produced by tiedforsilver x Jupiter
mix/master by AVXiD 

Lyrics

why do I talk
why do u talk
what am I feeling now
in the feeling out
I'm stuck in the healing now
why do u talk
why do i talk
what am I feeling now
in the feeling out
I'm stuck in the healing now

everything I've wanted 
but I've never been
everything I thought of
but I'm stuck within
plans u had made but now ur stuck w him
please now stay safe for ur sake and for his

I'm in a vacant lot inside my head
ur in my skin and can't catch my breath
everything I had want prior to death
lit like a match and see curling of flesh

I'm losing light that u see in my eyes
I'm sick of being 
I'm sick of the try
I cannot bleed much yet
I cannot die
don't want to be my head
don't wanna cry

why do I talk
why do u talk
what am I feeling now
in the feeling out
I'm stuck in the healing now
why do u talk
why do i talk
what am I feeling now
in the feeling out
I'm stuck in the healing now

I'd rather die than see u in my life
I'd rather fight for my will to live for the night
I'm stuck im frozen I'm freezing in ice
u had to lie to say ud never bite
u'd rather try
my skin ghost white
quarter to 9 and I think I'm alive
u'd rather bite
u'd rather hide
everything done
behind ur lies

Plstake This With A Grainof Salt (tiedforsilver X Jupiter)

Spent 19yrs Underneath The Surface Of The Ocean N Now Im Growing Coral (tiedforsilver)

lyrics

bodies on bodies
floating down the river
I know I drank too much
I can feel it in my liver
shawty hit me up
she wanna take a picture
she had bit my face 
bit my lip
now my lip hurt
I had let it slip
I just dug my own ditch for her
slide it in my ribs
like she did
in the dark , lurker
watching as I bleed
in the snow 
can't b the first murder
but I had held my will
too strong 
to go out for her

I don't care if it's poison
I pour it up 
another 5th
hold the cup out
and I toast to something that don't even fit
by myself in my room
and I put it to my lips
"can u see me as I was"
yes I can I swr it fits

I crash into the wall
I make sure that it falls
she knows I stay on call
for her 
creeping thru the halls
the find my rotted corpse
I'm leaning against the door
bout 3 cans of Coors
on the nightstand and the floor

bodies on bodies
floating down the river
I know I drank too much
I can feel it in my liver
shawty hit me up
she wanna take a picture
she had bit my face 
bit my lip
now my lip hurt
I had let it slip
I just dug my own ditch for her
slide it in my ribs
like she did
in the dark , lurker
watching as I bleed
in the snow 
can't b the first murder
but I had held my will
too strong 
to go out for her




tThe Series Finale You_ve nNevr Watchd (tiedforsilver x sorrowbringer)

lyrics 

i been fucking w a poltergeist
u hadnt talked to me like 7 nights
i can feel it straining in my eyes
itching itchin but i feel alright 
yea i feel alright 

uh uh
lemme go
lemme hold on
hit the train
down to eltingville
i hold off
from telling u
whats on my mind
im southbound
im home now

in time 
ull find
what u 
hold dear
but i
ill find
my life
from here

im in the mood to erase ur life
but sometimes its better just taking mine
the spirits in my room can hear me cry
they reach out and they brush off my teary eyes
im sorry for letting u down 
i heard who ur talking about 
under this weight i could drown
but its better me hearing u out

i been fucking w a poltergeist
u hadnt talked to me like 7 nights
i feel like im a parasite
itching itchin but i feel alright 
yea i feel alright

self erasure (branwen)

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why lie
i jus wanted u first
i tried 
but i cant outwill the universe
white eyes
wide eyes
when ur kicking dirt
in my face
in ur place 
and it hurts

let go
let go
i know
i know
i hope
you chose
the right
path forward
i
i cant believe 
i
i cant
i cant
i cant see
why i
i cant
i 
cant help but bleed
i cant i cant
i cant
i cant
i cant see

why lie
i jus wanted u first
i tried 
but i cant outwill the universe
white eyes
wide eyes
when ur kicking dirt
in my face
in ur place 
and it hurts

kicking dirt in my eyes like im not a human as well (killedmyself)

