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can you tell me where im going baby
pretty sure that i been going crazy
i been living life like its a fucking daydream
yeah
its a fucking daydream
i feel so numb
you abuse me with your love
that shit got me so fucked up
i only feel okay on drugs

you dont wanna love me trust me 
im hooked on codependency 
baby you gotta stay away from me 
im crazy 
nobody is saving me im waiting 
for an exit to the next bitch 
text quick 
got me feeling fucking restless
im a dead bitch 
got me screaming fuck it 
ending the discussion 
used to feel in love 
but now you got me feeling nothing

what the fuck
i hate you
this aint love
cant change you
i cant but
ima be fine uh ima be good
im poppin my xans and smoking backwoods
i should
be fine
i dont need you in my life
you dont make me feel alive
i just wanna feel alright
 but i think i might fucking die

daydrream w/ ifeelsosmall [prod lil buscuit]

you don’t know a thing about about me
i don’t either though
i’m off way  too many xannies i been talkin slow
i feel dead
wont you please just let me rest
i’m stressed
fuck
i can be whatever you want
on whatever i just popped
call me baby
call me crazy
we’ll just wait and see

wont you set me free
i’m lost
i hate that i cannot stop
give me pills bitch i’m gun pop
on god
i got problems baby
wont you come and save me
i’m so sick of fucking waiting
for you 
i just can’t wait all night boo
ill give you my number
for you to come through
for you to come over
find shit to do
yeah
i think i died im sorry

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idiedsrry w/ ifeelsosmall [prod. saint mike]

Temple Of Her -Darrwhen

art by emotionalbuu @emotionalbuu
twitter.com/emotionalbuu

Production and guitar is me on this one

You just wanna get up in my face
Give me space, throw your dignity away
When you chase, you take
So much away from me
You make it hard to sleep

I'm tired
Too tired to act like I like you
Anyway, who likes getting lied to
No hate, it's just that I tried to
Think of something to say
But nothing really comes to mind
Tryna focus on a paycheck
Hit me up that's fine
But I'm spinnin like a tape deck
Read between the lines
and the story starts to make sense
I don't have time, I don't really have time for you

All I got for you is resentment, I'm venting
All you want from me is attention, you're tempting
Yeah I'm condescending but you just keep investing
Thought that this was over but I guess it's never ending
Once upon a time we cared about each other
It makes me shutter
How much pain you made me suffer
Now I'm doin fine, I had time to recover
You said you hate me so don't ask around for my number
Cause I won't call you back

I'm tired
Too tired to act like I like you
Anyway, who likes getting lied to
No hate, it's just that I tried to
Think of something to say
But nothing really comes to mind
Tryna focus on a paycheck
Hit me up that's fine
But I'm spinnin like a tape deck
Read between the lines
and the story starts to make sense
I don't have time, I don't really have time for you

I won't call you back
I'd rather die than talk to you

I Don't Have Time for You

DEATHWISH

too cold for a blanket to save me
so i froze to death while i waited
i feel the ice grow inside of me
on my tongue i can actually taste it

i know that nobody can save me
so don’t try, your time would be wasted
i feel my memories fading
hate my life, and sometimes i wanna take it
don’t know if i’ll make it to twenty
not alive, and i can’t find my placement
take drugs in such large quantities
for this pain, but i still can’t erase it

i think i’ll drown in the memories
i hate my life and i’m fine with it ending
broken inside and there’s no way to mend me
i’m a lost cause. there’s no point in pretending

i fell in love with a sadist
she left me with scars and i fucking hate it
her name is the drugs and she’s just like an angel
but her wings fell off and she ain’t got no halo 

i wake up everyday
and i wish that i didn’t
those visions were vivid
i wish i could stay asleep
cuz you were in my dreams

i do not know what to say
you made me feel different
like actually living 
but now that you’ve gone away
you’re only in my dreams

i know that nobody can save me
so don’t try, your time would be wasted
i feel my memories fading
hate my life, and sometimes i wanna take it
don’t know if i’ll make it to twenty
not alive, and i can’t find my placement
take drugs in such large quantities
for this pain, but i still can’t erase it

glaciers

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@benedixhion - glaciers [prod. misery]

lyrics:

i feel like i'm dying
i'm tired of crying
the pain inside's violent
but my screams are silent
i know that you hate me
why's everyone play me
i'm so used to failing
rejection don't phase me

hit a blunt in the back of the bus
'cause it's freezing as fuck
and i'm in love with drugs
i hate that i'm never enough
so you fell out of love
and that shit really sucks

it's sunny outside of my window
i lie in my sins though
and make sure the blinds closed
i hate that i always feel alone
have no place to call home
i'm better off solo

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my screams are silent (prod. tothegood)

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SCREAM

One of my first songs that was really popular and I've decided to remix and remaster it. Hope you'll enjoy <3

