butterfly [w/skylin and xona]

a fake scene awakens
curvin my bad decisions
might fall back tonight
all the paths i’ve takin 
n i keep regressing
my regrets in this

u make me delusional
f*ck u for losin hope
loose love it was conditional
used me like medicinal

i got caught up in the way that we talk
moved too fast then we swerved hit a wall
brake fast finish last
leading me along
always gettin high 
why’d u leave me at a low?
i can fix u up
let me in take it slow
fight me outside
back it up when we’re alone
u f*ck my head up like a prozac
empty like a bottle no signal like i’m blocked in

u make me delusional
f*ck you for losin hope
loose love it was conditional
used me like medicinal

consider i take the past away
or i rewash all that pain away
can’t take it back instead replay
every detail of those memories made,
we got swept up tryna force this
love n loss just part of the process
built up mountains of remorses
split us up n now we’re corpses to us,
we let the outside take us
hard to bring back 
what was had after lost trust
still look for u in the real world
were we just lust?
that we called love?

(i gotta yell here? f*ck)
u make me delusional
f*ck you for losin hope
loose love it was conditional
used me like medicinal
u make me delusional
f*ck this make me risk it all
loose love thinking you ripped me off
too high off your counter love

medicinal

https://soundcloud.com/notdiscxrdia
Produced by - https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCMYc-0MUEW0mMTcamazb0Zw
Edited by - https://linktr.ee/JialaJi

No threats W/ discxrdia (p.L1GHT)

like we used to (siem spark)

so erase all the toxic delusions
raise your hand if you feel useless
and when you play with my head i was clueless
over-medicate till we're numb and stupid

every little thing gonna tear me down
every little thing if it could it went south
every little thing gonna tear me down
when i start to sink just let me drown

the ceiling's only so much higher
i could never rest when you're holding me down
the feeling isn't getting lighter
you're my best and there is no doubt

and my hearts still beating x2

drøwn remastered (prod. dead yami)

prod. by me

lyrics:

cigarettes for fun
got me kinda fucked
never had a choice
and i feel so fake

tyrna die young
im always on the run
never take advice
it feels too lame

sold my body to the things that fucked me up
told myself i'll never be like this oh god
couple lil shots and i think im done 
told myself i'll never be like this oh god

i gave my body away for a better life
for a better time
i threw my life away for a better time
but take a look at my 


bloodbath
~
b-bloodbath 


always having fun now
never ever shut down
never learned for life
i think i might just drop out 

always run around now
never ever think loud
never had the guts to be like this
you know me?

always run away
never solved my problems
cigarettes all the same
cause i know they kill me

never liked the taste of life
imma make it okay
never liked the taste of time
imma make it decay

sold my body to the things that fucked me up
told myself i'll never be like this oh god
couple lil shots and i think im done 
told myself i'll never be like this oh god

i gave my body away for a better life
for a better time
i threw my life away for a better time
but take a look at my 


bloodbath
~
b-bloodbath 

bath

feel my world just decay as i'm growing up . . .

huge shoutout to @byekento for carrying tf outta this song, u one of my best friends bro ilysm <33

>lyrics<
i been through too much
tryna do too much
feel my world just decay as im growing up
sprials swirling away; brain is blowing up
tryna hurl all my pain; i been throwing up

i just been too fucked up to remember
the times i gave soul back up for the devil
i take a couple puffs; im not more than a vessel
im thinkin way too much; i'll just go fuckin mental

i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them 
i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them

and i been tryna find my way back
if you really love me 
why the fuck ain’t you just say that 
i know im still caught up in my head 
i can’t escape yet chase a paycheck 
still alive but im looking for my fucking grave damn 

and i know that its still gon be the fucking same 
i know i won’t ever change
i know i’m the bad guy 
so i stay inside my lane
fuck no i ain’t reaching out
but i still wish they heard me now 
i know that i let ‘em down

its all my fault so i stay alone 
never had a place to go 
never had a place like home
always somewhere dosing off
i could never let it show
nothing but a sacrifice 
know its all inside my mind 
all this time to figure me out

i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them 
i just wanna be me again
chemicals that im breathing in
blowing problems out through the smoke
just an inhale and exhale
im nothing more than a joke
stab my heart; that shits impaled
my words stuck in my throat
trying so hard to get them

all plats

impaled w/ byekento [prod. dercept x jolst]