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i just took a left then a right
he been talking crazy so i hit him w a pipe
n u cant look in my eyes
jus know ur girl is getting 
blowing red lights
blowin smoke to the sky
ignoring stop signs
i close up all the blinds

its a toss up
u know ion talk much 
get ur rocks up
cuz u gon need ur blocks up

got my blade tuck
so u got get ur face cut
from the waist up
u gon bleed for days son 

on the wrong side
u know ion want mine
do u wanna die
catch up on the deadline

left him on the headlines

i jus left him dead in the park
justice is for me to decide when i want
i jus pulled off in his car
u can say it’s me, but the evidence is scarred 

40 bucks if u want 8 bars
u wont see the morning ur alone in the dark
6 months on my own didnt start
anything new for me so i had left the mark

paying my rent w a suicide note n my decaying corpse (flesh x taurs)

lyrics

if i culd
id repay it with suicide
but i cud never face u on the other side
i hold the guilt tight of leaving u behind
u can see my spirit in the grey skies
u can see the life leave my white eyes
let it turn to day , let the night die
retract what i had said, it had made her cry
i feel like im living in a new life

i cant bear to think of leaving u alone
everytime we talk i hear u change the tone
every day im walking down a new road
open up my wrist let the blood flow
i got way too up to hit a new low
u can check my heart but i got no pulse
u can check my temperature im too cold
trees retract and i can see the stumps mold

now im going out
but i cant leave the house
u leave me w doubt
pls jus come around

its getting too loud 
im jus dipping out 
dont know if it counts
is it still allowed

i was robbed of my health
ill see u in hell
this hand im dealt
had left this shelved

live n breathe + die n rebirth (flesh)

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his head is in his hands
we smoked him like a pack
nodding off, he an addict
take his money, buy a patek
last thing he had heard
was my guy up w the ratchet
u culd never match it
swr u talking
u been rattin
huh
riding round the city
im not driving
my guys r with me
take off in the forte
left his body in the enclave
huh
way to od
shorty ur too empty
turn the other cheek
but u leaving 10 deep

sheesh sheesh
u wnt
be me
u dont
see things
u hold
dearly
depart

they up in arms abt my chosen path
how u talk like tht n get suprised when someone claps u back
how u still angry when u had smoked up half the pack
i had counted up my catalog, u counting mac

i wont show no mercy if u pull up on me funny
u think he too high because we made his whole nose bloody
get out of my mentions not my doggy not my buddy
u had brought upon ur self
today u werent lucky

in due time he will wEEP (tiedforsilver)

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murder she wrote
i kept my body afloat
ud think id rot in the boat
but i got guys on the way
i got blood on my face
and my lungs tar caked

I cant abandon my post
cant abandon my faith 
i cant escape what is fate
i hold what u know
too close to my chest
i will let ur soul rest
killing others families
but ur claiming ours fine
sit back and see the strike coming wideyed
th fucking 'fix' that u have is sponsoring suicide
u hypocrite i hope u soon die

when the blood dries
will u see why
and wuld u see how
u make the wrld die
committing war crimes
but still u act fine
have u no remorse for those who stepped on landmines

I cant abandon my post
cant abandon my faith 
i cant escape what is fate
i hold what u know
too close to my chest
i will let ur soul rest
killing others families
but ur claiming ours fine
sit back and see the strike coming wideyed
th fucking fix that u have is sponsoring suicide
u hypocrite i hope u soon die

murder she wrote (tiedforsilver x nxietymeds)

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streetlights illuminate
in this fog i
turn and turn
i am a cog  and
who r u to return me my heart
who can i bleed out for my want 
i let his legs break
i let his heart churn
i let his blood spill
i let his ribs hurt
this orange light up in the middle of the street
wont dissuade me from getting the revenge i seek

all these chemicals i take
i had seen the devils face
and his hair looks like yours a little
and so does his hate
i swear u do not have a brain
but if u do u better use it
and i can see my fate
end with me the one ur losing

see my lungs
on the floor
i feel sick
right to my core
i cant feel
i cant taste
except the blood
that drips on me

screaming for help wont save u , i know frm experience (capsctrl)

lyrics

up at 3 in the morning and i type down for a song
but i know that what im jotting out wont turn out how i want
sometimes when im waking up i feel smth is off
cuz i think itd better for me to be gone
sometimes when im scared i bow my head n talk to god
sometimes it feels like rn im barely holding on
i wonder what would happen if theyd wake up from the shots
if im on my own wll my body stay n rot

i wake up
i taste
i felt loved once
but thats not enough

im making it worse for myself 
like ok i fucking know
i cant cry no tears no more
im left w/o a soul
took my heart from out my chest
not the only thing u stole
sabotaging what i have
i thought id have outgrown

