https://soundcloud.com/scummusic
PROD. https://soundcloud.com/trxpicvl

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

I don't wanna feel anything anymore
i just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I remember everything from the time that you left my side
Wiping the tears 'no don't fuck with my eyes'
Biding my time, i wanna try 
Just to forget you but i feel alive 
Oh please take my life
Please take my life
Its the best time to die
Like now, i wanna right now 
I wanna die

I don't wanna feel anything anymore
I just wanna put my hand straight through that door
Now i got wrist bleeding on the bedroom floor
cause i dont wanna feel anything anymore

I dont wanna live in a world without you
Even after al the shit you put me through
You're still the one 
Night grow cold and I'm alone
And you don't ever pick up the phone when i call
So let me die here

Let Me Die Here w/ scum (prod. trxpicvl )

Gallows

Prod:
https://soundcloud.com/fats_e
https://soundcloud.com/keeper92

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

I can't do this (Prod. fats'e x keeper)

prod: https://soundcloud.com/ihateshinigami

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

Kiss my eyelids (prod. Shinigami)

'Bitter Blue '
coming soon...

Prod:
@93feetofsmoke

MERCH: http://lilxlotus.storenvy.com/products/18507607-lil-lotus-noose-longsleeve

And i still remember 
Your hands in my hair
And the fireplace in December
And time's forever changing
But i still feel the same for you
I just wish you felt the same way too

I don't wanna waste you time 
And i know you have a better life
But it's stuck inside my head 
And i don't wanna leave my bed

So just tell me you want me 
Tell me you need me
Tell me you'll come back
And you're never leaving

I was eighteen when you loved me
And now i know I'm twenty-something
But I'm still hoping that you'd come home
And tell me everywhere that you've gone

eighteen (prod. 93FEETOFSMOKE)

Prod:
https://soundcloud.com/nothingnowheremusic
https://soundcloud.com/seraphbeats
https://soundcloud.com/runawayghost

i still hear you like you never left your bedroom
and god i miss you but i should just fall asleep soon

i should've  been a better son
i could've  been a better one
I'm sorry 
i should've  been a better son
i could've  been a better one
I'm sorry 

We're the misery we make 
and every worthless breath i take
gets me closer to the day i die
 and they can bury me with you
and i wish you could've stayed 
and i wish you had the strength
but theres nothing that can bring you back 
or take away the pain

i should've  been a better son
i could've  been a better one
I'm sorry, I'm sorry

Golden Boy (prod. nothing,nowhere x Seraph x Runawayghost)

lyrics

and im obsessed, with being a mess
but when youre upset the pains easy to forget
i get im not the best, but i do my part
just know ill never rest till theres designer on your chest
pull a stack out the closet, one that i cant deposit
drop a bean in the lean man fuck being cautious
fuck being cautious
fuck being

ya ya fuck being down, and fuck being dumb
i always love what i lost, why do i hate what ive become
and im so beat down, by the shit that you sent me
im sorry i cant help ive never felt this empty
now youre stressed out cause i dont care what my rent be
while im at vv droppin 20s on fendi
and you dont need me didnt say it i guessed it
well my heart bleeds cause youre the one im obsessed with

and im obsessed, with being a mess
but when youre upset the pains easy to forget
i get im not the best, but i do my part
just know ill never rest till theres designer on your 
pull a stack out the closet, one that i cant deposit
drop a bean in the lean man fuck being cautious
fuck being cautious
fuck being

fuck being cautious
fuck being cautious
got some pills im off it baby im just being honest
knew right when i met you youre the only one i wanted
for you id do whatever baby baby thats a promise
take away the pain cause i know that theres a consent
got some killers with me ya i brought em in my pocket
i just sniffed the twisted got me blasted like a rocket
know that they fuck with me ya they love the way im rockin
and if im lookin sad, its just because i feel sad
know im fly as hell but somehow i still feel bad
when i tell you that i love you
hoping that you feel that
when i tell you that i love you
hoping that you feel that
and im obsessed baby with doing my best
its your boy lil death wont someone lay me to rest
in a year imma be poppin or dead
i said im bout to be ballin you heard me thats what i said

Untitled EP

Precautions are for the Weak & Living w/poloralphmacchio (feat. SMRTDEATH) (prod. haruhi)

BODYBAG EP(Prod. Nedarb)

Ft:
https://soundcloud.com/coldhart
https://twitter.com/Coldh4rt
https://www.instagram.com/coldhart_/

Prod:
https://soundcloud.com/nedarbnagrom
twitter.com/NEDARBNAGROM
www.instagram.com/nedarbnagrom/

Art: 
roelun.co
twitter.com/roelun
www.instagram.com/roelun/

Bodybag Ft. Coldhart (Prod. nedarb)

I took you back to my room ,you stood in front of me, 
and I didn't know what to do..