@1darza @ninewaters <33
luv makin music with my friends fr ily guys

--lyrics--
fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite

hoping someone gets them off of me
im running for my life
want the peace the lord has offered me
im tryna catch a vibe
dont want attention, i dont want too many friends
forgot to mention, i cut off too many threads

hard for me to function, hard to feel alive
talkin all that tough shit, whyd i even try
i would run my mouth when i shoulda stayed quiet
i would run my mouth when i shoulda stayed quiet, ohhh

fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite

bitch im on this perc and ecstacy im out my mind
fuck 12 i aint doing time
you can see the pain when you lookin in my eyes
waking up high, thought i died last night

my bitch put the coke in her pussy
you aint doin shit to me boy you just a pussy
pullin up with rick on me, got your bitch lookin
flexin all that cash, now he sad cuz i took it

im on demon time, yeah
fees in my line, yeah
i dont needa die, im already dead
pull up to your spot, we gon paint it red
i need all the percocets, i need all the meds, yeah

fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite
fucked up yet alive
i got money; that's on my mind
just to keep those thoughts away
they gon fuck me up til i die
i got nothing left to hide
up to luck; how i survived
in a room that's full of serpents
and i hope they never bite

it's the worst day
sometimes i will wonder why i did this in the first place
i would get antagonized and treated in the worst ways
i just want an answer; on my own im always searching
THERE'S TOO MANY PEOPLE IN MY WAY

alive w/ darza [prod. ninewaters]

@b_murph
p. yung spoiler
https://hyperfollow.com/stfu

lyrics:
(intro)

(bitch i'm too fucked up)
(byekento, haha)
(bitch i'm too fucked up)

Its 2 am you call me up to tell me i'm a bad guy
And I know you tell you're friends 
Every time I pass by
Spent the night thinkin' 'bout that time
And all I know is I don't wanna do this when I'm

(hook)

Wasted, bitch i'm too fucked up 
Imma pest, Imma prick
Imma shut the fuck up 
All my friends cut me off 
I don't think I was enough 
It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah 

They say, that I'm too far gone 
Took a shot to the head
Do you think that was enough? 
On my last dying breath do you think I give a fuck?  
It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah 

(verse)

(bitch i'm too fucked up)
(It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah)
(woah-oh-woah) 
(It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah)

After all this damn time you'd think I'd get my head right
Sorry baby I’m still out here telling all these lies
You still questioning my motives baby let me live my life
Uh, I promise you that I ain’t stepping outta line
Faded at the back of the club
You’re calling me oh my god, could you shut the fuck up
Uh, and I think that im over your love
The same way im over vodka when I empty my cup
I been chilling in the back living my best life
And you still coming over tryna ruin my night
Tell me whats the reason why you stuck in my mind
Cause im just out here drinking alcohol until I feel alright

(hook)

Wasted, bitch i'm too fucked up 
Imma pest, Imma prick
Imma shut the fuck up 
All my friends cut me off 
I don't think I was enough 
It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah 

They say, that I'm too far gone 
Took a shot to the head
Do you think that was enough? 
On my last dying breath do you think I give a fuck?  
It's happening, I know that it's happening, woah

stfu w/ b murph

@heylog @oc 

// geist
say you’ll change
words are worthless
baby you’re a fake
and i’m not for it
snakes stay in the lake
so go join them
don’t talk to me
i’m not your friend
darling

can’t stand to hate myself
need to fix my health
so i put the bottle down
and hit the gym instead
you gave it all for wealth
how do you face yourself?
you’re so caught up in your media
it’s so unwell

i don’t want to see your face
i swear show up and you will die.
put that bitch back in her place
can’t tell her ego from her pride
love to talk about your problems
but your life is such a lie
you’re not fooling anybody
swear to god i meant goodbye

// heylog
i was not afraid to tell her that she was being delusional
cause all her little friends just encourage her to be a hoe
well it's not hard to find someone who isn't modest
and with that i feel my brain slowly rotting
don't know why you gotta constantly talk over me
i used to let that go, now i say shut up when i speak
it's like you never have respect for anything i say
you try to lead me on, i can't be weak
i can't be weak

stfu w/ b murph

byekento

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