Producer: https://soundcloud.com/buddhachieff

lyrics:



bottle is my only friend
couldn't remember
thought i was just defending myself

nobody tried to wake me up
i was sleepwalking
did trust them but it was all a trap

girl you left me hanging
my being is a trading
chip for you
so here i am drowning my pain in you

my momma said they were no friends
didn't believe her
and got caught up into this shit again

i have attracted you
you've sticked with me
so you could just make me look like a fool

did not sleep since this moment
because of you
you broke me down
and laughed at me with all of your friends

i have woken up again
after suicide attempt
please just leave me all alone
i won't be fine
With no friends

all i asked you was just go
pack your shit and find new home
point your fingers all you want
im already dead
with no friends

took me a moment to build myself
work up the courage
and i have fallen from this ruined stairs

i might have just hurt myself
my blood's escaping
making swirls, a landscape
in the bathroom sink

girl you've left me bleeding
my suffering is just a
game for you
so i hope that i was worth your time

my family was warning me
i blew them off
it seems that god has put a curse on me

i am lonely but this is my fate
there is just silence
don't wanna to see you in my current state

did not sleep since that moment
i have just stood
you've put me down
and then i finally have met the death

i have woken up again
after suicide attempt
please just leave me all alone
i won't be fine
With no friends

all i asked you was just go
pack your shit and find new home
point your fingers all you want
im already dead
with no friends

STREAM

Crying feat. yung doza [prod. gothurted]

iron+giant [prod. shinjin]

prod. vaegud X sketchmyname

why am i screamin out ur name
why do i love the taste of your pain
why cant i, just let u run away
why do i hold on, while u blow away

why do i love the taste of ur pain

i dont understand how you burried me alone
n i still want u back, like a dog n his bone
u were so cold that a storm done rose
but when the snow burns, atleast i feel the runny nose

why am i screamin out ur name
why do i love the taste of your pain
why cant i, just let u run away
why do i hold on, while u blow away

i dont understand how you burried me alone
n i still want u back, like a dog n his bone
u were so cold that a storm done rose
but when the snow burns, atleast i feel the runny nose

why am i screamin out ur name
why do i love the taste of your pain
why cant i, just let u run away
why do i hold on, while u blow away

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masochist

soldier freestyle

feels like love but i know it isn’t
i’m so damn numb who’m i kidding
i hate life i wish that i didn’t
i’m poppin percs just to fix it
but i know that i’ll never fit in
an outlier to the human race
i’m a lost soul and i’m drifting
i wish that i could just be erased
i hate the me that i have become
i’m just a fiend and i need more drugs
off a thirty i’m so fucked up
i’m running out i best hit the plug
i took a journey with no way back ay
i got money i’m chasing so ima make that ay
she jus pass me a swisher so ima face that ay
if you ain’t talkin benjis then just get outta my face
please let me lie here
i wanna die here
i’m so sick of this life
i wanna give into my fears

pain in my head guess i’m broken
i’m already dead they don’t notice

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its2much [prod. zach sutton]

prod: @caustyk

I can't talk to anyone, anyone its so cold

Lyrics:
Ive been up real late
Thinking bout mistakes
Fingers through your hair
But i know you dont care

Why am i so broken on the inside
Years go by
No time to cry
Bottle up these feelings so finite
Tension high, anxious and my chest tight


I died when i realized that nothings ever changed
Always on the edge, every week its the same
And im so insane
I know its not healthy but i think i love the pain
I hate feeling empty, so theres liquor in my veins

She the one i want, but the one i cant save
Pictures that i cropped, shawty your my cocaine
i feel overclocked, i can feel my heart race


I dont like this
Overwhelmed and tired of it
I feel like im losing everyone
Everyone thats close

Since the time skip
More burdens that i cant fix
And i cant talk to anyone
Anyone its so cold 

Ive been up real late
Thinking bout mistakes
Fingers through your hair
But i know you dont care

Why am i so broken on the inside
Years go by
No time to cry
Bottle up these feelings so finite
Tension high, anxious and my chest tight

I thought i died last night 
Ashes fall its like
Everytime im in a dream
I can see it slowly bleed

I cant let go 
But i might break my bones
I wish i could know
But this my only road


Crashing down with my potion
Losing feeling in my body like its stolen 
So why you down, tell me why u feelin hopeless 
So much shit in life left me feelin so broken
x2

she's the one i want, but the one i can't save (prod. caustyk)

yuh
oh whoa
i don’t really know what
to do
i jus wanna go back
to you
i hate that you’re really gone
can’t take being alone

yuh
i know
you aint really wanna hold me close
you just couldn’t wait to let me go
oh
so let me go
i’m turning to the tabs and the shrooms
i can see the energy in this room
i’ll leave from this vicinity to the moon
but the tears keep falling for you

what’s next
i ain’t really wanna another ex
can we just talk you saw my texts
please don’t leave me here on read 
i’m begging
for you to come save me
the simulations breaking
everybody here is faking
nobody gives a damn
i need you
you don’t need me
everything in life is fleeting
you say you’ll always be there
but i know one day you’ll leave me 
popped off
i jus wanna pull up in a
droptop
so i gotta keep on grinding no i
cant stop
everyday is a reminder
that my soul is gone
im so fucking lost

im falling for you
ion even care if you knew 
gotta cut the past off
start new
baby just back off
were through
baby just say u aint have time for me
but u do with your friends i know ur not busy
now u wonder why i always act all pissy
i know ur doing shit and i know u dont miss me
i dont see us
falling in love
you took whats mine
now i am stuck

letmeGO ft. heylog [thatboineco]

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@benedixhion - glaciers [prod. misery]

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