its like im writing the same song everynight
i cant cry for help it failed the last time
if u want a heart then u can have mine
passed out in ur arms 
but i just cant die

up at 3 in the morning and i type down for a song
but i know that what im jotting out wont turn out how i want
sometimes when im waking up i feel smth is off
cuz i think itd better for me to be gone
sometimes when im scared i bow my head n talk to god
sometimes it feels like rn im barely holding on
i wonder what would happen if theyd wake up from the shots
if im on my own wll my body stay n rot

disappear . (capsctrl)

lyrics

lifeguard way im keeping it afloat
i had a reason now theres drops in my coke
big mistake , ud think u had dropped the soap
leave my body hung up like a coat
hydroplaning
snow tires on the road
cup so full u had think i poured a moat
cup so full u had think u need a boat
what i go thru u wuld think i need a toast

these walls get painted grey and i
know lead is what went thru my mind
these rounds u put in me reside
in my chest
in my heart
i cover my eyes

take grasp
of your
surroundings

step to me
i mite kill him rite now
blood up in my teeth
think u need to pipe down
lights out
imma knock his lights out
lie down
body parts floating round

lifeguard way im keeping it afloat
i had a reason now theres drops in my coke
big mistake , ud think u had dropped the soap
leave my body hung up like a coat
hydroplaning
snow tires on the road
cup so full u had think i poured a moat
cup so full u had think u need a boat
what i go thru u wuld think i need a toast

cross the moat , into the castle (tiedforsilver)

the quarry (tenseofaugust)

fine fine alright ok (hero)

sewerperson - ghost 0f huron *cover* (sorrowbringer)

under ur thumb (michael harrison)

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i spent plenty nights alone
so whats another one
bb tell me if u think ur gonna be the one
atp icant tell if its jus bad luck
or if im the only reason that im this stuck
shawty mind ur words
mind ur verbs cuz that stung
how culd i lose my mind if ion have one
call me crazy
idc
cuz ur not far off
know u hate me
half the time 
n then u show luv

she only hit me when she want me 
but its like she want me all the time
i can feel her sharp nails
dig into my lower spine

im not interested 
she kill the witnesses
im trapped up in this room
that she had left me in

im a prisoner 
i cant get rid of her
she keeping me hurt
so i cant get out

oh my liver
oh my kidney hurts
oh my throat burns
i cant make a sound

spine_ (akasuki x hanoi)

lyrics


im soaked to the bone
and im stuck in my home
but i cant feel a thing
and i cant see a thing
spiderwebs up inside the corner of my room
giving me insight that my time is coming soon
and i look the other way
and i fight my fate
and i feel my face
start falling off
im in failing health
no way u culd help 
but i know what to do
in this little hell

trees start to fall
in the forest
holes in the wall
prove porous
see grey clouds 
u know its me
took like 2 months to notice me
my skin starts to merge w my mattress
take my heart
promise u can have it
exchanging my body for currency
nothing will prevent this blood i bleed

so sad
so sad
bog water bodies have comeback
so sad
so sad
i turn to rust in this dark pad

all this time
its all mine
but i cannot open my eyes
fine
i might
i dont rly want to but i might

cobwebs (flesh x caves)

lyrics

lately i been in hell
lately i broke the shell
i had seen what lies past death
and i cant take it well
i cant cry for help
i dont feel myself
i had feared for all my life so much i think id melt

are you really hearing me when i need to be saved
or is this turning out the energy waste
i think going out rn might be the optimal way
so if u find me jus pray that my soul made it safe

i am no longer the human in the mirror ;;interlude (capsctrl)

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it seems so calm to the outside
but clusters of bombs scare death itself
I don't have too much, u can have mine
unfortunately struck and I'm bleeding out
my fighting is futile, just makes it worse
next time you see me im in a hearse
I try to speak up but I'm frozen
I can't work up any courage

who
cleans up the mess
we created yesterday
we won't talk
so who can say
I wonder what u think
of everything
weve been thru to date
or been thru today

nose bloody
and broken
I'm sitting here
hoping
and god I miss the ocean
whyd u rip me open

trash fire
why'd u throw my heart in the pile
Ive lived the past few weeks in denial
but I can't
and I won't
hold on
to what is meant to die

it seems so calm to the outside
but clusters of bombs scare death itself
I don't have too much, u can have mine
unfortunately struck and I'm bleeding out
my fighting is futile, just makes it worse
next time you see me im in a hearse
I try to speak up but I'm frozen
I can't work up any courage

full out decimation (hollowprpl x tiedforsilver)