Ft @lilxlotus

I Lost My Virginity In A Psychiatric Hospital Ft.LIL LOTUS  (prod. Lonnell Suave)

VIDEO: youtu.be/RWo_yQr_8bA?a

BODYBAG EP(Prod. Nedarb)

Prod:
https://twitter.com/NEDARBNAGROM
https://www.instagram.com/nedarbnagrom/

Art: 
http://roelun.co
https://twitter.com/roelun
https://www.instagram.com/roelun/

Lyrics:
I'm just tryna get to u
Shits been hard 
But I'm making moves 
Well I'm trying
I'm trying 

And I just hope u understand
All the pain in my back 
And blisters on my hands 
It's all u
Now you're screaming 
At the top of your lungs
I don't need u

Ask me what's my problem
Baby come outside 
Pulling on my hand like everything's alright 
Messing with my 
Something's just not right 
I don't wanna go back 
Baby u should know that 

Bitch don't hit my line
Do this every night 
Phone on 2% 
Like ya i swear that shit gone die
I've been getting money 
pretty baby what u like 
I've been getiin money 
pretty baby what u like

At The Top Of Your Lungs (Prod. Nedarb) *VIDEO IN DESCRIPTION *

Lotus killed it , check out his music <3
https://m.soundcloud.com/lilxlotus/sets

'We may never meet again , but we'll never forget eachother' 

Artwork by @Evanxflow
Mixed and mastered by Ronnie Scocozza

@yungscuffonline - Getting Worse ft. Lil Lotus (Prod. Zippy)

so long, goodbye (ft. Lil Lotus)

"All My Little Scars" 
 Nov. 2 <33333333
-------------------------------X3-----------
Prod: https://soundcloud.com/4evrgone
https://twitter.com/4evrgon3

dead to me <3 (prod. 4evr)

https://youtu.be/nBKyxR9hZi0
art by matt davis @evanxflow 
this is a song about lowering your standards because you feel alone. 
quotes are from a movie called Harold and Maude .
idk i was on some sam smith shit on this one .
vocals recorded mixed and mastered by tristen whitehead

@yungscuffonline - Love You Spitefully (Prod. Lederrick & Holt Stairs)

PROD. https://soundcloud.com/prod5head
Video: https://lillotus.ffm.to/nevergetaway

Never Get Away

one take: nevermore

nothing,nowhere. ig story snippet #5 (real)

too scared to fly

prod. @cxldblxxd
swingsets ep out now

spotify

let the rain in (prod. cxld blxxd)

Thanks so much for all the support over the past 3 years <3 i love you all

We'll Be Okay w/𝖙 𝖊 𝖊 𝖓 𝖕 𝖗 𝖊 𝖌 𝖓 𝖆 𝖓 𝖈 𝖞

produced by ciel @cielx
mixed and mastered by lunafreya @notluna
cover art by riley carr

thank you for listening

LYRICS:
dependence got grip on me 
so beat down i cant think right
baby you know you can leave
dont let me hold down your life

why is it so hard
to stay away?
need to keep your space
wish we had time to waste

i dont want you to leave
i dont know why i believed
you would stick around
for someone like me

our time is running out
lets take a different route
with the windows down
and our head in the clouds

i locked the fucking door
laying on the floor
our pictures scattered around
cant take it anymore

i know i cant make you stay
wish i could change our fate
shouldve known by now
that it would end this way

i didnt know how to say goodbye
(say goodbyeee)
endless scrolling just to get you off my mind
(off my miind)

i dont wanna let you go
even though youre leaving tomorrow
can we spend this last night together?
you make hours feel like forever

i didnt want you to leave
i dont know why i believed
you would stick around
for someone like me

our time has run out, glad
we took a different route
with the windows down
and our head in the clouds

i locked the fucking door
laying on the floor
our pictures scattered around
cant take it anymore

i know i cant make you stay
wish i could change our fate
shouldve known by now
it had to end this way

emo

batchzor