is based on the date each song was released/shared (i.e. not when they were recorded) so some demos appear after their corresponding finished track. i had to guess at some – i did my best!

cover photo is a shot from the june 22, 2024 show at the greek via @/artziety on instagram

(edit aug. 2024 – added tommy/miss anhedonia tracks. most are mislabelled)

(sitting at 178 tracks as of 7/10/25)

chronological ms. cain

I told you from the start
I disappear when it gets cold 
But you found a way to keep me here
With a body to hold

And i think of you
When i'm drunk in the road in front of your old house
I miss what you'd do to me 
When i was in need of you and blacked out

I miss you, darling
I miss you so
I'm sorry i went crazy
I just thought i'd let you know

Taking pictures while you sleep
Leftovers on the table, strangers on the tv
I'm bleeding from my ears
Sneaking out while you're asleep, 𝙘𝙖𝙪𝙨𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪'𝙧𝙚 𝙢𝙮 𝙗𝙞𝙜𝙜𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝙛𝙚𝙖𝙧

And i think of you
When i'm drunk in the road in front of your old house
I miss what you'd do to me 
When i was in need of you and blacked out

I miss you, darling
I miss you so
I miss you, darling

misuse

Misuse, Oh - ethel cain.mp3

Knuckle Velvet

Sunday Morning - ethel cain

Casings - ethel cain

Lilies (feat. Mercy Necromancy) - ethel cain

Head in the Wall - ethel cain

Golden Age - ethel cain

Selby Wall - ethel cain

Ethel Cain - Sunday Morning (Demo)

Ethel Cain - Child of Cain (Bonus track)

happy’s always been the dream, but we need to start wakin up

that white horse is long gone
say your prayers, we’re moving on
but we’re moving on
we just keep moving on

ethel cain - independence day (prod. little triste)

And I don’t wanna talk about love anymore
'Cause it’s getting too much for me
All I do is waste and decline, waiting for that age of my life
When I'm old and love is all that I’ll need

Swaying in the lamplight in my mother’s white gown
Holding out like a dog they’ve yet to put down
I whore out my tears and just keep wasting the best of my years
Like a beauty queen with eyes bleared

Got what I wanted but it’s never enough for me
Darling, don’t you see ?
I’m so beautiful and it’s wasted on me
Because the taste reminds me
I hate what love’s turned out to be

I don’t wanna be in my house anymore
'Cause it just makes me sad
Letting in the wild with every man who brings a world of hurt
With him each time he falls in my bed

Do you just want my blood?
Am I just that damn hard to love?
'Cause it feels like all I have is still just not enough
I guess that I'll just go outside
And watch the fire and fields of gold fly farther away from me

Got what I wanted but it’s never enough for me
Darling, don’t you see
I’m so beautiful and it’s wasted on me?
Because the taste reminds me
I hate what love turned out to be

But one of these days, it’ll come right back
I’ll love myself and I’ll tell myself that
I don’t have to wait to be happy when I’m old
And one of these days, I'll find a way
To fight the waves, embrace the pain
And paint the ages a hundred shades of gold


And I have found a way, I forgot the way
I’m on my way, I’m on my way
Don’t wait too long, I don’t want you to get tired of me
But I’ll be coming along
I’m coming along, I’ll be coming along
I’ll be coming along, I’ll be coming along
I'll be coming along, I'll be coming along
I'll be coming along
I'll be coming, coming for you
Don’t wait too long, I don’t want you to get tired of me
But I'll be coming along, coming along
I'll be coming along, I'll be coming along
I'll be coming along

Ethel Cain ~ Golden Age (Piano Version)

Growing Pains - Ethel Cain

ethel cain - dog days

ethel cain - antlers

[Verse 1: Aelyx]
Heavy eyes, face stressin’ [?] in the speakerphone
I fell asleep, and I woke up to a dial tone
I miss the words that you said when we didn't speak
You told me when you left you'd always be with me

[Verse 2: Aelyx, Both]
I cut the sadness out in the evergreen
I thought I cut you now, and you can't ever leave
But you let me walk away, you didn't say a fuckin' word
Had to grab my own spine and pretend it didn't hurt

[Chorus: Ethel Cain]
It was a wake up call
The dead of night and I'm screaming in the hall
Can we just go back to before I knew?
It'd be my first new year
Without you
It was a wake up call
That night I put both of my fists through the wall
In hopes that I could pull you back through
It's gonna be a damn long year
Without you

[Vocalisation]

[Chorus: Ethel Cain]
It was a wake up call, and I miss you but
I never miss the butterflies that you left dead in my gut
I poured that cracked glass full 'till it overflowed
It's just a sign of the times, now that I'm letting you go
It's just a wake up call to put you to rest
Crying knowing this is my last time watching you get dressed
Holding that empty glass and the clock, he says
I'm going home screaming "Fuck it, I wish you the best!"

[Outro: Ethel Cain]
It’s just a wake up call
(It’s just a wake up call)
(It’s just a wake up call)
It’s just a wake up call
It’s just a wake up call
[Vocalisation]



Wake up Call (demo) Aelyx & Ethel Cain

Ethel Cain - Skinheads (Demo)

lyrics:

You spent your whole life trying to be tough
Cause your parents married pain to love
But you go all white at the sight of blood
And Jesus knows that you've seen enough
Something happened back when you were young
It kills you but you won't tell me what it was
Sleeping on the floor in your grandma's room
Too tired to cry, too weak to even move
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
25 and you're still crying in your sleep
Scared the world is out to get you
And you've tried every bottle but you're in too deep
Cause you don't know any better, how could you?
And the fear is there when we're in your bed
And I start to cry and you think it's something you did
But baby I'm alright
I'm alright
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself
Last night I dreamed that you had gone away
Woke up in tears and stayed in bed all day
And I'm terrified that I'll lose everyone I have
That I'll watch them leave and wait but they won't come back
You're so scared you'll make the mistakes you
Had to watch your daddy make that
Took your mama and everything away
But it's not your fault and I don't need help
Cause these bruises on my body, I gave to myself
You're allowed to take care of yourself

bruises ♡ ethel cain

one winged angel (feat. ethel cain)

Ethel Cain - The God

is it not fun?

(pfp is a shot by laura makabresku)

chronological ms. cain

ugly/bitter/true