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i got blood in my throat
and i got pain in my head
im starting to wonder if im better off dead
i got tears in my eyes
still i puff out my chest
i will neverkno rest
when u find me u will catch my final breaths
i can take back the things i never meant
and i can take back the things i never said
and i stand firm on the things u know i meant

afford me my life
and take back my time
i know when u lie
but still i dont mind

take me
back to
your home
your abode

leave me there
leave me there
leave me there
leaveme there

i got blood in my throat
and i got pain in my head
im starting to wonder if im better off dead
i got tears in my eyes
still i puff out my chest
i will neverkno rest
when u find me u will catch my final breaths
i can take back the things i never meant
and i can take back the things i never said
and i stand firm on the things u know i meant

better off dead (taurs x thislandis)

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im bled to the bones
i cant atone
i cant redeem 
whats left of me
something to see
something i need
im in my bed and im holdijg my knees 
springtime
i dont want mine
19yrs in this life
but im not fine
wuld u save me
wuld u hate me
wuld u take away
what is in me

i say im dodging psychosis 
like ion already have it
i took a week away from ppl
n i already cant stand em 
i take a step back
and i look at the damage
if i see u on the other side just kno ur abandoned
take a look around the room
n see what i had a hand in
masked up
blacked out
im lookin like a bandit
his body cut up on the table
jars and lids to be canned in
this is not just an old fable
cuz the footprints are damning
i can see it all
i can feel it all
but i shake it off
n i break it off
what else could you want
why we always talk
why u treat me wrong
whyd i see it off

everytime i wake up to the sunroof
i had took to much n not enough too
slumped in the studio , midnight too
see it in my nightmares , theyre of u

a good night of sleep is one where i dont wake up at all (taurs x ryankelly)

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wall
back against the wall
shawty hit my phone
but u kno i never call
i jus wanna ball
i jus wanna boss up
i jus want it all
its always a toss up
if im boutta stall
i cant even walk
i cant even talk
out my head
pls jus end me for us all
i always hit pause
go away kick rocks
even w the pressure on my back i stand rl tall

where my cup
where my cup
i cannot function
dont hit me up
im not going to ur function
5 months
5months since i had run it
body crunched
underneath all of this gunnin

i jus touched the sky
i dont want no lies
i cant spend no time
on u if im boutta die
i jus turn my phone off
i told her that it died
she asking what im doing
i told her keep me out ur mind

hold up , turn my swag on (usbHalo)

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wuld u look at that
its the end of the world
head inside my hands
radiation, skins curl
all inside my head
i thought till it hit me
i thought till it struck me
when i think back i know it struck deep
i was foretold abt the judgement
i cant keep forward when u want me dead
i cant see a reason why i rot in my bed

why
do u
think u can
escape
efforts
we put in
were all
in vain
i hold true
my duty
i chased
when we lose
i want u
to be safe

oh no
tell me what is wrong
i hope
u can hold strong
while im gone
but i will return
just not how we were

if u want to talk
im in the walls
im in the halls
beside u
if its all for not
and all will rot
just know i will guide u

thejudgement (flesh x caves)

lyr 

tossed in the mix uh
blood up in my piss uh
feel my heart
feel my pulse
feel my ribs
i cannot win uh
she try get me to sin 
tossed in the bin
in the trash
u not my twin

goat surrounded by goats
u wuld thinkthis shit a petting zoo
talkin all that shit 
im styll doin it way better than u
im tossed in the mix
in the fray
im 10 step head of u
pull off in the whip
skrt skrt
in a bentley coupe

oh no
oh no
shawty lookin at me
idk
oh
oh
she think that im tasty
something i don’t 


have u seen the face of a dead man
i savor the taste thats on my red hands
i been feeling sickly i need more and
i cant see those future that we both planned

how come u never ask me what i want
when i die ull be the one i haunt
grab me by the throat im tryna feel u
look my in my face im tryna heal u

blood (gh0stb0y x cxrter)

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rub my hands inside my hair
ik its not fair
i been in my baggy
in my head
in my lair
flashing lights like a flare
im just way too scared
my skin splits
and tendons tear
it cannot compare

i can feel it rip
thru my muscle
thru my bones
don’t think this is it
i dont feel safe
all alone
walking in my sleep
to a body in the road
blood is in my sheets
left the head right by your toes

do u know what its like
in my head
on my own
there are sounds from the basement 
from the ppl idk
my room getting cold
and i cannot condone
the things that i had said when i was breaking down alone

your irises are dark blue
soft skin , the time bleeds
its 5am and u take a drink
i see drenched claws and sharp teeth
i know what this needs
get to it or die weak
kitchen counters light pink
sprayed red but stays clean

They Will Find My Remains In Rossville 10000 Yrs Frm Now (tiedforsilver)

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look a the rot
take in the breeze
i taken a lot
uve taken from me
time i had bought
blood staining the teeth
i cannot stop
look at the trees
one more bodies not enough
look at all the pain i had wrought
final image found of blood n snot
the weight upon my soul is building up

one night
in my eyes
is 2 days
without u
i try
and tears dry
and finally
ive found u

i just start to rust
i just start to rot
tell me what u love
gimme what u got
i promise we’ll be fine
u promise me were not
i cant check the time
cuz w u the time stops

look a the rot
take in the breeze
i taken a lot
uve taken from me
time i had bought
blood staining the teeth
i cannot stop
look at the trees
one more bodies not enough
look at all the pain i had wrought
final image found of blood n snot
the weight upon my soul is building up

Trees + Rot (tiedforsilver X Sorrowbringer)

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water
yeah
i know that u take me to the slaughter
if u ask me then ur a monster
u had left the remants in the locker
u think u culd hide it w the blockers
u need ask forgiveness from the father
u go far but i think i could go much farther
the candles out it makes it so much darker
i return unburdened by the marker

winter weather frozen my soul
up in ny and im shivering cold
rotting away in the stronghold
chairs all collapse and the food molds
dont wanna ask u what u know
look at the ice in this wood bowl
look at the damaged old ship hull
look at the damage ur brain holds

this forest leads me out to open air
its been twenty months since i had found u there
held my lungs so i culd try compare
but nothing u had tried could let ur soul repair
the salmon swimming down the riverbend
had been ur final meal, for that i make amends
and if u find urself on this plane again
i hope u let the grudges guide ur sweet revenge

water
yeah
i know that u take me to the slaughter
if u ask me then ur a monster
u had left the remants in the locker
u think u culd hide it w the blockers
u need ask forgiveness from the father
u go far but i think i could go much farther
the candles out it makes it so much darker
i return unburdened by the marker

Folk Tale As Old As Time Itself But Forgotten By Many (tiedforsilver X Jupiter)

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i felt the blade up against my arm
im not saving whats left to rot
i will build something brand new
in the spot where i saw the truth
i feel ur blood pump thru my heart
how long for my pulse to start
i wont search what was left blue
draft blowing in , door askew

take another step
to me
again
all inside my head
i see
the end
when my lungs
are torn
to shreds
will u stay
right by
my bed

i want this to last forever
i change in colder weather
to my soul i know ur tethered
tonight im leaving in a stretcher
i tried but i cant seem to help it
will we feel this way forever

why dont
i know
myself better
than u do
and i hope
when i go
ill be there
right next to u

take another step
to me
again
all inside my head
i see
the end
when my lungs
are torn
to shreds
will u stay
right by
my bed

i want this to last forever (grayskies)

cover by @savehurtsouls

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dropped to my death
run thru my head
i culd feel it all
SATISFACTION SHOWS IN MY FACE AS THE SIRENS CALL
am i dead
am i dead
bb idk
ANSWER WHAT I ASKED U
I CANT TELL IF U LIKE ME AT ALL

SAVE ME FROM MY SINS
CUZ RN THEY ARE BUILDING UP
I RIP OUT HIS THROAT SO HE CANT SCREAM
I WILL RUN AMOK
TELL ME WHAT U SEE
DOWN THE BARREL OF A LOADED GUN
JUST ANOTHER ANIMAL THAT I WILL CONQUEST IN MY HUNT

dropped to my death
run thru my head
i culd feel it all
SATISFACTION SHOWS IN MY FACE AS THE SIRENS CALL
am i dead
am i dead
bb idk
ANSWER WHAT I ASKED U
I CANT TELL IF U LIKE ME AT ALL

u wyll bleed n u wyll die (capsctrl)

literal vampire.

@4EVER-Collective / the Hallway / FTB / @everlasting-collective

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